第 102 节
作者:恐龙王      更新:2021-02-21 15:32      字数:9322
  pride … that feeling which the world agrees to call so noble。  Oh;
  how mean a thing is pride! never before did I see all the meanness
  of what is called pride!'
  'But how wilt thou live; friend;' said Peter; 'dost thou not intend
  to eat?'  'When I went out last night;' said I; 'I laid in a
  provision。'  'Thou hast laid in a provision!' said Peter; 'pray let
  us see it。  Really; friend;' said he; after I had produced it;
  'thou must drive a thriving trade; here are provisions enough to
  last three people for several days。  Here are butter and eggs; here
  is tea; here is sugar; and there is a flitch。  I hope thou wilt let
  us partake of some of thy fare。'  'I should be very happy if you
  would;' said I。  'Doubt not but we shall;' said Peter; 'Winifred
  shall have some of thy flitch cooked for dinner。  In the meantime;
  sit down; young man; and breakfast at our expense … we will dine at
  thine。'
  On the evening of that day; Peter and myself sat alone beneath the
  oak。  We fell into conversation; Peter was at first melancholy; but
  he soon became more cheerful; fluent; and entertaining。  I spoke
  but little; but I observed that sometimes what I said surprised the
  good Methodist。  We had been silent some time。  At length; lifting
  up my eyes to the broad and leafy canopy of the trees; I said;
  having nothing better to remark; 'What a noble tree!  I wonder if
  the fairies ever dance beneath it。'
  'Fairies!' said Peter; 'fairies! how came you; young man; to know
  anything about the fair family?'
  'I am an Englishman;' said I; 'and of course know something about
  fairies; England was once a famous place for them。'
  'Was once; I grant you;' said Peter; 'but is so no longer。  I have
  travelled for years about England; and never heard them mentioned
  before; the belief in them has died away; and even their name seems
  to be forgotten。  If you had said you were a Welshman; I should not
  have been surprised。  The Welsh have much to say of the Tylwyth
  Teg; or fair family; and many believe in them。'
  'And do you believe in them?' said I。
  'I scarcely know what to say。  Wise and good men have been of
  opinion that they are nothing but devils; who; under the form of
  pretty and amiable spirits; would fain allure poor human beings; I
  see nothing irrational in the supposition。'
  'Do you believe in devils; then?'
  'Do I believe in devils; young man?' said Peter; and his frame was
  shaken as if by convulsions。  'If I do not believe in devils; why
  am I here at the present moment?'
  'You know best;' said I; 'but I don't believe that fairies are
  devils; and I don't wish to hear them insulted。  What learned men
  have said they are devils?'
  'Many have said it; young man; and; amongst others; Master Ellis
  Wyn; in that wonderful book of his; the BARDD CWSG。'
  'The BARDD CWSG;' said I; 'what kind of book is that?  I have never
  heard of that book before。'
  'Heard of it before; I suppose not; how should you have heard of it
  before?  By the bye; can you read?'
  'Very tolerably;' said I; 'so there are fairies in this book。  What
  do you call it … the BARDD CWSG?'
  'Yes; the BARDD CWSG。  You pronounce Welsh very fairly; have you
  ever been in Wales?'
  'Never;' said I。
  'Not been in Wales; then; of course; you don't understand Welsh;
  but we were talking of the BARDD CWSG … yes; there are fairies in
  the BARDD CWSG; … the author of it; Master Ellis Wyn; was carried
  away in his sleep by them over mountains and valleys; rivers and
  great waters; incurring mighty perils at their hands; till he was
  rescued from them by an angel of the Most High; who subsequently
  showed him many wonderful things。'
  'I beg your pardon;' said I; 'but what were those wonderful
  things?'
  'I see; young man;' said Peter; smiling; 'that you are not without
  curiosity; but I can easily pardon any one for being curious about
  the wonders contained in the book of Master Ellis Wyn。  The angel
  showed him the course of this world; its pomps and vanities; its
  cruelty and its pride; its crimes and deceits。  On another
  occasion; the angel showed him Death in his nether palace;
  surrounded by his grisly ministers; and by those who are
  continually falling victims to his power。  And; on a third
  occasion; the state of the condemned in their place of everlasting
  torment。'
  'But this was all in his sleep;' said I; 'was it not?'
  'Yes;' said Peter; 'in his sleep; and on that account the book is
  called GWELEDIGAETHAU Y BARDD CWSG; or; VISIONS OF THE SLEEPING
  BARD。'
  'I do not care for wonders which occur in sleep;' said I。  'I
  prefer real ones; and perhaps; notwithstanding what he says; the
  man had no visions at all … they are probably of his own
  invention。'
  'They are substantially true; young man;' said Peter; 'like the
  dreams of Bunyan; they are founded on three tremendous facts; Sin;
  Death; and Hell; and like his they have done incalculable good; at
  least in my own country; in the language of which they are written。
  Many a guilty conscience has the BARDD CWSG aroused with its
  dreadful sights; its strong sighs; its puffs of smoke from the pit;
  and its showers of sparks from the mouth of the yet lower gulf of …
  Unknown … were it not for the BARDD CWSG perhaps I might not be
  here。'
  'I would sooner hear your own tale;' said I; 'than all the visions
  of the BARDD CWSG。'
  Peter shook; bent his form nearly double; and covered his face with
  his hands。  I sat still and motionless; with my eyes fixed upon
  him。  Presently Winifred descended the hill; and joined us。  'What
  is the matter?' said she; looking at her husband; who still
  remained in the posture I have described。  He made no answer;
  whereupon; laying her hand gently on his shoulder; she said; in the
  peculiar soft and tender tone which I had heard her use on a former
  occasion; 'Take comfort; Peter; what has happened now to afflict
  thee?'  Peter removed his hand from his face。  'The old pain; the
  old pain;' said he; 'I was talking with this young man; and he
  would fain know what brought me here; he would fain hear my tale;
  Winifred … my sin:  O pechod Ysprydd Glan!  O pechod Ysprydd Glan!'
  and the poor man fell into a more fearful agony than before。  Tears
  trickled down Winifred's face; I saw them trickling by the
  moonlight; as she gazed upon the writhing form of her afflicted
  husband。  I arose from my seat。  'I am the cause of all this;' said
  I; 'by my folly and imprudence; and it is thus I have returned your
  kindness and hospitality; I will depart from you and wander my
  way。'  I was retiring; but Peter sprang up and detained me。  'Go
  not;' said he; 'you were not in fault; if there be any fault in the
  case it was mine; if I suffer; I am but paying the penalty of my
  own iniquity'; he then paused; and appeared to be considering:  at
  length he said; 'Many things which thou hast seen and heard
  connected with me require explanation; thou wishest to know my
  tale; I will tell it thee; but not now; not to…night; I am too much
  shaken。'
  Two evenings later; when we were again seated beneath the oak;
  Peter took the hand of his wife in his own; and then; in tones
  broken and almost inarticulate; commenced telling me his tale … the
  tale of the Pechod Ysprydd Glan。
  CHAPTER LXXV
  Taking a cup … Getting to heaven … After breakfast …  Wooden
  gallery … Mechanical habit … Reserved and gloomy … Last words … A
  long time … From the clouds … Ray of hope … Momentary chill …
  Pleasing anticipation。
  'I WAS born in the heart of North Wales; the son of a respectable
  farmer; and am the youngest of seven brothers。
  'My father was a member of the Church of England; and was what is
  generally called a serious man。  He went to church regularly; and
  read the Bible every Sunday evening; in his moments of leisure he
  was fond of holding religious discourse both with his family and
  his neighbours。
  'One autumn afternoon; on a week day; my father sat with one of his
  neighbours taking a cup of ale by the oak table in our stone
  kitchen。  I sat near them; and listened to their discourse。  I was
  at that time seven years of age。  They were talking of religious
  matters。  〃It is a hard matter to get to heaven;〃 said my father。
  〃Exceedingly so;〃 said the other。  〃However; I don't despond; none
  need despair of getting to heaven; save those who have committed
  the sin against the Holy Ghost。〃
  '〃Ah!〃 said my father; 〃thank God I never committed that … how
  awful must be the state of a person who has committed the sin
  against the Holy Ghost。  I can scarcely think of it without my hair
  standing on end〃; and then my father and his friend began talking
  of the nature of the sin against the Holy Ghost; and I heard them
  say what it was; as I sat with greedy ears listening to their
  discours