第 63 节
作者:恐龙王      更新:2021-02-21 15:31      字数:9322
  which I had undertaken; the compiling of the Newgate lives; I had
  also made some progress in translating the publisher's philosophy
  into German。  But about this time I began to see very clearly that
  it was impossible that our connection should prove of long
  duration; yet; in the event of my leaving the big man; what other
  resource had I … another publisher?  But what had I to offer?
  There were my ballads; my Ab Gwilym; but then I thought of Taggart
  and his snuff; his pinch of snuff。  However; I determined to see
  what could be done; so I took my ballads under my arm; and went to
  various publishers; some took snuff; others did not; but none took
  my ballads or Ab Gwilym; they would not even look at them。  One
  asked me if I had anything else … he was a snuff…taker … I said
  yes; and going home; returned with my translation of the German
  novel; to which I have before alluded。  After keeping it for a
  fortnight; he returned it to me on my visiting him; and; taking a
  pinch of snuff; told me it would not do。  There were marks of snuff
  on the outside of the manuscript; which was a roll of paper bound
  with red tape; but there were no marks of snuff on the interior of
  the manuscript; from which I concluded that he had never opened it。
  I had often heard of one Glorious John; who lived at the western
  end of the town; on consulting Taggart; he told me that it was
  possible that Glorious John would publish my ballads and Ab Gwilym;
  that is; said he; taking a pinch of snuff; provided you can see
  him; so I went to the house where Glorious John resided; and a
  glorious house it was; but I could not see Glorious John … I called
  a dozen times; but I never could see Glorious John。  Twenty years
  after; by the greatest chance in the world; I saw Glorious John;
  and sure enough Glorious John published my books; but they were
  different books from the first; I never offered my ballads or Ab
  Gwilym to Glorious John。  Glorious John was no snuff…taker。  He
  asked me to dinner; and treated me with superb Rhenish wine。
  Glorious John is now gone to his rest; but I … what was I going to
  say? … the world will never forget Glorious John。
  So I returned to my last resource for the time then being … to the
  publisher; persevering doggedly in my labour。  One day; on visiting
  the publisher; I found him stamping with fury upon certain
  fragments of paper。  'Sir;' said he; 'you know nothing of German; I
  have shown your translation of the first chapter of my Philosophy
  to several Germans:  it is utterly unintelligible to them。'  'Did
  they see the Philosophy?' I replied。  'They did; sir; but they did
  not profess to understand English。'  'No more do I;'  I replied;
  'if that Philosophy be English。'
  The publisher was furious … I was silent。  For want of a pinch of
  snuff; I had recourse to something which is no bad substitute for a
  pinch of snuff; to those who can't take it; silent contempt; at
  first it made the publisher more furious; as perhaps a pinch of
  snuff would; it; however; eventually calmed him; and he ordered me
  back to my occupations; in other words; the compilation。  To be
  brief; the compilation was completed; I got paid in the usual
  manner; and forthwith left him。
  He was a clever man; but what a difference in clever men!
  CHAPTER XLIV
  The old spot … A long history … Thou shalt not steal … No harm …
  Education … Necessity … Foam on your lip … Apples and pears … What
  will you read? … Metaphor … The fur cap … I don't know him。
  IT was past midwinter; and I sat on London Bridge; in company with
  the old apple…woman:  she had just returned to the other side of
  the bridge; to her place in the booth where I had originally found
  her。  This she had done after frequent conversations with me; 'she
  liked the old place best;' she said; which she would never have
  left but for the terror which she experienced when the boys ran
  away with her book。  So I sat with her at the old spot; one
  afternoon past midwinter; reading the book; of which I had by this
  time come to the last pages。  I had observed that the old woman for
  some time past had shown much less anxiety about the book than she
  had been in the habit of doing。  I was; however; not quite prepared
  for her offering to make me a present of it; which she did that
  afternoon; when; having finished it; I returned it to her; with
  many thanks for the pleasure and instruction I had derived from its
  perusal。  'You may keep it; dear;' said the old woman; with a sigh;
  'you may carry it to your lodging; and keep it for your own。'
  Looking at the old woman with surprise; I exclaimed; 'Is it
  possible that you are willing to part with the book which has been
  your source of comfort so long?'
  Whereupon the old woman entered into a long history; from which I
  gathered that the book had become distasteful to her; she hardly
  ever opened it of late; she said; or if she did; it was only to
  shut it again; also; that other things which she had been fond of;
  though of a widely different kind; were now distasteful to her。
  Porter and beef…steaks were no longer grateful to her palate; her
  present diet chiefly consisting of tea; and bread and butter。
  'Ah;' said I; 'you have been ill; and when people are ill; they
  seldom like the things which give them pleasure when they are in
  health。'  I learned; moreover; that she slept little at night; and
  had all kinds of strange thoughts; that as she lay awake many
  things connected with her youth; which she had quite forgotten;
  came into her mind。  There were certain words that came into her
  mind the night before the last; which were continually humming in
  her ears:  I found that the words were; 'Thou shalt not steal。'
  On inquiring where she had first heard these words; I learned that
  she had read them at school; in a book called the primer; to this
  school she had been sent by her mother; who was a poor widow; and
  followed the trade of apple…selling in the very spot where her
  daughter followed it now。  It seems that the mother was a very good
  kind of woman; but quite ignorant of letters; the benefit of which
  she was willing to procure for her child; and at the school the
  daughter learned to read; and subsequently experienced the pleasure
  and benefit of letters; in being able to read the book which she
  found in an obscure closet of her mother's house; and which had
  been her principal companion and comfort for many years of her
  life。
  But; as I have said before; she was now dissatisfied with the book;
  and with most other things in which she had taken pleasure; she
  dwelt much on the words; 'Thou shalt not steal'; she had never
  stolen things herself; but then she had bought things which other
  people had stolen; and which she knew had been stolen; and her dear
  son had been a thief; which he perhaps would not have been but for
  the example which she set him in buying things from characters; as
  she called them; who associated with her。
  On inquiring how she had become acquainted with these characters; I
  learned that times had gone hard with her; that she had married;
  but her husband had died after a long sickness; which had reduced
  them to great distress; that her fruit trade was not a profitable
  one; and that she had bought and sold things which had been stolen
  to support herself and her son。  That for a long time she supposed
  there was no harm in doing so; as her book was full of entertaining
  tales of stealing; but she now thought that the book was a bad
  book; and that learning to read was a bad thing; her mother had
  never been able to read; but had died in peace; though poor。
  So here was a woman who attributed the vices and follies of her
  life to being able to read; her mother; she said; who could not
  read; lived respectably; and died in peace; and what was the
  essential difference between the mother and daughter; save that the
  latter could read?  But for her literature she might in all
  probability have lived respectably and honestly; like her mother;
  and might eventually have died in peace; which at present she could
  scarcely hope to do。  Education had failed to produce any good in
  this poor woman; on the contrary; there could be little doubt that
  she had been injured by it。  Then was education a bad thing?
  Rousseau was of opinion that it was; but Rousseau was a Frenchman;
  at least wrote in French; and I cared not the snap of my fingers
  for Rousseau。  But education has certainly been of benefit in some
  instances; well; what did that prove; but that partiality existed
  in the management of the affairs of the world … if education was a
  benefit to some; why was it not a benefit to others?  Could some
  avoid abusing it; any more than others could avoid turning it to a
  profitable account?  I did not see how they could; this poor simple
  woman found a b