第 45 节
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恐龙王 更新:2021-02-21 15:31 字数:9322
recovery。 His sufferings were great; yet he invariably bore them
with unshaken fortitude。 There was one thing remarkable connected
with his illness; notwithstanding its severity; it never confined
him to his bed。 He was wont to sit in his little parlour; in his
easy…chair; dressed in a faded regimental coat; his dog at his
feet; who would occasionally lift his head from the hearth…rug on
which he lay; and look his master wistfully in the face。 And thus
my father spent the greater part of his time; sometimes in prayer;
sometimes in meditation; and sometimes in reading the Scriptures。
I frequently sat with him; though; as I entertained a great awe for
my father; I used to feel rather ill at ease; when; as sometimes
happened; I found myself alone with him。
'I wish to ask you a few questions;' said he to me one day; after
my mother had left the room。
'I will answer anything you may please to ask me; my dear father。'
'What have you been about lately?'
'I have been occupied as usual; attending at the office at the
appointed hours。'
'And what do you there?'
'Whatever I am ordered。'
'And nothing else?'
'Oh yes! sometimes I read a book。'
'Connected with your profession?'
'Not always; I have been lately reading Armenian … '
'What's that?'
'The language of a people whose country is a region on the other
side of Asia Minor。'
'Well!'
'A region abounding with mountains。'
'Well!'
'Amongst which is Mount Ararat。'
'Well!'
'Upon which; as the Bible informs us; the ark rested。'
'Well!'
'It is the language of the people of those regions … '
'So you told me。'
'And I have been reading the Bible in their language。'
'Well!'
'Or rather; I should say; in the ancient language of these people;
from which I am told the modem Armenian differs considerably。'
'Well!'
'As much as the Italian from the Latin。'
'Well!'
'So I have been reading the Bible in ancient Armenian。'
'You told me so before。'
'I found it a highly difficult language。'
'Yes。'
'Differing widely from the languages in general with which I am
acquainted。'
'Yes。'
'Exhibiting; however; some features in common with them。'
'Yes。'
'And sometimes agreeing remarkably in words with a certain strange
wild speech with which I became acquainted … '
'Irish?'
'No; father; not Irish … with which I became acquainted by the
greatest chance in the world。'
'Yes。'
'But of which I need say nothing farther at present; and which I
should not have mentioned but for that fact。'
'Well!'
'Which I consider remarkable。'
'Yes。'
'The Armenian is copious。'
'Is it?'
'With an alphabet of thirty…nine letters; but it is harsh and
guttural。'
'Yes。'
'Like the language of most mountainous people … the Armenians call
it Haik。'
'Do they?'
'And themselves; Haik; also; they are a remarkable people; and;
though their original habitation is the Mountain of Ararat; they
are to be found; like the Jews; all over the world。'
'Well!'
'Well; father; that's all I can tell you about the Haiks; or
Armenians。'
'And what does it all amount to?'
'Very little; father; indeed; there is very little known about the
Armenians; their early history; in particular; is involved in
considerable mystery。'
'And; if you knew all that it was possible to know about them; to
what would it amount? to what earthly purpose could you turn it?
have you acquired any knowledge of your profession?'
'Very little; father。'
'Very little! Have you acquired all in your power?'
'I can't say that I have; father。'
'And yet it was your duty to have done so。 But I see how it is;
you have shamefully misused your opportunities; you are like one
who; sent into the field to labour; passes his time in flinging
stones at the birds of heaven。'
'I would scorn to fling a stone at a bird; father。'
'You know what I mean; and all too well; and this attempt to evade
deserved reproof by feigned simplicity is quite in character with
your general behaviour。 I have ever observed about you a want of
frankness; which has distressed me; you never speak of what you are
about; your hopes; or your projects; but cover yourself with
mystery。 I never knew till the present moment that you were
acquainted with Armenian。'
'Because you never asked me; father; there's nothing to conceal in
the matter … I will tell you in a moment how I came to learn
Armenian。 A lady whom I met at one of Mrs。 …'s parties took a
fancy to me; and has done me the honour to allow me to go and see
her sometimes。 She is the widow of a rich clergyman; and on her
husband's death came to this place to live; bringing her husband's
library with her: I soon found my way to it; and examined every
book。 Her husband must have been a learned man; for amongst much
Greek and Hebrew I found several volumes in Armenian; or relating
to the language。'
'And why did you not tell me of this before?'
'Because you never questioned me; but; I repeat; there is nothing
to conceal in the matter。 The lady took a fancy to me; and; being
fond of the arts; drew my portrait; she said the expression of my
countenance put her in mind of Alfieri's Saul。'
'And do you still visit her?'
'No; she soon grew tired of me; and told people that she found me
very stupid; she gave me the Armenian books; however。'
'Saul;' said my father; musingly; 'Saul。 I am afraid she was only
too right there; he disobeyed the commands of his master; and
brought down on his head the vengeance of Heaven … he became a
maniac; prophesied; and flung weapons about him。'
'He was; indeed; an awful character … I hope I shan't turn out like
him。'
'God forbid!' said my father; solemnly; 'but in many respects you
are headstrong and disobedient like him。 I placed you in a
profession; and besought you to make yourself master of it by
giving it your undivided attention。 This; however; you did not do;
you know nothing of it; but tell me that you are acquainted with
Armenian; but what I dislike most is your want of candour … you are
my son; but I know little of your real history; you may know fifty
things for what I am aware: you may know how to shoe a horse for
what I am aware。'
'Not only to shoe a horse; father; but to make horse…shoes。'
'Perhaps so;' said my father; 'and it only serves to prove what I
was just saying; that I know little about you。'
'But you easily may; my dear father; I will tell you anything that
you may wish to know … shall I inform you how I learnt to make
horse…shoes?'
'No;' said my father; 'as you kept it a secret so long; it may as
well continue so still。 Had you been a frank; open…hearted boy;
like one I could name; you would have told me all about it of your
own accord。 But I now wish to ask you a serious question … what do
you propose to do?'
'To do; father?'
'Yes! the time for which you were articled to your profession will
soon be expired; and I shall be no more。'
'Do not talk so; my dear father; I have no doubt that you will soon
be better。'
'Do not flatter yourself; I feel that my days are numbered; I am
soon going to my rest; and I have need of rest; for I am weary。
There; there; don't weep! Tears will help me as little as they
will you; you have not yet answered my question。 Tell me what you
intend to do?'
'I really do not know what I shall do。'
'The military pension which I enjoy will cease with my life。 The
property which I shall leave behind me will be barely sufficient
for the maintenance of your mother respectably。 I again ask you
what you intend to do。 Do you think you can support yourself by
your Armenian or your other acquirements?'
'Alas! I think little at all about it; but I suppose I must push
into the world; and make a good fight; as becomes the son of him
who fought Big Ben; if I can't succeed; and am driven to the worst;
it is but dying … '
'What do you mean by dying?'
'Leaving the world; my loss would scarcely be felt。 I have never
held life in much value; and every one has a right to dispose as he
thinks best of that which is his own。'
'Ah! now I understand you; and well I know how and where you
imbibed that horrible doctrine; and many similar ones which I have
heard from your mouth; but I wish not to reproach you … I view in
your conduct a punishment for my own sins; and I bow to the will of
God。 Few and evil have been my days upon the earth; little have I
done to which I can look back with satisfaction。 It is true I have
served my king fifty years; and I have fought with … Heaven forgive
me; what was I about to sa