第 45 节
作者:恐龙王      更新:2021-02-21 15:31      字数:9322
  recovery。  His sufferings were great; yet he invariably bore them
  with unshaken fortitude。  There was one thing remarkable connected
  with his illness; notwithstanding its severity; it never confined
  him to his bed。  He was wont to sit in his little parlour; in his
  easy…chair; dressed in a faded regimental coat; his dog at his
  feet; who would occasionally lift his head from the hearth…rug on
  which he lay; and look his master wistfully in the face。  And thus
  my father spent the greater part of his time; sometimes in prayer;
  sometimes in meditation; and sometimes in reading the Scriptures。
  I frequently sat with him; though; as I entertained a great awe for
  my father; I used to feel rather ill at ease; when; as sometimes
  happened; I found myself alone with him。
  'I wish to ask you a few questions;' said he to me one day; after
  my mother had left the room。
  'I will answer anything you may please to ask me; my dear father。'
  'What have you been about lately?'
  'I have been occupied as usual; attending at the office at the
  appointed hours。'
  'And what do you there?'
  'Whatever I am ordered。'
  'And nothing else?'
  'Oh yes! sometimes I read a book。'
  'Connected with your profession?'
  'Not always; I have been lately reading Armenian … '
  'What's that?'
  'The language of a people whose country is a region on the other
  side of Asia Minor。'
  'Well!'
  'A region abounding with mountains。'
  'Well!'
  'Amongst which is Mount Ararat。'
  'Well!'
  'Upon which; as the Bible informs us; the ark rested。'
  'Well!'
  'It is the language of the people of those regions … '
  'So you told me。'
  'And I have been reading the Bible in their language。'
  'Well!'
  'Or rather; I should say; in the ancient language of these people;
  from which I am told the modem Armenian differs considerably。'
  'Well!'
  'As much as the Italian from the Latin。'
  'Well!'
  'So I have been reading the Bible in ancient Armenian。'
  'You told me so before。'
  'I found it a highly difficult language。'
  'Yes。'
  'Differing widely from the languages in general with which I am
  acquainted。'
  'Yes。'
  'Exhibiting; however; some features in common with them。'
  'Yes。'
  'And sometimes agreeing remarkably in words with a certain strange
  wild speech with which I became acquainted … '
  'Irish?'
  'No; father; not Irish … with which I became acquainted by the
  greatest chance in the world。'
  'Yes。'
  'But of which I need say nothing farther at present; and which I
  should not have mentioned but for that fact。'
  'Well!'
  'Which I consider remarkable。'
  'Yes。'
  'The Armenian is copious。'
  'Is it?'
  'With an alphabet of thirty…nine letters; but it is harsh and
  guttural。'
  'Yes。'
  'Like the language of most mountainous people … the Armenians call
  it Haik。'
  'Do they?'
  'And themselves; Haik; also; they are a remarkable people; and;
  though their original habitation is the Mountain of Ararat; they
  are to be found; like the Jews; all over the world。'
  'Well!'
  'Well; father; that's all I can tell you about the Haiks; or
  Armenians。'
  'And what does it all amount to?'
  'Very little; father; indeed; there is very little known about the
  Armenians; their early history; in particular; is involved in
  considerable mystery。'
  'And; if you knew all that it was possible to know about them; to
  what would it amount? to what earthly purpose could you turn it?
  have you acquired any knowledge of your profession?'
  'Very little; father。'
  'Very little!  Have you acquired all in your power?'
  'I can't say that I have; father。'
  'And yet it was your duty to have done so。  But I see how it is;
  you have shamefully misused your opportunities; you are like one
  who; sent into the field to labour; passes his time in flinging
  stones at the birds of heaven。'
  'I would scorn to fling a stone at a bird; father。'
  'You know what I mean; and all too well; and this attempt to evade
  deserved reproof by feigned simplicity is quite in character with
  your general behaviour。  I have ever observed about you a want of
  frankness; which has distressed me; you never speak of what you are
  about; your hopes; or your projects; but cover yourself with
  mystery。  I never knew till the present moment that you were
  acquainted with Armenian。'
  'Because you never asked me; father; there's nothing to conceal in
  the matter … I will tell you in a moment how I came to learn
  Armenian。  A lady whom I met at one of Mrs。 …'s parties took a
  fancy to me; and has done me the honour to allow me to go and see
  her sometimes。  She is the widow of a rich clergyman; and on her
  husband's death came to this place to live; bringing her husband's
  library with her:  I soon found my way to it; and examined every
  book。  Her husband must have been a learned man; for amongst much
  Greek and Hebrew I found several volumes in Armenian; or relating
  to the language。'
  'And why did you not tell me of this before?'
  'Because you never questioned me; but; I repeat; there is nothing
  to conceal in the matter。  The lady took a fancy to me; and; being
  fond of the arts; drew my portrait; she said the expression of my
  countenance put her in mind of Alfieri's Saul。'
  'And do you still visit her?'
  'No; she soon grew tired of me; and told people that she found me
  very stupid; she gave me the Armenian books; however。'
  'Saul;' said my father; musingly; 'Saul。  I am afraid she was only
  too right there; he disobeyed the commands of his master; and
  brought down on his head the vengeance of Heaven … he became a
  maniac; prophesied; and flung weapons about him。'
  'He was; indeed; an awful character … I hope I shan't turn out like
  him。'
  'God forbid!' said my father; solemnly; 'but in many respects you
  are headstrong and disobedient like him。  I placed you in a
  profession; and besought you to make yourself master of it by
  giving it your undivided attention。  This; however; you did not do;
  you know nothing of it; but tell me that you are acquainted with
  Armenian; but what I dislike most is your want of candour … you are
  my son; but I know little of your real history; you may know fifty
  things for what I am aware:  you may know how to shoe a horse for
  what I am aware。'
  'Not only to shoe a horse; father; but to make horse…shoes。'
  'Perhaps so;' said my father; 'and it only serves to prove what I
  was just saying; that I know little about you。'
  'But you easily may; my dear father; I will tell you anything that
  you may wish to know … shall I inform you how I learnt to make
  horse…shoes?'
  'No;' said my father; 'as you kept it a secret so long; it may as
  well continue so still。  Had you been a frank; open…hearted boy;
  like one I could name; you would have told me all about it of your
  own accord。  But I now wish to ask you a serious question … what do
  you propose to do?'
  'To do; father?'
  'Yes! the time for which you were articled to your profession will
  soon be expired; and I shall be no more。'
  'Do not talk so; my dear father; I have no doubt that you will soon
  be better。'
  'Do not flatter yourself; I feel that my days are numbered; I am
  soon going to my rest; and I have need of rest; for I am weary。
  There; there; don't weep!  Tears will help me as little as they
  will you; you have not yet answered my question。  Tell me what you
  intend to do?'
  'I really do not know what I shall do。'
  'The military pension which I enjoy will cease with my life。  The
  property which I shall leave behind me will be barely sufficient
  for the maintenance of your mother respectably。  I again ask you
  what you intend to do。  Do you think you can support yourself by
  your Armenian or your other acquirements?'
  'Alas!  I think little at all about it; but I suppose I must push
  into the world; and make a good fight; as becomes the son of him
  who fought Big Ben; if I can't succeed; and am driven to the worst;
  it is but dying … '
  'What do you mean by dying?'
  'Leaving the world; my loss would scarcely be felt。  I have never
  held life in much value; and every one has a right to dispose as he
  thinks best of that which is his own。'
  'Ah! now I understand you; and well I know how and where you
  imbibed that horrible doctrine; and many similar ones which I have
  heard from your mouth; but I wish not to reproach you … I view in
  your conduct a punishment for my own sins; and I bow to the will of
  God。  Few and evil have been my days upon the earth; little have I
  done to which I can look back with satisfaction。  It is true I have
  served my king fifty years; and I have fought with … Heaven forgive
  me; what was I about to sa