第 25 节
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恐龙王 更新:2021-02-21 15:30 字数:9322
chief wish now was to spend the remainder of his days in quiet and
respectability; his means; it is true; were not very ample;
fortunate it was that his desires corresponded with them; with a
small fortune of his own; and with his half…pay as a royal soldier;
he had no fears for himself or for his faithful partner and
helpmate; but then his children! how was he to provide for them?
how launch them upon the wide ocean of the world? This was;
perhaps; the only thought which gave him uneasiness; and I believe
that many an old retired officer at that time; and under similar
circumstances; experienced similar anxiety; had the war continued;
their children would have been; of course; provided for in the
army; but peace now reigned; and the military career was closed to
all save the scions of the aristocracy; or those who were in some
degree connected with that privileged order; an advantage which few
of these old officers could boast of; they had slight influence
with the great; who gave themselves very little trouble either
about them or their families。
'I have been writing to the Duke;' said my father one day to my
excellent mother; after we had been at home somewhat better than a
year。 'I have been writing to the Duke of York about a commission
for that eldest boy of ours。 He; however; affords me no hopes; he
says that his list is crammed with names; and that the greater
number of the candidates have better claims than my son。'
'I do not see how that can be;' said my mother。
'Nor do I;' replied my father。 'I see the sons of bankers and
merchants gazetted every month; and I do not see what claims they
have to urge; unless they be golden ones。 However; I have not
served my king fifty years to turn grumbler at this time of life。
I suppose that the people at the head of affairs know what is most
proper and convenient; perhaps when the lad sees how difficult;
nay; how impossible it is that he should enter the army; he will
turn his mind to some other profession; I wish he may!'
'I think he has already;' said my mother; 'you see how fond he is
of the arts; of drawing and painting; and; as far as I can judge;
what he has already done is very respectable; his mind seems quite
turned that way; and I heard him say the other day that he would
sooner be a Michael Angelo than a general officer。 But you are
always talking of him; what do you think of doing with the other
child?'
'What; indeed!' said my father; 'that is a consideration which
gives me no little uneasiness。 I am afraid it will be much more
difficult to settle him in life than his brother。 What is he
fitted for; even were it in my power to provide for him? God help
the child! I bear him no ill will; on the contrary; all love and
affection; but I cannot shut my eyes; there is something so strange
about him! How he behaved in Ireland! I sent him to school to
learn Greek; and he picked up Irish!'
'And Greek as well;' said my mother。 'I heard him say the other
day that he could read St。 John in the original tongue。'
'You will find excuses for him; I know;' said my father。 'You tell
me I am always talking of my first…born; I might retort by saying
you are always thinking of the other: but it is the way of women
always to side with the second…born。 There's what's her name in
the Bible; by whose wiles the old blind man was induced to give to
his second son the blessing which was the birthright of the other。
I wish I had been in his place! I should not have been so easily
deceived! no disguise would ever have caused me to mistake an
impostor for my first…born。 Though I must say for this boy that he
is nothing like Jacob; he is neither smooth nor sleek; and; though
my second…born; is already taller and larger than his brother。'
'Just so;' said my mother; 'his brother would make a far better
Jacob than he。'
'I will hear nothing against my first…born;' said my father; 'even
in the way of insinuation: he is my joy and pride; the very image
of myself in my youthful days; long before I fought Big Ben; though
perhaps not quite so tall or strong built。 As for the other; God
bless the child! I love him; I'm sure; but I must be blind not to
see the difference between him and his brother。 Why; he has
neither my hair nor my eyes; and then his countenance! why; 'tis
absolutely swarthy; God forgive me! I had almost said like that of
a gypsy; but I have nothing to say against that; the boy is not to
be blamed for the colour of his face; nor for his hair and eyes;
but; then; his ways and manners! … I confess I do not like them;
and that they give me no little uneasiness … I know that he kept
very strange company when he was in Ireland; people of evil report;
of whom terrible things were said … horse…witches and the like。 I
questioned him once or twice upon the matter; and even threatened
him; but it was of no use; he put on a look as if he did not
understand me; a regular Irish look; just such a one as those
rascals assume when they wish to appear all innocence and
simplicity; and they full of malice and deceit all the time。 I
don't like them; they are no friends to old England; or its old
king; God bless him! They are not good subjects; and never were;
always in league with foreign enemies。 When I was in the
Coldstream; long before the Revolution; I used to hear enough about
the Irish brigades kept by the French kings; to be a thorn in the
side of the English whenever opportunity served。 Old Sergeant
Meredith once told me that in the time of the Pretender there were
always; in London alone; a dozen of fellows connected with these
brigades; with the view of seducing the king's soldiers from their
allegiance; and persuading them to desert to France to join the
honest Irish; as they were called。 One of these traitors once
accosted him and proposed the matter to him; offering handfuls of
gold if he could induce any of his comrades to go over。 Meredith
appeared to consent; but secretly gave information to his colonel;
the fellow was seized; and certain traitorous papers found upon
him; he was hanged before Newgate; and died exulting in his
treason。 His name was Michael Nowlan。 That ever son of mine
should have been intimate with the Papist Irish; and have learnt
their language!'
'But he thinks of other things now;' said my mother。
'Other languages; you mean;' said my father。 'It is strange that
he has conceived such a zest for the study of languages; no sooner
did he come home than he persuaded me to send him to that old
priest to learn French and Italian; and; if I remember right; you
abetted him; but; as I said before; it is in the nature of women
invariably to take the part of the second…born。 Well; there is no
harm in learning French and Italian; perhaps much good in his case;
as they may drive the other tongue out of his head。 Irish! why; he
might go to the university but for that; but how would he look
when; on being examined with respect to his attainments; it was
discovered that he understood Irish? How did you learn it? they
would ask him; how did you become acquainted with the language of
Papists and rebels? The boy would be sent away in disgrace。'
'Be under no apprehension; I have no doubt that he has long since
forgotten it。'
'I am glad to hear it;' said my father; 'for; between ourselves; I
love the poor child; ay; quite as well as my first…born。 I trust
they will do well; and that God will be their shield and guide; I
have no doubt He will; for I have read something in the Bible to
that effect。 What is that text about the young ravens being fed?'
'I know a better than that;' said my mother; 'one of David's own
words; 〃I have been young and now am grown old; yet never have I
seen the righteous man forsaken; or his seed begging their bread。〃'
I have heard talk of the pleasures of idleness; yet it is my own
firm belief that no one ever yet took pleasure in it。 Mere
idleness is the most disagreeable state of existence; and both mind
and body are continually making efforts to escape from it。 It has
been said that idleness is the parent of mischief; which is very
true; but mischief itself is merely an attempt to escape from the
dreary vacuum of idleness。 There are many tasks and occupations
which a man is unwilling to perform; but let no one think that he
is therefore in love with idleness; he turns to something which is
more agreeable to his inclination; and doubtless more suited to his
nature; but he is not in love with idleness。 A boy may play the
truant from school because he dislikes books and study; but; depend
upon it; he intends doing something the while … to go fishing; or
perhaps to take a walk; and who knows but that from such excursions
both his mind and body may deriv