第 25 节
作者:恐龙王      更新:2021-02-21 15:30      字数:9322
  chief wish now was to spend the remainder of his days in quiet and
  respectability; his means; it is true; were not very ample;
  fortunate it was that his desires corresponded with them; with a
  small fortune of his own; and with his half…pay as a royal soldier;
  he had no fears for himself or for his faithful partner and
  helpmate; but then his children! how was he to provide for them?
  how launch them upon the wide ocean of the world?  This was;
  perhaps; the only thought which gave him uneasiness; and I believe
  that many an old retired officer at that time; and under similar
  circumstances; experienced similar anxiety; had the war continued;
  their children would have been; of course; provided for in the
  army; but peace now reigned; and the military career was closed to
  all save the scions of the aristocracy; or those who were in some
  degree connected with that privileged order; an advantage which few
  of these old officers could boast of; they had slight influence
  with the great; who gave themselves very little trouble either
  about them or their families。
  'I have been writing to the Duke;' said my father one day to my
  excellent mother; after we had been at home somewhat better than a
  year。  'I have been writing to the Duke of York about a commission
  for that eldest boy of ours。  He; however; affords me no hopes; he
  says that his list is crammed with names; and that the greater
  number of the candidates have better claims than my son。'
  'I do not see how that can be;' said my mother。
  'Nor do I;' replied my father。  'I see the sons of bankers and
  merchants gazetted every month; and I do not see what claims they
  have to urge; unless they be golden ones。  However; I have not
  served my king fifty years to turn grumbler at this time of life。
  I suppose that the people at the head of affairs know what is most
  proper and convenient; perhaps when the lad sees how difficult;
  nay; how impossible it is that he should enter the army; he will
  turn his mind to some other profession; I wish he may!'
  'I think he has already;' said my mother; 'you see how fond he is
  of the arts; of drawing and painting; and; as far as I can judge;
  what he has already done is very respectable; his mind seems quite
  turned that way; and I heard him say the other day that he would
  sooner be a Michael Angelo than a general officer。  But you are
  always talking of him; what do you think of doing with the other
  child?'
  'What; indeed!' said my father; 'that is a consideration which
  gives me no little uneasiness。  I am afraid it will be much more
  difficult to settle him in life than his brother。  What is he
  fitted for; even were it in my power to provide for him?  God help
  the child!  I bear him no ill will; on the contrary; all love and
  affection; but I cannot shut my eyes; there is something so strange
  about him!  How he behaved in Ireland!  I sent him to school to
  learn Greek; and he picked up Irish!'
  'And Greek as well;' said my mother。  'I heard him say the other
  day that he could read St。 John in the original tongue。'
  'You will find excuses for him; I know;' said my father。  'You tell
  me I am always talking of my first…born; I might retort by saying
  you are always thinking of the other:  but it is the way of women
  always to side with the second…born。  There's what's her name in
  the Bible; by whose wiles the old blind man was induced to give to
  his second son the blessing which was the birthright of the other。
  I wish I had been in his place!  I should not have been so easily
  deceived! no disguise would ever have caused me to mistake an
  impostor for my first…born。  Though I must say for this boy that he
  is nothing like Jacob; he is neither smooth nor sleek; and; though
  my second…born; is already taller and larger than his brother。'
  'Just so;' said my mother; 'his brother would make a far better
  Jacob than he。'
  'I will hear nothing against my first…born;' said my father; 'even
  in the way of insinuation:  he is my joy and pride; the very image
  of myself in my youthful days; long before I fought Big Ben; though
  perhaps not quite so tall or strong built。  As for the other; God
  bless the child!  I love him; I'm sure; but I must be blind not to
  see the difference between him and his brother。  Why; he has
  neither my hair nor my eyes; and then his countenance! why; 'tis
  absolutely swarthy; God forgive me!  I had almost said like that of
  a gypsy; but I have nothing to say against that; the boy is not to
  be blamed for the colour of his face; nor for his hair and eyes;
  but; then; his ways and manners! … I confess I do not like them;
  and that they give me no little uneasiness … I know that he kept
  very strange company when he was in Ireland; people of evil report;
  of whom terrible things were said … horse…witches and the like。  I
  questioned him once or twice upon the matter; and even threatened
  him; but it was of no use; he put on a look as if he did not
  understand me; a regular Irish look; just such a one as those
  rascals assume when they wish to appear all innocence and
  simplicity; and they full of malice and deceit all the time。  I
  don't like them; they are no friends to old England; or its old
  king; God bless him!  They are not good subjects; and never were;
  always in league with foreign enemies。  When I was in the
  Coldstream; long before the Revolution; I used to hear enough about
  the Irish brigades kept by the French kings; to be a thorn in the
  side of the English whenever opportunity served。  Old Sergeant
  Meredith once told me that in the time of the Pretender there were
  always; in London alone; a dozen of fellows connected with these
  brigades; with the view of seducing the king's soldiers from their
  allegiance; and persuading them to desert to France to join the
  honest Irish; as they were called。  One of these traitors once
  accosted him and proposed the matter to him; offering handfuls of
  gold if he could induce any of his comrades to go over。  Meredith
  appeared to consent; but secretly gave information to his colonel;
  the fellow was seized; and certain traitorous papers found upon
  him; he was hanged before Newgate; and died exulting in his
  treason。  His name was Michael Nowlan。  That ever son of mine
  should have been intimate with the Papist Irish; and have learnt
  their language!'
  'But he thinks of other things now;' said my mother。
  'Other languages; you mean;' said my father。  'It is strange that
  he has conceived such a zest for the study of languages; no sooner
  did he come home than he persuaded me to send him to that old
  priest to learn French and Italian; and; if I remember right; you
  abetted him; but; as I said before; it is in the nature of women
  invariably to take the part of the second…born。  Well; there is no
  harm in learning French and Italian; perhaps much good in his case;
  as they may drive the other tongue out of his head。  Irish! why; he
  might go to the university but for that; but how would he look
  when; on being examined with respect to his attainments; it was
  discovered that he understood Irish?  How did you learn it? they
  would ask him; how did you become acquainted with the language of
  Papists and rebels?  The boy would be sent away in disgrace。'
  'Be under no apprehension; I have no doubt that he has long since
  forgotten it。'
  'I am glad to hear it;' said my father; 'for; between ourselves; I
  love the poor child; ay; quite as well as my first…born。  I trust
  they will do well; and that God will be their shield and guide; I
  have no doubt He will; for I have read something in the Bible to
  that effect。  What is that text about the young ravens being fed?'
  'I know a better than that;' said my mother; 'one of David's own
  words; 〃I have been young and now am grown old; yet never have I
  seen the righteous man forsaken; or his seed begging their bread。〃'
  I have heard talk of the pleasures of idleness; yet it is my own
  firm belief that no one ever yet took pleasure in it。  Mere
  idleness is the most disagreeable state of existence; and both mind
  and body are continually making efforts to escape from it。  It has
  been said that idleness is the parent of mischief; which is very
  true; but mischief itself is merely an attempt to escape from the
  dreary vacuum of idleness。  There are many tasks and occupations
  which a man is unwilling to perform; but let no one think that he
  is therefore in love with idleness; he turns to something which is
  more agreeable to his inclination; and doubtless more suited to his
  nature; but he is not in love with idleness。  A boy may play the
  truant from school because he dislikes books and study; but; depend
  upon it; he intends doing something the while … to go fishing; or
  perhaps to take a walk; and who knows but that from such excursions
  both his mind and body may deriv