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作者:津夏      更新:2021-02-21 14:27      字数:9322
  nothing in the cabinet; and time was on the wing。 But the closeness of the
  occupation   sobered   him。   With   the   tail   of   his   eye   he   saw   the   dooreven
  glanced      at  it  from   time   to   time   directly;   like   a  besieged     commander
  pleased to verify the   good estate of his defences。  But in   truth he   was   at
  peace。 The rain falling in the street sounded natural and pleasant。 Presently;
  on   the   other   side;   the   notes   of   a   piano   were   wakened   to   the   music  of   a
  hymn; and the voices of many children took up the air and words。 How
  stately; how comfortable was the melody! How fresh the youthful voices!
  Markheim gave ear to it smilingly; as he sorted out the keys; and his mind
  was   thronged   with   answerable   ideas   and   images:   church…going   children;
  and the pealing of the high organ; children afield; bathers by the brookside;
  ramblers   on   the   brambly   common;   kite…flyers   in   the   windy   and   cloud…
  navigated   sky;   and   then;   at   another   cadence   of   the   hymn;   back   again   to
  church;   and   the   somnolence   of   summer   Sundays;   and   the   high   genteel
  voice   of   the   parson   (which   he   smiled   a   little   to   recall)   and   the   painted
  Jacobean tombs; and the dim lettering of the Ten Commandments in the
  chancel。
  And as he sat thus; at once busy and absent; he was startled to his feet。
  A flash of ice; a flash of fire; a bursting gush of blood; went over him; and
  then he stood transfixed and thrilling。 A step mounted the stair slowly and
  steadily; and presently a hand was laid upon the knob; and the lock clicked;
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  and the door opened。
  Fear held Markheim in a vice。 What to expect he knew notwhether
  the dead man walking; or the official ministers of human justice; or some
  chance   witness   blindly   stumbling   in   to   consign   him   to   the   gallows。   But
  when a face was thrust into the aperture; glanced round the room; looked
  at him; nodded and smiled as if in friendly recognition; and then withdrew
  again; and the door closed behind it; his fear broke loose from his control
  in a hoarse cry。 At the sound of this the visitant returned。
  〃Did you call me?〃 he asked; pleasantly; and with that he entered the
  room and closed the door behind him。
  Markheim stood and gazed at him with all his eyes。 Perhaps there was
  a film upon his sight; but the outlines of the new comer seemed to change
  and waver like those of the idols in the wavering candle…light of the shop;
  and at times he thought he knew him; and at times he thought he bore a
  likeness to himself; and always; like a lump of living terror; there lay in
  his bosom  the  conviction that this thing   was not of the  earth   and   not of
  God。
  And yet the creature had a strange air of the commonplace; as he stood
  looking on Markheim with a smile; and when he added; 〃You are looking
  for the money; I believe?〃 it was in the tones of everyday politeness。
  Markheim made no answer。
  〃I   should   warn   you;〃   resumed   the   other;   〃that   the   maid   has   left   her
  sweetheart earlier than usual and will soon be here。 If Mr。 Markheim be
  found in this house; I need not describe to him the consequences。〃
  〃You know me?〃 cried the murderer。
  The visitor smiled。 〃You have long been a favourite of mine;〃 he said;
  〃and I have long observed and often sought to help you。〃
  〃What are you?〃 cried Markheim; 〃the devil?〃
  〃What     I  may   be;〃  returned   the  other;  〃cannot    affect  the  service   I
  propose to render you。〃
  〃It can;〃 cried Markheim; 〃it does! Be helped by you? No; never; not
  by you! You do not know me yet; thank God; you do not know me!〃
  〃I know you;〃 replied the visitant; with a sort of kind severity or rather
  firmness。 〃I know you to the soul。〃
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  〃Know   me!〃       cried   Markheim。      〃Who   can     do   so?   My   life   is  but  a
  travesty and slander on myself。 I have lived to belie my nature。 All men do;
  all men are better than this disguise that grows about and stifles them。 You
  see   each   dragged   away   by   life;   like   one   whom   bravos   have   seized   and
  muffled in   a cloak。  If   they had their own   controlif   you could   see   their
  faces; they would be altogether different; they would shine out for heroes
  and saints! I am worse than most; myself is more overlaid; my excuse is
  known to me and God。 But; had I the time; I could disclose myself。〃
  〃To me?〃 inquired the visitant。
  〃To   you   before   all;〃   returned   the   murderer。   〃I   supposed      you    were
  intelligent。   I   thoughtsince   you   existyou   would   prove   a   reader   of   the
  heart。 And yet you would propose to judge me by my acts! Think of itmy
  acts! I was born and I have lived in a land of giants; giants have dragged
  me    by   the   wrists   since   I  was   born    out  of   my   motherthe      giants   of
  circumstance。 And you would judge me by my acts! But can you not look
  within? Can you not understand that evil is hateful to me? Can you not see
  within   me   the   clear   writing   of   conscience;   never   blurred   by   any   wilful
  sophistry; although too often disregarded? Can you not read me for a thing
  that surely must be common as humanity the unwilling sinner?〃
  〃All this is very feelingly expressed;〃 was the reply; 〃but it regards me
  not。 These points of consistency are beyond my province; and I care not in
  the least by what compulsion you may have been dragged away; so as you
  are   but   carried   in   the   right   direction。   But   time   flies;   the   servant   delays;
  looking in the faces of the crowd and at the pictures on the hoardings; but
  still she keeps moving nearer; and remember; it is as if the gallows itself
  was striding towards you through the Christmas streets! Shall I help youI;
  who know all? Shall I tell you where to find the money?〃
  〃For what price?〃 asked Markheim。
  〃I offer you the service for a Christmas gift;〃 returned the other。
  Markheim could not refrain from smiling with a kind of bitter triumph。
  〃No;〃 said he; 〃I will take nothing at your hands; if I were dying of thirst;
  and   it   was   your   hand   that   put   the   pitcher   to   my   lips;   I   should   find   the
  courage to   refuse。  It   may be   credulous;  but   I will   do   nothing to   commit
  myself to evil。〃
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  〃I have no objection to a death…bed repentance;〃 observed the visitant。
  〃Because you disbelieve their efficacy!〃 Markheim cried。
  〃I do not say so;〃 returned the other; 〃but I look on these things from a
  different   side;   and   when   the   life   is   done   my   interest   falls。  The   man   has
  lived to serve me; to spread black looks under colour of religion; or to sow
  tares in the wheat…field; as you do; in a course of weak compliance with
  desire。 Now that he draws so near to his deliverance; he can add but one
  act of service: to repent; to die smiling; and thus to build up in confidence
  and hope the more timorous of my surviving followers。 I am not so hard a
  master。 Try me; accept my help。 Please yourself in life as you have done
  hitherto; please yourself more amply; spread your elbows at the board; and
  when the night begins to fall and the curtains to be drawn; I tell you; for
  your   greater   comfort;   that   you   will   find   it   even   easy   to   compound   your
  quarrel with your conscience; and to make a truckling peace with God。 I
  came   but   now   from  such   a   death…bed;   and   the   room  was   full   of   sincere
  mourners; listening to the man's last words; and when I looked into that
  face; which had been set as a flint against mercy; I found it smiling with
  hope。〃
  〃And   do   you;   then;   suppose   me   such   a   creature?〃   asked   Markheim。
  〃Do you think I have no more generous aspirations than to sin and sin and
  sin and   at   last   sneak into heaven?   My  heart   rises at   the thought。  Is   this;
  then; your experience of mankind? or is it because you find me with red
  hands that you presume such baseness? And is this crime of murder indeed
  so impious as to dry up the very springs of good?〃
  〃Murder is to me no special category;〃 replied the other。 〃All sins are
  murder; even as all life is war。 I behold your race; like starving mariners
  on a raft; plucking crusts out of the hands of famine and feeding on each
  other's lives。 I follow sins beyond the moment of t