第 4 节
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good one。 It is ill playing with him; for his sport will cause me
sorrow。 What shall I do; then? Shall I draw back I think that
this would be the act of a wise man; but I cannot tell how to set
about it。 If Love chastises and threatens in order to teach me
his lesson; ought I to disdain my master? He who despises his
master is a fool。 Needs must I store up in my mind Love's lesson
for soon can great good come of it。 But he buffets me greatly:
that sets me in alarm! True; neither blow nor wound is visible
and yet dost thou complain? Then art thou not wrong? Nay; indeed;
for he has wounded me so sore that he has winged his arrow even
to my heart; and not yet has he drawn it out again。 How then has
he struck his dart into thy body when no wound appears without?
This shalt thou tell me; I would fain know it。 In what member has
he struck thee? Through the eye。 Through the eye? And yet he has
not put out thine eye? He has done me no hurt in the eye; but he
wounds me sorely at the heart。 Now speak reason to me: how has
the dart passed through thine eye in such wise that the eye is
not wounded or bruised by it? If the dart enter through the midst
of the eye; why does my heart suffer pain in my body? Why does
not my eye also feel the pain; since it receives the first blow?
That can I well explain。 The eye has no care to understand aught
nor can it do anything in the matter in any way; but the eye is
the mirror to the heart; and through this mirror passes the fire
by which the heart is kindled; yet so that it neither wounds nor
braises it。 Then is not the heart placed in the body like the
lighted candle which is put inside the lantern? If you take the
candle out; never will any light issue thence; but as long as the
candle lasts the lantern is not dark; and the flame which shines
through neither harms nor injures it。 Likewise is it with regard
to a window: never will it be so strong and so whole but that the
ray of the sun may pass through it without hurting it in any way;
and the glass will never be so clear that one will see any better
for its brightness if another brightness does not strike upon it。
Know that it is the same with the eyes as with the glass and the
lantern; for the light penetrates into the eyes; the heart's
mirror; and the heart sees the object outside whatever it be; and
sees many various objects; some green; others dark of hue; one
crimson; the other blue; and it blames the one and praises the
other; holds the one cheap and the other precious; but many an
object shows him a fair face in the mirror when he looks at it;
which will betray him if he be not on his guard。 My mirror has
much deceived me; for in it MY heart has seen a ray by which I am
struck; which has taken shelter in me; and because of this my
heart has failed me。 I am ill…treated by my friend who deserts me
for my enemy。 Well can I accuse my mirror of treachery; for it
has sinned exceedingly against me。 I thought I had three
friends: my heart and my two eyes together; but methinks they
hate me。 Where shall I find any more a friend ; since these three
are enemies who belong to me yet kill me? My servants presume
overmuch who do all their own will and have no care of mine。 Now;
know I well of a truth from the action of those who have injured
me: that a good master's love decays through keeping bad
servants。 He who associates with a bad servant cannot fail to
lament it sooner or later; whatever come of it。
〃Now will I speak to you again of the arrow which is given in
trust to me and tell you how it is made and cut; but I fear much
that I may fail in the matter; for the carved work of it is so
magnificent that twill be no marvel if I fail。 And yet I will
apply all my diligence to say what I think of it。 The notch and
the feathers together are so close that if a man looks well at
them there is but one dividing line like a narrow parting in the
hair; but this line is so polished and straight; that without
question there is nought in the notch which can be improved。 The
feathers are of such a hue as if they were gold or gilded; but
gilding can add nothing; for the feathers; this know I well; were
brighter still than gold。 The feathers are the blonde tresses
that I saw the other day at sea。 This is the arrow that makes me
love。 God! What a priceless boon! If a man could have such a
treasure; why should he desire any other wealth all his life? For
my part; I could swear that I should desire nothing more; for
merely the feathers and the notch would I not give away in
exchange for Antioch。 And since I prize these two things so much;
who could duly appraise the value of the rest which is so fair
and lovable; and so dear and so precious; that I am desirous and
eager to behold myself mirrored again in the brow that God has
made so bright that nor mirror nor emerald nor topaz would make
any show beside it。 But of all this; he who gazes at the
brightness of the eyes has not a word to say; for to all those
who behold them they seem two glowing candles。 And who has so
glib a tongue that he could describe the fashion of the
well…shaped nose; and of the bright countenance where the rose
overlays the lily so that it eclipses something of the lily in
order the better to illuminate the face; and of the smiling
little mouth which God made such on purpose that no one should
see it and not think that it is laughing? And what of the teeth
in her mouth? One is so close to the other that it seems that
they all touch; and so that they might the better achieve this;
Nature bestowed special pains; so that whoever should see them
when the mouth opens would never dream that they were not of
ivory or silver。 So much there is to say and to recount in the
describing of each thingboth of the chin and of the earsthat
it would be no great marvel if I were to leave out something。 Of
the throat; I tell you; that in comparison with it; crystal is
but dim。 And the neck beneath her tresses is four times whiter
than ivory。 As much as is disclosed from the hem of the vest
behind; to the clasp of the opening in front; saw I of the bare
bosom uncovered; whiter; than is the new…fallen snow。 My pain
would indeed have been alleviated if I could have seen the whole
of the arrow。 Right willingly if I had known would I have said
what the tip of the arrow is like: I did not see it; and it is
not my own fault if I cannot tell the fashion of a thing that I
have not seen。 Love showed me then nought of it except the notch
and the feathers; for the arrow was put in the quiver; the quiver
is the tunic and the vest wherewith the maid was clad。 Faith!
This is the wound that kills me; this is the dart; this is the
ray with which I am so cruelly inflamed。 It is ignoble of me to
be angry。 Never for provocation or for war shall any pledge that
I must seek of love be broken。 Now let Love dispose of me as he
ought to do with what is his; for I wish it; and this is my
pleasure。 Never do I seek that this malady should leave me;
rather do I wish it to hold me thus for ever; and that from none
may health come to me if health come not from that source whence
the disease has come。〃
Great is the plaint of Alexander; but that which the damsel
utters is not a whit less。 All night she is in so great pain that
she neither sleeps nor rests。 Love has set in array within her a
battle that rages and mightily agitates her heart; and which
causes such anguish and torture that she weeps all night and
complains and tosses and starts up; so that her heart all but
stops beating。 And when she has so grieved and sobbed and moaned
and started and sighed; then she has looked in her heart to see
who and of what worth was he for whose sake Love was torturing
her。 And when she has recalled each wandering thought; then she
stretches herself and turns over; and turning; she turns to folly
all the thinking she has done。 Then she starts on another
argument and says: 〃Fool! What does it matter to me if this youth
is debonair and wise and courteous and valiant! All this is
honour and advantage to him。 And what care I for his beauty? Let
his beauty depart with himand so it will; for all I can do;
never would I wish to take away aught of it。 Take away? Nay;
truly; that do I not assuredly。 If he had the wisdom of Solomon;
and if Nature had put so much beauty in him that she could not
have put more in a human body; and if God had put in my hand the
power to destroy all; I would not seek to anger him; but
willingly if I could would I make him more wise and more
beautiful。 Faith! then; I do not hate him at all。 And am I then
on that account his lady? No; indeed; no more than I am
another's。 And wherefore do I think more of him if he does not
please me more than another? I know not: I am all bewildered; for
never did I think so much about any man living in the world。 And
if I had my wish I should see him always; never would I seek to
take my eyes off him so much the sight of him delights me。 Is
this love? Methinks it is。 Never should I have called on him so
often if I had not loved him more than another。 Yes; I love him:
let that be granted。 And shall I not have my desire? Yes;
provided that I find favour in his eyes。 This de