第 4 节
作者:悟来悟去      更新:2021-02-21 14:00      字数:9321
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  and his principles in his son。  It was a bitter disappointment;
  and he felt that he had not deserved it。
  He rose from the chair and paced the room with leaden feet。
  For the first time in his life his age was visibly upon him。
  His head was heavy and hot; and the thoughts that rolled in it
  were confused and depressing。  Could it be that he had made a
  mistake
  in the principles of his existence?  There was no argument in
  what Harold had saidit was almost childishand yet
  it had shaken the elder man more deeply than he cared to show。
  It held a silent attack which touched him more than open
  criticism。
  Suppose the end of his life were nearer than he thoughtthe end
  must come some timewhat if it were now?  Had he not
  founded his house upon a rock?  Had he not kept the Commandments?
  Was he not; 〃touching the law; blameless〃?  And beyond this;
  even if there were some faults in his characterand all men are
  sinners
  yet he surely believed in the saving doctrines of religionthe
  forgiveness
  of sins; the resurrection of the body; the life everlasting。
  Yes; that was the true source of comfort; after all。  He would
  read a bit
  in the Bible; as he did every night; and go to bed and to sleep。
  He went back to his chair at the library table。  A strange weight
  of
  weariness rested upon him; but he opened the book at a familiar
  place;
  and his eyes fell upon the verse at the bottom of the page。
  〃Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth。〃
  That had been the text of the sermon a few weeks before。
  Sleepily; heavily; he tried to fix his mind upon it and recall
  it。
  What was it that Doctor Snodgrass had said?  Ah; yesthat it was
  a mistake to pause here in reading the verse。  We must read on
  without
  a pauseLay not up treasures upon earth where moth and rust do
  corrupt
  and where thieves break through and stealthat was the true
  doctrine。
  We may have treasures upon earth; but they must not be put into
  unsafe places; but into safe places。  A most comforting doctrine!
  He had always followed it。  Moths and rust and thieves had done
  no harm
  to his investments。
  John Weightman's drooping eyes turned to the next verse;
  at the top of the second column。
  〃But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven。〃
  Now what had the Doctor said about that?  How was it to
  be understoodin what sensetreasuresin heaven?
  The book seemed to float away from him。  The light vanished。
  He wondered dimly if this could be Death; coming so suddenly; so
  quietly;
  so irresistibly。  He struggled for a moment to hold himself up;
  and then sank slowly forward upon the table。  His head rested
  upon
  his folded hands。  He slipped into the unknown。
  How long afterward conscious life returned to him he did not
  know。
  The blank might have been an hour or a century。  He knew only
  that
  omething had happened in the interval。  What is was he could not
  tell。
  He found great difficulty in catching the thread of his identity
  again。
  He felt that he was himself; but the trouble was to make his
  connections;
  to verify and place himself; to know who and where he was。
  At last it grew clear。  John Weightman was sitting on a stone;
  not far from a road in a strange land。
  The road was not a formal highway; fenced and graded。  It was
  more like
  a great travel…trace; worn by thousands of feet passing across
  the open country in the same direction。  Down in the valley;
  into which he could look; the road seemed to form itself
  gradually out of
  many minor paths; little footways coming across the meadows;
  winding tracks following along beside the streams; faintly marked
  trails
  emerging from the woodlands。  But on the hillside the threads
  were more
  firmly woven into one clear band of travel; though there were
  still
  a few dim paths joining it here and there; as if persons had been
  climbing up the hill by other ways and had turned at last to seek
  the road。
  From the edge of the hill; where John Weightman sat; he could see
  the travelers; in little groups or larger companies; gathering
  from
  time to time by the different paths; and making the ascent。
  They were all clothed in white; and the form of their garments
  was
  strange to him; it was like some old picture。  They passed him;
  group after group; talking quietly together or singing; not
  moving
  in haste; but with a certain air of eagerness and joy as if they
  were
  glad to be on their way to an appointed place。  They did not stay
  to
  speak to him; but they looked at him often and spoke to one
  another
  as they looked; and now and then one of them would smile and
  beckon him a friendly greeting; so that he felt they would like
  him
  to be with them。
  There was quite an interval between the groups; and he followed
  each of them with his eyes after it had passed; blanching the
  long ribbon of the road for a little transient space; rising and
  receding
  across the wide; billowy upland; among the rounded hillocks of
  aerial green and gold and lilac; until it came to the high
  horizon;
  and stood outlined for a moment; a tiny cloud of whiteness
  against
  the tender blue; before it vanished over the hill。
  For a long time he sat there watching and wondering。  It was
  a very different world from that in which his mansion on the
  Avenue
  was built; and it looked strange to him; but most realas real
  as
  anything he had ever seen。  Presently he felt a strong desire
  to know what country it was and where the people were going。
  He had a faint premonition of what it must be; but he wished to
  be sure。
  So he rose from the stone where he was sitting; and came down
  through
  the short grass and the lavender flowers; toward a passing group
  of people。
  One of them turned to meet him; and held out his hand。  It was an
  old man;
  under whose white beard and brows John Weightman thought he saw
  a suggestion of the face of the village doctor who had cared for
  him
  years ago; when he was a boy in the country。
  〃Welcome;〃 said the old man。  〃Will you come with us?〃
  〃Where are you going?〃
  〃To the heavenly city; to see our mansions there。〃
  〃And who are these with you?〃
  〃Strangers to me; until a little while ago; I know them better
  now。
  But you I have known for a long time; John Weightman。  Don't you
  remember
  your old doctor?〃
  〃Yes;〃 he cried〃yes; your voice has not changed at all。
  I'm glad indeed to see you; Doctor McLean; especially now。
  All this seems very strange to me; almost oppressive。
  I wonder ifbut may I go with you; do you suppose?〃
  〃Surely;〃 answered the doctor; with his familiar smile; 〃it will
  do you good。  And you also must have a mansion in the city
  waiting
  for youa fine one; tooare you not looking forward to it?〃
  〃Yes;〃 replied the other; hesitating a moment; 〃yesI believe
  it must be so; although I had not expected to see it so soon。
  But I will go with you; and we can talk by the way。〃
  The two men quickly caught up with the other people; and all went
  forward
  together along the road。  The doctor had little to tell of his
  experience;
  for it had been a plain; hard life; uneventfully spent for
  others;
  and the story of the village was very simple。  John Weightman's
  adventures
  and triumphs would have made a far richer; more imposing history;
  full of contacts with the great events and personages of the
  time。
  But somehow or other he did not care to speak much about it;
  walking on that wide heavenly moorland; under that tranquil;
  sunless arch of blue; in that free air of perfect peace; where
  the light
  was diffused without a shadow; as if the spirit of life in all
  things
  were luminous。
  There was only one person besides the doctor in that little
  company whom
  John Weightman had known beforean old bookkeeper who had spent
  his life
  over a desk; carefully keeping accountsa rusty; dull little
  man;
  patient and narrow; whose wife had been in the insane asylum for
  twenty years and whose only child was a crippled daughter; for
  whose
  comfort and happiness he had toiled and sacrificed himself
  without stint。
  It was a surprise to find him here; as care…free and joyful as
  the rest。
  The lives of others in the company were revealed in brief
  glimpses
  as they talked togethera mother; early widowed; who had kept
  her little flock of children together and labored through hard
  and heavy
  years to bring them up in purity and knowledgea Sister of
  Charity
  who had devoted herself to the nursing of poor folk who were
  being
  eaten to death by cancera schoolmaster whose heart and life
  had been poured into his quiet work of training boys for a clean
  and
  thoughtful manhooda medical missionary who had given up
  a brilliant career in science to take the charge of a hospital