第 39 节
作者:打倒一切      更新:2021-02-21 13:16      字数:9322
  uld be back into her chair; and her soul was shrinking within her body。
  ‘‘I am willing to make you a proper allowance; and to give you all proper freedom;'' he went on。  He showed his sharp white teeth in a gracious smile。  ‘‘I realize I must concede something of my old…fashioned ideas to the modern spirit。  I never thought I would; but I didn't appreciate how fond I was of you; my dear。''  He mumbled his tongue and noiselessly smacked his thin lips。  ‘‘Yes; you are worth concessions and sacrifices。''
  ‘‘I am not going back;'' said Mildred。  ‘‘Nothing you could offer me would make any difference。''  She felt suddenly calm and strong。  She stood。  ‘‘Please consider this final。''
  ‘‘But; my dear;'' said the general softly; though there was a wicked gleam behind the mask; ‘‘you forget the scandal''
  ‘‘I forget nothing;'' interrupted she。  ‘‘I shall not go back。''
  Before he could attempt further to detain her she opened the screen door and entered。  It closed on the spring and on the spring lock。
  Donald Keith; coming in from the sea…front veranda; was just in time to save her from falling。  She pushed him fiercely away and sank down on the sofa just within the pretty little drawing…room。  She said:
  ‘‘Thank you。  I didn't mean to be rude。  I was only angry with myself。  I'm getting to be one of those absurd females who blubber and keel over。''
  ‘‘You're white and limp;'' said he。  ‘‘What's the matter?''
  ‘‘General Siddall is out there。''
  ‘‘Umhe's come back; has he?'' said Keith。
  ‘‘And I am afraid of himhorribly afraid of him。''
  ‘‘In some places and circumstances he would be a dangerous proposition;'' said Keith。  ‘‘But not here in the Eastand not to you。''
  ‘‘He would do ANYTHING。  I don't know what he can do; but I am sure it will be frightfulwill destroy me。''
  ‘‘You are going with him?''
  She laughed。  ‘‘I loathe him。  I thought I left him through fear and anger。  I was mistaken。  It was loathing。  And my fear of himit's loathing; too。''
  ‘‘You mean that?'' said Keith; observing her intently。  ‘‘You wish to be rid of him?''
  ‘‘What a poor opinion you have of me;'' said she。 ‘‘Really; I don't deserve quite that。''
  ‘‘Then come with me。''
  The look of terror and shrinking returned。 ‘‘Where?  To see him?''
  ‘‘For the last time;'' said Keith。  ‘‘There'll be no scene。''
  It was the supreme test of her confidence in him。 Without hesitation; she rose; preceded him into the hall; and advanced firmly toward the screen door through which the little general could be seen。  He was standing at the top step; his back to them。  At the sound of the opening door he turned。
  ‘‘This is Mr。 Donald Keith;'' said Mildred。  ‘‘He wishes to speak to you。''
  The general bowed; Keith bent his head。  They eyed each other with the measuring glance。  Keith said in his dry; terse way:  ‘‘I asked Miss Gower to come with me because I wish her to hear what I have to say to you。''
  ‘‘You mean my wife;'' said the general with a gracious smile。
  ‘‘I mean Miss Gower;'' returned Keith。  ‘‘As you know; she is not your wife。''
  Mildred uttered a cry; but the two men continued to look each at the other; with impassive countenances。
  ‘‘Your only wife is the woman who has been in the private insane asylum of Doctor Rivers at Pueblo; Colorado; for the past eleven years。  For about twenty years before that she was in the Delavan private asylum near Denver。  You could not divorce her under the laws of Colorado。  The divorce you got in Nevada was fraudulent。''
  ‘‘That's a lie;'' said the general coldly。
  Keith went on; as if he had not heard:  ‘‘You will not annoy this lady again。  And you will stop bribing Stanley Baird's wife to make a fool of herself。  And you will stop buying houses in the blocks where Baird owns real estate; and moving colored families into them。''
  ‘‘I tell you that about my divorce is a lie;'' replied Siddall。
  ‘‘I can prove it;'' said Keith。  ‘‘And I can prove that you knew it before you married your second wife。''
  For the first time Siddall betrayed at the surface a hint of how hard he was hit。  His skin grew bright yellow; wrinkles round his eyes and round the base of his nose sprang into sudden prominence。
  ‘‘I see you know what I meanthat attempt to falsify the record at Carson City;'' said Keith。  He opened the screen door for Mildred to pass in。  He followed her; and the door closed behind them。  They went into the drawing…room。  He dropped into an easy chair; crossed his legs; leaned his head back indolentlya favorite attitude of his。
  ‘‘How long have you known?'' said she。  Her cheeks were flushed with excitement。
  ‘‘Oh; a good many years;'' replied he。  ‘‘It was one of those accidental bits of information a man runs across in knocking about。  As soon as Baird told me about you; I had the thing looked up; quietly。  I was going up to see him to…morrowabout the negroes and Mrs。 Baird's suit。''
  ‘‘Does Stanley know?'' inquired she。
  ‘‘No;'' said Keith。  ‘‘Not necessary。  Never will be。  If you like; you can have the marriage annulled without notoriety。  But that's not necessary; either。''
  After a long silence; she said:  ‘‘What does this make out of me?''
  ‘‘You mean; what would be thought of you; if it were known?'' inquired he。  ‘‘Well; it probably wouldn't improve your social position。''
  ‘‘I am disgraced;'' said she; curiously rather than emotionally。
  ‘‘Would be; if it were known;'' corrected he; ‘‘and if you are nothing but a woman without money looking for a husband。  If you happened to be a singer or an actress; it would add to your reputationmake you more talked about。''
  ‘‘But I am not an actress or a singer。''
  ‘‘On the other hand; I should say you didn't amount to much socially。  Except in Hanging Rock; of course if there is still a Hanging Rock。  Don't worry about your reputation。  Fussing and fretting about your social position doesn't help toward a career。''
  ‘‘Naturally; you take it coolly。  But you can hardly expect me to;'' cried she。
  ‘‘You are taking it coolly;'' said he。  ‘‘Then why try to work yourself up into a fit of hysterics?  The thing is of no importanceexcept that you're free nowwill never be bothered by Siddall again。  You ought to thank me; and forget it。  Don't be one of the little people who are forever agitating about trifles。''
  Trifles!  To speak of such things as trifles!  And yet  Well; what did they actually amount to in her life?  ‘‘Yes; I AM free;'' she said thoughtfully。  ‘‘I've got what I wantedgot it in the easiest way possible。''
  ‘‘That's better;'' said he approvingly。
  ‘‘And I've burnt my bridges behind me;'' pursued she。  ‘‘There's nothing for me now but to go ahead。''
  ‘‘Which road?'' inquired he carelessly。
  ‘‘The career;'' cried she。  ‘‘There's no other for me。 Of course I COULD marry Stanley; when he's free; as he would be before very long; if I suggested it。  Yes; I could marry him。''
  ‘‘Could you?'' observed he。
  ‘‘Doesn't he love me?''
  ‘‘Undoubtedly。''
  ‘‘Then why do you say he would not marry me?'' demanded she。
  ‘‘Did I say that?''
  ‘‘You insinuated it。  You suggested that there was a doubt。''
  ‘‘Then; there is no doubt?''
  ‘‘Yes; there is;'' she cried angrily。  ‘‘You won't let me enjoy the least bit of a delusion。  He might marry me if I were famous。  But as I am now  He's an inbred snob。  He can't help it。  He simply couldn't marry a woman in my position。  But you're overlooking one thingthat _I_ would not marry HIM。''
  ‘‘That's unimportant; if true;'' said Keith。
  ‘‘You don't believe it?''
  ‘‘I don't care anything about it; my dear lady;'' said Keith。  ‘‘Have you got time to waste in thinking about how much I am in love with you?  What a womanly woman you are; to be sure。  Your true woman; you know; never thinks of anything but lovenot how much she loves; but how much she is loved。''
  ‘‘Be careful!'' she warned。  ‘‘Some day you'll go too far in saying outrageous things to me。''
  ‘‘And then?'' said he smilingly。
  ‘‘You care nothing for our friendship?''
  ‘‘The experiment is the only interest I have in you;'' replied he。
  ‘‘That is not true;'' said she。  ‘‘You have always liked me。  That's why you looked up my hus General Siddal{sic} and got ready for him。  That's why you saved me to…day。  You are a very tender…hearted and generous manand you hide it as you do everything else about yourself。''
  He was looking off into space from the depths of the easy chair; a mocking smile on his classical; impassive face。
  ‘‘What puzzles me;'' she went on; ‘‘is why you interest yourself in as vain and shallow and vacillating a woman as I am。  You don't care for my looksand that's all there is to me。''
  ‘‘Don't pause to be contradicted;'' said he。
  She was in a fine humor now。  ‘‘You might at least have said I was up to the female average; for I am。 What have they got to offer a man but their looks? Do you know why I despise men?''
  ‘‘Do you?''
  ‘‘I do。  And it's because they put up with women as much as they dospend so much money on them; listen to their chatter; admire their ridiculous clothes。 Oh; I understand why。  I've learned that。  And I can imagine myself putting up with anything in some one man I happened to fancy strongly。  But men are foolish about the wh