第 14 节
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打倒一切 更新:2021-02-21 13:16 字数:9322
Presbury shrugged his shoulders and went on to the other room。 But he did not begin again the next day; and from that time forth avoided reference to the general。 In fact; there was an astonishing change in his whole demeanor。 He ceased to bait his wife; became polite; even affable。 If he had conducted himself thus from the outset; he would have got far less credit; would have made far less progress toward winning the liking of his wife; and of her daughter; than he did in a brief two weeks of change from petty and malignant tyrant to good…natured; interestingly talkative old gentleman。 After the manner of human nature; Mildred and her mother; in their relief; in their pleasure through this amazing sudden and wholly unexpected geniality; not merely forgave but forgot all they had suffered at his hands。 Mildred was not without a suspicion of the truth that this change; inaugurated in his own good time; was fresh evidence of his contempt for both of themof his feeling that he could easily make reparation with a little kindness and decency and put himself in the way of getting any possible benefits from the rich alliance。 But though she practically knew what was going on in his mind; she could not prevent herself from softening toward him。
Now followed a succession of dinners; of theater… and opera…goings; of week…ends at the general's new country palace in the fashionable region of Long Island。 All these festivities were of the same formal and tedious character。 At all the general was the central sun with the others dim and draggled satellites; hardly more important than the outer rim of satellite servants。 He did most of the talking; he was the sole topic of conversation; for when he was not talking about himself he wished to be hearing about himself。 If Mildred had not been seeing more and more plainly that other and real personality of his; her contempt for him and for herself would have grown beyond control。 But; with him or away from him; at every instant there was the sense of that other real William Siddalla shadowy menace full of terror。 She dreamed of itwas startled from sleep by visions of a monstrous and mighty distortion of the little general's grotesque exterior。 ‘‘I shall marry him if I can;'' she said to her self。 ‘‘Butcan I?'' And she feared and hoped that she could not; that courage would fail her; or would come to her rescue; whichever it was; and that she would refuse him。 Aside from the sense of her body that cannot but be with any woman who is beautiful; she had never theretofore been especially physical in thought。 That side of life had remained vague; as she had never indulged in or even been strongly tempted with the things that rouse it from its virginal sleep。 But now she thought only of her body; because that it was; and that alone; that had drawn this prospective purchaser; and his eyes never let her forget it。 She fell into the habit of looking at herself in the glass at her face; at her shoulders; at her whole person; not in vanity but in a kind of wonder or aversion。 And in the visions; both the waking and the sleeping; she reached the climax of horror when the monster touched herwith clammy; creepy fingers; with munching lips; with the sharp ends of the mustache or imperial。
Said Mrs。 Presbury to her husband; ‘‘I'm afraid the general will be irritated by Mildred's unresponsiveness。''
‘‘Don't worry;'' replied Presbury。 ‘‘He's so crazy about himself that he imagines the whole world is in the same state。''
‘‘Isn't it strange that he doesn't give her presents? Never anything but candy and flowers。''
‘‘And he never will;'' said Presbury。
‘‘Not until they're married; I suppose。''
Presbury was silent。
‘‘I can't help thinking that if Milly were to rouse herself and show somesome likingor at least interest; it'd be wiser。''
‘‘She's taking the best possible course;'' said Presbury。 ‘‘Unconsciously to both of them; she's leading him on。 He thinks that's the way a lady should act restrained; refined。''
Mildred's attitude was simple inertia。 The most positive effort she made was avoiding saying or doing anything to displease himno difficult matter; as she was silent and almost lifeless when he was near。 Without any encouragement from her he gradually got a deep respect for herwhich meant that he became convinced of her coldness and exclusiveness; of her absolute trustworthiness。 Presbury was more profoundly right than he knew。 The girl pursued the only course that made possible the success she longed for; yet dreaded and loathed。 For at the outset Siddall had not been nearly so strongly in earnest in his matrimonial project as he had professed and had believed himself。 He wished to marry; wished to add to his possessions the admirable show…piece and exhibition opportunity afforded by the right sort of wife; but in the bottom of his heart he felt that such a woman as he dreamed of did not exist in all the foolish; fickle; and shallow female sex。 This girlso cold; so proud; beautiful yet not eager to display her charms or to have them praisedshe was the rare bird he sought。
In a month he asked her to marry him; that is; he said: ‘‘My dear; I find that I am ready to go the limitif you are。'' And she assented。 He put his arm around her and kissed her cheekand was delighted to discover that the alluring embrace made no impression upon the ice of her ‘‘purity and ladylike dignity。'' Up to the very last moment of the formal courtship he held himself ready to withdraw should she reveal to his watchfulness the slightest sign of having any ‘‘unladylike'' tendencies or feelings。 She revealed no such sign; but remained ‘‘ladylike''; and certainly; so the general reasoned; a woman who could thus resist him; even in the license of the formal engagement; would resist anybody。
As soon as the engagement was formally concluded; the general hurried on the preparations for the wedding。 He opened accounts at half a dozen shops in New Yorkdressmakers; milliners; dealers in fine and fashionable clothing of every kindand gave them orders to execute whatever commands Miss Gower or her motherfor HERmight give them。 When he told her of this munificence and magnificence and paused for the outburst of gratitude; he listened in vain。 Mildred colored to the roots of her hair and was silent; was seeking the courage to refuse。
‘‘I know that you and your people can't afford to do the thing as things related to me must be done;'' he went on to say。 ‘‘So I decided to just start in a little early at what I've got to do anyhow。 Not that I blame you for your not having money; my dear。 On the contrary; that's one of your merits with me。 I wouldn't marry a woman with money。 It puts the family life on a wrong basis。''
‘‘I had planned a quiet wedding;'' said Mildred。 ‘‘I'd much prefer it。''
‘‘Now you can be frank with me; my dear;'' said the general。 ‘‘I know you ladieshow cheated you feel if you aren't married with all the frills and fixings。 So that's the way it shall be done。''
‘‘Really;'' protested Mildred; ‘‘I'm absolutely frank。 I wish it to be quite quietin our drawing…room; with no guests。''
Siddall smiled; genial and tolerant。 ‘‘Don't argue with me; my dear。 I know what you want; and I'll see that you get it。 Go ahead with these shop…people I've put at your disposaland go as far as you like。
There isn't anythingANYTHINGin the way of clothes that you can't havethat you mustn't have。 Mrs。 General Siddall is going to be the best…dressed woman in the worldas she is the prettiest。 I haven't opened an account for you with Tiffany's or any of those people。 I'll look out for that part of the business; myself。''
‘‘I don't care for jewelry;'' said Mildred。
‘‘Naturally not for the kind that's been within your means heretofore;'' replied he; ‘‘but you'll open your eyes when you see MY jewelry for MY wife。 All in good time; my dear。 You and your mother must start right in with the shopping; and; a week or so before the wedding; I'll send my people down to transform the house。 I may be wrong; but I rather think that the Siddall wedding will cause some talk。''
He was not wrong。 Through his confidential secretary; Harding the thorough; the newspaper press was induced to take an interest in the incredible extravagance Siddall was perpetrating in arranging for a fitting wedding for General William Siddall。 For many days before the ceremony there were daily columns about him and his romantic career and his romantic wooing of the New Jersey girl of excellent family and social position but of comparatively modest means。 The shopkeepers gave interviews on the trousseau。 The decorators and caterers detailed the splendors and the costliness of the preparations of which they had charge。 From morning until dark a crowd hung round the house at Hanging Rock; and on the wedding day the streets leading to it were blockedchiefly with people come from a distance; many of them from New York。
At the outset all this noise was deeply distasteful to Mildred; but after a few days she recovered her normal point of view; forgot the kind of man she was marry… ing in the excitement and exultation over her sudden splendor and fame。 So strongly did the delusion presently become; t