第 5 节
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打倒一切 更新:2021-02-21 13:16 字数:9322
e and disgust。
‘‘Seven thousand dollars;'' he mumbled dazedly。
‘‘I said less than half that;'' retorted she sharply。
‘‘And Ithought you wererich。''
A peculiar rolling of the eyes and twisting of the lips gave her the idea that he was about to vent that repulsive sound again。 ‘‘Don't you laugh!'' she cried。 ‘‘I can't bear your laugheven at its best。''
Suddenly he galvanized into fury。 ‘‘This is an outrage!'' he cried; waving his useless…looking white fists。 ‘‘You have swindled meSWINDLED me!''
Her head stopped aching。 The pains in her feet either ceased or she forgot them。 In a suspiciously calm voice she said: ‘‘What do you mean?''
‘‘I mean that you are a swindler!'' he shouted; banging one fist on the table and waving the other。
She acted as though his meaning were just dawning upon her。 ‘‘Do you mean;'' said she tranquilly; ‘‘that you married me for money?''
‘‘I mean that I thought you a substantial woman; and that I find you are an adventuress。''
‘‘Did you think;'' inquired she; ‘‘that any woman who had money would marry YOU?'' She laughed very quietly。 ‘‘You ARE a fool!''
He sat back to look at her。 This mode of combat in such circumstances puzzled him。
‘‘I knew that you were rich;'' she went on; ‘‘or you would not have dared offer yourself to me。 All my friends were amazed at my stooping to accept you。 Your father was an Irish Tammany contractor; wasn't he?a sort of criminal? But I simply had to marry。 So I gave you my family and position and name in exchange for your wealtha good bargain for you; but a poor one for me。''
These references to HIS wealth were most disconcerting; especially as they were accompanied by remarks about his origin; of which he was so ashamed that he had changed the spelling of his name in the effort to clear himself of it。 However; some retort was imperative。 He looked at her and said:
‘‘Swindler and adventuress!''
‘‘Don't repeat that lie;'' said she。 ‘‘You are the adventurerdespite the fact that you are very rich。''
‘‘Don't say that again;'' cried he。 ‘‘I never said or pretended I was rich。 I have about five thousand a yearand you'll not get a cent of it; madam!''
She knew his income; but no one would have suspected it from her expression of horror。 ‘‘What!'' she gasped。 ‘‘You dared to marry ME when you were a beggar! Methe widow of Henry Gower! You impudent old wreck! Why; you haven't enough to pay my servants。 What are we to live on; pray?''
‘‘I don't know what YOU'LL live on;'' replied he。 ‘‘_I_ shall live as I always have。''
‘‘A beggar!'' she exclaimed。 ‘‘Imarried to a beggar。'' She burst into tears。 ‘‘How men take advantage of a woman alone! If my son had been near me! But there's surely some law to protect me。 Yes; I'm sure there is。 Oh; I'll punish you for having deceived me。'' Her eyes dried as she looked at him。 ‘‘How dare you sit there? How dare you face me; you miserable fraud!''
Early in her acquaintance with him she had discovered that determining factors in his character were sensitiveness about his origin and sensitiveness about his social position。 On this knowledge of his weaknesses was securely based her confidence that she could act as she pleased toward him。 To ease her pains she proceeded to pour out her private opinion of himall the disagreeable things; all the insults she had been storing up。
She watched him as only a woman can watch a man。 She saw that his rage was not dangerous; that she was forcing him into a position where fear of her revenging herself by disgracing him would overcome anger at the collapse of his fatuous dreams of wealth。 She did not despise him the more deeply for sitting there; for not flying from the room or trying to kill her or somehow compelling her to check that flow of insult。 She already despised him utterly; also; she attached small importance to self…respect; having no knowledge of what that quality really is。
When she grew tired; she became quiet。 They sat there a long time in silence。 At last he ran up the white flag of abject surrender by saying:
‘‘What'll we live onthat's what I'd like to know?''
An eavesdropper upon the preceding violence of upward of an hour would have assumed that at its end this pair must separate; never to see each other again voluntarily。 But that idea; even as a possibility; had not entered the mind of either。 They had lived a long time; they were practical people。 They knew from the outset that somehow they must arrange to go on together。 The alternative meant a mere pittance of alimony for her; meant for him social ostracism and the small income cut in half; meant for both scandal and confusion。
Said she fretfully: ‘‘Oh; I suppose we'll get along; somehow。 I don't know anything about those things。 I've always been looked afterkept from contact with the sordid side of life。''
‘‘That house you live in;'' he went on; ‘‘does it belong to you?''
She gave him a contemptuous glance。 ‘‘Of course;'' said she。 ‘‘What low people you must have been used to!''
‘‘I thought perhaps you had rented it for your bunco game;'' retorted he。 ‘‘The furniture; the horses; the motorall those thingsdo they belong to you?''
‘‘I shall leave the room if you insult me;'' said she。
‘‘Did you include them in the seven thousand dollars?''
‘‘The money is in the bank。 It has nothing to do with our house and our property。''
He reflected; presently said: ‘‘The horses and carriages must be sold at onceand all those servants dismissed except perhaps two。 We can live in the house。''
She grew purple with rage。 ‘‘Sell MY carriages! Discharge MY servants! I'd like to see you try!''
‘‘Who's to pay for keeping up that establishment?'' demanded he。
She was silent。 She saw what he had in mind。
‘‘If you want to keep that house and live comfortably;'' he went on; ‘‘you've got to cut expenses to the bone。 You see that; don't you?''
‘‘I can't live any way but the way I've been used to all my life;'' wailed she。
He eyed her disgustedly。 Was there anything equal to a woman for folly?
‘‘We've got to make the most of what little we have;'' said he。
‘‘I tell you I don't know anything about those things;'' repeated she。 ‘‘You'll have to look after them。 Mildred and I aren't like the women you've been used to。 We are ladies。''
Presbury's rage boiled over again at the mention of Mildred。 ‘‘That daughter of yours!'' he cried。 ‘‘What's to be done about her? I've got no money to waste on her。''
‘‘You miserable Tammany THING!'' exclaimed she。 ‘‘Don't you dare SPEAK of my daughter except in the most respectful way。''
And once more she opened out upon him; wreaking upon him all her wrath against fate; all the pent…up fury of two yearsfury which had been denied such fury's usual and natural expression in denunciations of the dead bread…winner。 The generous and ever…kind Henry Gower could not be to blame for her wretched plight; and; of course; she herself could not be to blame for it。 So; until now there had been no scapegoat。 Presbury therefore received the whole burden。 He; alarmed lest a creature apparently so irrational; should in wild rage drive him away; ruin him socially; perhaps induce a sympathetic court to award her a large part of his income as alimony; said not a word in reply。 He bade his wrath wait。 Later on; when the peril was over; when he had a firm grip upon the situationthen he would take his revenge。
They gave up the expensive suite at the Waldorf that very day and returned to Hanging Rock。 They alternated between silence and the coarsest; crudest quarrelings; for neither had the intelligence to quarrel wittily or the refinement to quarrel artistically。 As soon as they arrived at the Gower house; Mildred was dragged into the wrangle。
‘‘I married this terrible man for your sake;'' was the burden of her mother's wail。 ‘‘And he is a beggar wants to sell off everything and dismiss the servants。''
‘‘You are a pair of paupers;'' cried the old man。 ‘‘You are shameless tricksters。 Be careful how you goad me!''
Mildred had anticipated an unhappy ending to her mother's marriage; but she had not knowledge enough of life or of human nature to anticipate any such horrors as now began。 Every day; all day long the vulgar fight raged。 Her mother and her stepfather withdrew from each other's presence only to think up fresh insults to fling at each other。 As soon as they were armed they hastened to give battle again。 She avoided Presbury。 Her mother she could not avoid; and when her mother was not in combat with him; she was weeping or wailing or railing to Mildred。
It was at Mildred's urging that her mother acquiesced in Presbury's plans for reducing expenses within income。 At first the girl; even more ignorant than her mother of practical affairs; did not appreciate the wisdom; not to say the necessity; of what he wished to do; but soon she saw that he was right; that the servants must go; that the horses and carriages and the motors must be sold。 When she was convinced and had convinced her mother; she still did not realize what the thing really meant。 Not until she no longer had a maid did she comprehend。 To a woman who has never had a maid; or who has taken on a maid as