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me at once。 I was on the point of crying; and only very shame seemed
to keep it down。 To save myself from shedding tears; I shouted
terrible; wild shouts for bare life they were。 I turned sick as I
paused to listen; no answering sound came but the unfeeling echoes。
Only the noiseless; pitiless snow kept falling thicker; thicker
faster; faster! I was growing numb and sleepy。 I tried to move
about; but I dared not go far; for fear of the precipices which; I
knew; abounded in certain places on the Fells。 Now and then; I stood
still and shouted again; but my voice was getting choked with tears;
as I thought of the desolate helpless death I was to die; and how
little they at home; sitting round the warm; red; bright fire; wotted
what was become of me;and how my poor father would grieve for me
it would surely kill himit would break his heart; poor old man!
Aunt Fanny toowas this to be the end of all her cares for me? I
began to review my life in a strange kind of vivid dream; in which
the various scenes of my few boyish years passed before me like
visions。 In a pang of agony; caused by such remembrance of my short
life; I gathered up my strength and called out once more; a long;
despairing; wailing cry; to which I had no hope of obtaining any
answer; save from the echoes around; dulled as the sound might be by
the thickened air。 To my surprise I heard a cryalmost as long; as
wild as mineso wild that it seemed unearthly; and I almost thought
it must be the voice of some of the mocking spirits of the Fells;
about whom I had heard so many tales。 My heart suddenly began to
beat fast and loud。 I could not reply for a minute or two。 I nearly
fancied I had lost the power of utterance。 Just at this moment a dog
barked。 Was it Lassie's barkmy brother's collie?an ugly enough
brute; with a white; ill…looking face; that my father always kicked
whenever he saw it; partly for its own demerits; partly because it
belonged to my brother。 On such occasions; Gregory would whistle
Lassie away; and go off and sit with her in some outhouse。 My father
had once or twice been ashamed of himself; when the poor collie had
yowled out with the suddenness of the pain; and had relieved himself
of his self…reproach by blaming my brother; who; he said; had no
notion of training a dog; and was enough to ruin any collie in
Christendom with his stupid way of allowing them to lie by the
kitchen fire。 To all which Gregory would answer nothing; nor even
seem to hear; but go on looking absent and moody。
Yes! there again! It was Lassie's bark! Now or never! I lifted up
my voice and shouted 〃Lassie! Lassie! for God's sake; Lassie!〃
Another moment; and the great white…faced Lassie was curving and
gambolling with delight round my feet and legs; looking; however; up
in my face with her intelligent; apprehensive eyes; as if fearing
lest I might greet her with a blow; as I had done oftentimes before。
But I cried with gladness; as I stooped down and patted her。 My mind
was sharing in my body's weakness; and I could not reason; but I knew
that help was at hand。 A gray figure came more and more distinctly
out of the thick; close…pressing darkness。 It was Gregory wrapped in
his maud。
〃Oh; Gregory!〃 said I; and I fell upon his neck; unable to speak
another word。 He never spoke much; and made me no answer for some
little time。 Then he told me we must move; we must walk for the dear
lifewe must find our road home; if possible; but we must move; or
we should be frozen to death。
〃Don't you know the way home?〃 asked I。
〃I thought I did when I set out; but I am doubtful now。 The snow
blinds me; and I am feared that in moving about just now; I have lost
the right gait homewards。〃
He had his shepherd's staff with him; and by dint of plunging it
before us at every step we tookclinging close to each other; we
went on safely enough; as far as not falling down any of the steep
rocks; but it was slow; dreary work。 My brother; I saw; was more
guided by Lassie and the way she took than anything else; trusting to
her instinct。 It was too dark to see far before us; but he called
her back continually; and noted from what quarter she returned; and
shaped our slow steps accordingly。 But the tedious motion scarcely
kept my very blood from freezing。 Every bone; every fibre in my body
seemed first to ache; and then to swell; and then to turn numb with
the intense cold。 My brother bore it better than I; from having been
more out upon the hills。 He did not speak; except to call Lassie。 I
strove to be brave; and not complain; but now I felt the deadly fatal
sleep stealing over me。
〃I can go no farther;〃 I said; in a drowsy tone。 I remember I
suddenly became dogged and resolved。 Sleep I would; were it only for
five minutes。 If death were to be the consequence; sleep I would。
Gregory stood still。 I suppose; he recognized the peculiar phase of
suffering to which I had been brought by the cold。
〃It is of no use;〃 said he; as if to himself。 〃We are no nearer home
than we were when we started; as far as I can tell。 Our only chance
is in Lassie。 Here! roll thee in my maud; lad; and lay thee down on
this sheltered side of this bit of rock。 Creep close under it; lad;
and I'll lie by thee; and strive to keep the warmth in us。 Stay!
hast gotten aught about thee they'll know at home?〃
I felt him unkind thus to keep me from slumber; but on his repeating
the question; I pulled out my pocket…handkerchief; of some showy
pattern; which Aunt Fanny had hemmed for meGregory took it; and
tied it round Lassie's neck。
〃Hie thee; Lassie; hie thee home!〃 And the white…faced ill…favoured
brute was off like a shot in the darkness。 Now I might lie downnow
I might sleep。 In my drowsy stupor I felt that I was being tenderly
covered up by my brother; but what with I neither knew nor caredI
was too dull; too selfish; too numb to think and reason; or I might
have known that in that bleak bare place there was nought to wrap me
in; save what was taken off another。 I was glad enough when he
ceased his cares and lay down by me。 I took his hand。
〃Thou canst not remember; lad; how we lay together thus by our dying
mother。 She put thy small; wee hand in mineI reckon she sees us
now; and belike we shall soon be with her。 Anyhow; God's will be
done。〃
〃Dear Gregory;〃 I muttered; and crept nearer to him for warmth。 He
was talking still; and again about our mother; when I fell asleep。
In an instantor so it seemedthere were many voices about memany
faces hovering round methe sweet luxury of warmth was stealing into
every part of me。 I was in my own little bed at home。 I am thankful
to say; my first word was 〃Gregory?〃
A look passed from one to anothermy father's stern old face strove
in vain to keep its sternness; his mouth quivered; his eyes filled
slowly with unwonted tears。
〃I would have given him half my landI would have blessed him as my
son;oh God! I would have knelt at his feet; and asked him to
forgive my hardness of heart。〃
I heard no more。 A whirl came through my brain; catching me back to
death。
I came slowly to my consciousness; weeks afterwards。 My father's
hair was white when I recovered; and his hands shook as he looked
into my face。
We spoke no more of Gregory。 We could not speak of him; but he was
strangely in our thoughts。 Lassie came and went with never a word of
blame; nay; my father would try to stroke her; but she shrank away;
and he; as if reproved by the poor dumb beast; would sigh; and be
silent and abstracted for a time。
Aunt Fannyalways a talkertold me all。 How; on that fatal night;
my father;irritated by my prolonged absence; and probably more
anxious than he cared to show; had been fierce and imperious; even
beyond his wont; to Gregory; had upbraided him with his father's
poverty; his own stupidity which made his services good for nothing
for so; in spite of the old shepherd; my father always chose to
consider them。 At last; Gregory had risen up; and whistled Lassie
out with himpoor Lassie; crouching underneath his chair for fear of
a kick or a blow。 Some time before; there had been some talk between
my father and my aunt respecting my return; and when aunt Fanny told
me all this; she said she fancied that Gregory might have noticed the
coming storm; and gone out silently to meet me。 Three hours
afterwards; when all were running about in wild alarm; not knowing
whither to go in search of menot even missing Gregory; or heeding
his absence; poor fellowpoor; poor fellow!Lassie came home; with
my handkerchief tied round her neck。 They knew and understood; and
the whole strength of the farm was turned out to follow her; with
wraps; and blankets; and brandy; and every thing that could be
thought of。 I lay in chilly sleep; but still alive; beneath the rock
that Lassie guided them to。 I was covered ove