第 49 节
作者:孤悟      更新:2021-02-21 12:13      字数:9322
  Told; when the man was no more than a voice
  In the white winter of his age; to those
  With whom he dwelt; new faces; other minds。
  For on their march to westward; Bedivere;
  Who slowly paced among the slumbering host;
  Heard in his tent the moanings of the King:
  'I found Him in the shining of the stars;
  I marked Him in the flowering of His fields;
  But in His ways with men I find Him not。
  I waged His wars; and now I pass and die。
  O me! for why is all around us here
  As if some lesser god had made the world;
  But had not force to shape it as he would;
  Till the High God behold it from beyond;
  And enter it; and make it beautiful?
  Or else as if the world were wholly fair;
  But that these eyes of men are dense and dim;
  And have not power to see it as it is:
  Perchance; because we see not to the close;
  For I; being simple; thought to work His will;
  And have but stricken with the sword in vain;
  And all whereon I leaned in wife and friend
  Is traitor to my peace; and all my realm
  Reels back into the beast; and is no more。
  My God; thou hast forgotten me in my death;
  NayGod my ChristI pass but shall not die。'
  Then; ere that last weird battle in the west;
  There came on Arthur sleeping; Gawain killed
  In Lancelot's war; the ghost of Gawain blown
  Along a wandering wind; and past his ear
  Went shrilling; 'Hollow; hollow all delight!
  Hail; King! tomorrow thou shalt pass away。
  Farewell! there is an isle of rest for thee。
  And I am blown along a wandering wind;
  And hollow; hollow; hollow all delight。'
  And fainter onward; like wild birds that change
  Their season in the night and wail their way
  From cloud to cloud; down the long wind the dream
  Shrilled; but in going mingled with dim cries
  Far in the moonlit haze among the hills;
  As of some lonely city sacked by night;
  When all is lost; and wife and child with wail
  Pass to new lords; and Arthur woke and called;
  'Who spake?  A dream。  O light upon the wind;
  Thine; Gawain; was the voiceare these dim cries
  Thine? or doth all that haunts the waste and wild
  Mourn; knowing it will go along with me?'
  This heard the bold Sir Bedivere and spake:
  'O me; my King; let pass whatever will;
  Elves; and the harmless glamour of the field;
  But in their stead thy name and glory cling
  To all high places like a golden cloud
  For ever:  but as yet thou shalt not pass。
  Light was Gawain in life; and light in death
  Is Gawain; for the ghost is as the man;
  And care not thou for dreams from him; but rise
  I hear the steps of Modred in the west;
  And with him many of thy people; and knights
  Once thine; whom thou hast loved; but grosser grown
  Than heathen; spitting at their vows and thee。
  Right well in heart they know thee for the King。
  Arise; go forth and conquer as of old。'
  Then spake King Arthur to Sir Bedivere:
  'Far other is this battle in the west
  Whereto we move; than when we strove in youth;
  And brake the petty kings; and fought with Rome;
  Or thrust the heathen from the Roman wall;
  And shook him through the north。  Ill doom is mine
  To war against my people and my knights。
  The king who fights his people fights himself。
  And they my knights; who loved me once; the stroke
  That strikes them dead is as my death to me。
  Yet let us hence; and find or feel a way
  Through this blind haze; which ever since I saw
  One lying in the dust at Almesbury;
  Hath folded in the passes of the world。'
  Then rose the King and moved his host by night;
  And ever pushed Sir Modred; league by league;
  Back to the sunset bound of Lyonnesse
  A land of old upheaven from the abyss
  By fire; to sink into the abyss again;
  Where fragments of forgotten peoples dwelt;
  And the long mountains ended in a coast
  Of ever…shifting sand; and far away
  The phantom circle of a moaning sea。
  There the pursuer could pursue no more;
  And he that fled no further fly the King;
  And there; that day when the great light of heaven
  Burned at his lowest in the rolling year;
  On the waste sand by the waste sea they closed。
  Nor ever yet had Arthur fought a fight
  Like this last; dim; weird battle of the west。
  A deathwhite mist slept over sand and sea:
  Whereof the chill; to him who breathed it; drew
  Down with his blood; till all his heart was cold
  With formless fear; and even on Arthur fell
  Confusion; since he saw not whom he fought。
  For friend and foe were shadows in the mist;
  And friend slew friend not knowing whom he slew;
  And some had visions out of golden youth;
  And some beheld the faces of old ghosts
  Look in upon the battle; and in the mist
  Was many a noble deed; many a base;
  And chance and craft and strength in single fights;
  And ever and anon with host to host
  Shocks; and the splintering spear; the hard mail hewn;
  Shield…breakings; and the clash of brands; the crash
  Of battleaxes on shattered helms; and shrieks
  After the Christ; of those who falling down
  Looked up for heaven; and only saw the mist;
  And shouts of heathen and the traitor knights;
  Oaths; insults; filth; and monstrous blasphemies;
  Sweat; writhings; anguish; labouring of the lungs
  In that close mist; and cryings for the light;
  Moans of the dying; and voices of the dead。
  Last; as by some one deathbed after wail
  Of suffering; silence follows; or through death
  Or deathlike swoon; thus over all that shore;
  Save for some whisper of the seething seas;
  A dead hush fell; but when the dolorous day
  Grew drearier toward twilight falling; came
  A bitter wind; clear from the North; and blew
  The mist aside; and with that wind the tide
  Rose; and the pale King glanced across the field
  Of battle:  but no man was moving there;
  Nor any cry of Christian heard thereon;
  Nor yet of heathen; only the wan wave
  Brake in among dead faces; to and fro
  Swaying the helpless hands; and up and down
  Tumbling the hollow helmets of the fallen;
  And shivered brands that once had fought with Rome;
  And rolling far along the gloomy shores
  The voice of days of old and days to be。
  Then spake King Arthur to Sir Bedivere;
  And whiter than the mist that all day long
  Had held the field of battle was the King:
  'Hearest thou this great voice that shakes the world;
  And wastes the narrow realm whereon we move;
  And beats upon the faces of the dead;
  My dead; as though they had not died for me?
  O Bedivere; for on my heart hath fallen
  Confusion; till I know not what I am;
  Nor whence I am; nor whether I be King。
  Behold; I seem but King among the dead。'
  Then spake the bold Sir Bedivere:  'My King;
  King everywhere! and so the dead have kings;
  There also will I worship thee as King。
  Yet still thy life is whole; and still I live
  Who love thee; but who hates thee; he that brought
  The heathen back among us; yonder stands;
  Modred; unharmed; the traitor of thine house。'
  Then spake the King:  'My house hath been my doom。
  But call not thou this traitor of my house
  Who hath but dwelt beneath one roof with me。
  My house are rather they who sware my vows;
  Yea; even while they brake them; owned me King。
  And well for thee; saying in my dark hour;
  When all the purport of my throne hath failed;
  That quick or dead thou holdest me for King。
  King am I; whatsoever be their cry;
  And one last act of kinghood shalt thou see
  Yet; ere I pass。'  And uttering this the King
  Made at the man:  then Modred smote his liege
  Hard on that helm which many a heathen sword
  Had beaten thin; while Arthur at one blow;
  Striking the last stroke with Excalibur;
  Slew him; and all but slain himself; he fell。
  So all day long the noise of battle rolled
  Among the mountains by the winter sea;
  Until King Arthur's Table; man by man;
  Had fallen in Lyonnesse about their lord;
  King Arthur。  Then; because his wound was deep;
  The bold Sir Bedivere uplifted him;
  And bore him to a chapel nigh the field;
  A broken chancel with a broken cross;
  That stood on a dark strait of barren land:
  On one side lay the Ocean; and on one
  Lay a great water; and the moon was full。
  Then spake King Arthur to Sir Bedivere:
  'The sequel of today unsolders all
  The goodliest fellowship of famous knights
  Whereof this world holds record。  Such a sleep
  They sleepthe men I loved。  I think that we
  Shall never more; at any future time;
  Delight our souls with talk of knightly deeds;
  Walking about the gardens and the halls
  Of Camelot; as in the days that were。
  I perish by this people which I made;
  Though Merlin sware that I should come again
  To rule once more; but; let what will be; be;
  I am so deeply smitten through the helm
  That without help I cannot last till morn。
  Thou therefore take my brand Excalibur;
  Which was my pride:  for thou rememberest how
  In those old days; one summer noon; an arm
  Rose up from out the bosom of the lake;
  Clothed in white samite; mystic; wonderful;
  Holding the swordand how I rowed across
  And took it; and have worn it; like a king;
  And; wheresoever I am sung or told
  In aftertime; this also shall be known:
  But now delay not:  take Excalibur;
  And fling him far into the middle mere:
  Watch what thou seest; and lightly bring me word。'
  To him replied the bold Sir Bedivere:
  'It is not meet; Sir King; to leave thee thus;
  Aidless; alone; and smitten through the helm
  A little thing may harm a wounded man;
  Yet I