第 47 节
作者:孤悟      更新:2021-02-21 12:13      字数:9322
  Who called him the false son of Gorlois:
  For there was no man knew from whence he came;
  But after tempest; when the long wave broke
  All down the thundering shores of Bude and Bos;
  There came a day as still as heaven; and then
  They found a naked child upon the sands
  Of dark Tintagil by the Cornish sea;
  And that was Arthur; and they fostered him
  Till he by miracle was approven King:
  And that his grave should be a mystery
  From all men; like his birth; and could he find
  A woman in her womanhood as great
  As he was in his manhood; then; he sang;
  The twain together well might change the world。
  But even in the middle of his song
  He faltered; and his hand fell from the harp;
  And pale he turned; and reeled; and would have fallen;
  But that they stayed him up; nor would he tell
  His vision; but what doubt that he foresaw
  This evil work of Lancelot and the Queen?'
  Then thought the Queen; 'Lo! they have set her on;
  Our simple…seeming Abbess and her nuns;
  To play upon me;' and bowed her head nor spake。
  Whereat the novice crying; with clasped hands;
  Shame on her own garrulity garrulously;
  Said the good nuns would check her gadding tongue
  Full often; 'and; sweet lady; if I seem
  To vex an ear too sad to listen to me;
  Unmannerly; with prattling and the tales
  Which my good father told me; check me too
  Nor let me shame my father's memory; one
  Of noblest manners; though himself would say
  Sir Lancelot had the noblest; and he died;
  Killed in a tilt; come next; five summers back;
  And left me; but of others who remain;
  And of the two first…famed for courtesy
  And pray you check me if I ask amiss…
  But pray you; which had noblest; while you moved
  Among them; Lancelot or our lord the King?'
  Then the pale Queen looked up and answered her;
  'Sir Lancelot; as became a noble knight;
  Was gracious to all ladies; and the same
  In open battle or the tilting…field
  Forbore his own advantage; and the King
  In open battle or the tilting…field
  Forbore his own advantage; and these two
  Were the most nobly…mannered men of all;
  For manners are not idle; but the fruit
  Of loyal nature; and of noble mind。'
  'Yea;' said the maid; 'be manners such fair fruit?'
  Then Lancelot's needs must be a thousand…fold
  Less noble; being; as all rumour runs;
  The most disloyal friend in all the world。'
  To which a mournful answer made the Queen:
  'O closed about by narrowing nunnery…walls;
  What knowest thou of the world; and all its lights
  And shadows; all the wealth and all the woe?
  If ever Lancelot; that most noble knight;
  Were for one hour less noble than himself;
  Pray for him that he scape the doom of fire;
  And weep for her that drew him to his doom。'
  'Yea;' said the little novice; 'I pray for both;
  But I should all as soon believe that his;
  Sir Lancelot's; were as noble as the King's;
  As I could think; sweet lady; yours would be
  Such as they are; were you the sinful Queen。'
  So she; like many another babbler; hurt
  Whom she would soothe; and harmed where she would heal;
  For here a sudden flush of wrathful heat
  Fired all the pale face of the Queen; who cried;
  'Such as thou art be never maiden more
  For ever! thou their tool; set on to plague
  And play upon; and harry me; petty spy
  And traitress。'  When that storm of anger brake
  From Guinevere; aghast the maiden rose;
  White as her veil; and stood before the Queen
  As tremulously as foam upon the beach
  Stands in a wind; ready to break and fly;
  And when the Queen had added 'Get thee hence;'
  Fled frighted。  Then that other left alone
  Sighed; and began to gather heart again;
  Saying in herself; 'The simple; fearful child
  Meant nothing; but my own too…fearful guilt;
  Simpler than any child; betrays itself。
  But help me; heaven; for surely I repent。
  For what is true repentance but in thought
  Not even in inmost thought to think again
  The sins that made the past so pleasant to us:
  And I have sworn never to see him more;
  To see him more。'
  And even in saying this;
  Her memory from old habit of the mind
  Went slipping back upon the golden days
  In which she saw him first; when Lancelot came;
  Reputed the best knight and goodliest man;
  Ambassador; to lead her to his lord
  Arthur; and led her forth; and far ahead
  Of his and her retinue moving; they;
  Rapt in sweet talk or lively; all on love
  And sport and tilts and pleasure; (for the time
  Was maytime; and as yet no sin was dreamed;)
  Rode under groves that looked a paradise
  Of blossom; over sheets of hyacinth
  That seemed the heavens upbreaking through the earth;
  And on from hill to hill; and every day
  Beheld at noon in some delicious dale
  The silk pavilions of King Arthur raised
  For brief repast or afternoon repose
  By couriers gone before; and on again;
  Till yet once more ere set of sun they saw
  The Dragon of the great Pendragonship;
  That crowned the state pavilion of the King;
  Blaze by the rushing brook or silent well。
  But when the Queen immersed in such a trance;
  And moving through the past unconsciously;
  Came to that point where first she saw the King
  Ride toward her from the city; sighed to find
  Her journey done; glanced at him; thought him cold;
  High; self…contained; and passionless; not like him;
  'Not like my Lancelot'while she brooded thus
  And grew half…guilty in her thoughts again;
  There rode an armed warrior to the doors。
  A murmuring whisper through the nunnery ran;
  Then on a sudden a cry; 'The King。'  She sat
  Stiff…stricken; listening; but when armed feet
  Through the long gallery from the outer doors
  Rang coming; prone from off her seat she fell;
  And grovelled with her face against the floor:
  There with her milkwhite arms and shadowy hair
  She made her face a darkness from the King:
  And in the darkness heard his armed feet
  Pause by her; then came silence; then a voice;
  Monotonous and hollow like a Ghost's
  Denouncing judgment; but though changed; the King's:
  'Liest thou here so low; the child of one
  I honoured; happy; dead before thy shame?
  Well is it that no child is born of thee。
  The children born of thee are sword and fire;
  Red ruin; and the breaking up of laws;
  The craft of kindred and the Godless hosts
  Of heathen swarming o'er the Northern Sea;
  Whom I; while yet Sir Lancelot; my right arm;
  The mightiest of my knights; abode with me;
  Have everywhere about this land of Christ
  In twelve great battles ruining overthrown。
  And knowest thou now from whence I comefrom him
  From waging bitter war with him:  and he;
  That did not shun to smite me in worse way;
  Had yet that grace of courtesy in him left;
  He spared to lift his hand against the King
  Who made him knight:  but many a knight was slain;
  And many more; and all his kith and kin
  Clave to him; and abode in his own land。
  And many more when Modred raised revolt;
  Forgetful of their troth and fealty; clave
  To Modred; and a remnant stays with me。
  And of this remnant will I leave a part;
  True men who love me still; for whom I live;
  To guard thee in the wild hour coming on;
  Lest but a hair of this low head be harmed。
  Fear not:  thou shalt be guarded till my death。
  Howbeit I know; if ancient prophecies
  Have erred not; that I march to meet my doom。
  Thou hast not made my life so sweet to me;
  That I the King should greatly care to live;
  For thou hast spoilt the purpose of my life。
  Bear with me for the last time while I show;
  Even for thy sake; the sin which thou hast sinned。
  For when the Roman left us; and their law
  Relaxed its hold upon us; and the ways
  Were filled with rapine; here and there a deed
  Of prowess done redressed a random wrong。
  But I was first of all the kings who drew
  The knighthood…errant of this realm and all
  The realms together under me; their Head;
  In that fair Order of my Table Round;
  A glorious company; the flower of men;
  To serve as model for the mighty world;
  And be the fair beginning of a time。
  I made them lay their hands in mine and swear
  To reverence the King; as if he were
  Their conscience; and their conscience as their King;
  To break the heathen and uphold the Christ;
  To ride abroad redressing human wrongs;
  To speak no slander; no; nor listen to it;
  To honour his own word as if his God's;
  To lead sweet lives in purest chastity;
  To love one maiden only; cleave to her;
  And worship her by years of noble deeds;
  Until they won her; for indeed I knew
  Of no more subtle master under heaven
  Than is the maiden passion for a maid;
  Not only to keep down the base in man;
  But teach high thought; and amiable words
  And courtliness; and the desire of fame;
  And love of truth; and all that makes a man。
  And all this throve before I wedded thee;
  Believing; 〃lo mine helpmate; one to feel
  My purpose and rejoicing in my joy。〃
  Then came thy shameful sin with Lancelot;
  Then came the sin of Tristram and Isolt;
  Then others; following these my mightiest knights;
  And drawing foul ensample from fair names;
  Sinned also; till the loathsome opposite
  Of all my heart had destined did obtain;
  And all through thee! so that this life of mine
  I guard as God's high gift from scathe and wrong;
  Not greatly care to lose; but rather think
  How sad it were for Arthur; should he live;
  To sit once more within his lonely hall;
  And miss the wonted n