第 46 节
作者:孤悟      更新:2021-02-21 12:13      字数:9320
  Far cities burnt; and with a cry she woke。
  And all this trouble did not pass but grew;
  Till even the clear face of the guileless King;
  And trustful courtesies of household life;
  Became her bane; and at the last she said;
  'O Lancelot; get thee hence to thine own land;
  For if thou tarry we shall meet again;
  And if we meet again; some evil chance
  Will make the smouldering scandal break and blaze
  Before the people; and our lord the King。'
  And Lancelot ever promised; but remained;
  And still they met and met。  Again she said;
  'O Lancelot; if thou love me get thee hence。'
  And then they were agreed upon a night
  (When the good King should not be there) to meet
  And part for ever。  Vivien; lurking; heard。
  She told Sir Modred。  Passion…pale they met
  And greeted。  Hands in hands; and eye to eye;
  Low on the border of her couch they sat
  Stammering and staring。  It was their last hour;
  A madness of farewells。  And Modred brought
  His creatures to the basement of the tower
  For testimony; and crying with full voice
  'Traitor; come out; ye are trapt at last;' aroused
  Lancelot; who rushing outward lionlike
  Leapt on him; and hurled him headlong; and he fell
  Stunned; and his creatures took and bare him off;
  And all was still:  then she; 'The end is come;
  And I am shamed for ever;' and he said;
  'Mine be the shame; mine was the sin:  but rise;
  And fly to my strong castle overseas:
  There will I hide thee; till my life shall end;
  There hold thee with my life against the world。'
  She answered; 'Lancelot; wilt thou hold me so?
  Nay; friend; for we have taken our farewells。
  Would God that thou couldst hide me from myself!
  Mine is the shame; for I was wife; and thou
  Unwedded:  yet rise now; and let us fly;
  For I will draw me into sanctuary;
  And bide my doom。'  So Lancelot got her horse;
  Set her thereon; and mounted on his own;
  And then they rode to the divided way;
  There kissed; and parted weeping:  for he past;
  Love…loyal to the least wish of the Queen;
  Back to his land; but she to Almesbury
  Fled all night long by glimmering waste and weald;
  And heard the Spirits of the waste and weald
  Moan as she fled; or thought she heard them moan:
  And in herself she moaned 'Too late; too late!'
  Till in the cold wind that foreruns the morn;
  A blot in heaven; the Raven; flying high;
  Croaked; and she thought; 'He spies a field of death;
  For now the Heathen of the Northern Sea;
  Lured by the crimes and frailties of the court;
  Begin to slay the folk; and spoil the land。'
  And when she came to Almesbury she spake
  There to the nuns; and said; 'Mine enemies
  Pursue me; but; O peaceful Sisterhood;
  Receive; and yield me sanctuary; nor ask
  Her name to whom ye yield it; till her time
  To tell you:' and her beauty; grace and power;
  Wrought as a charm upon them; and they spared
  To ask it。
  So the stately Queen abode
  For many a week; unknown; among the nuns;
  Nor with them mixed; nor told her name; nor sought;
  Wrapt in her grief; for housel or for shrift;
  But communed only with the little maid;
  Who pleased her with a babbling heedlessness
  Which often lured her from herself; but now;
  This night; a rumour wildly blown about
  Came; that Sir Modred had usurped the realm;
  And leagued him with the heathen; while the King
  Was waging war on Lancelot:  then she thought;
  'With what a hate the people and the King
  Must hate me;' and bowed down upon her hands
  Silent; until the little maid; who brooked
  No silence; brake it; uttering; 'Late! so late!
  What hour; I wonder; now?' and when she drew
  No answer; by and by began to hum
  An air the nuns had taught her; 'Late; so late!'
  Which when she heard; the Queen looked up; and said;
  'O maiden; if indeed ye list to sing;
  Sing; and unbind my heart that I may weep。'
  Whereat full willingly sang the little maid。
  'Late; late; so late! and dark the night and chill!
  Late; late; so late! but we can enter still。
  Too late; too late! ye cannot enter now。
  'No light had we:  for that we do repent;
  And learning this; the bridegroom will relent。
  Too late; too late! ye cannot enter now。
  'No light:  so late! and dark and chill the night!
  O let us in; that we may find the light!
  Too late; too late:  ye cannot enter now。
  'Have we not heard the bridegroom is so sweet?
  O let us in; though late; to kiss his feet!
  No; no; too late! ye cannot enter now。'
  So sang the novice; while full passionately;
  Her head upon her hands; remembering
  Her thought when first she came; wept the sad Queen。
  Then said the little novice prattling to her;
  'O pray you; noble lady; weep no more;
  But let my words; the words of one so small;
  Who knowing nothing knows but to obey;
  And if I do not there is penance given
  Comfort your sorrows; for they do not flow
  From evil done; right sure am I of that;
  Who see your tender grace and stateliness。
  But weigh your sorrows with our lord the King's;
  And weighing find them less; for gone is he
  To wage grim war against Sir Lancelot there;
  Round that strong castle where he holds the Queen;
  And Modred whom he left in charge of all;
  The traitorAh sweet lady; the King's grief
  For his own self; and his own Queen; and realm;
  Must needs be thrice as great as any of ours。
  For me; I thank the saints; I am not great。
  For if there ever come a grief to me
  I cry my cry in silence; and have done。
  None knows it; and my tears have brought me good:
  But even were the griefs of little ones
  As great as those of great ones; yet this grief
  Is added to the griefs the great must bear;
  That howsoever much they may desire
  Silence; they cannot weep behind a cloud:
  As even here they talk at Almesbury
  About the good King and his wicked Queen;
  And were I such a King with such a Queen;
  Well might I wish to veil her wickedness;
  But were I such a King; it could not be。'
  Then to her own sad heart muttered the Queen;
  'Will the child kill me with her innocent talk?'
  But openly she answered; 'Must not I;
  If this false traitor have displaced his lord;
  Grieve with the common grief of all the realm?'
  'Yea;' said the maid; 'this is all woman's grief;
  That she is woman; whose disloyal life
  Hath wrought confusion in the Table Round
  Which good King Arthur founded; years ago;
  With signs and miracles and wonders; there
  At Camelot; ere the coming of the Queen。'
  Then thought the Queen within herself again;
  'Will the child kill me with her foolish prate?'
  But openly she spake and said to her;
  'O little maid; shut in by nunnery walls;
  What canst thou know of Kings and Tables Round;
  Or what of signs and wonders; but the signs
  And simple miracles of thy nunnery?'
  To whom the little novice garrulously;
  'Yea; but I know:  the land was full of signs
  And wonders ere the coming of the Queen。
  So said my father; and himself was knight
  Of the great Tableat the founding of it;
  And rode thereto from Lyonnesse; and he said
  That as he rode; an hour or maybe twain
  After the sunset; down the coast; he heard
  Strange music; and he paused; and turningthere;
  All down the lonely coast of Lyonnesse;
  Each with a beacon…star upon his head;
  And with a wild sea…light about his feet;
  He saw themheadland after headland flame
  Far on into the rich heart of the west:
  And in the light the white mermaiden swam;
  And strong man…breasted things stood from the sea;
  And sent a deep sea…voice through all the land;
  To which the little elves of chasm and cleft
  Made answer; sounding like a distant horn。
  So said my fatheryea; and furthermore;
  Next morning; while he past the dim…lit woods;
  Himself beheld three spirits mad with joy
  Come dashing down on a tall wayside flower;
  That shook beneath them; as the thistle shakes
  When three gray linnets wrangle for the seed:
  And still at evenings on before his horse
  The flickering fairy…circle wheeled and broke
  Flying; and linked again; and wheeled and broke
  Flying; for all the land was full of life。
  And when at last he came to Camelot;
  A wreath of airy dancers hand…in…hand
  Swung round the lighted lantern of the hall;
  And in the hall itself was such a feast
  As never man had dreamed; for every knight
  Had whatsoever meat he longed for served
  By hands unseen; and even as he said
  Down in the cellars merry bloated things
  Shouldered the spigot; straddling on the butts
  While the wine ran:  so glad were spirits and men
  Before the coming of the sinful Queen。'
  Then spake the Queen and somewhat bitterly;
  'Were they so glad? ill prophets were they all;
  Spirits and men:  could none of them foresee;
  Not even thy wise father with his signs
  And wonders; what has fallen upon the realm?'
  To whom the novice garrulously again;
  'Yea; one; a bard; of whom my father said;
  Full many a noble war…song had he sung;
  Even in the presence of an enemy's fleet;
  Between the steep cliff and the coming wave;
  And many a mystic lay of life and death
  Had chanted on the smoky mountain…tops;
  When round him bent the spirits of the hills
  With all their dewy hair blown back like flame:
  So said my fatherand that night the bard
  Sang Arthur's glorious wars; and sang the King
  As wellnigh more than man; and railed at those
  Who called him the false son of Gorlois:
  For there was no man knew from whence he came;