第 41 节
作者:孤悟      更新:2021-02-21 12:12      字数:9322
  To cope with; or a traitor proven; or hound
  Beaten; did Pelleas in an utter shame
  Creep with his shadow through the court again;
  Fingering at his sword…handle until he stood
  There on the castle…bridge once more; and thought;
  'I will go back; and slay them where they lie。'
  And so went back; and seeing them yet in sleep
  Said; 'Ye; that so dishallow the holy sleep;
  Your sleep is death;' and drew the sword; and thought;
  'What! slay a sleeping knight? the King hath bound
  And sworn me to this brotherhood;' again;
  'Alas that ever a knight should be so false。'
  Then turned; and so returned; and groaning laid
  The naked sword athwart their naked throats;
  There left it; and them sleeping; and she lay;
  The circlet of her tourney round her brows;
  And the sword of the tourney across her throat。
  And forth he past; and mounting on his horse
  Stared at her towers that; larger than themselves
  In their own darkness; thronged into the moon。
  Then crushed the saddle with his thighs; and clenched
  His hands; and maddened with himself and moaned:
  'Would they have risen against me in their blood
  At the last day?  I might have answered them
  Even before high God。  O towers so strong;
  Huge; solid; would that even while I gaze
  The crack of earthquake shivering to your base
  Split you; and Hell burst up your harlot roofs
  Bellowing; and charred you through and through within;
  Black as the harlot's hearthollow as a skull!
  Let the fierce east scream through your eyelet…holes;
  And whirl the dust of harlots round and round
  In dung and nettles! hiss; snakeI saw him there
  Let the fox bark; let the wolf yell。  Who yells
  Here in the still sweet summer night; but I
  I; the poor Pelleas whom she called her fool?
  Fool; beasthe; she; or I? myself most fool;
  Beast too; as lacking human witdisgraced;
  Dishonoured all for trial of true love
  Love?we be all alike:  only the King
  Hath made us fools and liars。  O noble vows!
  O great and sane and simple race of brutes
  That own no lust because they have no law!
  For why should I have loved her to my shame?
  I loathe her; as I loved her to my shame。
  I never loved her; I but lusted for her
  Away'
  He dashed the rowel into his horse;
  And bounded forth and vanished through the night。
  Then she; that felt the cold touch on her throat;
  Awaking knew the sword; and turned herself
  To Gawain:  'Liar; for thou hast not slain
  This Pelleas! here he stood; and might have slain
  Me and thyself。'  And he that tells the tale
  Says that her ever…veering fancy turned
  To Pelleas; as the one true knight on earth;
  And only lover; and through her love her life
  Wasted and pined; desiring him in vain。
  But he by wild and way; for half the night;
  And over hard and soft; striking the sod
  From out the soft; the spark from off the hard;
  Rode till the star above the wakening sun;
  Beside that tower where Percivale was cowled;
  Glanced from the rosy forehead of the dawn。
  For so the words were flashed into his heart
  He knew not whence or wherefore:  'O sweet star;
  Pure on the virgin forehead of the dawn!'
  And there he would have wept; but felt his eyes
  Harder and drier than a fountain bed
  In summer:  thither came the village girls
  And lingered talking; and they come no more
  Till the sweet heavens have filled it from the heights
  Again with living waters in the change
  Of seasons:  hard his eyes; harder his heart
  Seemed; but so weary were his limbs; that he;
  Gasping; 'Of Arthur's hall am I; but here;
  Here let me rest and die;' cast himself down;
  And gulfed his griefs in inmost sleep; so lay;
  Till shaken by a dream; that Gawain fired
  The hall of Merlin; and the morning star
  Reeled in the smoke; brake into flame; and fell。
  He woke; and being ware of some one nigh;
  Sent hands upon him; as to tear him; crying;
  'False! and I held thee pure as Guinevere。'
  But Percivale stood near him and replied;
  'Am I but false as Guinevere is pure?
  Or art thou mazed with dreams? or being one
  Of our free…spoken Table hast not heard
  That Lancelot'there he checked himself and paused。
  Then fared it with Sir Pelleas as with one
  Who gets a wound in battle; and the sword
  That made it plunges through the wound again;
  And pricks it deeper:  and he shrank and wailed;
  'Is the Queen false?' and Percivale was mute。
  'Have any of our Round Table held their vows?'
  And Percivale made answer not a word。
  'Is the King true?'  'The King!' said Percivale。
  'Why then let men couple at once with wolves。
  What! art thou mad?'
  But Pelleas; leaping up;
  Ran through the doors and vaulted on his horse
  And fled:  small pity upon his horse had he;
  Or on himself; or any; and when he met
  A cripple; one that held a hand for alms
  Hunched as he was; and like an old dwarf…elm
  That turns its back upon the salt blast; the boy
  Paused not; but overrode him; shouting; 'False;
  And false with Gawain!' and so left him bruised
  And battered; and fled on; and hill and wood
  Went ever streaming by him till the gloom;
  That follows on the turning of the world;
  Darkened the common path:  he twitched the reins;
  And made his beast that better knew it; swerve
  Now off it and now on; but when he saw
  High up in heaven the hall that Merlin built;
  Blackening against the dead…green stripes of even;
  'Black nest of rats;' he groaned; 'ye build too high。'
  Not long thereafter from the city gates
  Issued Sir Lancelot riding airily;
  Warm with a gracious parting from the Queen;
  Peace at his heart; and gazing at a star
  And marvelling what it was:  on whom the boy;
  Across the silent seeded meadow…grass
  Borne; clashed:  and Lancelot; saying; 'What name hast thou
  That ridest here so blindly and so hard?'
  'No name; no name;' he shouted; 'a scourge am I
  To lash the treasons of the Table Round。'
  'Yea; but thy name?'  'I have many names;' he cried:
  'I am wrath and shame and hate and evil fame;
  And like a poisonous wind I pass to blast
  And blaze the crime of Lancelot and the Queen。'
  'First over me;' said Lancelot; 'shalt thou pass。'
  'Fight therefore;' yelled the youth; and either knight
  Drew back a space; and when they closed; at once
  The weary steed of Pelleas floundering flung
  His rider; who called out from the dark field;
  'Thou art as false as Hell:  slay me:  I have no sword。'
  Then Lancelot; 'Yea; between thy lipsand sharp;
  But here I will disedge it by thy death。'
  'Slay then;' he shrieked; 'my will is to be slain;'
  And Lancelot; with his heel upon the fallen;
  Rolling his eyes; a moment stood; then spake:
  'Rise; weakling; I am Lancelot; say thy say。'
  And Lancelot slowly rode his warhorse back
  To Camelot; and Sir Pelleas in brief while
  Caught his unbroken limbs from the dark field;
  And followed to the city。  It chanced that both
  Brake into hall together; worn and pale。
  There with her knights and dames was Guinevere。
  Full wonderingly she gazed on Lancelot
  So soon returned; and then on Pelleas; him
  Who had not greeted her; but cast himself
  Down on a bench; hard…breathing。  'Have ye fought?'
  She asked of Lancelot。  'Ay; my Queen;' he said。
  'And hast thou overthrown him?'  'Ay; my Queen。'
  Then she; turning to Pelleas; 'O young knight;
  Hath the great heart of knighthood in thee failed
  So far thou canst not bide; unfrowardly;
  A fall from him?'  Then; for he answered not;
  'Or hast thou other griefs?  If I; the Queen;
  May help them; loose thy tongue; and let me know。'
  But Pelleas lifted up an eye so fierce
  She quailed; and he; hissing 'I have no sword;'
  Sprang from the door into the dark。  The Queen
  Looked hard upon her lover; he on her;
  And each foresaw the dolorous day to be:
  And all talk died; as in a grove all song
  Beneath the shadow of some bird of prey;
  Then a long silence came upon the hall;
  And Modred thought; 'The time is hard at hand。'
  The Last Tournament
  Dagonet; the fool; whom Gawain in his mood
  Had made mock…knight of Arthur's Table Round;
  At Camelot; high above the yellowing woods;
  Danced like a withered leaf before the hall。
  And toward him from the hall; with harp in hand;
  And from the crown thereof a carcanet
  Of ruby swaying to and fro; the prize
  Of Tristram in the jousts of yesterday;
  Came Tristram; saying; 'Why skip ye so; Sir Fool?'
  For Arthur and Sir Lancelot riding once
  Far down beneath a winding wall of rock
  Heard a child wail。  A stump of oak half…dead;
  From roots like some black coil of carven snakes;
  Clutched at the crag; and started through mid air
  Bearing an eagle's nest:  and through the tree
  Rushed ever a rainy wind; and through the wind
  Pierced ever a child's cry:  and crag and tree
  Scaling; Sir Lancelot from the perilous nest;
  This ruby necklace thrice around her neck;
  And all unscarred from beak or talon; brought
  A maiden babe; which Arthur pitying took;
  Then gave it to his Queen to rear:  the Queen
  But coldly acquiescing; in her white arms
  Received; and after loved it tenderly;
  And named it Nestling; so forgot herself
  A moment; and her cares; till that young life
  Being smitten in mid heaven with mortal cold
  Past from her; and in time the carcanet
  Vext her with plaintive memories of the child:
  So she; delivering it to Arthur; said;
  'Take thou the jewels of this dead inno