第 37 节
作者:孤悟      更新:2021-02-21 12:12      字数:9322
  Dwelt; and I knew it was the Holy Grail;
  Which never eyes on earth again shall see。
  Then fell the floods of heaven drowning the deep。
  And how my feet recrost the deathful ridge
  No memory in me lives; but that I touched
  The chapel…doors at dawn I know; and thence
  Taking my war…horse from the holy man;
  Glad that no phantom vext me more; returned
  To whence I came; the gate of Arthur's wars。'
  'O brother;' asked Ambrosius;'for in sooth
  These ancient booksand they would win theeteem;
  Only I find not there this Holy Grail;
  With miracles and marvels like to these;
  Not all unlike; which oftentime I read;
  Who read but on my breviary with ease;
  Till my head swims; and then go forth and pass
  Down to the little thorpe that lies so close;
  And almost plastered like a martin's nest
  To these old wallsand mingle with our folk;
  And knowing every honest face of theirs
  As well as ever shepherd knew his sheep;
  And every homely secret in their hearts;
  Delight myself with gossip and old wives;
  And ills and aches; and teethings; lyings…in;
  And mirthful sayings; children of the place;
  That have no meaning half a league away:
  Or lulling random squabbles when they rise;
  Chafferings and chatterings at the market…cross;
  Rejoice; small man; in this small world of mine;
  Yea; even in their hens and in their eggs
  O brother; saving this Sir Galahad;
  Came ye on none but phantoms in your quest;
  No man; no woman?'
  Then Sir Percivale:
  'All men; to one so bound by such a vow;
  And women were as phantoms。  O; my brother;
  Why wilt thou shame me to confess to thee
  How far I faltered from my quest and vow?
  For after I had lain so many nights
  A bedmate of the snail and eft and snake;
  In grass and burdock; I was changed to wan
  And meagre; and the vision had not come;
  And then I chanced upon a goodly town
  With one great dwelling in the middle of it;
  Thither I made; and there was I disarmed
  By maidens each as fair as any flower:
  But when they led me into hall; behold;
  The Princess of that castle was the one;
  Brother; and that one only; who had ever
  Made my heart leap; for when I moved of old
  A slender page about her father's hall;
  And she a slender maiden; all my heart
  Went after her with longing:  yet we twain
  Had never kissed a kiss; or vowed a vow。
  And now I came upon her once again;
  And one had wedded her; and he was dead;
  And all his land and wealth and state were hers。
  And while I tarried; every day she set
  A banquet richer than the day before
  By me; for all her longing and her will
  Was toward me as of old; till one fair morn;
  I walking to and fro beside a stream
  That flashed across her orchard underneath
  Her castle…walls; she stole upon my walk;
  And calling me the greatest of all knights;
  Embraced me; and so kissed me the first time;
  And gave herself and all her wealth to me。
  Then I remembered Arthur's warning word;
  That most of us would follow wandering fires;
  And the Quest faded in my heart。  Anon;
  The heads of all her people drew to me;
  With supplication both of knees and tongue:
  〃We have heard of thee:  thou art our greatest knight;
  Our Lady says it; and we well believe:
  Wed thou our Lady; and rule over us;
  And thou shalt be as Arthur in our land。〃
  O me; my brother! but one night my vow
  Burnt me within; so that I rose and fled;
  But wailed and wept; and hated mine own self;
  And even the Holy Quest; and all but her;
  Then after I was joined with Galahad
  Cared not for her; nor anything upon earth。'
  Then said the monk; 'Poor men; when yule is cold;
  Must be content to sit by little fires。
  And this am I; so that ye care for me
  Ever so little; yea; and blest be Heaven
  That brought thee here to this poor house of ours
  Where all the brethren are so hard; to warm
  My cold heart with a friend:  but O the pity
  To find thine own first love once moreto hold;
  Hold her a wealthy bride within thine arms;
  Or all but hold; and thencast her aside;
  Foregoing all her sweetness; like a weed。
  For we that want the warmth of double life;
  We that are plagued with dreams of something sweet
  Beyond all sweetness in a life so rich;
  Ah; blessed Lord; I speak too earthlywise;
  Seeing I never strayed beyond the cell;
  But live like an old badger in his earth;
  With earth about him everywhere; despite
  All fast and penance。  Saw ye none beside;
  None of your knights?'
  'Yea so;' said Percivale:
  'One night my pathway swerving east; I saw
  The pelican on the casque of our Sir Bors
  All in the middle of the rising moon:
  And toward him spurred; and hailed him; and he me;
  And each made joy of either; then he asked;
  〃Where is he? hast thou seen himLancelot?Once;〃
  Said good Sir Bors; 〃he dashed across memad;
  And maddening what he rode:  and when I cried;
  'Ridest thou then so hotly on a quest
  So holy;' Lancelot shouted; 'Stay me not!
  I have been the sluggard; and I ride apace;
  For now there is a lion in the way。'
  So vanished。〃
  'Then Sir Bors had ridden on
  Softly; and sorrowing for our Lancelot;
  Because his former madness; once the talk
  And scandal of our table; had returned;
  For Lancelot's kith and kin so worship him
  That ill to him is ill to them; to Bors
  Beyond the rest:  he well had been content
  Not to have seen; so Lancelot might have seen;
  The Holy Cup of healing; and; indeed;
  Being so clouded with his grief and love;
  Small heart was his after the Holy Quest:
  If God would send the vision; well:  if not;
  The Quest and he were in the hands of Heaven。
  'And then; with small adventure met; Sir Bors
  Rode to the lonest tract of all the realm;
  And found a people there among their crags;
  Our race and blood; a remnant that were left
  Paynim amid their circles; and the stones
  They pitch up straight to heaven:  and their wise men
  Were strong in that old magic which can trace
  The wandering of the stars; and scoffed at him
  And this high Quest as at a simple thing:
  Told him he followedalmost Arthur's words
  A mocking fire:  〃what other fire than he;
  Whereby the blood beats; and the blossom blows;
  And the sea rolls; and all the world is warmed?〃
  And when his answer chafed them; the rough crowd;
  Hearing he had a difference with their priests;
  Seized him; and bound and plunged him into a cell
  Of great piled stones; and lying bounden there
  In darkness through innumerable hours
  He heard the hollow…ringing heavens sweep
  Over him till by miraclewhat else?
  Heavy as it was; a great stone slipt and fell;
  Such as no wind could move:  and through the gap
  Glimmered the streaming scud:  then came a night
  Still as the day was loud; and through the gap
  The seven clear stars of Arthur's Table Round
  For; brother; so one night; because they roll
  Through such a round in heaven; we named the stars;
  Rejoicing in ourselves and in our King
  And these; like bright eyes of familiar friends;
  In on him shone:  〃And then to me; to me;〃
  Said good Sir Bors; 〃beyond all hopes of mine;
  Who scarce had prayed or asked it for myself
  Across the seven clear starsO grace to me
  In colour like the fingers of a hand
  Before a burning taper; the sweet Grail
  Glided and past; and close upon it pealed
  A sharp quick thunder。〃  Afterwards; a maid;
  Who kept our holy faith among her kin
  In secret; entering; loosed and let him go。'
  To whom the monk:  'And I remember now
  That pelican on the casque:  Sir Bors it was
  Who spake so low and sadly at our board;
  And mighty reverent at our grace was he:
  A square…set man and honest; and his eyes;
  An out…door sign of all the warmth within;
  Smiled with his lipsa smile beneath a cloud;
  But heaven had meant it for a sunny one:
  Ay; ay; Sir Bors; who else?  But when ye reached
  The city; found ye all your knights returned;
  Or was there sooth in Arthur's prophecy;
  Tell me; and what said each; and what the King?'
  Then answered Percivale:  'And that can I;
  Brother; and truly; since the living words
  Of so great men as Lancelot and our King
  Pass not from door to door and out again;
  But sit within the house。  O; when we reached
  The city; our horses stumbling as they trode
  On heaps of ruin; hornless unicorns;
  Cracked basilisks; and splintered cockatrices;
  And shattered talbots; which had left the stones
  Raw; that they fell from; brought us to the hall。
  'And there sat Arthur on the dais…throne;
  And those that had gone out upon the Quest;
  Wasted and worn; and but a tithe of them;
  And those that had not; stood before the King;
  Who; when he saw me; rose; and bad me hail;
  Saying; 〃A welfare in thine eye reproves
  Our fear of some disastrous chance for thee
  On hill; or plain; at sea; or flooding ford。
  So fierce a gale made havoc here of late
  Among the strange devices of our kings;
  Yea; shook this newer; stronger hall of ours;
  And from the statue Merlin moulded for us
  Half…wrenched a golden wing; but nowthe Quest;
  This visionhast thou seen the Holy Cup;
  That Joseph brought of old to Glastonbury?〃
  'So when I told him all thyself hast heard;
  Ambrosius; and my fresh but fixt resolve
  To pass away into the quiet life;
  He answered not; but; sharply turning; asked
  Of Gawain; 〃Gawain; was this Quest for thee?〃
  '〃Nay; lord;〃 said Gawain; 〃not for such as I。
  Therefore I commune