第 43 节
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白寒 更新:2021-02-21 10:13 字数:3578
o John;〃 and suddenly I found myself crying! I had to snatch up the earnest orphan and hug her hard; with my head buried in her shoulder; to keep them all from seeing。
John Anderson; my jo John; We clamb the hill thegither; And monie a canty day; John; We've had wi' ane anither; Now we maun totter down; John; But hand in hand we'll go; And sleep thegither at the foot; John Anderson; my jo。
I wonder; when we are old and bent and tottery; can you and I look back; with no regrets; on monie a canty day we've had wi' ane anither? It's nice to look forward to; isn't ita life of work and play and little daily adventures side by side with somebody you love? I'm not afraid of the future any more。 I don't mind growing old with you; Sandy。 〃Time is but the stream I go a…fishing in。〃
The reason I've grown to love these orphans is because they need me so; and that's the reasonat least one of the reasons I've grown to love you。 You're a pathetic figure of a man; my dear; and since you won't make yourself comfortable; you must be MADE comfortable。
We'll build a house on the hillside just beyond the asylum how does a yellow Italian villa strike you; or preferably a pink one? Anyway; it won't be green。 And it won't have a mansard roof。 And we'll have a big cheerful living room; all fireplace and windows and view; and no McGURK。 Poor old thing! won't she be in a temper and cook you a dreadful dinner when she hears the news! But we won't tell her for a long; long timeor anybody else。 It's too scandalous a proceeding right on top of my own broken engagement。 I wrote to Judy last night; and with unprecedented self…control I never let fall so much as a hint。 I'm growing Scotch mysel'!
Perhaps I didn't tell you the exact truth; Sandy; when I said I hadn't known how much I cared。 I think it came to me the night the John Grier burned。 When you were up under that blazing roof; and for the half hour that followed; when we didn't know whether or not you would live; I can't tell you what agonies I went through。 It seemed to me; if you did go; that I would never get over it all my life; that somehow to have let the best friend I ever had pass away with a dreadful chasm of misunderstanding between uswellI couldn't wait for the moment when I should be allowed to see you and talk out all that I have been shutting inside me for five months。 And thenyou know that you gave strict orders to keep me out; and it hurt me dreadfully。 How should I suspect that you really wanted to see me more than any of the others; and that it was just that terrible Scotch moral sense that was holding you back? You are a very good actor; Sandy。 But; my dear; if ever in our lives again we have the tiniest little cloud of a misunderstanding; let's promise not to shut it up inside ourselves; but to TALK。
Last night; after they all got off;early; I am pleased to say; since the chicks no longer live at home;I came upstairs and finished my letter to Judy; and then I looked at the telephone and struggled with temptation。 I wanted to call up 505 and say good night to you。 But I didn't dare。 I'm still quite respectably bashful! So; as the next best thing to talking with you; I got out Burns and read him for an hour。 I dropped asleep with all those Scotch love songs running in my head; and here I am at daybreak writing them to you。
Good…by; Robin lad; I lo'e you weel。
SALLIE。
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