第 15 节
作者:连过十一人      更新:2021-02-20 18:44      字数:9322
  hand; and saying; 〃Good…night;〃 ran after Dawney。
  In the corridor; Dominique; carrying a dish of fruit; met the
  sisters; he informed them that Miss Naylor had retired to bed; that
  Herr Paul would not be home to dinner; his master was dining in his
  room; dinner would be served for Mrs。 Decie and the two young ladies
  in a quarter of an hour: 〃And the fish is good to…night; little
  trouts! try them; Signorina!〃 He moved on quickly; softly; like a
  cat; the tails of his dress…coat flapping; and the heels of his white
  socks gleaming。
  Christian ran upstairs。  She flew about her room; feeling that if she
  once stood still it would all crystallise in hard painful thought;
  which motion alone kept away。  She washed; changed her dress and
  shoes; and ran down to her uncle's room。  Mr。 Treffry had just
  finished dinner; pushed the little table back; and was sitting in his
  chair; with his glasses on his nose; reading the Tines。  Christian
  touched his forehead with her lips。
  〃Glad to see you; Chris。  Your stepfather's out to dinner; and I
  can't stand your aunt when she's in one of her talking moodsbit of
  a humbug; Chris; between ourselves; eh; isn't she?〃 His eyes
  twinkled。
  Christian smiled。  There was a curious happy restlessness in her that
  would not let her keep still。
  〃Picture finished?〃 Mr。 Treffry asked suddenly; taking up the paper
  with a crackle。  〃Don't go and fall in love with the painter; Chris。〃
  Christian was still enough now。
  'Why not?' she thought。  'What should you know about him?  Isn't he
  good enough for me?'  A gong sounded。
  〃There's your dinner;〃 Mr。 Treffry remarked。
  With sudden contrition she bent and kissed him。
  But when she had left the room Mr。 Treffry put down the Times and
  stared at the door; humming to himself; and thoughtfully fingering
  his chin。
  Christian could not eat; she sat; indifferent to the hoverings of
  Dominique; tormented by uneasy fear and longings。  She answered Mrs。
  Decie at random。  Greta kept stealing looks at her from under her
  lashes。
  〃Decided characters are charming; don't you think so; Christian?〃
  Mrs。 Decie said; thrusting her chin a little forward; and modelling
  the words。  〃That is why I like Mr。 Harz so much; such an immense
  advantage for a man to know his mind。  You have only to look at that
  young man to see that he knows what he wants; and means to have it。〃
  Christian pushed her plate away。  Greta; flushing; said abruptly:
  〃Doctor Edmund is not a decided character; I think。  This afternoon
  he said: 'Shall I have some beer…yes; I shallno; I shall not'; then
  he ordered the beer; so; when it came; he gave it to the soldiers。〃
  Mrs。 Decie turned her enigmatic smile from one girl to the other。
  When dinner was over they went into her room。  Greta stole at once to
  the piano; where her long hair fell almost to the keys; silently she
  sat there fingering the notes; smiling to herself; and looking at her
  aunt; who was reading Pater's essays。  Christian too had taken up a
  book; but soon put it downof several pages she had not understood a
  word。  She went into the garden and wandered about the lawn; clasping
  her hands behind her head。  The air was heavy; very distant thunder
  trembled among the mountains; flashes of summer lightning played over
  the trees; and two great moths were hovering about a rosebush。
  Christian watched their soft uncertain rushes。  Going to the little
  summer…house she flung herself down on a seat; and pressed her hands
  to her heart。
  There was a strange and sudden aching there。  Was he going from her?
  If so; what would be left?  How little and how narrow seemed the
  outlook of her lifewith the world waiting for her; the world of
  beauty; effort; self…sacrifice; fidelity!  It was as though a flash
  of that summer lightning had fled by; singeing her; taking from her
  all powers of flight; burning off her wings; as off one of those pale
  hovering moths。  Tears started up; and trickled down her face。
  'Blind!' she thought; 'how could I have been so blind?'
  Some one came down the path。
  〃Who's there?〃 she cried。
  Harz stood in the doorway。
  〃Why did you come out?〃 he said。  〃Ah! why did you come out?〃  He
  caught her hand; Christian tried to draw it from him; and to turn her
  eyes away; but she could not。  He flung himself down on his knees;
  and cried: 〃I love you!〃
  In a rapture of soft terror Christian bent her forehead down to his
  hand。
  〃What are you doing?〃 she heard him say。  〃Is it possible that you
  love me?〃 and she felt his kisses on her hair。
  〃My sweet! it will be so hard for you; you are so little; so little;
  and so weak。〃  Clasping his hand closer to her face; she murmured: 〃I
  don't care。〃
  There was a long; soft silence; that seemed to last for ever。
  Suddenly she threw her arms round his neck and kissed him。
  〃Whatever comes!〃 she whispered; and gathering her dress; escaped
  from him into the darkness。
  XII
  Christian woke next morning with a smile。  In her attitudes; her
  voice; her eyes; there was a happy and sweet seriousness; as if she
  were hugging some holy thought。  After breakfast she took a book and
  sat in the open window; whence she could see the poplar…trees
  guarding the entrance。  There was a breeze; the roses close by kept
  nodding to her; the cathedral bells were in full chime; bees hummed
  above the lavender; and in the sky soft clouds were floating like
  huge; white birds。
  The sounds of Miss Naylor's staccato dictation travelled across the
  room; and Greta's sighs as she took it down; one eye on her paper;
  one eye on Scruff; who lay with a black ear flapped across his paw;
  and his tan eyebrows quivering。  He was in disgrace; for Dominique;
  coming on him unawares; had seen him 〃say his prayers〃 before a
  pudding; and take the pudding for reward。
  Christian put her book down gently; and slipped through the window。
  Harz was coming in from the road。  〃I am all yours!〃 she whispered。
  His fingers closed on hers; and he went into the house。
  She slipped back; took up her book; and waited。  It seemed long
  before he came out; but when he did he waved her back; and hurried
  on; she had a glimpse of his face; white to the lips。  Feeling faint
  and sick; she flew to her stepfather's room。
  Herr Paul was standing in a corner with the utterly disturbed
  appearance of an easy…going man; visited by the unexpected。  His fine
  shirt…front was crumpled as if his breast had heaved too suddenly
  under strong emotion; his smoked eyeglasses dangled down his back;
  his fingers were embedded in his beard。  He was fixing his eye on a
  spot in the floor as though he expected it to explode and blow them
  to fragments。  In another corner Mrs。 Decie; with half…closed eyes;
  was running her finger…tips across her brow。
  〃What have you said to him?〃 cried Christian。
  Herr Paul regarded her with glassy eyes。
  〃Mein Gott!〃 he said。  〃Your aunt and I!〃
  〃What have you said to him?〃 repeated Christian。
  〃The impudence!  An anarchist!。  A beggar!〃
  〃Paul!〃 murmured Mrs。 Decie。
  〃The outlaw!  The fellow!〃  Herr Paul began to stride about the room。
  Quivering from head to foot; Christian cried: 〃How dared you?〃 and
  ran from the room; pushing aside Miss Naylor and Greta; who stood
  blanched and frightened in the doorway。
  Herr Paul stopped in his tramp; and; still with his eyes fixed on the
  floor; growled:
  〃A fine thing…hein?  What's coming?  Will you please tell me?  An
  anarchista beggar!〃
  〃Paul!〃 murmured Mrs。 Decie。
  〃Paul!  Paul!  And you!〃 he pointed to Miss Naylor〃Two women with
  eyes!hein!〃
  〃There is nothing to be gained by violence;〃 Mrs。 Decie murmured;
  passing her handkerchief across her lips。  Miss Naylor; whose thin
  brown cheeks had flushed; advanced towards him。
  〃I hope you do not〃she said; 〃I am sure there was nothing that I
  could have preventedI should be glad if that were understood。〃
  And; turning with some dignity; the little lady went away; closing
  the door behind her。
  〃You hear!〃 Herr Paul said; violently sarcastic: 〃nothing she could
  have prevented!  Enfin;! Will you please tell me what I am to do?〃
  〃Men of the world〃whose philosophy is a creature of circumstance
  and accepted thingsfind any deviation from the path of their
  convictions dangerous; shocking; and an intolerable bore。  Herr Paul
  had spent his life laughing at convictions; the matter had but to
  touch him personally; and the tap of laughter was turned off。  That
  any one to whom he was the lawful guardian should marry other than a
  well…groomed man; properly endowed with goods; properly selected; was
  beyond expression horrid。  From his point of view he had great excuse
  for horror; and he was naturally unable to judge whether he had
  excuse for horror from other points of view。  His amazement had in it
  a spice of the pathetic; he was like a child i