第 11 节
作者:连过十一人      更新:2021-02-20 18:44      字数:9322
  Just before daybreak he slipped out with a knapsack; taking the road
  towards Meran。
  He had not quite passed through Gries when he overtook a man walking
  in the middle of the road and leaving a trail of cigar smoke behind
  him。
  〃Ah! my friend;〃 the smoker said; 〃you walk early; are you going my
  way?〃
  It was Count Sarelli。  The raw light had imparted a grey tinge to his
  pale face; the growth of his beard showed black already beneath the
  skin; his thumbs were hooked in the pockets of a closely buttoned
  coat; he gesticulated with his fingers。
  〃You are making a journey?〃 he said; nodding at the knapsack。  〃You
  are earlyI am late; our friend has admirable kummelI have drunk
  too much。  You have not been to bed; I think?  If there is no sleep
  in one's bed it is no good going to look for it。  You find that?  It
  is better to drink kummel。。。!  Pardon!  You are doing the right
  thing: get away!  Get away as fast as possible!  Don't wait; and let
  it catch you!〃
  Harz stared at him amazed。
  〃Pardon!〃 Sarelli said again; raising his hat; 〃that girlthe white
  girlI saw。  You do well to get away!〃 he swayed a little as he
  walked。  〃That old fellowwhat is his name…Trrreffr…ry!  What ideas
  of honour!〃  He mumbled: 〃Honour is an abstraction!  If a man is not
  true to an abstraction; he is a low type; but wait a minute!〃
  He put his hand to his side as though in pain。
  The hedges were brightening with a faint pinky glow; there was no
  sound on the long; deserted road; but that of their footsteps;
  suddenly a bird commenced to chirp; another answeredthe world
  seemed full of these little voices。
  Sarelli stopped。
  〃That white girl;〃 he said; speaking with rapidity。  〃Yes! You do
  well! get away!  Don't let it catch you!  I waited; it caught me
  what happened?  Everything horribleand nowkummel!〃  Laughing a
  thick laugh; he gave a twirl to his moustache; and swaggered on。
  〃I was a fine fellownothing too big for Mario Sarelli; the regiment
  looked to me。  Then she camewith her eyes and her white dress;
  always white; like this one; the little mole on her chin; her hands
  for ever movingtheir touch as warm as sunbeams。  Then; no longer
  Sarelli this; and that!  The little house close to the ramparts!  Two
  arms; two eyes; and nothing here;〃 he tapped his breast; 〃but flames
  that made ashes quicklyin her; like this ash!〃 he flicked the
  white flake off his cigar。  〃It's droll!  You agree; hein?  Some day
  I shall go back and kill her。  In the meantimekummel!〃
  He stopped at a house close to the road; and stood still; his teeth
  bared in a grin。
  〃But I bore you;〃 he said。  His cigar; flung down; sputtered forth
  its sparks on the road in front of Harz。  〃I live heregood…morning!
  You are a man for workyour honour is your Art!  I know; and you are
  young!  The man who loves flesh better than his honour is a low type…
  …I am a low type。  I! Mario Sarelli; a low type! I love flesh better
  than my honour!〃
  He remained swaying at the gate with the grin fixed on his face; then
  staggered up the steps; and banged the door。  But before Harz had
  walked on; he again appeared; beckoning; in the doorway。  Obeying an
  impulse; Harz went in。
  〃We will make a night of it;〃 said SareIIi; 〃wine; brandy; kummel?  I
  am virtuouskummel it must be for me!〃
  He sat down at a piano; and began to touch the keys。  Harz poured out
  some wine。  Sarelli nodded。
  〃You begin with that?  Allegropiupresto!
  Winebrandykummel!〃 he quickened the time of the tune: 〃it is not
  too long a passage; and this〃he took his hands off the keys〃comes
  after。〃
  Harz smiled。
  〃Some men do not kill themselves;〃 he said。
  Sarelli; who was bending and swaying to the music of a tarantella;
  broke off; and letting his eyes rest on the painter; began playing
  Schumann's Kinderscenen。  Harz leaped to his feet。
  〃Stop that!〃 he cried。
  〃It pricks you?〃 said Sarelli suavely; 〃what do you think of this?〃
  he played again; crouching over the piano; and making the notes sound
  like the crying of a wounded animal。
  〃For me!〃 he said; swinging round; and rising。
  〃Your health!  And so you don't believe in suicide; but in murder?
  The custom is the other way; but you don't believe in customs?
  Customs are only for Society?〃  He drank a glass of kummel。  〃You do
  not love Society?〃
  Harz looked at him intently; he did not want to quarrel。
  〃I am not too fond of other people's thoughts;〃 he said at last; 〃I
  prefer to think my own。
  〃And is Society never right?  That poor Society!〃
  〃Society!  What is Societya few men in good coats?  What has it
  done for me?〃
  Sarelli bit the end off a cigar。
  〃Ah!〃 he said; 〃now we are coming to it。  It is good to be an artist;
  a fine bantam of an artist; where other men have their dis…ci…pline;
  he has his; what shall we sayhis mound of roses?〃
  The painter started to his feet。
  〃Yes;〃 said Sarelli; with a hiccough; 〃you are a fine fellow!〃
  〃And you are drunk!〃 cried Harz。
  〃A little drunknot much; not enough to matter!〃
  Harz broke into laughter。  It was crazy to stay there listening to
  this mad fellow。  What had brought him in?  He moved towards the
  door。
  〃Ah!〃 said Sarelli; 〃but it is no good going to bedlet us talk。  I
  have a lot to sayit is pleasant to talk to anarchists at times。〃
  Full daylight was already coming through the chinks of the shutters。
  〃You are all anarchists; you painters; you writing fellows。  You live
  by playing ball with facts。  Imagesnothing solid… hein?  You're all
  for new things too; to tickle your nerves。  No discipline!  True
  anarchists; every one of you!〃
  Harz poured out another glass of wine and drank it off。  The man's
  feverish excitement was catching。
  〃Only fools;〃 he replied; 〃take things for granted。  As for
  discipline; what do you aristocrats; or bourgeois know of discipline?
  Have you ever been hungry?  Have you ever had your soul down on its
  back?〃
  〃Soul on its back?  That is good!〃
  〃A man's no use;〃 cried Harz; 〃if he's always thinking of what others
  think; he must stand on his own legs。〃
  〃He must not then consider other people?〃
  〃Not from cowardice anyway。〃
  Sarelli drank。
  〃What would you do;〃 he said; striking his chest; 〃if you had a
  devil…here?  Would you go to bed?〃
  A sort of pity seized on Harz。  He wanted to say something that would
  be consoling but could find no words; and suddenly he felt disgusted。
  What link was there between him and this man; between his love and
  this man's love?
  〃Harz!〃 muttered Sarelli; 〃Harz means 'tar;' hein?  Your family is
  not an old one?〃
  Harz glared; and said: 〃My father is a peasant。〃
  Sarelli lifted the kummel bottle and emptied it into his glass; with
  a steady hand。
  〃You're honestand we both have devils。  I forgot; I brought you in
  to see a picture!〃
  He threw wide the shutters; the windows were already open; and a rush
  of air came in。
  〃Ah!〃 he said; sniffing; 〃smells of the earth; nicht wahr; Herr
  Artist?  You should knowit belongs to your father。。。。  Come; here's
  my picture; a Correggio!  What do you think of it?〃
  〃It is a copy。〃
  〃You think?〃
  〃I know。〃
  〃Then you have given me the lie; Signor;〃 and drawing out his
  handkerchief SareIIi flicked it in the painter's face。
  Harz turned white。
  〃Duelling is a good custom!〃 said Sarelli。  〃I shall have the honour
  to teach you just this one; unless you are afraid。  Here are pistols…
  …this room is twenty feet across at least; twenty feet is no bad
  distance。〃
  And pulling out a drawer he took two pistols from a case; and put
  them on the table。
  〃The light is goodbut perhaps you are afraid。〃
  〃Give me one!〃 shouted the infuriated painter; 〃and go to the devil
  for a fool〃
  〃One moment!〃 Sarelli murmured: 〃I will load them; they are more
  useful loaded。〃
  Harz leaned out of the window; his head was in a whirl。  'What on
  earth is happening?' he thought。  'He's mador I am!  Confound him!
  I'm not going to be killed!'  He turned and went towards the table。
  Sarelli's head was sunk on his arms; he was asleep。  Harz
  methodically took up the pistols; and put them back into the drawer。
  A sound made him turn his head; there stood a tall; strong young
  woman in a loose gown caught together on her chest。  Her grey eyes
  glanced from the painter to the bottles; from the bottles to the
  pistol…case。  A simple reasoning; which struck Harz as comic。
  〃It is often like this;〃 she said in the country patois; 〃der Herr
  must not be frightened。〃
  Lifting the motionless Sarelli as if he were a baby; she laid him on
  a couch。
  〃Ah!〃 she said; sitting down and resting her elbow on the table; 〃he
  will not wake!〃
  Harz bowed to her; her patient figure; in spite of its youth and
  strength; seemed to him pathetic。  Taking up his kn