第 2 节
作者:生在秋天      更新:2021-02-20 18:40      字数:9322
  utterly seriously; a little later still; lovingly; gratefully;
  devotedly; finally:  fiercely; rabidly; uncompromisingly。  After
  that I was welded to my faith; I was theoretically ready to die
  for it; and I looked down with compassion not unmixed with scorn
  upon everybody else's faith that didn't tally with mine。  That
  faith; imposed upon me by self…interest in that ancient day;
  remains my faith today; and in it I find comfort; solace; peace;
  and never…failing joy。  You see how curiously theological it is。
  The 〃rice Christian〃 of the Orient goes through the very same
  steps; when he is after rice and the missionary is after HIM; he
  goes for rice; and remains to worship。
  Ealer did a lot of our 〃reasoning〃not to say substantially
  all of it。  The slaves of his cult have a passion for calling it
  by that large name。  We others do not call our inductions and
  deductions and reductions by any name at all。  They show for
  themselves what they are; and we can with tranquil confidence
  leave the world to ennoble them with a title of its own choosing。
  Now and then when Ealer had to stop to cough; I pulled my
  induction…talents together and hove the controversial lead
  myself:  always getting eight feet; eight and a half; often nine;
  sometimes even quarter…less…twainas _I_ believed; but always
  〃no bottom;〃 as HE said。
  I got the best of him only once。  I prepared myself。  I
  wrote out a passage from Shakespeareit may have been the very
  one I quoted awhile ago; I don't rememberand riddled it with
  his wild steamboatful interlardings。  When an unrisky opportunity
  offered; one lovely summer day; when we had sounded and buoyed a
  tangled patch of crossings known as Hell's Half Acre; and were
  aboard again and he had sneaked the PENNSYLVANIA triumphantly
  through it without once scraping sand; and the A。 T。 LACEY had
  followed in our wake and got stuck; and he was feeling good; I
  showed it to him。  It amused him。  I asked him to fire it off
  READ it; read it; I diplomatically added; as only HE could read
  dramatic poetry。  The compliment touched him where he lived。  He
  did read it; read it with surpassing fire and spirit; read it as
  it will never be read again; for HE know how to put the right
  music into those thunderous interlardings and make them seem a
  part of the text; make them sound as if they were bursting from
  Shakespeare's own soul; each one of them a golden inspiration and
  not to be left out without damage to the massed and magnificent
  whole。
  I waited a week; to let the incident fade; waited longer;
  waited until he brought up for reasonings and vituperation my pet
  position; my pet argument; the one which I was fondest of; the
  one which I prized far above all others in my ammunition…wagon
  to wit; that Shakespeare couldn't have written Shakespeare's
  words; for the reason that the man who wrote them was limitlessly
  familiar with the laws; and the law…courts; and law…proceedings;
  and lawyer…talk; and lawyer…waysand if Shakespeare was
  possessed of the infinitely divided star…dust that constituted
  this vast wealth; HOW did he get it; and WHERE and WHEN?
  〃From books。〃
  From books!  That was always the idea。  I answered as my
  readings of the champions of my side of the great controversy had
  taught me to answer:  that a man can't handle glibly and easily
  and comfortably and successfully the argot of a trade at which he
  has not personally served。  He will make mistakes; he will not;
  and cannot; get the trade…phrasings precisely and exactly right;
  and the moment he departs; by even a shade; from a common trade…
  form; the reader who has served that trade will know the writer
  HASN'T。  Ealer would not be convinced; he said a man could learn
  how to correctly handle the subtleties and mysteries and free…
  masonries of ANY trade by careful reading and studying。  But when
  I got him to read again the passage from Shakespeare with the
  interlardings; he perceived; himself; that books couldn't teach a
  student a bewildering multitude of pilot…phrases so thoroughly
  and perfectly that he could talk them off in book and play or
  conversation and make no mistake that a pilot would not
  immediately discover。  It was a triumph for me。  He was silent
  awhile; and I knew what was happeninghe was losing his temper。
  And I knew he would presently close the session with the same old
  argument that was always his stay and his support in time of
  need; the same old argument; the one I couldn't answer; because I
  dasn'tthe argument that I was an ass; and better shut up。  He
  delivered it; and I obeyed。
  O dear; how long ago it washow pathetically long ago!  And
  here am I; old; forsaken; forlorn; and alone; arranging to get
  that argument out of somebody again。
  When a man has a passion for Shakespeare; it goes without
  saying that he keeps company with other standard authors。  Ealer
  always had several high…class books in the pilot…house; and he
  read the same ones over and over again; and did not care to
  change to newer and fresher ones。  He played well on the flute;
  and greatly enjoyed hearing himself play。  So did I。  He had a
  notion that a flute would keep its health better if you took it
  apart when it was not standing a watch; and so; when it was not
  on duty it took its rest; disjointed; on the compass…shelf under
  the breastboard。  When the PENNSYLVANIA blew up and became a
  drifting rack…heap freighted with wounded and dying poor souls
  (my young brother Henry among them); pilot Brown had the watch
  below; and was probably asleep and never knew what killed him;
  but Ealer escaped unhurt。  He and his pilot…house were shot up
  into the air; then they fell; and Ealer sank through the ragged
  cavern where the hurricane…deck and the boiler…deck had been; and
  landed in a nest of ruins on the main deck; on top of one of the
  unexploded boilers; where he lay prone in a fog of scald and
  deadly steam。  But not for long。  He did not lose his headlong
  familiarity with danger had taught him to keep it; in any and all
  emergencies。  He held his coat…lapels to his nose with one hand;
  to keep out the steam; and scrabbled around with the other till
  he found the joints of his flute; then he took measures to save
  himself alive; and was successful。  I was not on board。  I had
  been put ashore in New Orleans by Captain Klinenfelter。  The
  reasonhowever; I have told all about it in the book called OLD
  TIMES ON THE MISSISSIPPI; and it isn't important; anyway; it is
  so long ago。
  II
  When I was a Sunday…school scholar; something more than
  sixty years ago; I became interested in Satan; and wanted to find
  out all I could about him。  I began to ask questions; but my
  class…teacher; Mr。 Barclay; the stone…mason; was reluctant about
  answering them; it seemed to me。  I was anxious to be praised for
  turning my thoughts to serious subjects when there wasn't another
  boy in the village who could be hired to do such a thing。  I was
  greatly interested in the incident of Eve and the serpent; and
  thought Eve's calmness was perfectly noble。  I asked Mr。 Barclay
  if he had ever heard of another woman who; being approached by a
  serpeant; would not excuse herself and break for the nearest
  timber。  He did not answer my question; but rebuked me for
  inquiring into matters above my age and comprehension。  I will
  say for Mr。 Barclay that he was willing to tell me the facts of
  Satan's history; but he stopped there:  he wouldn't allow any
  discussion of them。
  In the course of time we exhausted the facts。  There were
  only five or six of them; you could set them all down on a
  visiting…card。  I was disappointed。  I had been meditating a
  biography; and was grieved to find that there were no materials。
  I said as much; with the tears running down。  Mr。 Barclay's
  sympathy and compassion were aroused; for he was a most kind and
  gentle…spirited man; and he patted me on the head and cheered me
  up by saying there was a whole vast ocean of materials!  I can
  still feel the happy thrill which these blessed words shot
  through me。
  Then he began to bail out that ocean's riches for my
  encouragement  and joy。  Like this:  it was 〃conjectured〃though
  not establishedthat Satan was originally an angel in Heaven;
  that he fell; that he rebelled; and brought on a war; that he was
  defeated; and banished to perdition。  Also; 〃we have reason to
  believe〃 that later he did so and so; that 〃we are warranted in
  supposing〃 that at a subsequent time he traveled extensively;
  seeking whom he might devour; that a couple of centuries
  afterward; 〃as tradition instructs us;〃 he took up the cruel
  trade of tempting people to their ruin; with vast and fearful
  results; that by and by; 〃as the probabilities seem to indicate;〃
  he may have done certain things; he might have done certain other
  things; he must have done still other things。
  And so on and so on。  We set down the five known facts by
  themselves on a piece of paper; a