第 41 节
作者:一米八      更新:2021-02-20 18:34      字数:9322
  only so long as he did not know; so much the better。
  With careful step Hawksley manoeuvred his retreat so that it brought
  him to Cutty's bedroom door。  The door was unlocked。  He entered
  the room。  What a lark!  They would hide his own clothes; so much
  the worse for the old beggar's wardrobe。  Street clothes。  Presently
  he found a dark suit; commendable not so much for its style as for
  the fact that it was the nearest fit he could find。  He had to roll
  up the trouser hems。
  Hats。  Chuckling like a boy rummaging a jam closet; he rifled the
  shelves and pulled down a black derby of an unknown vintage。  Large;
  but a runner of folded paper reduced the size。  As he pressed the
  relic firmly down on his head he winced。  A stab over his eyes。  He
  waited doubtfully; but there was no recurrence。  Fit as a fiddle。
  Of course he could not stoop without a flash of vertigo; but on his
  feet he was top…hole。  He was gaining every day。
  Luck。  He might have come out of it with the blank mind of a newborn
  babe; and here he was; keen to resume his adventures。  Luck。  They
  had not stopped to see if he was actually dead。  Some passer…by in
  the hall had probably alarmed them。  That handkerchief had carried
  him round the brink。  Perhaps Fate intended letting him get through
  … written on his pass an extension of his leave of absence。  Or she
  had some new torture in reserve。
  Now for a stout walking stick。  He selected a blackthorn; twirled it;
  saluted; and posed before the mirror。  Not so bally rotten。  He would
  pass。  Next; he remembered that there were some flowers in the
  dining room … window boxes with scarlet geraniums。  He broke off a
  sprig and drew it through his buttonhole。
  Outside there was a cold; pale April sky; presaging wind and rain。
  Unimportant。  He was going down into the streets for an hour or so。
  The colour and action of a crowded street; the lure was irresistible。
  Who would dare touch him in the crowd?  These rooms had suddenly
  become intolerable。
  He leaned against the side of the window。  Roofs; thousands of them;
  flat; domed; pinnacled; and somewhere under one of these roofs
  Stefani Gregor was eating his heart out。  It did not matter that
  this queer old eagle whom everybody called Cutty had promised to
  bring Stefani home。  It might be too late。  Stefani was old; highly
  strung。  Who knew what infernal lies Karlov had told him?  Stefani
  could stand up under physical torture; but to tear at his soul; to
  twist and rend his spirit!
  The bubble in the champagne died down … as it always will if one
  permits it to stand。  He felt the old mood seep through the dikes
  of his gayety。  Alone。  A familiar face … he would have dropped on
  his knees and thanked God for the sight of a familiar face。  These
  people; kindly as they were … what were they but strangers?
  Yesterday he had not known them; to…morrow he would leave them
  behind forever。  All at once the mystery of this bubbling idea was
  bared: he was going to risk his life in the streets in the vague
  hope of seeing some face he had known in the days before the world
  had gone drunk on blood。  One familiar face。
  Of course he would never forget … at any rate; not the girl whose
  courage had made possible this hour。  Those chaps; scared off
  temporarily; might have returned。  What had become of her?  He was
  a1ways seeing her lovely face in the shadows; now tender; now
  resolute; now mocking。  Doubtless he thought of her constantly
  because his freedom of action was limited。  He hadn't diversion
  enough。  Books and fiddling; these carried him but halfway through
  the boredom。  Where was she?  Daily he had called her by telephone;
  no answer。  The Jap shook his head; the slangy boy in the lift shook
  his。
  She was a thoroughbred; even if she had been born of middle …class
  parentage。  He laughed bitterly。  Middle class。  A homeless;
  countryless derelict; and he had the impudence to revert to
  comparisons that no longer existed in this topsy…turvy old world。
  He was an upstart。  The final curtain had dropped between him and
  his world; and he was still thinking in the ancient make…up。  Middle
  class!  He was no better than a troglodyte; set down in a new
  wilderness。
  He heard the curtain rings slither on the pole。  Believing the
  intruder to be Kuroki he turned belligerently。  And there she stood
  … the girl herself!  The poise of her reminded him of the Winged
  Victory in the Louvre。  Where there had been a cup of champagne in
  his veins circumstance now poured a magnum。
  〃You!〃 he cried。
  〃What has happened?  Where are you going in those clothes?〃 demanded
  Kitty。
  〃I am running away … for an hour or so。〃
  〃But you must not!  The risks … after all the trouble we've had to
  help you!〃
  〃I shall be perfectly safe; for you are going with me。  Aren't you
  my guardian angel?  Well; rather!  The two of us … people; lights;
  shop windows!  Perfectly splendiferous!  Honestly; now; where's the
  harm?〃  He approached her rapidly as he spoke; and before the spell
  of him could be shaken off Kitty found her hands imprisoned in his。
  〃Please!  I've been so damnably bored。  The two of us in the streets;
  among the crowds!  No one will dare touch us。  Can't you see?  And
  then … I say; this is ripping !  … we'll have dinner together here。
  I will play for you on the old Amati。  Please!〃
  The fire of him communicated to the combustibles in Kitty's soul。
  A wild; reckless irony besieged her。  This adventure would be
  exactly what she needed; it would sweep clear the fog separating
  one side of her brain from the other。  For it was plain enough
  that part of her brain refused to cooperate with the other。  A
  break in the trend of thought: she might succeed in getting hold
  of the puzzle if she could drop it absolutely for a little while
  and then pick it up again。
  She had not gone home。  She had not notified Bernini。  She had
  checked her luggage in the station parcel room and come directly
  here。  For what?  To let the sense of luxury overcome the hidden
  repugnance of the idea of marrying Cutty; divorcing him; and
  living on his money。  To put herself in the way of visible
  temptation。  What fretted her so; what was wearing her down to
  the point of fatigue; was the patent imbecility of her reluctance。
  There would have been some sense of it if Cutty had proposed a
  real marriage。  All she had to do was mumble a few words; sign
  her name to a document; live out West for a few months; and be
  in comfortable circumstances all the rest of her life。  And she
  doddered!
  She would run the streets with Johnny Two…Hawks; return; and dine
  with him。  Who cared?  Proper or improper; whose business was it but
  Kitty Conover's?  Danger?  That was the peculiar attraction。  She
  wanted to rush into danger; some tense excitement the strain of
  which would lift her out of her mood。  A recurrent touch of the wild
  impulsiveness of her childhood。  Hadn't she sometimes flown out into
  thunderstorms; after merited punishment; to punish the mother whom
  thunder terrorized?  And now she was going to rush into unknown
  danger to punish Fate … like a silly child!  Nevertheless; she would
  go into the streets with Johnny Two…Hawks。
  〃But are you strong enough to venture on the streets?〃
  〃Rot!  Dash it all; I'm no mollycoddle!  All nonsense to keep me
  pinned in like this。  Will you go with me … be my guide?〃
  〃Yes!〃 She shot out the word and crossed the Rubicon before reason
  could begin to lecture。  Besides; wasn't reason treating her shabbily
  in withholding the key to the riddle?  〃Johnny Two…Hawks; I will go
  as far as Harlem if you want me to。〃
  〃Johnny Two…Hawks!〃  He laughed joyously; then kissed her hands。
  But he had to pay for this bending … a stab that filled his eyes
  with flying sparks。  He must remember; once out of doors; not to
  stoop quickly。  〃I say; you're the jolliest girl I ever met!  Just
  the two of us; what?〃
  〃The way you speak English is wonderful!〃
  〃Simple enough to explain。  Had an English nurse from the beginning。
  Spoke English and Italian before I spoke Russian。〃
  He seized the wooden mallet and beat the Burmese gong … a flat piece
  of brass cut in the shape of a bell。  The clear; whirring vibrations
  filled the room。  Long before these spent themselves Kuroki appeared
  on the threshold。  He bobbed。
  〃Kuroki; Miss Conover is dining here with me to…night。  Seven
  o'clock sharp。  The best you have in the larder。〃
  〃Yes; sair。  You are going out; sair?〃
  〃For a bit of fresh air。〃
  〃And I am going with him; Kuroki;〃 said Kitty。  Kuroki bobbed again。
  〃Dinner at seven; sair。〃  Another bob; and he returned to the
  kitchen; smiling。  The girl was free to come and go; of course; but
  the ancient enemy of Nippon would not pass the elevator door。  Let
  him find that out for himself。
  When the elevator arrived the boy did not open the door。  He noted
  the derby on Hawksley's head。
  〃I can take you down; Miss Conover; but I cannot take Mr。 Hawksley。
  When the boss gives me an order I obey it … if I possibly can。  On
  the day the boss tells me you can go strolling; I'll give you the
  key to the city。  Until then; nix!  No use arguing; Mr。 Hawksley。〃
  〃I shan't argue;〃 replied Hawksley; meekly。  〃I am really a prisoner