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雨来不躲 更新:2021-02-20 18:26 字数:9322
that high rivalry; and sat inglorious in the midst of your well…
being; in your pleasant room … and Damien; crowned with glories and
horrors; toiled and rotted in that pigsty of his under the cliffs
of Kalawao … you; the elect who would not; were the last man on
earth to collect and propagate gossip on the volunteer who would
and did。
I think I see you … for I try to see you in the flesh as I write
these sentences … I think I see you leap at the word pigsty; a
hyperbolical expression at the best。 〃He had no hand in the
reforms;〃 he was 〃a coarse; dirty man〃; these were your own words;
and you may think it possible that I am come to support you with
fresh evidence。 In a sense; it is even so。 Damien has been too
much depicted with a conventional halo and conventional features;
so drawn by men who perhaps had not the eye to remark or the pen to
express the individual; or who perhaps were only blinded and
silenced by generous admiration; such as I partly envy for myself …
such as you; if your soul were enlightened; would envy on your
bended knees。 It is the least defect of such a method of
portraiture that it makes the path easy for the devil's advocate;
and leaves the misuse of the slanderer a considerable field of
truth。 For the truth that is suppressed by friends is the readiest
weapon of the enemy。 The world; in your despite; may perhaps owe
you something; if your letter be the means of substituting once for
all a credible likeness for a wax abstraction。 For; if that world
at all remember you; on the day when Damien of Molokai shall be
named a Saint; it will be in virtue of one work: your letter to the
Reverend H。 B。 Gage。
You may ask on what authority I speak。 It was my inclement destiny
to become acquainted; not with Damien; but with Dr。 Hyde。 When I
visited the lazaretto; Damien was already in his resting grave。
But such information as I have; I gathered on the spot in
conversation with those who knew him well and long: some indeed who
revered his memory; but others who had sparred and wrangled with
him; who beheld him with no halo; who perhaps regarded him with
small respect; and through whose unprepared and scarcely partial
communications the plain; human features of the man shone on me
convincingly。 These gave me what knowledge I possess; and I learnt
it in that scene where it could be most completely and sensitively
understood … Kalawao; which you have never visited; about which you
have never so much as endeavoured to inform yourself; for; brief as
your letter is; you have found the means to stumble into that
confession。 〃LESS THAN ONE…HALF of the island;〃 you say; 〃is
devoted to the lepers。〃 Molokai … 〃MOLOKAI AHINA;〃 the 〃grey;〃
lofty; and most desolate island … along all its northern side
plunges a front of precipice into a sea of unusual profundity。
This range of cliff is; from east to west; the true end and
frontier of the island。 Only in one spot there projects into the
ocean a certain triangular and rugged down; grassy; stony; windy;
and rising in the midst into a hill with a dead crater: the whole
bearing to the cliff that overhangs it somewhat the same relation
as a bracket to a wall。 With this hint you will now be able to
pick out the leper station on a map; you will be able to judge how
much of Molokai is thus cut off between the surf and precipice;
whether less than a half; or less than a quarter; or a fifth; or a
tenth … or; say a twentieth; and the next time you burst into print
you will be in a position to share with us the issue of your
calculations。
I imagine you to be one of those persons who talk with cheerfulness
of that place which oxen and wain…ropes could not drag you to
behold。 You; who do not even know its situation on the map;
probably denounce sensational descriptions; stretching your limbs
the while in your pleasant parlour on Beretania Street。 When I was
pulled ashore there one early morning; there sat with me in the
boat two sisters; bidding farewell (in humble imitation of Damien)
to the lights and joys of human life。 One of these wept silently;
I could not withhold myself from joining her。 Had you been there;
it is my belief that nature would have triumphed even in you; and
as the boat drew but a little nearer; and you beheld the stairs
crowded with abominable deformations of our common manhood; and saw
yourself landing in the midst of such a population as only now and
then surrounds us in the horror of a nightmare … what a haggard eye
you would have rolled over your reluctant shoulder towards the
house on Beretania Street! Had you gone on; had you found every
fourth face a blot upon the landscape; had you visited the hospital
and seen the butt…ends of human beings lying there almost
unrecognisable; but still breathing; still thinking; still
remembering; you would have understood that life in the lazaretto
is an ordeal from which the nerves of a man's spirit shrink; even
as his eye quails under the brightness of the sun; you would have
felt it was (even today) a pitiful place to visit and a hell to
dwell in。 It is not the fear of possible infection。 That seems a
little thing when compared with the pain; the pity; and the disgust
of the visitor's surroundings; and the atmosphere of affliction;
disease; and physical disgrace in which he breathes。 I do not
think I am a man more than usually timid; but I never recall the
days and nights I spent upon that island promontory (eight days and
seven nights); without heartfelt thankfulness that I am somewhere
else。 I find in my diary that I speak of my stay as a 〃grinding
experience〃: I have once jotted in the margin; 〃HARROWING is the
word〃; and when the MOKOLII bore me at last towards the outer
world; I kept repeating to myself; with a new conception of their
pregnancy; those simple words of the song …
〃 'Tis the most distressful country that ever yet was seen。〃
And observe: that which I saw and suffered from was a settlement
purged; bettered; beautified; the new village built; the hospital
and the Bishop…Home excellently arranged; the sisters; the poctor;
and the missionaries; all indefatigable in their noble tasks。 It
was a different place when Damien came there and made this great
renunciation; and slept that first night under a tree amidst his
rotting brethren: alone with pestilence; and looking forward (with
what courage; with what pitiful sinkings of dread; God only knows)
to a lifetime of dressing sores and stumps。
You will say; perhaps; I am too sensitive; that sights as painful
abound in cancer hospitals and are confronted daily by doctors and
nurses。 I have long learned to admire and envy the doctors and the
nurses。 But there is no cancer hospital so large and populous as
Kalawao and Kalaupapa; and in such a matter every fresh case; like
every inch of length in the pipe of an organ; deepens the note of
the impression; for what daunts the onlooker is that monstrous sum
of human suffering by which he stands surrounded。 Lastly; no
doctor or nurse is called upon to enter once for all the doors of
that gehenna; they do not say farewell; they need not abandon hope;
on its sad threshold; they but go for a time to their high calling;
and can look forward as they go to relief; to recreation; and to
rest。 But Damien shut…to with his own hand the doors of his own
sepulchre。
I shall now extract three passages from my diary at Kalawao。
A。 〃Damien is dead and already somewhat ungratefully remembered in
the field of his labours and sufferings。 'He was a good man; but
very officious;' says one。 Another tells me he had fallen (as
other priests so easily do) into something of the ways and habits
of thought of a Kanaka; but he had the wit to recognise the fact;
and the good sense to laugh at〃 'over' 〃it。 A plain man it seems
he was; I cannot find he was a popular。〃
B。 〃After Ragsdale's death〃 'Ragsdale was a famous Luna; or
overseer; of the unruly settlement' 〃there followed a brief term of
office by Father Damien which served only to publish the weakness
of that noble man。 He was rough in his ways; and he had no
control。 Authority was relaxed; Damien's life was threatened; and
he was soon eager to resign。〃
C。 〃Of Damien I begin to have an idea。 He seems to have been a
man of the peasant class; certainly of the peasant type: shrewd;
ignorant and bigoted; yet with an open mind; and capable of
receiving and digesting a reproof if it were bluntly administered;
superbly generous in the least thing as well as in the greatest;
and as ready to give his last shirt (although not without human
grumbling) as he had been to sacrifice his life; essentially
indiscreet and officious; which made him a troublesome colleague;
domineering in all his ways; which made him incurably unpopular
with the Kanakas; but yet destitute of real authority; so that his
boys laughed at him and he must carry out