第 8 节
作者:公主站记      更新:2021-02-20 17:29      字数:9321
  I thank you…and my girdle…nay; that side。
  Speak; if you will; yet if you will be gone;
  Why; you shall go; because I hate you not。
  You know that I might slay you with my lips;
  With calling out? but I will hold my peace。
  CHASTELARD。
  Yea; do some while。  I had a thing to say;
  I know not wholly what thing。  O my sweet;
  I am come here to take farewell of love
  That I have served; and life that I have lived
  Made up of love; here in the sight of you
  That all my life's time I loved more than God;
  Who quits me thus with bitter death for it。
  For you well know that I must shortly die;
  My life being wound about you as it is;
  Who love me not; yet do not hate me; sweet;
  But tell me wherein I came short of love;
  For doubtless I came short of a just love;
  And fell in some fool's fault that angered you。
  Now that I talk men dig my grave for me
  Out in the rain; and in a little while
  I shall be thrust in some sad space of earth
  Out of your eyes; and you; O you my love;
  A newly…wedded lady full of mirth
  And a queen girt with all good people's love;
  You shall be fair and merry in all your days。
  Is this so much for me to have of you?
  Do but speak; sweet:  I know these are no words
  A man should say though he were now to die;
  But I am as a child for love; and have
  No strength at heart; yea; I am afraid to die;
  For the harsh dust will lie upon my face
  Too thick to see you past。  Look how I love you;
  I did so love you always; that your face
  Seen through my sleep has wrung mine eyes to tears
  For pure delight in you。  Why do you thus?
  You answer not; but your lips curl in twain
  And your face moves; there; I shall make you weep
  And be a coward too; it were much best
  I should be slain。
  QUEEN。
  Yea; best such folk were slain;
  Why should they live to cozen fools with lies?
  You would swear now you have used me faithfully;
  Shall I not make you swear?  I am ware of you:
  You will not do it; nay; for the fear of God
  You will not swear。  Come; I am merciful;
  God made a foolish woman; making me;
  And I have loved your mistress with whole heart;
  Say you do love her; you shall marry her
  And she give thanks:  yet I could wish your love
  Had not so lightly chosen forth a face;
  For your fair sake; because I hate you not。
  CHASTELARD。
  What is to say? why; you do surely know
  That since my days were counted for a man's
  I have loved you; yea; how past all help and sense;
  Whatever thing was bitter to my love;
  I have loved you; how when I rode in war
  Your face went floated in among men's helms;
  Your voice went through the shriek of slipping swords;
  Yea; and I never have loved women well;
  Seeing always in my sight I had your lips
  Curled over; red and sweet; and the soft space
  Of carven brows; and splendor of great throat
  Swayed lily…wise; what pleasure should one have
  To wind his arms about a lesser love?
  I have seen you; why; this were joy enough
  For God's eyes up in heaven; only to see
  And to come never nearer than I am。
  Why; it was in my flesh; my bone and blood;
  Bound in my brain; to love you; yea; and writ
  All my heart over:  if I would lie to you
  I doubt I could not lie。  Ah; you see now;
  You know now well enough; yea; there; sweet love;
  Let me kiss there。
  QUEEN。
  I love you best of them。
  Clasp me quite round till your lips cleave on mine;
  False mine; that did you wrong。  Forgive them dearly
  As you are sweet to them; for by love's love
  I am not that evil woman in my heart
  That laughs at a rent faith。  O Chastelard;
  Since this was broken to me of your new love
  I have not seen the face of a sweet hour。
  Nay; if there be no pardon in a man;
  What shall a woman have for loving him?
  Pardon me; sweet。
  CHASTELARD。
  Yea; so I pardon you;
  And this side now; the first way。  Would God please
  To slay me so! who knows how he might please?
  Now I am thinking; if you know it not;
  How I might kill you; kiss your breath clean out;
  And take your soul to bring mine through to God;
  That our two souls might close and be one twain
  Or a twain one; and God himself want skill
  To set us either severally apart。
  O; you must overlive me many years。
  And many years my soul be in waste hell;
  But when some time God can no more refrain
  To lay death like a kiss across your lips;
  And great lords bear you clothed with funeral things;
  And your crown girded over deadly brows;
  Then after you shall touch me with your eyes;
  Remembering love was fellow with my flesh
  Here in sweet earth; and make me well of love
  And heal my many years with piteousness。
  QUEEN。
  You talk too sadly and too feignedly。
  CHASTELARD。
  Too sad; but not too feigned; I am sad
  That I shall die here without feigning thus;
  And without feigning I were fain to live。
  QUEEN。
  Alas; you will be taken presently
  And then you are but dead。  Pray you get hence。
  CHASTELARD。
  I will not。
  QUEEN。
  Nay; for God's love be away;
  You will be slain and I get shame。  God's mercy!
  You were stark mad to come here; kiss me; sweet。
  Oh; I do love you more than all men! yea;
  Take my lips to you; close mine eyes up fast;
  So you leave hold a little; there; for pity;
  Abide now; and to…morrow come to me。
  Nay; lest one see red kisses in my throat…
  Dear God! what shall I give you to be gone?
  CHASTELARD。
  I will not go。  Look; here's full night grown up;
  Why should I seek to sleep away from here?
  The place is soft and the lights burn for sleep;
  Be not you moved; I shall lie well enough。
  QUEEN。
  You are utterly undone。  Sweet; by my life;
  You shall be saved with taking ship at once。
  For if you stay this foolish love's hour out
  There is not ten days' likely life in you。
  This is no choice。
  CHASTELARD。
  Nay; for I will not go。
  QUEEN。
  O me! this is that Bayard's blood of yours
  That makes you mad; yea; and you shall not stay。
  I do not understand。  Mind; you must die。
  Alas; poor lord; you have no sense of me;
  I shall be deadly to you。
  CHASTELARD。
  Yea; I saw that;
  But I saw not that when my death's day came
  You could be quite so sweet to me。
  QUEEN。
  My love!
  If I could kiss my heart's root out on you
  You would taste love hid at the core of me。
  CHASTELARD。
  Kiss me twice more。  This beautiful bowed head
  That has such hair with kissing ripples in
  And shivering soft eyelashes and brows
  With fluttered blood! but laugh a little; sweetly;
  That I may see your sad mouth's laughing look
  I have used sweet hours in seeing。  O; will you weep?
  I pray you do not weep。
  QUEEN。
  Nay; dear; I have
  No tears in me; I never shall weep much;
  I think; in all my life; I have wept for wrath
  Sometimes and for mere pain; but for love's pity
  I cannot weep at all。  I would to God
  You loved me less; I give you all I can
  For all this love of yours; and yet I am sure
  I shall live out the sorrow of your death
  And be glad afterwards。  You know I am sorry。
  I should weep now; forgive me for your part;
  God made me hard; I think。  Alas; you see
  I had fain been other than I am。
  CHASTELARD。
  Yea; love。
  Comfort your heart。  What way am I do die?
  QUEEN。
  Ah; will you go yet; sweet?
  CHASTELARD。
  No; by God's body。
  You will not see? how shall I make you see?
  Look; it may be love was a sort of curse
  Made for my plague and mixed up with my days
  Somewise in their beginning; or indeed
  A bitter birth begotten of sad stars
  At mine own body's birth; that heaven might make
  My life taste sharp where other men drank sweet;
  But whether in heavy body or broken soul;
  I know it must go on to be my death。
  There was the matter of my fate in me
  When I was fashioned first; and given such life
  As goes with a sad end; no fault but God's。
  Yea; and for all this I am not penitent:
  You see I am perfect in these sins of mine;
  I have my sins writ in a book to read;
  Now I shall die and be well done with this。
  But I am sure you cannot see such things;
  God knows I blame you not。
  QUEEN。
  What shall be said?
  You know most well that I am sorrowful。
  But you should chide me。  Sweet; you have seen fair wars;
  Have seen men slain and ridden red in them;
  Why will you die a chamberer's death like this?
  What; shall no praise be written of my knight;
  For my fame's sake?
  CHASTELARD。
  Nay; no great praise; I think;
  I will no more; what should I do with death;
  Though I died goodly out of sight of you?
  I have gone once:  here am I set now; sweet;
  Till the end come。  That is your husband; hark;
  He knocks at the outer door。  Kiss me just once。
  You know now all you have to say。  Nay; love;
  Let him come quickly。
  'Enter DARNLEY; and afterwards the MARIES。'
  DARNLEY。
  Yea; what thing is here?
  Ay; this was what the doors shut fast upon…
  Ay; trust you to be fast at prayer; my sweet?
  By God I have a mind…
  CHASTELARD。
  What mind then; sir?
  A liar's