第 5 节
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That lives here idle; I am right glad of you;
I have slept so well and sweet since yesternight
It seems our dancing put me in glad heart。
Did you sleep well?
CHASTELARD。
Yea; as a man may sleep。
QUEEN。
You smile as if I jested; do not men
Sleep as we do? Had you fair dreams in the night?
For me…but I should fret you with my dreams…
I dreamed sweet things。 You are good at soothsaying:
Make me a sonnet of my dream。
CHASTELARD。
I will;
When I shall know it。
QUEEN。
I thought I was asleep
In Paris; lying by my lord; and knew
In somewise he was well awake; and yet
I could not wake too; and I seemed to know
He hated me; and the least breath I made
Would turn somehow to slay or stifle me。
Then in brief time he rose and went away;
Saying; Let her dream; but when her dream is out
I will come back and kill her as she wakes。
And I lay sick and trembling with sore fear;
And still I knew that I was deep asleep;
And thinking I must dream now; or I die;
God send me some good dream lest I be slain;
Fell fancying one had bound my feet with cords
And bade me dance; and the first measure made
I fell upon my face and wept for pain:
And my cords broke; and I began the dance
To a bitter tune; and he that danced with me
Was clothed in black with long red lines and bars
And masked down to the lips; but by the chin
I knew you though your lips were sewn up close
With scarlet thread all dabbled wet in blood。
And then I knew the dream was not for good。
And striving with sore travail to reach up
And kiss you (you were taller in my dream)
I missed your lips and woke。
CHASTELARD。
Sweet dreams; you said?
An evil dream I hold it for; sweet love。
QUEEN。
You call love sweet; yea; what is bitter; then?
There's nothing broken sleep could hit upon
So bitter as the breaking down of love。
You call me sweet; I am not sweet to you;
Nor you…O; I would say not sweet to me;
And if I said so I should hardly lie。
But there have been those things between us; sir;
That men call sweet。
CHASTELARD。
I know not how There is
Turns to There hath been; 't is a heavier change
Than change of flesh to dust。 Yet though years change
And good things end and evil things grow great;
The old love that was; or that was dreamed about;
That sang and kissed and wept upon itself;
Laughed and ran mad with love of its own face;
That was a sweet thing。
QUEEN。
Nay; I know not well。
'T is when the man is held fast underground
They say for sooth what manner of heart he had。
We are alive; and cannot be well sure
If we loved much or little: think you not
It were convenient one of us should die?
CHASTELARD。
Madam; your speech is harsh to understand。
QUEEN。
Why; there could come no change then; one of us
Would never need to fear our love might turn
To the sad thing that it may grow to be。
I would sometimes all things were dead asleep
That I have loved; all buried in soft beds
And sealed with dreams and visions; and each dawn
Sung to by sorrows; and all night assuaged
By short sweet kissed and by sweet long loves
For old life's sake; lest weeping overmuch
Should wake them in a strange new time; and arm
Memory's blind hand to kill forgetfulness。
CHASTELARD。
Look; you dream still; and sadly。
QUEEN。
Sooth; a dream;
For such things died or lied in sweet love's face;
And I forget them not; God help my wit!
I would the whole world were made up of sleep
And life not fashioned out of lies and loves。
We foolish women have such times; you know;
When we are weary or afraid or sick
For perfect nothing。
CHASTELARD。
'Aside。'
Now would one be fain
To know what bitter or what dangerous thing
She thinks of; softly chafing her soft lip。
She must mean evil。
QUEEN。
Are you sad too; sir;
That you say nothing?
CHASTELARD。
I? not sad a jot…
Though this your talk might make a blithe man sad。
QUEEN。
O me! I must not let stray sorrows out;
They are ill to fledge; and if they feel blithe air
They wail and chirp untunefully。 Would God
I had been a man! when I was born; men say;
My father turned his face and wept to think
I was no man。
CHASTELARD。
Will you weep too?
QUEEN。
In sooth;
If I were a man I should be no base man;
I could have fought; yea; I could fight now too
If men would show me; I would I were the king!
I should be all ways better than I am。
CHASTELARD。
Nay; would you have more honor; having this…
Men's hearts and loves and the sweet spoil of souls
Given you like simple gold to bind your hair?
Say you were king of thews; not queen of souls;
An iron headpiece hammered to a head;
You might fall too。
QUEEN。
No; then I would not fall;
Or God should make me woman back again。
To be King James…you hear men say King James;
The word sounds like a piece of gold thrown down;
Rings with a round and royal note in it…
A name to write good record of; this king
Fought here and there; was beaten such a day;
And came at last to a good end; his life
Being all lived out; and for the main part well
And like a king's life; then to have men say
(As now they say of Flodden; here they broke
And there they held up to the end) years back
They saw you…yea; I saw the king's face helmed
Red in the hot lit foreground of some fight
Hold the whole war as it were by the bit; a horse
Fit for his knees' grip…the great rearing war
That frothed with lips flung up; and shook men's lives
Off either flank of it like snow; I saw
(You could not hear as his sword rang); saw him
Shout; laugh; smite straight; and flaw the riven ranks;
Move as the wind moves; and his horse's feet
Stripe their long flags with dust。 Why; if one died;
To die so in the heart and heat of war
Were a much goodlier thing than living soft
And speaking sweet for fear of men。 Woe's me;
Is there no way to pluck this body off?
Then I should never fear a man again;
Even in my dreams I should not; no; by heaven。
CHASTELARD。
I never thought you did fear anything。
QUEEN。
God knows I do; I could be sick with wrath
To think what grievous fear I have 'twixt whiles
Of mine own self and of base men: last night
If certain lords were glancing where I was
Under the eyelid; with sharp lip and brow;
I tell you; for pure shame and fear of them;
I could have gone and slain them。
CHASTELARD。
Verily;
You are changed since those good days that fell in France;
But yet I think you are not so changed at heart
As to fear man。
QUEEN。
I would I had no need。
Lend me your sword a little; a fair sword;
I see the fingers that I hold it with
Clear in the blade; bright pink; the shell…color;
Brighter than flesh is really; curved all round。
Now men would mock if I should wear it here;
Bound under bosom with a girdle; here;
And yet I have heart enough to wear it well。
Speak to me like a woman; let me see
If I can play at man。
CHASTELARD。
God save King James!
QUEEN。
Would you could change now! Fie; this will not do;
Unclasp your sword; nay; the hilt hurts my side;
It sticks fast here。 Unbind this knot for me:
Stoop; and you'll see it closer; thank you: there。
Now I can breathe; sir。 Ah! it hurts me; though:
This was fool's play。
CHASTELARD。
Yea; you are better so;
Without the sword; your eyes are stronger things;
Whether to save or slay。
QUEEN。
Alas; my side!
It hurts right sorely。 Is it not pitiful
Our souls should be so bound about with flesh
Even when they leap and smite with wings and feet;
The least pain plucks them back; puts out their eyes;
Turns them to tears and words? Ah my sweet knight;
You have the better of us that weave and weep
While the blithe battle blows upon your eyes
Like rain and wind; yet I remember too
When this last year the fight at Corrichie
Reddened the rushes with stained fen…water;
I rode with my good men and took delight;
Feeling the sweet clear wind upon my eyes
And rainy soft smells blown upon my face
In riding: then the great fight jarred and joined;
And the sound stung me right through heart and all;
For I was here; see; gazing off the hills;
In the wet air; our housings were all wet;
And not a plume stood stiffly past the ear
But flapped between the bridle and the neck;
And under us we saw the battle go
Like running water; I could see by fits
Some helm the rain fell shining off; some flag
Snap from the staff; shorn through or broken short
In the man's falling: yea; one seemed to catch
The very grasp of tumbled men at men;
Teeth clenched in throats; hands riveted in hair;
Tearing the life out with no help of swords。
And all the clamor seemed to shine; the light
Seemed to shout as a man doth; twice I laughed
I tell you; twice my heart swelled out with thirst
To be into the battle; see; fair lord;
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