第 4 节
作者:铲除不公      更新:2021-02-20 17:29      字数:9322
  little life; abused or caressed her as she sided with either; and then left her
  with a circus troupe; where she first tasted the power of her courage; her
  beauty; and her recklessness。           She remembered those flashes of triumph
  that left a fever in her veinsa fever that when it failed must be stimulated
  by   dissipation;   by   anything;   by   everything   that   would   keep   her   name   a
  wonder   in   men's   mouths;   an   envious   fear   to   women。   She   recalled   her
  transfer to the strolling players; her cheap pleasures; and cheaper rivalries
  and   hatredbut   always   Teresa!   the   daring   Teresa!   the   reckless   Teresa!
  audacious   as   a   woman;   invincible   as   a   boy;   dancing;   flirting;   fencing;
  shooting;   swearing;   drinking;   smoking;   fighting   Teresa!           〃Oh;   yes;   she
  had been loved; perhapswho knows?but always feared。                       Why should
  she change now?          Ha; he should see。〃
  She   had   lashed   herself   in   a   frenzy;   as   was   her   wont;   with   gestures;
  ejaculations; oaths; adjurations; and passionate apostrophes; but with this
  strange and unexpected result。 Heretofore she had always been sustained
  and   kept   up   by   an   audience   of   some   kind   or   quality;   if   only   perhaps   a
  humble companion; there had always been some one she could fascinate
  or horrify; and she could read her power mirrored in their eyes。 Even the
  half…abstracted indifference of her strange host had been something。                     But
  she was alone now。          Her words fell on apathetic solitude; she was acting
  to viewless space。        She rushed to the opening; dashed the hanging bark
  aside; and leaped to the ground。
  She ran forward wildly a few steps; and stopped。
  〃Hallo!〃 she cried。       〃Look; 'tis I; Teresa!〃
  The   profound   silence   remained   unbroken。           Her   shrillest   tones   were
  lost in an echoless space; even as the smoke of her fire had faded into pure
  ether。    She    stretched    out   her   clenched    fists  as  if  to  defy   the  pillared
  austerities of the vaults around her。
  〃Come and take me if you dare!〃
  The   challenge   was   unheeded。         If   she   had   thrown   herself   violently
  against   the    nearest   tree…trunk;    she   could   not   have    been   stricken    more
  breathless      than    she   was     by   the   compact;      embattled      solitude    that
  encompassed her。         The hopelessness of impressing these cold and passive
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  vaults with her selfish passion filled her with a vague fear。             In her rage of
  the previous night she had not seen the wood in its profound immobility。
  Left alone with the majesty of those enormous columns; she trembled and
  turned faint。     The silence of the hollow tree she had just quitted seemed
  to her less awful than the crushing presence of these mute and monstrous
  witnesses of her weakness。          Like a wounded quail with lowered crest and
  trailing wing; she crept back to her hiding place。
  Even then the influence of the wood was still upon her。                 She picked
  up the novel she had contemptuously thrown aside; only to let it fall again
  in utter weariness。       For a moment her feminine curiosity was excited by
  the discovery of an old book; in whose blank leaves were pressed a variety
  of flowers and woodland grasses。             As she could not conceive that these
  had been kept for any but a sentimental purpose; she was disappointed to
  find that underneath each was a sentence in an unknown tongue; that even
  to her untutored eye did not appear to be the language of passion。 Finally
  she   rearranged   the   couch   of   skins   and   blankets;   and;   imparting   to   it   in
  three clever shakes an entirely different character; lay down to pursue her
  reveries。    But nature asserted herself; and ere she knew it she was asleep。
  So intense and prolonged had been her previous excitement that; the
  tension once relieved; she passed into a slumber of exhaustion so deep that
  she seemed scarce to breathe。          High noon succeeded morning; the central
  shaft received a single ray of upper sunlight; the afternoon came and went;
  the   shadows     gathered     below;   the  sunset    fires  began   to  eat   their  way
  through   the   groined   roof;   and   she   still   slept。 She   slept   even   when   the
  bark    hangings     of  the   chamber     were    put   aside;  and    the  young     man
  reentered。
  He   laid   down   a   bundle   he   was   carrying   and   softly   approached   the
  sleeper。    For a moment he was startled from his indifference; she lay so
  still and motionless。       But this was not all that struck him; the face before
  him was no longer the passionate; haggard visage that confronted him that
  morning; the feverish air; the burning color; the strained muscles of mouth
  and   brow;   and   the   staring   eyes   were   gone;   wiped   away;   perhaps;   by   the
  tears that still left their traces on cheek and dark eyelash。            It was the face
  of a handsome woman of thirty; with even a suggestion of softness in the
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  contour of the cheek and arching of her upper lip; no longer rigidly drawn
  down in anger; but relaxed by sleep on her white teeth。
  With   the   lithe;   soft   tread   that   was   habitual   to   him;   the   young   man
  moved about; examining the condition of the little chamber and its stock
  of   provisions     and   necessaries;     and   withdrew     presently;    to  reappear    as
  noiselessly with a tin bucket of water。 This done; he replenished the little
  pile   of   fuel   with   an   armful   of   bark   and   pine   cones;   cast   an   approving
  glance about him; which included the sleeper; and silently departed。
  It   was   night   when   she   awoke。     She   was   surrounded   by   a   profound
  darkness; except where the shaft…like opening made a nebulous mist in the
  corner     of  her   wooden      cavern。     Providentially      she   struggled     back   to
  consciousness       slowly;    so  that   the  solitude    and   silence   came    upon    her
  gradually; with a growing realization of the events of the past twenty…four
  hours; but without a shock。 She was alone here; but safe still; and every
  hour added to her chances of ultimate escape。                 She remembered to have
  seen a candle among the articles on the shelf; and she began to grope her
  way     towards     the   matches。     Suddenly       she   stopped。      What     was    that
  panting?
  Was it her own breathing; quickened with a sudden nameless terror? or
  was there something outside?            Her heart seemed to stop beating while she
  listened。      Yes!    it  was    a  panting     outsidea    panting     now    increased;
  multiplied;      redoubled;      mixed     with    the   sounds     of   rustling;   tearing;
  craunching; and occasionally a quick; impatient snarl。                   She crept on her
  hands   and   knees   to   the   opening   and   looked   out。       At   first   the   ground
  seemed to be undulating between her and the opposite tree。                    But a second
  glance showed her the black and gray; bristling; tossing backs of tumbling
  beasts   of   prey;   charging   the   carcass   of   the   bear   that   lay   at   its   roots;   or
  contesting   for   the   prize   with   gluttonous;   choked   breath;   sidelong   snarls;
  arched spines; and recurved tails。            One of the boldest had leaped upon a
  buttressing root of her tree within a foot of the opening。                The excitement;
  awe;   and   terror   she   had   undergone   culminated   in   one   wild;   maddened
  scream;   that   seemed   to pierce   even   the   cold   depths   of   the   forest;   as   she
  dropped on her face; with her hands clasped over her eyes in an agony of
  fear。
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  Her    scream    was    answered;     after  a  pause;    by  a   sudden    volley   of
  firebrands and sparks into the midst of the panting; crowding pack; a few
  smothered howls and snaps; and a sudden dispersion of the concourse。                     In
  another   moment   the   young   man;   with   a   blazing   brand   in   either   hand;
  leaped upon the body of the bear。
  Teresa raised her head; uttered a hysterical cry; slid down the tree; flew
  wildly to his side; caught convulsively at his sleeve; and fell on her knees
  beside him。
  〃