第 16 节
作者:抵制日货      更新:2021-02-20 16:55      字数:9322
  novels she read; the affair might be trusted to come out all right of
  itself in time。  She was rather thoughtfuller for it; and once her mother
  asked her what was the matter with her。  〃Oh; I guess I'm getting old;
  motha;〃 she said; and turned the question off。  She would not have minded
  telling her mother about Gregory; but it would not have been the custom;
  and her mother would have worried; and would have blamed him。  Clementina
  could have more easily trusted her father with the case; but so far as
  she knew fathers never were trusted with anything of the kind。  She would
  have been willing that accident should bring it to the knowledge of Mrs。
  Richling; but the moment never came when she could voluntarily confide in
  her; though she was a great deal with her that winter。  She was Mrs。
  Richling's lieutenant in the social affairs of the parish; which the
  rector's wife took under her care。  She helped her get up entertainments
  of the kind that could be given in the church parlor; and they managed
  together some dances which had to be exiled to the town hall。  They
  contrived to make the young people of the village feel that they were
  having a gay time; and Clementina did not herself feel that it was a dull
  one。  She taught them some of the new steps and figures which the help
  used to pick up from the summer folks at the Middlemount; and practise
  together; she liked doing that; her mother said the child would rather
  dance than eat; any time。  She was never sad; but so much dignity got
  into her sweetness that the rector now and then complained of feeling put
  down by her。
  She did not know whether she expected Gregory to write to her or not; but
  when no letters came she decided that she had not expected them。  She
  wondered if he would come back to the Middlemount the next summer; but
  when the summer came; she heard that they had another student in his
  place。  She heard that they had a new clerk; and that the boarders were
  not so pleasant。  Another year passed; and towards the end of the season
  Mrs。 Atwell wished her to come and help her again; and Clementina went
  over to the hotel to soften her refusal。  She explained that her mother
  had so much sewing now that she could not spare her; and Mrs。 Atwell
  said: Well; that was right; and that she must be the greatest kind of
  dependence for her mother。  〃You ah' going on seventeen this year; ain't
  you?〃
  〃I was nineteen the last day of August;〃 said Clementina; and Mrs。 Atwell
  sighed; and said; How the time did fly。
  It was the second week of September; but Mrs。 Atwell said they were going
  to keep the house open till the middle of October; if they could; for the
  autumnal foliage; which there was getting to be quite a class of custom
  for。
  〃I presume you knew Mr。 Landa was dead;〃 she added; and at Clementina's
  look of astonishment; she said with a natural satisfaction; 〃Mm! died the
  thutteenth day of August。  I presumed somehow you'd know it; though you
  didn't see a great deal of 'em; come to think of it。  I guess he was a
  good man; too good for her; I guess;〃 she concluded; in the New England
  necessity of blaming some one。  〃She sent us the papah。〃
  There was an early frost; and people said there was going to be a hard
  winter; but it was not this that made Clementina's father set to work
  finishing his house。  His turning business was well started; now; and he
  had got together money enough to pay for the work。  He had lately
  enlarged the scope of his industry by turning gate…posts and urns for the
  tops of them; which had become very popular; for the front yards of the
  farm and village houses in a wide stretch of country。  They sold more
  steadily than the smaller wares; the cups; and tops; and little vases and
  platters which had once been the output of his lathe; after the first
  season the interest of the summer folks in these fell off; but the gate
  posts and the urns appealed to a lasting taste in the natives。
  Claxon wished to put the finishing touches on the house himself; and he
  was willing to suspend more profitable labors to do so。  After some
  attempts at plastering he was forced to leave that to the plasterers; but
  he managed the clap…boarding; with Clementina to hand him boards and
  nails; and to keep him supplied with the hammer he was apt to drop at
  critical moments。  They talked pretty constantly at their labors; and in
  their leisure; which they spent on the brown needles under the pines at
  the side of the house。  Sometimes the hammering or the talking would be
  interrupted by a voice calling; from a passing vehicle in the hidden
  roadway; something about urns。  Claxon would answer; without troubling
  himself to verify the inquirer; or moving from his place; that he would
  get round to them; and then would hammer on; or talk on with Clementina。
  One day in October a carriage drove up to the door; after the work on the
  house had been carried as far as Claxon's mood and money allowed; and he
  and Clementina were picking up the litter of his carpentering。  He had
  replaced the block of wood which once served at the front door by some
  steps under an arbor of rustic work; but this was still so novel that the
  younger children had not outgrown their pride in it and were playing at
  house…keeping there。  Clementina ran around to the back door and out
  through the front entry in time to save the visitor and the children from
  the misunderstanding they began to fall into; and met her with a smile of
  hospitable brilliancy; and a recognition full of compassionate welcome。
  Mrs。 Lander gave way to her tears as she broke out; 〃 Oh; it ain't the
  way it was the last time I was he'a!  You hea'd that hethat Mr。 Landa〃
  〃Mrs。 Atwell told me;〃 said Clementina。  〃Won't you come in; and sit
  down?〃
  〃Why; yes。〃  Mrs。 Lander pushed in through the narrow door of what was to
  be the parlor。  Her crapes swept about her and exhaled a strong scent of
  their dyes。  Her veil softened her heavy face; but she had not grown
  thinner in her bereavement。
  〃I just got to the Middlemount last night;〃 she said; 〃and I wanted to
  see you and your payrents; both; Miss Claxon。  It doos bring him back so!
  You won't neva know how much he thought of you; and you'll all think I'm
  crazy。  I wouldn't come as long as he was with me; and now I have to come
  without him; I held out ag'inst him as long as I had him to hold out
  ag'inst。  Not that he was eva one to push; and I don't know as he so much
  as spoke of it; afta we left the hotel two yea's ago; but I presume it
  wa'n't out of his mind a single minute。  Time and time again I'd say to
  him; 'Now; Albe't; do you feel about it just the way you done?' and he'd
  say; 'I ha'r't had any call to charge my mind about it;' and then I'd
  begin tryin' to ahgue him out of it; and keep a hectorin'; till he'd say;
  'Well; I'm not askin' you to do it;' and that's all I could get out of
  him。  But I see all the while 't he wanted me to do it; whateva he asked;
  and now I've got to do it when it can't give him any pleasure。〃  Mrs。
  Lander put up her black…bordered handkerchief and sobbed into it; and
  Clementina waited till her grief had spent itself; then she gave her a
  fan; and Mrs。 Lander gratefully cooled her hot wet face。  The children
  had found the noises of her affliction and the turbid tones of her
  monologue annoying; and had gone off to play in the woods; Claxon kept
  incuriously about the work that Clementina had left him to; his wife
  maintained the confidence which she always felt in Clementina's ability
  to treat with the world when it presented itself; and though she was
  curious enough; she did not offer to interrupt the girl's interview with
  Mrs。 Lander; Clementina would know how to behave。
  Mrs。 Lander; when she had refreshed herself with the fan; seemed to get a
  fresh grip of her theme; and she told Clementina all abort Mr。 Lander's
  last sickness。  It had been so short that it gave her no time to try the
  climate of Colorado upon him; which she now felt sure would have brought
  him right up; and she had remembered; when too late; to give him a liver…
  medicine of her own; though it did not appear that it was his liver which
  was affected; that was the strange part of it。  But; brief as his
  sickness was; he had felt that it was to be his last; and had solemnly
  talked over her future with her; which he seemed to think would be
  lonely。  He had not named Clementina; but Mrs。 Lander had known well
  enough what he meant; and now she wished to ask her; and her father and
  mother; how they would all like Clementina to come and spend the winter
  with her at Boston first; and then further South; and wherever she should
  happen to go。  She apologized for not having come sooner upon this
  errand; she had resolved upon it as soon as Mr。 Lander was gone; but she
  had been sick herself; and had only just now got out of bed。
  Clementina was too young to feel the pathos of the case fully; or perhaps
  even to follow the tortuous course of Mrs。 Lander's motives; but she was
  moved by her grief; and she could not help a thrill of pleasure in the
  vague splendor of the future outlined by Mrs。 Lander's proposal。  For a
  time she had thought that Mrs。 Milray was going to ask her to visit her
  in New York; Mr