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作者:点绛唇      更新:2021-02-20 16:44      字数:9318
  newspapers printed accounts of a decisive victory。
  One     night;   as   he   lay   in  bed;   the   winds     had   carried    to  him    the
  clangoring of the church bell as some enthusiast jerked the rope frantically
  to   tell  the   twisted   news     of  a  great   battle。   This     voice   of   the  people
  rejoicing in the night had made him shiver in a prolonged ecstasy of ex…
  citement。      Later; he had gone down to his mother's room and had spoken
  thus: 〃Ma; I'm going to enlist。〃
  〃Henry; don't   you be   a   fool;〃 his   mother had replied。             She   had   then
  covered her face with the quilt。            There was an end to the matter for that
  night。
  Nevertheless; the next morning he had gone to a town that was near
  his mother's farm and had enlisted in a company that was forming there。
  When   he   had   returned   home   his   mother   was   milking   the   brindle   cow。
  Four     others    stood   waiting。     〃Ma;      I've  enlisted;〃    he   had   said   to   her
  diffidently。      There     was    a  short    silence。    〃The     Lord's    will   be   done;
  Henry;〃 she had finally replied; and had then continued to milk the brindle
  cow。
  When   he   had   stood   in   the   doorway   with   his   soldier's   clothes   on   his
  back; and with the light of excitement and expectancy in his eyes almost
  defeating   the   glow   of   regret   for   the   home   bonds;   he   had   seen   two   tears
  leaving their trails on his mother's scarred cheeks。
  Still;   she   had   disappointed      him   by   saying    nothing     whatever   about
  returning with his shield or on it。           He had privately primed himself for a
  beautiful   scene。      He   had   prepared   certain   sen…   tences   which   he   thought
  could be used with touching effect。               But her words destroyed his plans。
  She   had   doggedly   peeled   potatoes   and   addressed   him   as   follows:   〃You
  watch     out;   Henry;    an'  take   good    care   of   yerself   in  this   here   fighting
  businessyou       watch     out;  an'   take   good    care   of  yerself。    Don't    go   a…
  thinkin'   you   can   lick   the   hull   rebel   army   at   the   start;   because   yeh   can't。
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  Yer jest one little feller amongst a hull lot of others; and yeh've got to keep
  quiet an' do what they tell yeh。         I know how you are; Henry。
  〃I've knet yeh eight pair of socks; Henry; and I've put in all yer best
  shirts; because I want my boy to be jest as warm and comf'able as anybody
  in   the   army。   Whenever   they   get   holes   in   'em;   I   want   yeh   to   send   'em
  right…away back to me; so's I kin dern 'em。
  〃An' allus be careful an' choose yer comp'ny。 There's lots of bad men
  in the army; Henry。 The army makes 'em wild; and they like nothing better
  than the job of leading off a young feller like you; as ain't never been away
  from home much and has allus had a mother; an' a…learning 'em to drink
  and swear。      Keep clear of them folks; Henry。            I don't want yeh to ever do
  any… thing; Henry; that yeh would be 'shamed to let me know about。                      Jest
  think   as   if   I   was   a…watchin'   yeh。 If   yeh   keep   that   in   yer   mind   allus;   I
  guess yeh'll come out about right。
  〃Yeh   must   allus   remember   yer   father;   too;   child;   an'   remember   he
  never drunk a drop of licker in his life; and seldom swore a cross oath。
  〃I   don't   know   what   else   to   tell   yeh;   Henry;   excepting   that   yeh   must
  never do no shirking; child; on my account。               If so be a time comes when
  yeh have to be kilt or do a mean thing; why; Henry; don't think of anything
  'cept what's right; because there's many a woman has to bear up 'ginst sech
  things these times; and the Lord 'll take keer of us all。
  〃Don't forgit about the socks and the shirts; child; and I've put a cup of
  blackberry   jam   with   yer   bundle;   because   I   know   yeh   like   it   above   all
  things。    Good…by; Henry。         Watch out; and be a good boy。〃
  He had; of course; been impatient under the ordeal of this speech。                    It
  had not been quite what he expected; and he had borne it with an air of
  irritation。    He departed feeling vague relief。
  Still; when he had looked back from the gate; he had seen his mother
  kneeling   among   the   po…   tato   parings。      Her   brown   face;   upraised;   was
  stained with tears; and her spare form was quiver… ing。
  10 RED BADGE OF COURAGE。
  He   bowed   his   head   and   went   on;   feeling   suddenly   ashamed   of   his
  purposes。
  From   his   home   he   had   gone   to   the   seminary   to   bid   adieu   to   many
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  schoolmates。       They had thronged about him with wonder and admiration。
  He had felt the gulf now between them and had swelled with calm pride。
  He    and   some     of  his  fellows    who    had   donned     blue   were   quite   over…
  whelmed with privileges for all of one afternoon; and it had been a very
  delicious thing。      They had strutted。
  A certain light…haired girl had made vivacious fun at his martial spirit;
  but there was another and darker girl whom he had gazed at steadfastly;
  and   he thought   she   grew demure   and   sad   at   sight   of his   blue   and   brass。
  As he had walked down the path between the rows of oaks; he had turned
  his   head   and   detected   her   at   a   window   watching   his   departure。    As   he
  perceived her; she had im… mediately begun to stare up through the high
  tree branches at the sky。        He had seen a good deal of flurry and haste in
  her movement as she changed her attitude。               He often thought of it。
  On the way to Washington his spirit had soared。                  The regiment was
  fed and caressed at station after station until the youth had believed that he
  must be a hero。       There was a lavish ex… penditure of bread and cold meats;
  coffee; and pickles and cheese。            As he basked in the smiles of the girls
  and   was   patted   and   complimented   by   the   old   men;   he   had   felt   growing
  within him the strength to do mighty deeds of arms。
  After    complicated      journeyings     with   many    pauses;    there   had   come
  months of monotonous life in a camp。              He had had the belief that real war
  was a series of death struggles with small time in between for sleep and
  meals;   but   since   his   regiment   had   come   to   the   field   the   army   had   done
  little but sit still and try to keep warm。
  He    was   brought     then   gradually    back   to  his  old   ideas。   Greeklike
  struggles   would   be   no   more。   Men   were   better;   or   more   timid。    Secular
  and religious education had effaced the throat…grap… pling instinct; or else
  firm finance held in check the passions。
  He    had   grown    to  regard    himself    merely   as   a  part  of   a  vast  blue
  demonstration。        His province was to look out; as far as he could; for his
  per…   sonal    comfort。    For    recreation    he   could   twiddle    his  thumbs     and
  speculate  on   the  thoughts   which   must   agitate   the   minds   of   the   generals。
  Also; he was drilled and drilled and reviewed; and drilled and drilled and
  reviewed。
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  The   only   foes   he   had   seen   were   some   pickets   along   the   river   bank。
  They      were     a   sun…tanned;      philosophical      lot;   who     sometimes       shot
  reflectively at the blue pickets。         When reproached for this afterward; they
  usually   expressed       sorrow;   and   swore     by   their  gods   that  the   guns   had
  exploded without their permission。              The youth; on guard duty one night;
  conversed across the stream with one of them。                 He was a slightly ragged
  man; who spat skillfully between his shoes and possessed a great fund of
  bland and infantile assurance。          The youth liked him personally。
  〃Yank;〃   the   other   had   informed   him;   〃yer   a   right   dum   good   feller。〃
  This   sentiment;   floating   to   him  upon   the   still   air;   had   made   him   tempo…
  rarily regret war。
  Various      veterans     had    told   him    tales。     Some      talked     of   gray;
  bewhiskered        hordes    who    were    advancing      with    relentless    curses   and
  chewing      tobacco