第 4 节
作者:爱之冰点      更新:2021-02-20 16:37      字数:9321
  had not been in fault; and therefore Hetta went up to console her。
  〃Mrs。 Bell;〃 said Aaron; as soon as the door was closed; 〃I beg your
  pardon for what I did just now。〃
  〃Oh; sir; I'm so sorry that the picture is burnt;〃 said poor Mrs。
  Bell。
  〃The picture does not matter a straw;〃 said Aaron。  〃But I see that
  I have disturbed you all;and I am afraid I have made Miss Susan
  unhappy。〃
  〃She was grieved because your picture was burnt;〃 said Mrs。 Bell;
  putting some emphasis on the 〃your;〃 intending to show that her
  daughter had not regarded the drawing as her own。  But the emphasis
  bore another meaning; and so the widow perceived as soon as she had
  spoken。
  〃Oh; I can do twenty more of the same if anybody wanted them;〃 said
  Aaron。  〃If I do another like it; will you let her take it; Mrs。
  Bell?just to show that you have forgiven me; and that we are
  friends as we were before?〃
  Was he; or was he not a wolf?  That was the question which Mrs。 Bell
  scarcely knew how to answer。  Hetta had given her voice; saying he
  was lupine。  Mr。 Beckard's opinion she had not liked to ask
  directly。  Mr。 Beckard she thought would probably propose to Hetta;
  but as yet he had not done so。  And; as he was still a stranger in
  the family; she did not like in any way to compromise Susan's name。
  Indirectly she had asked the question; and; indirectly also; Mr。
  Beckard's answer had been favourable。
  〃But it mustn't mean anything; sir;〃 was the widow's weak answer;
  when she had paused on the question for a moment。
  〃Oh no; of course not;〃 said Aaron; joyously; and his face became
  radiant and happy。  〃And I do beg your pardon for burning it; and
  the young ladies' pardon too。〃  And then he rapidly got out his
  cardboard; and set himself to work about another bridge。  The widow;
  meditating many things in her heart; commenced the hemming of a
  handkerchief。
  In about an hour the two girls came back to the room and silently
  took their accustomed places。  Aaron hardly looked up; but went on
  diligently with his drawing。  This bridge should be a better bridge
  than that other。  Its acceptance was now assured。  Of course it was
  to mean nothing。  That was a matter of course。  So he worked away
  diligently; and said nothing to anybody。
  When they went off to bed the two girls went into the mother's room。
  〃Oh; mother; I hope he is not very angry;〃 said Susan。
  〃Angry!〃 said Hetta; 〃if anybody should be angry; it is mother。  He
  ought to have known that Susan could not accept it。  He should never
  have offered it。〃
  〃But he's doing another;〃 said Mrs。 Bell。
  〃Not for her;〃 said Hetta。
  〃Yes he is;〃 said Mrs。 Bell; 〃and I have promised that she shall
  take it。〃  Susan as she heard this sank gently into the chair behind
  her; and her eyes became full of tears。  The intimation was almost
  too much for her。
  〃Oh; mother!〃 said Hetta。
  〃But I particularly said that it was to mean nothing。〃
  〃Oh; mother; that makes it worse。〃
  Why should Hetta interfere in this way; thought Susan to herself。
  Had she interfered when Mr。 Beckard gave Hetta a testament bound in
  Morocco? had not she smiled; and looked gratified; and kissed her
  sister; and declared that Phineas Beckard was a nice dear man; and
  by far the most elegant preacher at the Springs?  Why should Hetta
  be so cruel?
  〃I don't see that; my dear;〃 said the mother。  Hetta would not
  explain before her sister; so they all went to bed。
  On the Thursday evening the drawing was finished。  Not a word had
  been said about it; at any rate in his presence; and he had gone on
  working in silence。  〃There;〃 said he; late on the Thursday evening;
  〃I don't know that it will be any better if I go on daubing for
  another hour。  There; Miss Susan; there's another bridge。  I hope
  that will neither burst with the frost; nor yet be destroyed by
  fire;〃 and he gave it a light flip with his fingers and sent it
  skimming over the table。
  Susan blushed and smiled; and took it up。  〃Oh; it is beautiful;〃
  she said。  〃Isn't it beautifully done; mother?〃 and then all the
  three got up to look at it; and all confessed that it was
  excellently done。
  〃And I am sure we are very much obliged to you;〃 said Susan after a
  pause; remembering that she had not yet thanked him。
  〃Oh; it's nothing;〃 said he; not quite liking the word 〃we。〃  On the
  following day he returned from his work to Saratoga about noon。
  This he had never done before; and therefore no one expected that he
  would be seen in the house before the evening。  On this occasion;
  however; he went straight thither; and as chance would have it; both
  the widow and her elder daughter were out。  Susan was there alone in
  charge of the house。
  He walked in and opened the parlour door。  There she sat; with her
  feet on the fender; with her work unheeded on the table behind her;
  and the picture; Aaron's drawing; lying on her knees。  She was
  gazing at it intently as he entered; thinking in her young heart
  that it possessed all the beauties which a picture could possess。
  〃Oh; Mr。 Dunn;〃 she said; getting up and holding the telltale sketch
  behind the skirt of her dress。
  〃Miss Susan; I have come here to tell your mother that I must start
  for New York this afternoon and be there for six weeks; or perhaps
  longer。〃
  〃Mother is out;〃 said she; 〃I'm so sorry。〃
  〃Is she?〃 said Aaron。
  〃And Hetta too。  Dear me。  And you'll be wanting dinner。  I'll go
  and see about it。〃
  Aaron began to swear that he could not possibly eat any dinner。  He
  had dined once; and was going to dine again;anything to keep her
  from going。
  〃But you must have something; Mr。 Dunn;〃 and she walked towards the
  door。
  But he put his back to it。  〃Miss Susan;〃 said he; 〃I guess I've
  been here nearly two months。〃
  〃Yes; sir; I believe you have;〃 she replied; shaking in her shoes;
  and not knowing which way to look。
  〃And I hope we have been good friends。〃
  〃Yes; sir;〃 said Susan; almost beside herself as to what she was
  saying。
  〃I'm going away now; and it seems to be such a time before I'll be
  back。〃
  〃Will it; Sir?〃
  〃Six weeks; Miss Susan!〃 and then he paused; looking into her eyes;
  to see what he could read there。  She leant against the table;
  pulling to pieces a morsel of half…ravelled muslin which she held in
  her hand; but her eyes were turned to the ground; and he could
  hardly see them。
  〃Miss Susan;〃 he continued; 〃I may as well speak out now as at
  another time。〃  He too was looking towards the ground; and clearly
  did not know what to do with his hands。  〃The truth is just this。
  II love you dearly; with all my heart。  I never saw any one I ever
  thought so beautiful; so nice; and so good;and what's more; I
  never shall。  I'm not very good at this sort of thing; I know; but I
  couldn't go away from Saratoga for six weeks and not tell you。〃  And
  then he ceased。  He did not ask for any love in return。  His
  presumption had not got so far as that yet。  He merely declared his
  passion; leaning against the door; and there he stood twiddling his
  thumbs。
  Susan had not the slightest conception of the way in which she ought
  to receive such a declaration。  She had never had a lover before;
  nor had she ever thought of Aaron absolutely as a lover; though
  something very like love for him had been crossing over her spirit。
  Now; at this moment; she felt that he was the beau…ideal of manhood;
  though his boots were covered with the railway mud; and though his
  pantaloons were tucked up in rolls round his ankles。  He was a fine;
  well…grown; open…faced fellow; whose eye was bold and yet tender;
  whose brow was full and broad; and all his bearing manly。  Love him!
  Of course she loved him。  Why else had her heart melted with
  pleasure when her mother said that that second picture was to be
  accepted?
  But what was she to say?  Anything but the open truth; she well knew
  that。  The open truth would not do at all。  What would her mother
  say and Hetta if she were rashly to say that?  Hetta; she knew;
  would be dead against such a lover; and of her mother's approbation
  she had hardly more hope。  Why they should disapprove of Aaron as a
  lover she had never asked herself。  There are many nice things that
  seem to be wrong only because they are so nice。  Maybe that Susan
  regarded a lover as one of them。  〃Oh; Mr。 Dunn; you shouldn't。〃
  That in fact was all that she could say。
  〃Should not I?〃 said he。  〃Well; perhaps not; but there's the truth;
  and no harm ever comes of that。  Perhaps I'd better not ask you for
  an answer now; but I thought it better you should know it all。  And
  remember thisI only care for one thing now in the world; and that
  is for your love。〃  And then he paused; thinking possibly that in
  spite of what he had said he might perhaps get some sort of an
  answer; some inkling of the state of her heart's disposition towards
  him。
  But Susan had at once resolved to take him at his word when he
  suggested that an immediate reply was not necessary。  To say that
  she loved him was of course impossible; and to say that she did not
  was equally so。  She determined therefore to close at once with the
  offer of silence。
  When he ceased speaking there was a moment's pause; during which he
  strove hard to read what might