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爱之冰点 更新:2021-02-20 16:37 字数:9320
〃Well that certainly was an improvement;〃 thought Aaron as he went
through the same operation; with a stronger feeling of self…
approbation than he had enjoyed for some time past。
In the course of the next fortnight the family arrangements all
altered themselves。 Unless when Beckard was there Aaron would sit
in the widow's place; the widow would take Susan's chair; and the
two girls would be opposite。 And then Dunn would read to them; not
sermons; but passages from Shakspeare; and Byron; and Longfellow。
〃He reads much better than Mr。 Beckard;〃 Susan had said one night。
〃Of course you're a competent judge!〃 had been Hetta's retort。 〃I
mean that I like it better;〃 said Susan。 〃It's well that all people
don't think alike;〃 replied Hetta。
And then there was a deal of talking。 The widow herself; as
unconscious in this respect as her youngest daughter; certainly did
find that a little variety was agreeable on those long winter
nights; and talked herself with unaccustomed freedom。 And Beckard
came there oftener and talked very much。 When he was there the two
young men did all the talking; and they pounded each other
immensely。 But still there grew up a sort of friendship between
them。
〃Mr。 Beckard seems quite to take to him;〃 said Mrs。 Bell to her
eldest daughter。
〃It is his great good nature; mother;〃 replied Hetta。
It was at the end of the second month when Aaron took another step
in advancea perilous step。 Sometimes on evenings he still went on
with his drawing for an hour or so; but during three or four
evenings he never asked any one to look at what he was doing。 On
one Friday he sat over his work till late; without any reading or
talking at all; so late that at last Mrs。 Bell said; 〃If you're
going to sit much longer; Mr。 Dunn; I'll get you to put out the
candles。〃 Thereby showing; had he known it or had she; that the
mother's confidence in the young man was growing fast。 Hetta knew
all about it; and dreaded that the growth was too quick。
〃I've finished now;〃 said Aaron; and he looked carefully at the
cardboard on which he had been washing in his water…colours。 〃I've
finished now。〃 He then hesitated a moment; but ultimately he put
the card into his portfolio and carried it up to his bedroom。 Who
does not perceive that it was intended as a present to Susan Bell?
The question which Aaron asked himself that night; and which he
hardly knew how to answer; was this。 Should he offer the drawing to
Susan in the presence of her mother and sister; or on some occasion
when they two might be alone together? No such occasion had ever
yet occurred; but Aaron thought that it might probably be brought
about。 But then he wanted to make no fuss about it。 His first
intention had been to chuck the drawing lightly across the table
when it was completed; and so make nothing of it。 But he had
finished it with more care than he had at first intended; and then
he had hesitated when he had finished it。 It was too late now for
that plan of chucking it over the table。
On the Saturday evening when he came down from his room; Mr。 Beckard
was there; and there was no opportunity that night。 On the Sunday;
in conformity with a previous engagement; he went to hear Mr。
Beckard preach; and walked to and from meeting with the family。
This pleased Mrs。 Bell; and they were all very gracious that
afternoon。 But Sunday was no day for the picture。
On Monday the thing had become of importance to him。 Things always
do when they are kept over。 Before tea that evening when he came
down Mrs。 Bell and Susan only were in the room。 He knew Hetta for
his foe; and therefore determined to use this occasion。
〃Miss Susan;〃 he said; stammering somewhat; and blushing too; poor
fool! 〃I have done a little drawing which I want you to accept;〃
and he put his portfolio down on the table。
〃Oh! I don't know;〃 said Susan; who had seen the blush。
Mrs。 Bell had seen the blush also; and pursed her mouth up; and
looked grave。 Had there been no stammering and no blush; she might
have thought nothing of it。
Aaron saw at once that his little gift was not to go down smoothly。
He was; however; in for it now; so he picked it out from among the
other papers in the case and brought it over to Susan。 He
endeavoured to hand it to her with an air of indifference; but I
cannot say that he succeeded。
It was a very pretty; well…finished; water…coloured drawing;
representing still the same bridge; but with more adjuncts。 In
Susan's eyes it was a work of high art。 Of pictures probably she
had seen but little; and her liking for the artist no doubt added to
her admiration。 But the more she admired it and wished for it; the
stronger was her feeling that she ought not to take it。
Poor Susan! she stood for a minute looking at the drawing; but she
said nothing; not even a word of praise。 She felt that she was red
in the face; and uncourteous to their lodger; but her mother was
looking at her and she did not know how to behave herself。
Mrs。 Bell put out her hand for the sketch; trying to bethink herself
as she did so in what least uncivil way she could refuse the
present。 She took a moment to look at it collecting her thoughts;
and as she did so her woman's wit came to her aid。
〃Oh dear; Mr。 Dunn; it is very pretty; quite a beautiful picture。 I
cannot let Susan rob you of that。 You must keep that for some of
your own particular friends。〃
〃But I did it for her;〃 said Aaron innocently。
Susan looked down at the ground; half pleased at the declaration。
The drawing would look very pretty in a small gilt frame put over
her dressing…table。 But the matter now was altogether in her
mother's hands。
〃I am afraid it is too valuable; sir; for Susan to accept。〃
〃It is not valuable at all;〃 said Aaron; declining to take it back
from the widow's hand。
〃Oh; I am quite sure it is。 It is worth ten dollars at leastor
twenty;〃 said poor Mrs。 Bell; not in the very best taste。 But she
was perplexed; and did not know how to get out of the scrape。 The
article in question now lay upon the table…cloth; appropriated by no
one; and at this moment Hetta came into the room。
〃It is not worth ten cents;〃 said Aaron; with something like a frown
on his brow。 〃But as we had been talking about the bridge; I
thought Miss Susan would accept it。〃
〃Accept what?〃 said Hetta。 And then her eye fell upon the drawing
and she took it up。
〃It is beautifully done;〃 said Mrs。 Bell; wishing much to soften the
matter; perhaps the more so that Hetta the demure was now present。
〃I am telling Mr。 Dunn that we can't take a present of anything so
valuable。〃
〃Oh dear no;〃 said Hetta。 〃It wouldn't be right。〃
It was a cold frosty evening in March; and the fire was burning
brightly on the hearth。 Aaron Dunn took up the drawing quietly
very quietlyand rolling it up; as such drawings are rolled; put it
between the blazing logs。 It was the work of four evenings; and his
chef…d'oeuvre in the way of art。
Susan; when she saw what he had done; burst out into tears。 The
widow could very readily have done so also; but she was able to
refrain herself; and merely exclaimed〃Oh; Mr。 Dunn!〃
〃If Mr。 Dunn chooses to burn his own picture; he has certainly a
right to do so;〃 said Hetta。
Aaron immediately felt ashamed of what he had done; and he also
could have cried; but for his manliness。 He walked away to one of
the parlour…windows; and looked out upon the frosty night。 It was
dark; but the stars were bright; and he thought that he should like
to be walking fast by himself along the line of rails towards
Balston。 There he stood; perhaps for three minutes。 He thought it
would be proper to give Susan time to recover from her tears。
〃Will you please to come to your tea; sir?〃 said the soft voice of
Mrs。 Bell。
He turned round to do so; and found that Susan was gone。 It was not
quite in her power to recover from her tears in three minutes。 And
then the drawing had been so beautiful! It had been done expressly
for her too! And there had been something; she knew not what; in
his eye as he had so declared。 She had watched him intently over
those four evenings' work; wondering why he did not show it; till
her feminine curiosity had become rather strong。 It was something
very particular; she was sure; and she had learned that all that
precious work had been for her。 Now all that precious work was
destroyed。 How was it possible that she should not cry for more
than three minutes?
The others took their meal in perfect silence; and when it was over
the two women sat down to their work。 Aaron had a book which he
pretended to read; but instead of reading he was bethinking himself
that he had behaved badly。 What right had he to throw them all into
such confusion by indulging in his passion? He was ashamed of what
he had done; and fancied that Susan would hate him。 Fancying that;
he began to find at the same time that he by no means hated her。
At last Hetta got up and left the room。 She knew that her sister
was sitting alone in the cold; and Hetta was affectionate。 Susan
had not been in fault; and therefore Hetta went up to console her。