第 3 节
作者:爱之冰点      更新:2021-02-20 16:37      字数:9320
  〃Well that certainly was an improvement;〃 thought Aaron as he went
  through the same operation; with a stronger feeling of self…
  approbation than he had enjoyed for some time past。
  In the course of the next fortnight the family arrangements all
  altered themselves。  Unless when Beckard was there Aaron would sit
  in the widow's place; the widow would take Susan's chair; and the
  two girls would be opposite。  And then Dunn would read to them; not
  sermons; but passages from Shakspeare; and Byron; and Longfellow。
  〃He reads much better than Mr。 Beckard;〃 Susan had said one night。
  〃Of course you're a competent judge!〃 had been Hetta's retort。  〃I
  mean that I like it better;〃 said Susan。  〃It's well that all people
  don't think alike;〃 replied Hetta。
  And then there was a deal of talking。  The widow herself; as
  unconscious in this respect as her youngest daughter; certainly did
  find that a little variety was agreeable on those long winter
  nights; and talked herself with unaccustomed freedom。  And Beckard
  came there oftener and talked very much。  When he was there the two
  young men did all the talking; and they pounded each other
  immensely。  But still there grew up a sort of friendship between
  them。
  〃Mr。 Beckard seems quite to take to him;〃 said Mrs。 Bell to her
  eldest daughter。
  〃It is his great good nature; mother;〃 replied Hetta。
  It was at the end of the second month when Aaron took another step
  in advancea perilous step。  Sometimes on evenings he still went on
  with his drawing for an hour or so; but during three or four
  evenings he never asked any one to look at what he was doing。  On
  one Friday he sat over his work till late; without any reading or
  talking at all; so late that at last Mrs。 Bell said; 〃If you're
  going to sit much longer; Mr。 Dunn; I'll get you to put out the
  candles。〃  Thereby showing; had he known it or had she; that the
  mother's confidence in the young man was growing fast。  Hetta knew
  all about it; and dreaded that the growth was too quick。
  〃I've finished now;〃 said Aaron; and he looked carefully at the
  cardboard on which he had been washing in his water…colours。  〃I've
  finished now。〃  He then hesitated a moment; but ultimately he put
  the card into his portfolio and carried it up to his bedroom。  Who
  does not perceive that it was intended as a present to Susan Bell?
  The question which Aaron asked himself that night; and which he
  hardly knew how to answer; was this。  Should he offer the drawing to
  Susan in the presence of her mother and sister; or on some occasion
  when they two might be alone together?  No such occasion had ever
  yet occurred; but Aaron thought that it might probably be brought
  about。  But then he wanted to make no fuss about it。  His first
  intention had been to chuck the drawing lightly across the table
  when it was completed; and so make nothing of it。  But he had
  finished it with more care than he had at first intended; and then
  he had hesitated when he had finished it。  It was too late now for
  that plan of chucking it over the table。
  On the Saturday evening when he came down from his room; Mr。 Beckard
  was there; and there was no opportunity that night。  On the Sunday;
  in conformity with a previous engagement; he went to hear Mr。
  Beckard preach; and walked to and from meeting with the family。
  This pleased Mrs。 Bell; and they were all very gracious that
  afternoon。  But Sunday was no day for the picture。
  On Monday the thing had become of importance to him。  Things always
  do when they are kept over。  Before tea that evening when he came
  down Mrs。 Bell and Susan only were in the room。  He knew Hetta for
  his foe; and therefore determined to use this occasion。
  〃Miss Susan;〃 he said; stammering somewhat; and blushing too; poor
  fool!  〃I have done a little drawing which I want you to accept;〃
  and he put his portfolio down on the table。
  〃Oh!  I don't know;〃 said Susan; who had seen the blush。
  Mrs。 Bell had seen the blush also; and pursed her mouth up; and
  looked grave。  Had there been no stammering and no blush; she might
  have thought nothing of it。
  Aaron saw at once that his little gift was not to go down smoothly。
  He was; however; in for it now; so he picked it out from among the
  other papers in the case and brought it over to Susan。  He
  endeavoured to hand it to her with an air of indifference; but I
  cannot say that he succeeded。
  It was a very pretty; well…finished; water…coloured drawing;
  representing still the same bridge; but with more adjuncts。  In
  Susan's eyes it was a work of high art。  Of pictures probably she
  had seen but little; and her liking for the artist no doubt added to
  her admiration。  But the more she admired it and wished for it; the
  stronger was her feeling that she ought not to take it。
  Poor Susan! she stood for a minute looking at the drawing; but she
  said nothing; not even a word of praise。  She felt that she was red
  in the face; and uncourteous to their lodger; but her mother was
  looking at her and she did not know how to behave herself。
  Mrs。 Bell put out her hand for the sketch; trying to bethink herself
  as she did so in what least uncivil way she could refuse the
  present。  She took a moment to look at it collecting her thoughts;
  and as she did so her woman's wit came to her aid。
  〃Oh dear; Mr。 Dunn; it is very pretty; quite a beautiful picture。  I
  cannot let Susan rob you of that。  You must keep that for some of
  your own particular friends。〃
  〃But I did it for her;〃 said Aaron innocently。
  Susan looked down at the ground; half pleased at the declaration。
  The drawing would look very pretty in a small gilt frame put over
  her dressing…table。  But the matter now was altogether in her
  mother's hands。
  〃I am afraid it is too valuable; sir; for Susan to accept。〃
  〃It is not valuable at all;〃 said Aaron; declining to take it back
  from the widow's hand。
  〃Oh; I am quite sure it is。  It is worth ten dollars at leastor
  twenty;〃 said poor Mrs。 Bell; not in the very best taste。  But she
  was perplexed; and did not know how to get out of the scrape。  The
  article in question now lay upon the table…cloth; appropriated by no
  one; and at this moment Hetta came into the room。
  〃It is not worth ten cents;〃 said Aaron; with something like a frown
  on his brow。  〃But as we had been talking about the bridge; I
  thought Miss Susan would accept it。〃
  〃Accept what?〃 said Hetta。  And then her eye fell upon the drawing
  and she took it up。
  〃It is beautifully done;〃 said Mrs。 Bell; wishing much to soften the
  matter; perhaps the more so that Hetta the demure was now present。
  〃I am telling Mr。 Dunn that we can't take a present of anything so
  valuable。〃
  〃Oh dear no;〃 said Hetta。  〃It wouldn't be right。〃
  It was a cold frosty evening in March; and the fire was burning
  brightly on the hearth。  Aaron Dunn took up the drawing quietly
  very quietlyand rolling it up; as such drawings are rolled; put it
  between the blazing logs。  It was the work of four evenings; and his
  chef…d'oeuvre in the way of art。
  Susan; when she saw what he had done; burst out into tears。  The
  widow could very readily have done so also; but she was able to
  refrain herself; and merely exclaimed〃Oh; Mr。 Dunn!〃
  〃If Mr。 Dunn chooses to burn his own picture; he has certainly a
  right to do so;〃 said Hetta。
  Aaron immediately felt ashamed of what he had done; and he also
  could have cried; but for his manliness。  He walked away to one of
  the parlour…windows; and looked out upon the frosty night。  It was
  dark; but the stars were bright; and he thought that he should like
  to be walking fast by himself along the line of rails towards
  Balston。  There he stood; perhaps for three minutes。  He thought it
  would be proper to give Susan time to recover from her tears。
  〃Will you please to come to your tea; sir?〃 said the soft voice of
  Mrs。 Bell。
  He turned round to do so; and found that Susan was gone。  It was not
  quite in her power to recover from her tears in three minutes。  And
  then the drawing had been so beautiful!  It had been done expressly
  for her too!  And there had been something; she knew not what; in
  his eye as he had so declared。  She had watched him intently over
  those four evenings' work; wondering why he did not show it; till
  her feminine curiosity had become rather strong。  It was something
  very particular; she was sure; and she had learned that all that
  precious work had been for her。  Now all that precious work was
  destroyed。  How was it possible that she should not cry for more
  than three minutes?
  The others took their meal in perfect silence; and when it was over
  the two women sat down to their work。  Aaron had a book which he
  pretended to read; but instead of reading he was bethinking himself
  that he had behaved badly。  What right had he to throw them all into
  such confusion by indulging in his passion?  He was ashamed of what
  he had done; and fancied that Susan would hate him。  Fancying that;
  he began to find at the same time that he by no means hated her。
  At last Hetta got up and left the room。  She knew that her sister
  was sitting alone in the cold; and Hetta was affectionate。  Susan
  had not been in fault; and therefore Hetta went up to console her。