第 9 节
作者:别克陆上公务舱      更新:2021-02-20 16:16      字数:9320
  suffer and a weakness which leads her to resignation。 Juana resigned
  herself; and without restriction。 She determined to obey her mother's
  prayer; and cross the desert of life to reach God's heaven; knowing
  well that no flowers grew for her along the way of that painful
  journey。
  She married Diard。 As for the quartermaster; though he had no grace in
  Juana's eyes; we may well absolve him。 He loved her distractedly。 The
  Marana; so keen to know the signs of love; had recognized in that man
  the accents of passion and the brusque nature; the generous impulses;
  that are common to Southerners。 In the paroxysm of her anger and her
  distress she had thought such qualities enough for her daughter's
  happiness。
  The first days of this marriage were apparently happy; or; to express
  one of those latent facts; the miseries of which are buried by women
  in the depths of their souls; Juana would not cast down her husband's
  joy;a double role; dreadful to play; but to which; sooner or later;
  all women unhappily married come。 This is a history impossible to
  recount in its full truth。 Juana; struggling hourly against her
  nature; a nature both Spanish and Italian; having dried up the source
  of her tears by dint of weeping; was a human type; destined to
  represent woman's misery in its utmost expression; namely; sorrow
  undyingly active; the description of which would need such minute
  observations that to persons eager for dramatic emotions they would
  seem insipid。 This analysis; in which every wife would find some one
  of her own sufferings; would require a volume to express them all; a
  fruitless; hopeless volume by its very nature; the merit of which
  would consist in faintest tints and delicate shadings which critics
  would declare to be effeminate and diffuse。 Besides; what man could
  rightly approach; unless he bore another heart within his heart; those
  solemn and touching elegies which certain women carry with them to
  their tomb; melancholies; misunderstood even by those who cause them;
  sighs unheeded; devotions unrewarded;on earth at least;splendid
  silences misconstrued; vengeances withheld; disdained; generosities
  perpetually bestowed and wasted; pleasures longed for and denied;
  angelic charities secretly accomplished;in short; all the religions
  of womanhood and its inextinguishable love。
  Juana knew that life; fate spared her nought。 She was wholly a wife;
  but a sorrowful and suffering wife; a wife incessantly wounded; yet
  forgiving always; a wife pure as a flawless diamond;she who had the
  beauty and the glow of the diamond; and in that beauty; that glow; a
  vengeance in her hand; for she was certainly not a woman to fear the
  dagger added to her 〃dot。〃
  At first; inspired by a real love; by one of those passions which for
  the time being change even odious characters and bring to light all
  that may be noble in a soul; Diard behaved like a man of honor。 He
  forced Montefiore to leave the regiment and even the army corps; so
  that his wife might never meet him during the time they remained in
  Spain。 Next; he petitioned for his own removal; and succeeded in
  entering the Imperial Guard。 He desired at any price to obtain a
  title; honors; and consideration in keeping with his present wealth。
  With this idea in his mind; he behaved courageously in one of the most
  bloody battles in Germany; but; unfortunately; he was too severely
  wounded to remain in the service。 Threatened with the loss of a leg;
  he was forced to retire on a pension; without the title of baron;
  without those rewards he hoped to win; and would have won had he not
  been Diard。
  This event; this wound; and his thwarted hopes contributed to change
  his character。 His Provencal energy; roused for a time; sank down。 At
  first he was sustained by his wife; in whom his efforts; his courage;
  his ambition had induced some belief in his nature; and who showed
  herself; what women are; tender and consoling in the troubles of life。
  Inspired by a few words from Juana; the retired soldier came to Paris;
  resolved to win in an administrative career a position to command
  respect; bury in oblivion the quartermaster of the 6th of the line;
  and secure for Madame Diard a noble title。 His passion for that
  seductive creature enabled him to divine her most secret wishes。 Juana
  expressed nothing; but he understood her。 He was not loved as a lover
  dreams of being loved; he knew this; and he strove to make himself
  respected; loved; and cherished。 He foresaw a coming happiness; poor
  man; in the patience and gentleness shown on all occasions by his
  wife; but that patience; that gentleness; were only the outward signs
  of the resignation which had made her his wife。 Resignation; religion;
  were they love? Often Diard wished for refusal where he met with
  chaste obedience; often he would have given his eternal life that
  Juana might have wept upon his bosom and not disguised her secret
  thoughts behind a smiling face which lied to him nobly。 Many young men
  for after a certain age men no longer strugglepersist in the
  effort to triumph over an evil fate; the thunder of which they hear;
  from time to time; on the horizon of their lives; and when at last
  they succumb and roll down the precipice of evil; we ought to do them
  justice and acknowledge these inward struggles。
  Like many men Diard tried all things; and all things were hostile to
  him。 His wealth enabled him to surround his wife with the enjoyments
  of Parisian luxury。 She lived in a fine house; with noble rooms; where
  she maintained a salon; in which abounded artists (by nature no judges
  of men); men of pleasure ready to amuse themselves anywhere; a few
  politicians who swelled the numbers; and certain men of fashion; all
  of whom admired Juana。 Those who put themselves before the eyes of the
  public in Paris must either conquer Paris or be subject to it。 Diard's
  character was not sufficiently strong; compact; or persistent to
  command society at that epoch; because it was an epoch when all men
  were endeavoring to rise。 Social classifications ready…made are
  perhaps a great boon even for the people。 Napoleon has confided to us
  the pains he took to inspire respect in his court; where most of the
  courtiers had been his equals。 But Napoleon was Corsican; and Diard
  Provencal。 Given equal genius; an islander will always be more compact
  and rounded than the man of terra firma in the same latitude; the arm
  of the sea which separates Corsica from Provence is; in spite of human
  science; an ocean which has made two nations。
  Diard's mongrel position; which he himself made still more
  questionable; brought him great troubles。 Perhaps there is useful
  instruction to be derived from the almost imperceptible connection of
  acts which led to the finale of this history。
  In the first place; the sneerers of Paris did not see without
  malicious smiles and words the pictures with which the former
  quartermaster adorned his handsome mansion。 Works of art purchased the
  night before were said to be spoils from Spain; and this accusation
  was the revenge of those who were jealous of his present fortune。
  Juana comprehended this reproach; and by her advice Diard sent back to
  Tarragona all the pictures he had brought from there。 But the public;
  determined to see things in the worst light; only said; 〃That Diard is
  shrewd; he has sold his pictures。〃 Worthy people continued to think
  that those which remained in the Diard salons were not honorably
  acquired。 Some jealous women asked how it was that a DIARD (!) had
  been able to marry so rich and beautiful a young girl。 Hence comments
  and satires without end; such as Paris contributes。 And yet; it must
  be said; that Juana met on all sides the respect inspired by her pure
  and religious life; which triumphed over everything; even Parisian
  calumny; but this respect stopped short with her; her husband received
  none of it。 Juana's feminine perception and her keen eye hovering over
  her salons; brought her nothing but pain。
  This lack of esteem was perfectly natural。 Diard's comrades; in spite
  of the virtues which our imaginations attribute to soldiers; never
  forgave the former quartermaster of the 6th of the line for becoming
  suddenly so rich and for attempting to cut a figure in Paris。 Now in
  Paris; from the last house in the faubourg Saint…Germain to the last
  in the rue Saint…Lazare; between the heights of the Luxembourg and the
  heights of Montmartre; all that clothes itself and gabbles; clothes
  itself to go out and goes out to gabble。 All that world of great and
  small pretensions; that world of insolence and humble desires; of envy
  and cringing; all that is gilded or tarnished; young or old; noble of
  yesterday or noble from the fourth century; all that sneers at a
  parvenu; all that fears to commit itself; all that wants to demolish
  power and worships power if it resists;ALL those ears hear; ALL
  those tongues say; ALL those minds know; in a single evening; where