第 9 节
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vanity and triumph; the happiness in the happiness she had
caused; all this was better than sleep。 But still from all this;
again and again her thoughts flew to those haunting eyes; to that
smile with which forever the memory of the triumph; of the
happiness; was to be united。 Her feelings; like her own
character; were strange and peculiar。 They were not those of a
girl whose heart; for the first time reached through the eye;
sighs its natural and native language of first love。 It was not
so much admiration; though the face that reflected itself on
every wave of her restless fancies was of the rarest order of
majesty and beauty; nor a pleased and enamoured recollection that
the sight of this stranger had bequeathed: it was a human
sentiment of gratitude and delight; mixed with something more
mysterious; of fear and awe。 Certainly she had seen before those
features; but when and how? Only when her thoughts had sought to
shape out her future; and when; in spite of all the attempts to
vision forth a fate of flowers and sunshine; a dark and chill
foreboding made her recoil back into her deepest self。 It was a
something found that had long been sought for by a thousand
restless yearnings and vague desires; less of the heart than
mind; not as when youth discovers the one to be beloved; but
rather as when the student; long wandering after the clew to some
truth in science; sees it glimmer dimly before him; to beckon; to
recede; to allure; and to wane again。 She fell at last into
unquiet slumber; vexed by deformed; fleeting; shapeless phantoms;
and; waking; as the sun; through a veil of hazy cloud; glinted
with a sickly ray across the casement; she heard her father
settled back betimes to his one pursuit; and calling forth from
his Familiar a low mournful strain; like a dirge over the dead。
〃And why;〃 she asked; when she descended to the room below;
〃why; my father; was your inspiration so sad; after the joy of
last night?〃
〃I know not; child。 I meant to be merry; and compose an air in
honour of thee; but he is an obstinate fellow; this;and he
would have it so。〃
CHAPTER 1。IV。
E cosi i pigri e timidi desiri
Sprona。
〃Gerusal。 Lib。;〃 cant。 iv。 lxxxviii。
(And thus the slow and timid passions urged。)
It was the custom of Pisani; except when the duties of his
profession made special demand on his time; to devote a certain
portion of the mid…day to sleep;a habit not so much a luxury as
a necessity to a man who slept very little during the night。 In
fact; whether to compose or to practice; the hours of noon were
precisely those in which Pisani could not have been active if he
would。 His genius resembled those fountains full at dawn and
evening; overflowing at night; and perfectly dry at the meridian。
During this time; consecrated by her husband to repose; the
signora generally stole out to make the purchases necessary for
the little household; or to enjoy (as what woman does not?) a
little relaxation in gossip with some of her own sex。 And the
day following this brilliant triumph; how many congratulations
would she have to receive!
At these times it was Viola's habit to seat herself without the
door of the house; under an awning which sheltered from the sun
without obstructing the view; and there now; with the prompt…book
on her knee; on which her eye roves listlessly from time to time;
you may behold her; the vine…leaves clustering from their arching
trellis over the door behind; and the lazy white…sailed boats
skimming along the sea that stretched before。
As she thus sat; rather in reverie than thought; a man coming
from the direction of Posilipo; with a slow step and downcast
eyes; passed close by the house; and Viola; looking up abruptly;
started in a kind of terror as she recognised the stranger。 She
uttered an involuntary exclamation; and the cavalier turning;
saw; and paused。
He stood a moment or two between her and the sunlit ocean;
contemplating in a silence too serious and gentle for the
boldness of gallantry; the blushing face and the young slight
form before him; at length he spoke。
〃Are you happy; my child;〃 he said; in almost a paternal tone;
〃at the career that lies before you? From sixteen to thirty; the
music in the breath of applause is sweeter than all the music
your voice can utter!〃
〃I know not;〃 replied Viola; falteringly; but encouraged by the
liquid softness of the accents that addressed her;〃I know not
whether I am happy now; but I was last night。 And I feel; too;
Excellency; that I have you to thank; though; perhaps; you scarce
know why!〃
〃You deceive yourself;〃 said the cavalier; with a smile。 〃I am
aware that I assisted to your merited success; and it is you who
scarce know how。 The WHY I will tell you: because I saw in your
heart a nobler ambition than that of the woman's vanity; it was
the daughter that interested me。 Perhaps you would rather I
should have admired the singer?〃
〃No; oh; no!〃
〃Well; I believe you。 And now; since we have thus met; I will
pause to counsel you。 When next you go to the theatre; you will
have at your feet all the young gallants of Naples。 Poor infant!
the flame that dazzles the eye can scorch the wing。 Remember
that the only homage that does not sully must be that which these
gallants will not give thee。 And whatever thy dreams of the
future;and I see; while I speak to thee; how wandering they
are; and wild;may only those be fulfilled which centre round
the hearth of home。〃
He paused; as Viola's breast heaved beneath its robe。 And with a
burst of natural and innocent emotions; scarcely comprehending;
though an Italian; the grave nature of his advice; she
exclaimed;
〃Ah; Excellency; you cannot know how dear to me that home is
already。 And my father;there would be no home; signor; without
him!〃
A deep and melancholy shade settled over the face of the
cavalier。 He looked up at the quiet house buried amidst the
vine…leaves; and turned again to the vivid; animated face of the
young actress。
〃It is well;〃 said he。 〃A simple heart may be its own best
guide; and so; go on; and prosper。 Adieu; fair singer。〃
〃Adieu; Excellency; but;〃 and something she could not resistan
anxious; sickening feeling of fear and hope;impelled her to the
question; 〃I shall see you again; shall I not; at San Carlo?〃
〃Not; at least; for some time。 I leave Naples to…day。〃
〃Indeed!〃 and Viola's heart sank within her; the poetry of the
stage was gone。
〃And;〃 said the cavalier; turning back; and gently laying his
hand on hers;〃and; perhaps; before we meet; you may have
suffered: known the first sharp griefs of human life;known how
little what fame can gain; repays what the heart can lose; but be
brave and yield not;not even to what may seem the piety of
sorrow。 Observe yon tree in your neighbour's garden。 Look how
it grows up; crooked and distorted。 Some wind scattered the germ
from which it sprang; in the clefts of the rock; choked up and
walled round by crags and buildings; by Nature and man; its life
has been one struggle for the light;light which makes to that
life the necessity and the principle: you see how it has writhed
and twisted; how; meeting the barrier in one spot; it has
laboured and worked; stem and branches; towards the clear skies
at last。 What has preserved it through each disfavour of birth
and circumstances;why are its leaves as green and fair as those
of the vine behind you; which; with all its arms; can embrace the
open sunshine? My child; because of the very instinct that
impelled the struggle;because the labour for the light won to
the light at length。 So with a gallant heart; through every
adverse accident of sorrow and of fate to turn to the sun; to
strive for the heaven; this it is that gives knowledge to the
strong and happiness to the weak。 Ere we meet again; you will
turn sad and heavy eyes to those quiet boughs; and when you hear
the birds sing from them; and see the sunshine come aslant from
crag and housetop to be the playfellow of their leaves; learn the
lesson that Nature teaches you; and strive through darkness to
the light!〃
As he spoke he moved on slowly; and left Viola wondering; silent;
saddened with his dim prophecy of coming evil; and yet; through
sadness; charmed。 Involuntarily her eyes followed him;
involuntarily she stretched forth her arms; as if by a gesture to
call him back; she would have given worlds to have seen him
turn;to have heard once more his low; calm; silvery voice; to
have felt again the light touch of his hand on hers。 As
moonlight that softens into beauty every angle on which it falls;
seemed his presence;as moonlight vanishes; and things assume
their common aspect of the rugged and the mean; he receded from
her eyes; and the outward scene was commonplace once more。
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