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undoubtedly right; but in this case I think you will agree with me (when
you think it over); we must not show any weakness。 Come and stop with
us to…night: Mrs。 Vedder will be overjoyed to see you and we'll have
another fine talk。
I confess I was a good deal cast down as I read this letter。
〃What interests are so important?〃 I asked myself; 〃that they should
keep friends apart?〃
But I was given only a moment for reflection for the door opened and
my friend Bill; together with R… D…and several other members of the
committee; came out。 I put the letter in my pocket; and for a moment my
brain never worked under higher pressure。 What should I say to them now?
How could I explain myself ?
Bill Hahn was evidently labouring under considerable excitement; but
R… D… was as calm as a judge。 He sat down in the chair opposite and
said to me:
〃We've been figuring out this proposition of Mr。 Vedder's。 Your idea is
all right; and it would be a fine thing if we could really get together as you
suggest upon terms of common understanding and friendship。〃
〃Just what Mr。 Vedder said;〃 I exclaimed。
〃Yes;〃 he continued; 〃it's all right in theory; but in this case it simply
won't work。 Don't you see it's got to be war? Your friend and I could
probably understand each otherbut this is a class war。 It's all or nothing
with us; and your friend Vedder knows it as well as we do。〃
After some further argument and explanation; I said:
〃I see: and this is Socialism。〃
〃Yes;〃 said the great R… D…; 〃this is Socialism。〃
〃And it's force you would use;〃 I said。
〃It's force THEY use;〃 he replied。
After I left the strike headquarters that eveningfor it was almost dark
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before I parted with the committeeI walked straight out through the
crowded streets; so absorbed in my thoughts that I did not know in the
least where I was going。 The street lights came out; the crowds began to
thin away; I heard a strident song from a phonograph at the entrance to a
picture show; and as I passed again in front of the great; dark; many…
windowed mill which had made my friend Vedder a rich man I saw a
sentinel turn slowly at the corner。 The light glinted on the steel of his
bayonet。 He had a fresh; fine; boyish face。
〃We have some distance yet to go in this world;〃 I said to myself; 〃no
man need repine for lack of good work ahead。〃
It was only a little way beyond this mill that an incident occurred
which occupied probably not ten minutes of time; and yet I have thought
about it since I came home as much as I have thought about any other
incident of my pilgrimage。 I have thought how I might have acted
differently under the circumstances; how I could have said this or how I
ought to have done thatall; of course; now to no purpose whatever。 But I
shall not attempt to tell what I ought to have done or said; but what I
actually did do and say on the spur of the moment。
It was in a narrow; dark street which opened off the brightly lighted
main thoroughfare of that mill neighbourhood。 A girl standing in the
shadows between two buildings said to me as I passed:
〃Good evening。〃
I stopped instantly; it was such a pleasant; friendly voice。
〃Good evening;〃 I said; lifting my hat and wondering that there should
be any one here in this back street who knew me。
〃Where are you going?〃 she asked。
I stepped over quickly toward her; hat in hand。 She was a mere slip of
a girl; rather comely; I thought; with small childish features and a half…
timid; half…bold look in her eyes。 I could not remember having seen her
before。
She smiled at meand then I knew!
Well; if some one had struck me a brutal blow in the face I could not
have been more astonished。
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We know of things!and yet how little we know until they are
presented to us in concrete form。 Just such a little school girl as I have
seen a thousand times in the country; the pathetic childish curve of the
chin; a small rebellious curl hanging low on her temple。
I could not say a word。 The girl evidently saw in my face that
something was the matter; for she turned and began to move quickly away。
Such a wave of compassion (and anger; too) swept over me as I cannot
well describe。 I stepped after her and asked in a low voice:
〃Do you work in the mills?〃
〃Yes; when there's work。〃
〃What is your name?〃
〃Maggie〃
〃Well; Maggie;〃 I said; 〃let's be friends。〃
She looked around at me curiously; questioningly。
〃And friends;〃 I said; 〃should know something about each other。 You
see I am a farmer from the country。 I used to live in a city myself; a good
many years ago; but I got tired and sick and hopeless。 There was so much
that was wrong about it。 I tried to keep the pace and could not。 I wish I
could tell you what the country has done for me。〃
We were walking along slowly; side by side; the girl perfectly passive
but glancing around at me from time to time with a wondering look。 I
don't know in the least now what prompted me to do it; but I began telling
in a quiet; low voicefor; after all; she was only a childI began telling
her about our chickens at the farm and how Harriet had named them all;
and one was Frances E。 Willard; and one; a speckled one; was Martha
Washington; and I told her of the curious antics of Martha Washington and
of the number of eggs she laid; and of the sweet new milk we had to drink;
and the honey right out of our own hives; and of the things growing in the
garden。
Once she smiled a little; and once she looked around at me with a
curious; timid; half…wistful expression in her eyes。
〃Maggie;〃 I said; 〃I wish you could go to the country。〃
〃I wish to God I could;〃 she replied。
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We walked for a moment in silence。 My head was whirling with
thoughts: again I had that feeling of helplessness; of inadequacy; which I
had felt so sharply on the previous evening。 What could I do?
When we reached the corner; I said:
〃Maggie; I will see you safely home。〃
She laugheda hard; bitter laugh。
〃Oh; I don't need any one to show me around these streets!〃
〃I will see you home;〃 I said。
So we walked quickly along the street together。
〃Here it is;〃 she said finally; pointing to a dark; mean…looking; one…
story house; set in a dingy; barren areaway。
〃Well; good night; Maggie;〃 I said; 〃and good luck to you。〃
〃Good night;〃 she said faintly。
When I had walked to the corner; I stopped and looked back。 She was
standing stock…still just where I had left hera figure I shall never forget。
I have hesitated about telling of a further strange thing that happened
to me that nightbut have decided at last to put it in。 I did not accept Mr。
Vedder's invitation: I could not; but I returned to the room in the tenement
where I had spent the previous night with Bill Hahn the Socialist。 It was a
small; dark; noisy room; but I was so weary that I fell almost immediately
into a heavy sleep。 An hour or more later I don't know how long indeedI
was suddenly awakened and found myself sitting bolt upright in bed。 It
was close and dark and warm there in the room; and from without came
the muffled sounds of the city。 For an instant I waited; rigid with
expectancy。 And then I heard as clearly and plainly as ever I heard
anything:
〃David! David!〃 in my sister Harriet's voice。
It was exactly the voice in which she has called me a thousand times。
Without an instant's hesitation; I stepped out of bed and called out:
〃I'm coming; Harriet! I'm coming!〃
〃What's the matter?〃 inquired Bill Hahn sleepily。
〃Nothing;〃 I replied; and crept back into bed。
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