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作者:冬冬      更新:2021-02-20 15:54      字数:9322
  undoubtedly right; but in this case I think you will agree with me (when
  you think it over); we must not show any weakness。 Come and stop with
  us   to…night:   Mrs。   Vedder   will   be   overjoyed   to   see   you   and   we'll   have
  another fine talk。
  I confess I was a good deal cast down as I read this letter。
  〃What   interests   are   so   important?〃   I   asked   myself;  〃that   they  should
  keep friends apart?〃
  But I was given only a moment for reflection for the door opened and
  my friend Bill; together with R… D…and several other members of   the
  committee; came out。 I put the letter in my pocket; and for a moment my
  brain never worked under higher pressure。 What should I say to them now?
  How could I explain myself ?
  Bill Hahn was evidently labouring under considerable excitement; but
  R… D… was as calm as a judge。 He sat down in the chair opposite and
  said to me:
  〃We've been figuring out this proposition of Mr。 Vedder's。 Your idea is
  all right; and it would be a fine thing if we could really get together as you
  suggest upon terms of common understanding and friendship。〃
  〃Just what Mr。 Vedder said;〃 I exclaimed。
  〃Yes;〃 he continued; 〃it's all right in theory; but in this case it simply
  won't   work。   Don't   you   see   it's   got   to   be   war?   Your   friend   and   I   could
  probably understand each otherbut this is a class war。 It's all or nothing
  with us; and your friend Vedder knows it as well as we do。〃
  After some further argument and explanation; I said:
  〃I see: and this is Socialism。〃
  〃Yes;〃 said the great R… D…; 〃this is Socialism。〃
  〃And it's force you would use;〃 I said。
  〃It's force THEY use;〃 he replied。
  After I left the strike headquarters that eveningfor it was almost dark
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  before   I   parted   with   the   committeeI   walked   straight   out   through   the
  crowded   streets;   so   absorbed   in   my   thoughts   that   I   did   not   know   in   the
  least where I was going。 The street lights came out; the crowds began to
  thin away; I heard a strident song from a phonograph at the entrance to a
  picture   show;   and   as   I   passed   again   in   front   of   the   great;   dark;   many…
  windowed   mill   which   had   made   my   friend   Vedder   a   rich   man   I   saw   a
  sentinel   turn   slowly   at   the   corner。   The   light   glinted   on   the   steel   of   his
  bayonet。 He had a fresh; fine; boyish face。
  〃We have some distance yet to go in this world;〃 I said to myself; 〃no
  man need repine for lack of good work ahead。〃
  It   was   only   a   little   way   beyond   this   mill   that   an   incident   occurred
  which occupied probably not ten minutes of time; and yet I have thought
  about   it   since   I   came   home   as   much   as   I   have   thought   about   any   other
  incident     of  my    pilgrimage。     I  have    thought    how     I  might    have   acted
  differently under the circumstances; how I could have said this or how I
  ought to have done thatall; of course; now to no purpose whatever。 But I
  shall   not   attempt   to   tell   what   I   ought   to   have   done   or   said;   but   what   I
  actually did do and say on the spur of the moment。
  It was in   a narrow; dark   street which opened off the brightly  lighted
  main     thoroughfare      of  that  mill   neighbourhood。       A   girl  standing    in  the
  shadows between two buildings said to me as I passed:
  〃Good evening。〃
  I stopped instantly; it was such a pleasant; friendly voice。
  〃Good evening;〃 I said; lifting my hat and wondering that there should
  be any one here in this back street who knew me。
  〃Where are you going?〃 she asked。
  I stepped over quickly toward her; hat in hand。 She was a mere slip of
  a   girl;   rather   comely;   I   thought;   with   small   childish   features   and   a   half…
  timid; half…bold look in her eyes。 I could not remember having seen her
  before。
  She smiled at meand then I knew!
  Well; if some one had struck me a brutal blow in the face I could not
  have been more astonished。
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  We     know    of   things!and    yet   how    little  we   know     until  they   are
  presented   to   us   in   concrete   form。   Just   such   a   little   school   girl   as   I   have
  seen   a   thousand   times   in   the   country;   the   pathetic   childish   curve   of   the
  chin; a small rebellious curl hanging low on her temple。
  I  could    not   say   a  word。   The    girl  evidently    saw    in  my   face   that
  something was the matter; for she turned and began to move quickly away。
  Such a   wave of   compassion (and   anger;  too) swept over   me   as   I   cannot
  well describe。 I stepped after her and asked in a low voice:
  〃Do you work in the mills?〃
  〃Yes; when there's work。〃
  〃What is your name?〃
  〃Maggie〃
  〃Well; Maggie;〃 I said; 〃let's be friends。〃
  She looked around at me curiously; questioningly。
  〃And friends;〃 I said; 〃should know something about each other。 You
  see I am a farmer from the country。 I used to live in a city myself; a good
  many years ago; but I got tired and sick and hopeless。 There was so much
  that was wrong about it。 I tried to keep the pace and could not。 I wish I
  could tell you what the country has done for me。〃
  We were walking along slowly; side by side; the girl perfectly passive
  but   glancing   around   at   me   from   time   to   time   with   a   wondering   look。   I
  don't know in the least now what prompted me to do it; but I began telling
  in a quiet; low voicefor; after all; she was only a childI began telling
  her about our chickens at the farm and how Harriet had named them all;
  and   one   was   Frances   E。   Willard;   and   one;   a   speckled   one;   was   Martha
  Washington; and I told her of the curious antics of Martha Washington and
  of the number of eggs she laid; and of the sweet new milk we had to drink;
  and the honey right out of our own hives; and of the things growing in the
  garden。
  Once   she   smiled   a   little;   and   once   she   looked   around   at   me   with   a
  curious; timid; half…wistful expression in her eyes。
  〃Maggie;〃 I said; 〃I wish you could go to the country。〃
  〃I wish to God I could;〃 she replied。
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  We    walked    for  a  moment      in  silence。  My   head    was    whirling   with
  thoughts: again I had that feeling of helplessness; of inadequacy; which I
  had felt so sharply on the previous evening。 What could I do?
  When we reached the corner; I said:
  〃Maggie; I will see you safely home。〃
  She laugheda hard; bitter laugh。
  〃Oh; I don't need any one to show me around these streets!〃
  〃I will see you home;〃 I said。
  So we walked quickly along the street together。
  〃Here   it   is;〃   she   said   finally;   pointing   to   a   dark;   mean…looking;   one…
  story house; set in a dingy; barren areaway。
  〃Well; good night; Maggie;〃 I said; 〃and good luck to you。〃
  〃Good night;〃 she said faintly。
  When I had walked to the corner; I stopped and looked back。 She was
  standing stock…still just where I had left hera figure I shall never forget。
  I have hesitated about telling of a further strange thing that happened
  to me that nightbut have decided at last to put it in。 I did not accept Mr。
  Vedder's invitation: I could not; but I returned to the room in the tenement
  where I had spent the previous night with Bill Hahn the Socialist。 It was a
  small; dark; noisy room; but I was so weary that I fell almost immediately
  into a heavy sleep。 An hour or more later I don't know how long indeedI
  was   suddenly  awakened   and   found   myself   sitting   bolt   upright   in   bed。   It
  was close and dark and warm there in the room; and from without came
  the    muffled    sounds    of  the   city。  For   an   instant  I  waited;    rigid  with
  expectancy。      And    then   I  heard   as  clearly   and   plainly   as  ever   I  heard
  anything:
  〃David! David!〃 in my sister Harriet's voice。
  It was exactly the voice in which she has called me a thousand times。
  Without an instant's hesitation; I stepped out of bed and called out:
  〃I'm coming; Harriet! I'm coming!〃
  〃What's the matter?〃 inquired Bill Hahn sleepily。
  〃Nothing;〃 I replied; and crept back into bed。
  It may have been the result of the st