第 8 节
作者:雨来不躲      更新:2021-02-20 15:53      字数:9322
  means to become like that man。  The prince approached the corpse;
  uncovered it; and looked at it。  'What will happen to him now?'
  asked the prince。  He was told that the corpse would be buried in
  the ground。  'Why?'  'Because he will certainly not return to life;
  and will only produce a stench and worms。'  'And is that the fate
  of all men?  Will the same thing happen to me?  Will they bury me;
  and shall I cause a stench and be eaten by worms?'  'Yes。'  'Home!
  I shall not drive out for pleasure; and never will so drive out
  again!'
  And Sakya Muni could find no consolation in life; and decided
  that life is the greatest of evils; and he devoted all the strength
  of his soul to free himself from it; and to free others; and to do
  this so that; even after death; life shall not be renewed any more
  but be completely destroyed at its very roots。  So speaks all the
  wisdom of India。
  These are the direct replies that human wisdom gives when it
  replies to life's question。
  〃The life of the body is an evil and a lie。  Therefore the
  destruction of the life of the body is a blessing; and we should
  desire it;〃 says Socrates。
  〃Life is that which should not be  an evil; and the passage
  into Nothingness is the only good in life;〃 says Schopenhauer。
  〃All that is in the world  folly and wisdom and riches and
  poverty and mirth and grief  is vanity and emptiness。  Man dies
  and nothing is left of him。  And that is stupid;〃 says Solomon。
  〃To life in the consciousness of the inevitability of
  suffering; of becoming enfeebled; of old age and of death; is
  impossible  we must free ourselves from life; from all possible
  life;〃 says Buddha。
  And what these strong minds said has been said and thought and
  felt by millions upon millions of people like them。  And I have
  thought it and felt it。
  So my wandering among the sciences; far from freeing me from
  my despair; only strengthened it。  One kind of knowledge did not
  reply to life's question; the other kind replied directly
  confirming my despair; indicating not that the result at which I
  had arrived was the fruit of error or of a diseased state of my
  mind; but on the contrary that I had thought correctly; and that my
  thoughts coincided with the conclusions of the most powerful of
  human minds。
  It is no good deceiving oneself。 It is all  vanity!  Happy
  is he who has not been born:  death is better than life; and one
  must free oneself from life。
  VII
  Not finding an explanation in science I began to seek for it
  in life; hoping to find it among the people around me。  And I began
  to observe how the people around me  people like myself  lived;
  and what their attitude was to this question which had brought me
  to despair。
  And this is what I found among people who were in the same
  position as myself as regards education and manner of life。
  I found that for people of my circle there were four ways out
  of the terrible position in which we are all placed。
  The first was that of ignorance。 It consists in not knowing;
  not understanding; that life is an evil and an absurdity。  People
  of this sort  chiefly women; or very young or very dull people
  have not yet understood that question of life which presented
  itself to Schopenhauer; Solomon; and Buddha。  They see neither the
  dragon that awaits them nor the mice gnawing the shrub by which
  they are hanging; and they lick the drops of honey。  but they lick
  those drops of honey only for a while:  something will turn their
  attention to the dragon and the mice; and there will be an end to
  their licking。  From them I had nothing to learn  one cannot
  cease to know what one does know。
  The second way out is epicureanism。  It consists; while
  knowing the hopelessness of life; in making use meanwhile of the
  advantages one has; disregarding the dragon and the mice; and
  licking the honey in the best way; especially if there is much of
  it within reach。  Solomon expresses this way out thus:  〃Then I
  commended mirth; because a man hath no better thing under the sun;
  than to eat; and to drink; and to be merry: and that this should
  accompany him in his labour the days of his life; which God giveth
  him under the sun。
  〃Therefore eat thy bread with joy and drink thy wine with a
  merry heart。。。。 Live joyfully with the wife whom thou lovest all
  the days of the life of thy vanity。。。for this is thy portion in
  life and in thy labours which thou takest under the sun。。。。
  Whatsoever thy hand findeth to do; do it with thy might; for there
  is not work; nor device; nor knowledge; nor wisdom; in the grave;
  whither thou goest。〃
  That is the way in which the majority of people of our circle
  make life possible for themselves。  Their circumstances furnish
  them with more of welfare than of hardship; and their moral
  dullness makes it possible for them to forget that the advantage of
  their position is accidental; and that not everyone can have a
  thousand wives and palaces like Solomon; that for everyone who has
  a thousand wives there are a thousand without a wife; and that for
  each palace there are a thousand people who have to build it in the
  sweat of their brows; and that the accident that has today made me
  a Solomon may tomorrow make me a Solomon's slave。  The dullness of
  these people's imagination enables them to forget the things that
  gave Buddha no peace  the inevitability of sickness; old age; and
  death; which today or tomorrow will destroy all these pleasures。
  So think and feel the majority of people of our day and our
  manner of life。  The fact that some of these people declare the
  dullness of their thoughts and imaginations to be a philosophy;
  which they call Positive; does not remove them; in my opinion; from
  the ranks of those who; to avoid seeing the question; lick the
  honey。  I could not imitate these people; not having their dullness
  of imagination I could not artificially produce it in myself。  I
  could not tear my eyes from the mice and the dragon; as no vital
  man can after he has once seen them。
  The third escape is that of strength and energy。  It consists
  in destroying life; when one has understood that it is an evil and
  an absurdity。  A few exceptionally strong and consistent people act
  so。  Having understood the stupidity of the joke that has been
  played on them; and having understood that it is better to be dead
  than to be alive; and that it is best of all not to exist; they act
  accordingly and promptly end this stupid joke; since there are
  means:  a rope round one's neck; water; a knife to stick into one's
  heart; or the trains on the railways; and the number of those of
  our circle who act in this way becomes greater and greater; and for
  the most part they act so at the best time of their life; when the
  strength of their mind is in full bloom and few habits degrading to
  the mind have as yet been acquired。
  I saw that this was the worthiest way of escape and I wished
  to adopt it。
  The fourth way out is that of weakness。  It consists in seeing
  the truth of the situation and yet clinging to life; knowing in
  advance that nothing can come of it。  People of this kind know that
  death is better than life; but not having the strength to act
  rationally  to end the deception quickly and kill themselves
  they seem to wait for something。  This is the escape of weakness;
  for if I know what is best and it is within my power; why not yield
  to what is best? 。。。 I found myself in that category。
  So people of my class evade the terrible contradiction in four
  ways。  Strain my attention as I would; I saw no way except those
  four。  One way was not to understand that life is senseless;
  vanity; and an evil; and that it is better not to live。  I could
  not help knowing this; and when I once knew it could not shut my
  eyes to it。  the second way was to use life such as it is without
  thinking of the future。  And I could not do that。  I; like Sakya
  Muni; could not ride out hunting when I knew that old age;
  suffering; and death exist。  My imagination was too vivid。  Nor
  could I rejoice in the momentary accidents that for an instant
  threw pleasure to my lot。  The third way; having under stood that
  life is evil and stupid; was to end it by killing oneself。  I
  understood that; but somehow still did not kill myself。  The fourth
  way was to live like Solomon and Schopenhauer  knowing that life
  is a stupid joke played upon us; and still to go on living; washing
  oneself; dressing; dining; talking; and even writing books。  This
  was to me repulsive and tormenting; but I remained in that
  position。
  I see now that if I did not kill myself it was due to some dim
  consciousness of the invalidity of my thoughts。  However convincing
  and indubitable appeared to me the sequence of my thoughts and of
  those of the wise that have brought us to the admission of the
  senselessness of life; there