第 128 节
作者:套牢      更新:2021-02-20 15:35      字数:9321
  head was bent towards the earth。  I kept away。  They made a turn
  from home。  I still followed at a distance。  The evening began to
  grow dark。  The autumn wind met us again; colder; stronger; yet more
  laden with the odours of death and the frosts of the coming winter。
  But it no longer blew as from the charnel…house of the past; it
  blew from the stars through the chinks of the unopened door on the
  other side of the sepulchre。  It was a wind of the worlds; not a
  wind of the leaves。  It told of the march of the spheres; and the
  rest of the throne of God。 We were going on into the universehome
  to the house of our Father。  Mighty adventure!  Sacred repose!  And
  as I followed the pair; one great star throbbed and radiated over my
  head。
  CHAPTER XVIII。
  THREE GENERATIONS。
  The next week I went back to my work; leaving the father and son
  alone together。  Before I left; I could see plainly enough that the
  bonds were being drawn closer between them。  A whole month passed
  before they returned to London。  The winter then had set in with
  unusual severity。  But it seemed to bring only health to the two
  men。  When I saw Andrew next; there was certainly a marked change
  upon him。  Light had banished the haziness from his eye; and his
  step was a good deal firmer。  I can hardly speak of more than the
  physical improvement; for I saw very little of him now。  Still I did
  think I could perceive more of judgment in his face; as if he
  sometimes weighed things in his mind。  But it was plain that Robert
  continued very careful not to let him a moment out of his knowledge。
  He busied him with the various sights of London; for Andrew;
  although he knew all its miseries well; had never yet been inside
  Westminster Abbey。  If he could only trust him enough to get him
  something to do!  But what was he fit for?  To try him; he proposed
  once that he should write some account of what he had seen and
  learned in his wanderings; but the evident distress with which he
  shrunk from the proposal was grateful to the eyes and heart of his
  son。
  It was almost the end of the year when a letter arrived from John
  Lammie; informing Robert that his grandmother had caught a violent
  cold; and that; although the special symptoms had disappeared; it
  was evident her strength was sinking fast; and that she would not
  recover。
  He read the letter to his father。
  'We must go and see her; Robert; my boy;' said Andrew。
  It was the first time that he had shown the smallest desire to visit
  her。  Falconer rose with glad heart; and proceeded at once to make
  arrangements for their journey。
  It was a cold; powdery afternoon in January; with the snow thick on
  the ground; save where the little winds had blown the crown of the
  street bare before Mrs。 Falconer's house。  A post…chaise with four
  horses swept wearily round the corner; and pulled up at her door。
  Betty opened it; and revealed an old withered face very sorrowful;
  and yet expectant。  Falconer's feelings I dare not; Andrew's I
  cannot attempt to describe; as they stepped from the chaise and
  entered。  Betty led the way without a word into the little parlour。
  Robert went next; with long quiet strides; and Andrew followed with
  gray; bowed head。  Grannie was not in her chair。  The doors which
  during the day concealed the bed in which she slept; were open; and
  there lay the aged woman with her eyes closed。  The room was as it
  had always been; only there seemed a filmy shadow in it that had not
  been there before。
  'She's deein'; sir;' whispered Betty。 'Ay is she。  Och hone!'
  Robert took his father's hand; and led him towards the bed。  They
  drew nigh softly; and bent over the withered; but not even yet very
  wrinkled face。  The smooth; white; soft hands lay on the sheet;
  which was folded back over her bosom。  She was asleep; or rather;
  she slumbered。
  But the soul of the child began to grow in the withered heart of the
  old man as he regarded his older mother; and as it grew it forced
  the tears to his eyes; and the words to his lips。
  'Mother!' he said; and her eyelids rose at once。  He stooped to kiss
  her; with the tears rolling down his face。  The light of heaven
  broke and flashed from her aged countenance。  She lifted her weak
  hands; took his head; and held it to her bosom。
  'Eh! the bonnie gray heid!' she said; and burst into a passion of
  weeping。  She had kept some tears for the last。  Now she would spend
  all that her griefs had left her。  But there came a pause in her
  sobs; though not in her weeping; and then she spoke。
  'I kent it a' the time; O Lord。 I kent it a' the time。  He's come
  hame。  My Anerew; my Anerew!  I'm as happy 's a bairn。  O Lord!  O
  Lord!'
  And she burst again into sobs; and entered paradise in radiant
  weeping。
  Her hands sank away from his head; and when her son gazed in her
  face he saw that she was dead。  She had never looked at Robert。
  The two men turned towards each other。  Robert put out his arms。
  His father laid his head on his bosom; and went on weeping。  Robert
  held him to his heart。
  When shall a man dare to say that God has done all he can?
  CHAPTER XIX。
  THE WHOLE STORY。
  The men laid their mother's body with those of the generations that
  had gone before her; beneath the long grass in their country
  churchyard near Rothiedena dreary place; one accustomed to trim
  cemeteries and sentimental wreaths would call itto Falconer's mind
  so friendly to the forsaken dust; because it lapt it in sweet
  oblivion。
  They returned to the dreary house; and after a simple meal such as
  both had used to partake of in their boyhood; they sat by the fire;
  Andrew in his mother's chair; Robert in the same chair in which he
  had learned his Sallust and written his versions。  Andrew sat for a
  while gazing into the fire; and Robert sat watching his face; where
  in the last few months a little feeble fatherhood had begun to dawn。
  'It was there; father; that grannie used to sit; every day;
  sometimes looking in the fire for hours; thinking about you; I
  know;' Robert said at length。
  Andrew stirred uneasily in his chair。
  'How do you know that?' he asked。
  'If there was one thing I could be sure of; it was when grannie was
  thinking about you; father。  Who wouldn't have known it; father;
  when her lips were pressed together; as if she had some dreadful
  pain to bear; and her eyes were looking away through the fireso
  far away! and I would speak to her three times before she would
  answer?  She lived only to think about God and you; father。  God and
  you came very close together in her mind。  Since ever I can
  remember; almost; the thought of you was just the one thing in this
  house。'
  Then Robert began at the beginning of his memory; and told his
  father all that he could remember。  When he came to speak about his
  solitary musings in the garret; he saidand long before he reached
  this part; he had relapsed into his mother tongue:
  'Come and luik at the place; father。  I want to see 't again;
  mysel'。'
  He rose。  His father yielded and followed him。  Robert got a candle
  in the kitchen; and the two big men climbed the little narrow stair
  and stood in the little sky of the house; where their heads almost
  touched the ceiling。
  'I sat upo' the flure there;' said Robert; 'an' thoucht and thoucht
  what I wad du to get ye; father; and what I wad du wi' ye whan I had
  gotten ye。  I wad greit whiles; 'cause ither laddies had a father
  an' I had nane。  An' there's whaur I fand mamma's box wi' the letter
  in 't and her ain picter: grannie gae me that ane o' you。  An'
  there's whaur I used to kneel doon an' pray to God。 An' he's heard
  my prayers; and grannie's prayers; and here ye are wi' me at last。
  Instead o' thinkin' aboot ye; I hae yer ain sel'。  Come; father; I
  want to say a word o' thanks to God; for hearin' my prayer。'
  He took the old man's hand; led him to the bedside; and kneeled with
  him there。
  My reader can hardly avoid thinking it was a poor sad triumph that
  Robert had after all。  How the dreams of the boy had dwindled in
  settling down into the reality!  He had his father; it was true; but
  what a father!  And how little he had him!
  But this was not the end; and Robert always believed that the end
  must be the greater in proportion to the distance it was removed; to
  give time for its true fulfilment。  And when he prayed aloud beside
  his father; I doubt not that his thanksgiving and his hope were
  equal。
  The prayer over; he took his father's hand and led him down again to
  the little parlour; and they took their seats again by the fire; and
  Robert began again and went on with his story; not omitting the
  parts belonging to Mary St。 John and Eric Ericson。
  When he came to tell how he had encountered him in the deserted
  factory:
  'Luik here; father; here's the mark o' the cut;' he said; parting
  the thick