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  distance of hearing。  But he did not therefore let it die。  Through
  various changes it floated in the thin ?ther of the soul; changes
  delicate as when the wind leaves the harp of the reeds by a river's
  brink; and falls a…ringing at the heather bells; or playing with the
  dry silvery pods of honesty that hang in the poor man's garden; till
  at length it drew nearer once more; bearing on its wings the wail of
  red Flodden; the Flowers of the Forest。  Listening through the
  melody for sounds of a far different kind; Robert was aware that
  those sounds had ceased; the growling was still; he heard no more
  turnings to and fro。  How it was operating he could not tell;
  further than that there must be some measure of soothing in its
  influence。  He ceased quite; and listened again。  For a few moments
  there was no sound。  Then he heard the half…articulate murmuring of
  one whose organs have been all but overcome by the beneficent
  paralysis of sleep; but whose feeble will would compel them to
  utterance。  He was nearly asleep again。  Was it a fact; or a fancy
  of Robert's eager heart?  Did the man really say;
  'Play that again; father。  It's bonnie; that!  I aye likit the
  Flooers o' the Forest。  Play awa'。  I hae had a frichtsome dream。  I
  thocht I was i' the ill place。  I doobt I'm no weel。  But yer fiddle
  aye did me gude。  Play awa'; father!'
  All the night through; till the dawn of the gray morning; Falconer
  watched the sleeping man; all but certain that he was indeed his
  father。  Eternities of thought passed through his mind as he
  watchedthis time by the couch; as he hoped; of a new birth。  He
  was about to see what could be done by one man; strengthened by all
  the aids that love and devotion could give; for the redemption of
  his fellow。  As through the darkness of the night and a sluggish fog
  to aid it; the light of a pure heaven made its slow irresistible
  way; his hope grew that athwart the fog of an evil life; the
  darkness that might be felt; the light of the Spirit of God would
  yet penetrate the heart of the sinner; and shake the wickedness out
  of it。  Deeper and yet deeper grew his compassion and his sympathy;
  in prospect of the tortures the man must go through; before the will
  that he had sunk into a deeper sleep than any into which opium could
  sink his bodily being; would shake off its deathly lethargy; and
  arise; torn with struggling pain; to behold the light of a new
  spiritual morning。  All that he could do he was prepared to do;
  regardless of entreaty; regardless of torture; anger; and hate; with
  the inexorable justice of love; the law that will not; must not;
  dares not yieldstrong with an awful tenderness; a wisdom that
  cannot be turned aside; to redeem the lost soul of his father。  And
  he strengthened his heart for the conflict by saying that if he
  would do thus for his father; what would not God do for his child?
  Had He not proved already; if there was any truth in the grand
  story of the world's redemption through that obedience unto the
  death; that his devotion was entire; and would leave nothing undone
  that could be done to lift this sheep out of the pit into whose
  darkness and filth he had fallen out of the sweet Sabbath of the
  universe?
  He removed all his clothes; searched the pockets; found in them one
  poor shilling and a few coppers; a black cutty pipe; a box of snuff;
  a screw of pigtail; a knife with a buckhorn handle and one broken
  blade; and a pawn…ticket for a keyed flute; on the proceeds of which
  he was now sleepinga sleep how dearly purchased; when he might
  have had it free; as the gift of God's gentle darkness!  Then he
  destroyed the garments; committing them to the fire as the hoped
  farewell to the state of which they were the symbols and signs。
  He found himself perplexed; however; by the absence of some of the
  usual symptoms of the habit of opium; and concluded that his poor
  father was in the habit of using stimulants as well as narcotics;
  and that the action of the one interfered with the action of the
  other。
  He called his housekeeper。  She did not know whom her master
  supposed his guest to be; and regarded him only as one of the many
  objects of his kindness。  He told her to get some tea ready; as the
  patient would most likely wake with a headache。  He instructed her
  to wait upon him as a matter of course; and explain nothing。  He had
  resolved to pass for the doctor; as indeed he was; and he told her
  that if he should be at all troublesome; he would be with her at
  once。  She must keep the room dark。  He would have his own breakfast
  now; and if the patient remained quiet; would sleep on the sofa。
  He woke murmuring; and evidently suffered from headache and nausea。
  Mrs。 Ashton took him some tea。  He refused it with an oathmore of
  discomfort than of ill…natureand was too unwell to show any
  curiosity about the person who had offered it。  Probably he was
  accustomed to so many changes of abode; and to so many bewilderments
  of the brain; that he did not care to inquire where he was or who
  waited upon him。  But happily for the heart's desire of Falconer;
  the debauchery of his father had at length reached one of many
  crises。  He had caught cold before De Fleuri and his comrades found
  him。  He was now illfeverish and oppressed。  Through the whole of
  the following week they nursed and waited upon him without his
  asking a single question as to where he was or who they were; during
  all which time Falconer saw no one but De Fleuri and the many poor
  fellows who called to inquire after him and the result of their
  supposed success。  He never left the house; but either watched by
  the bedside; or waited in the next room。  Often would the patient
  get out of bed; driven by the longing for drink or for opium;
  gnawing him through all the hallucinations of delirium; but he was
  weak; and therefore manageable。  If in any lucid moments he thought
  where he was; he no doubt supposed that he was in a hospital; and
  probably had sense enough to understand that it was of no use to
  attempt to get his own way there。  He was soon much worn; and his
  limbs trembled greatly。  It was absolutely necessary to give him
  stimulants; or he would have died; but Robert reduced them gradually
  as he recovered strength。
  But there was an infinite work to be done beyond even curing him of
  his evil habits。  To keep him from strong drink and opium; even till
  the craving after them was gone; would be but the capturing of the
  merest outwork of the enemy's castle。  He must be made such that;
  even if the longing should return with tenfold force; and all the
  means for its gratification should lie within the reach of his
  outstretched hand; he would not touch them。  God only was able to do
  that for him。  He would do all that he knew how to do; and God would
  not fail of his part。  For this he had raised him up; to this he had
  called him; for this work he had educated him; made him a physician;
  given him money; time; the love and aid of his fellows; and; beyond
  all; a rich energy of hope and faith in his heart; emboldening him
  to attempt whatever his hand found to do。
  CHAPTER XIII。
  ANDREW REBELS。
  As Andrew Falconer grew better; the longing of his mind after former
  excitement and former oblivion; roused and kept alive the longing of
  his body; until at length his thoughts dwelt upon nothing but his
  diseased cravings。  His whole imagination; naturally not a feeble
  one; was concentrated on the delights in store for him as soon as he
  was well enough to be his own master; as he phrased it; once more。
  He soon began to see that; if he was in a hospital; it must be a
  private one; and at last; irresolute as he was both from character
  and illness; made up his mind to demand his liberty。  He sat by his
  bedroom fire one afternoon; for he needed much artificial warmth。
  The shades of evening were thickening the air。  He had just had one
  of his frequent meals; and was gazing; as he often did; into the
  glowing coals。  Robert had come in; and after a little talk was
  sitting silent at the opposite corner of the chimney…piece。
  'Doctor;' said Andrew; seizing the opportunity; 'you've been very
  kind to me; and I don't know how to thank you; but it is time I was
  going。  I am quite well now。  Would you kindly order the nurse to
  bring me my clothes to…morrow morning; and I will go。'
  This he said with the quavering voice of one who speaks because he
  has made up his mind to speak。  A certain something; I believe a
  vague molluscous form of conscience; made him wriggle and shift
  uneasily upon his chair as he spoke。
  'No; no;' said Robert; 'you are not fit to go。  Make yourself
  comfortable; my dear sir。  There is no reason why you should go。'
  'There is something I don't understand about it。  I want to go。'
  'It would ruin my character as a professional man to let a patient
  in your condition leave the house。  The weather is unfavourable。  I
  can