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pagan horror given by obscene mutes; frightful hearse; horses; and
feathers。 As soon as; in the beautiful phrase of the Old Testament;
John Anderson was thus gathered to his fathers; Robert went to pay a
visit to his grandmother。
Dressed to a point in the same costume in which he had known her
from childhood; he found her little altered in appearance。 She was
one of those who instead of stooping with age; settle downwards: she
was still as erect as ever; though shorter。 Her step was feebler;
and when she prayed; her voice quavered more。 On her face sat the
same settled; almost hard repose; as ever; but her behaviour was
still more gentle than when he had seen her last。 Notwithstanding;
however; that time had wrought so little change in her appearance;
Robert felt that somehow the mist of a separation between her world
and his was gathering; that she was; as it were; fading from his
sight and presence; like the moon towards 'her interlunar cave。'
Her face was gradually turning from him towards the land of light。
'I hae buried my best frien' but yersel'; grannie;' he said; as he
took a chair close by her side; where he used to sit when he read
the Bible and Boston to her。
'I trust he's happy。 He was a douce and a weel…behaved man; and ye
hae rizzon to respec' his memory。 Did he dee the deith o' the
richteous; think ye; laddie?'
'I do think that; grannie。 He loved God and his Saviour。'
'The Lord be praised!' said Mrs。 Falconer。 'I had guid houps o' 'im
in 's latter days。 And fowk says he's made a rich man o' ye;
Robert?'
'He's left me ilka thing; excep' something till 's servan'swha hae
weel deserved it。'
'Eh; Robert! but it's a terrible snare。 Siller 's an awfu' thing。
My puir Anerew never begud to gang the ill gait; till he began to
hae ower muckle siller。 But it badena lang wi' 'im。'
'But it's no an ill thing itsel'; grannie; for God made siller as
weel 's ither things。'
'He thinksna muckle o' 't; though; or he wad gie mair o' 't to some
fowk。 But as ye say; it's his; and gin ye hae grace to use 't
aricht; it may be made a great blessin' to yersel' and ither fowk。
But eh; laddie! tak guid tent 'at ye ride upo' the tap o' 't; an'
no lat it rise like a muckle jaw (billow) ower yer heid; for it's an
awfu' thing to be droont in riches。'
'Them 'at prays no to be led into temptation hae a chancehaena
they; grannie?'
'That hae they; Robert。 And to be plain wi' ye; I haena that muckle
fear o' ye; for I hae heard the kin' o' life 'at ye hae been
leadin'。 God's hearkent to my prayers for you; and gin ye gang on
as ye hae begun; my prayers; like them o' David the son o' Jesse;
are endit。 Gang on; my dear lad; gang on to pluck brands frae the
burnin'。 Haud oot a helpin' han' to ilka son and dauchter o' Adam
'at will tak a grip o' 't。 Be a burnin' an' a shinin' licht; that
men may praise; no you; for ye're but clay i' the han's o' the
potter; but yer Father in heaven。 Tak the drunkard frae his whusky;
the deboshed frae his debosh; the sweirer frae his aiths; the leear
frae his lees; and giena ony o' them ower muckle o' yer siller at
ance; for fear 'at they grow fat an' kick an' defy God and you。
That's my advice to ye; Robert。'
'And I houp I'll be able to haud gey and near till 't; grannie; for
it's o' the best。 But wha tellt ye what I was aboot in Lonnon?'
'Himsel'。'
'Dr。 Anderson?'
'Ay; jist himsel'。 I hae had letter upo' letter frae 'im aboot you
and a' 'at ye was aboot。 He keepit me acquant wi' 't a'。'
This fresh proof of his friend's affection touched Robert deeply。
He had himself written often to his grandmother; but he had never
entered into any detail of his doings; although the thought of her
was ever at hand beside the thought of his father。
'Do ye ken; grannie; what's at the hert o' my houps i' the meesery
an' degradation that I see frae mornin' to nicht; and aftener yet
frae nicht to mornin' i' the back closes and wynds o' the great
city?'
'I trust it's the glory o' God; laddie。'
'I houp that's no a'thegither wantin'; grannie。 For I love God wi'
a' my hert。 But I doobt it's aftener the savin' o' my earthly
father nor the glory o' my heavenly ane that I'm thinkin' o'。'
Mrs。 Falconer heaved a deep sigh。
'God grant ye success; Robert;' she said。 'But that canna be richt。'
'What canna be richt?'
'No to put the glory o' God first and foremost。'
'Weel; grannie; but a body canna rise to the heicht o' grace a' at
ance; nor yet in ten; or twenty year。 Maybe gin I do richt; I may
be able to come to that or a' be dune。 An' efter a'; I'm sure I
love God mair nor my father。 But I canna help thinkin' this; that
gin God heardna ae sang o' glory frae this ill…doin' earth o' his;
he wadna be nane the waur; but'
'Hoo ken ye that?' interrupted his grandmother。
'Because he wad be as gude and great and grand as ever。'
'Ow ay。'
'But what wad come o' my father wantin' his salvation? He can waur
want that; remainin' the slave o' iniquity; than God can want his
glory。 Forby; ye ken there's nae glory to God like the repentin' o'
a sinner; justifeein' God; an' sayin' till him〃Father; ye're a'
richt; an' I'm a' wrang。〃 What greater glory can God hae nor that?'
'It's a' true 'at ye say。 But still gin God cares for that same
glory; ye oucht to think o' that first; afore even the salvation o'
yer father。'
'Maybe ye're richt; grannie。 An' gin it be as ye sayhe's promised
to lead us into a' trowth; an' he'll lead me into that trowth。 But
I'm thinkin' it's mair for oor sakes than his ain 'at he cares aboot
his glory。 I dinna believe 'at he thinks aboot his glory excep' for
the sake o' the trowth an' men's herts deein' for want o' 't。'
Mrs。 Falconer thought for a moment。
'It may be 'at ye're richt; laddie; but ye hae a way o' sayin'
things 'at 's some fearsome。'
'God's nae like a prood man to tak offence; grannie。 There's
naething pleases him like the trowth; an' there's naething
displeases him like leein'; particularly whan it's by way o'
uphaudin' him。 He wants nae sic uphaudin'。 Noo; ye say things
aboot him whiles 'at soun's to me fearsome。'
'What kin' o' things are they; laddie?' asked the old lady; with
offence glooming in the background。
'Sic like as whan ye speyk aboot him as gin he was a puir prood
bailey…like body; fu' o' his ain importance; an' ready to be doon
upo' onybody 'at didna ca' him by the name o' 's officeay
think…thinkin' aboot 's ain glory; in place o' the quaiet; michty;
gran'; self…forgettin'; a'…creatin'; a'…uphaudin'; eternal bein';
wha took the form o' man in Christ Jesus; jist that he micht hae 't
in 's pooer to beir and be humblet for oor sakes。 Eh; grannie!
think o' the face o' that man o' sorrows; that never said a hard
word till a sinfu' wuman; or a despised publican: was he thinkin'
aboot 's ain glory; think ye? An' we hae no richt to say we ken God
save in the face o' Christ Jesus。 Whatever 's no like Christ is no
like God。'
'But; laddie; he cam to saitisfee God's justice by sufferin' the
punishment due to oor sins; to turn aside his wrath an' curse; to
reconcile him to us。 Sae he cudna be a'thegither like God。'
'He did naething o' the kin'; grannie。 It's a' a lee that。 He cam
to saitisfee God's justice by giein' him back his bairns; by garrin'
them see that God was just; by sendin' them greetin' hame to fa' at
his feet; an' grip his knees an' say; 〃Father; ye're i' the richt。〃
He cam to lift the weicht o' the sins that God had curst aff o' the
shoothers o' them 'at did them; by makin' them turn agen them; an'
be for God an' no for sin。 And there isna a word o' reconceelin'
God till 's in a' the Testament; for there was no need o' that: it
was us that he needed to be reconcilet to him。 An' sae he bore oor
sins and carried oor sorrows; for those sins comin' oot in the
multitudesay and in his ain disciples as weel; caused him no en'
o' grief o' mind an' pain o' body; as a'body kens。 It wasna his ain
sins; for he had nane; but oors; that caused him sufferin'; and he
took them awa'they're vainishin' even noo frae the earth; though
it doesna luik like it in Rag…fair or Petticoat…lane。 An' for oor
sorrowsthey jist garred him greit。 His richteousness jist
annihilates oor guilt; for it's a great gulf that swallows up and
destroys 't。 And sae he gae his life a ransom for us: and he is the
life o' the world。 He took oor sins upo' him; for he cam into the
middle o' them an' took them upby no sleicht o' han'; by no
quibblin' o' the lawyers; aboot imputin' his richteousness to us;
and sic like; which is no to be found i' the Bible at a'; though I
dinna say that there's no possible meanin' i' the phrase; but he
took them and took them awa'; and here am I; grannie; growin' oot o'
my sins in consequennce; and there are ye; grann