第 66 节
作者:套牢      更新:2021-02-20 15:34      字数:9321
  Upon a night of gust and roar;
  Shipwrecked among the waves; and seems
  Across the purple hills to roam;
  Sweet odours touch him from the foam;
  And downward sinking still he dreams
  He walks the clover field at home;
  And hears the rattling teams。
  All is mine; all is my own!
  Toss the purple fountain high!
  The breast of man is a vat of stone;
  I am alive; I; only I!
  Thou hast beheld a throated fountain spout
  Full in the air; and in the downward spray
  A hovering Iris span the marble tank;
  Which as the wind came; ever rose and sank
  Violet and red; so my continual play
  Makes beauty for the Gods with many a prank
  Of human excellence; while they;
  Weary of all the noon; in shadows sweet
  Supine and heavy…eyed rest in the boundless heat:
  Let the world's fountain play!
  Beauty is pleasant in the eyes of Jove;
  Betwixt the wavering shadows where he lies
  He marks the dancing column with his eyes
  Celestial; and amid his inmost grove
  Upgathers all his limbs; serenely blest;
  Lulled by the mellow noise of the great world's unrest。
  One heart beats in all nature; differing
  But in the work it works; its doubts and clamours
  Are but the waste and brunt of instruments
  Wherewith a work is done; or as the hammers
  On forge Cyclopean plied beneath the rents
  Of lowest Etna; conquering into shape
  The hard and scattered ore:
  Choose thou narcotics; and the dizzy grape
  Outworking passion; lest with horrid crash
  Thy life go from thee in a night of pain。
  So tutoring thy vision; shall the flash
  Of dove white…breasted be to thee no more
  Than a white stone heavy upon the plain。
  Hark the cock crows loud!
  And without; all ghastly and ill;
  Like a man uplift in his shroud;
  The white white morn is propped on the hill;
  And adown from the eaves; pointed and chill;
  The icicles 'gin to glitter;
  And the birds with a warble short and shrill;
  Pass by the chamber…window still
  With a quick uneasy twitter。
  Let me pump warm blood; for the cold is bitter;
  And wearily; wearily; one by one;
  Men awake with the weary sun。
  Life is a phantom shut in thee;
  I am the master and keep the key;
  So let me toss thee the days of old;
  Crimson and orange and green and gold;
  So let me fill thee yet again
  With a rush of dreams from my spout amain;
  For all is mine; all is my own;
  Toss the purple fountain high!
  The breast of man is a vat of stone;
  And I am alive; I; only I。
  Robert having read; sat and wept in silence。  Ericson saw him; and
  said tenderly;
  'Robert; my boy; I'm not always so bad as that。  Read this
  onethough I never feel like it now。  Perhaps it may come again
  some day; though。  I may once more deceive myself and be happy。'
  'Dinna say that; Mr。 Ericson。  That's waur than despair。  That's
  flat unbelief。  Ye no more ken that ye're deceivin' yersel' than ye
  ken that ye're no doin' 't。'
  Ericson did not reply; and Robert read the following sonnet aloud;
  feeling his way delicately through its mazes:
  Lie down upon the ground; thou hopeless one!
  Press thy face in the grass; and do not speak。
  Dost feel the green globe whirl?  Seven times a week
  Climbeth she out of darkness to the sun;
  Which is her god; seven times she doth not shun
  Awful eclipse; laying her patient cheek
  Upon a pillow ghost…beset with shriek
  Of voices utterless which rave and run
  Through all the star…penumbra; craving light
  And tidings of the dawn from East and West。
  Calmly she sleepeth; and her sleep is blest
  With heavenly visions; and the joy of Night
  Treading aloft with moons。  Nor hath she fright
  Though cloudy tempests beat upon her breast。
  Ericson turned his face to the wall; and Robert withdrew to his own
  chamber。
  CHAPTER XIII。
  SHARGAR'S ARM。
  Not many weeks passed before Shargar knew Aberdeen better than most
  Aberdonians。  From the Pier…head to the Rubislaw Road; he knew; if
  not every court; yet every thoroughfare and short cut。  And Aberdeen
  began to know him。  He was very soon recognized as trustworthy; and
  had pretty nearly as much to do as he could manage。  Shargar;
  therefore; was all over the city like a cracker; and could have told
  at almost any hour where Dr。 Anderson was to be foundgenerally in
  the lower parts of it; for the good man visited much among the poor;
  giving them almost exclusively the benefit of his large experience。
  Shargar delighted in keeping an eye upon the doctor; carefully
  avoiding to show himself。
  One day as he was hurrying through the Green (a non virendo) on a
  mission from the Rothieden carrier; he came upon the doctor's
  chariot standing in one of the narrowest streets; and; as usual;
  paused to contemplate the equipage and get a peep of the owner。  The
  morning was very sharp。  There was no snow; but a cold fog; like
  vaporized hoar…frost; filled the air。  It was weather in which the
  East Indian could not venture out on foot; else he could have
  reached the place by a stair from Union Street far sooner than he
  could drive thither。  His horses apparently liked the cold as little
  as himself。  They had been moving about restlessly for some time
  before the doctor made his appearance。  The moment he got in and
  shut the door; one of them reared; while the other began to haul on
  his traces; eager for a gallop。  Something about the chain gave way;
  the pole swerved round under the rearing horse; and great confusion
  and danger would have ensued; had not Shargar rushed from his coign
  of vantage; sprung at the bit of the rearing horse; and dragged him
  off the pole; over which he was just casting his near leg。  As soon
  as his feet touched the ground he too pulled; and away went the
  chariot and down went Shargar。  But in a moment more several men had
  laid hold of the horses' heads; and stopped them。
  'Oh Lord!' cried Shargar; as he rose with his arm dangling by his
  side; 'what will Donal' Joss say?  I'm like to swarf (faint)。  Haud
  awa' frae that basket; ye wuddyfous (withy…fowls; gallows…birds);'
  he cried; darting towards the hamper he had left in the entry of a
  court; round which a few ragged urchins had gathered; but just as he
  reached it he staggered and fell。  Nor did he know anything more
  till he found the carriage stopping with himself and the hamper
  inside it。
  As soon as the coachman had got his harness put to rights; the
  doctor had driven back to see how the lad had fared; for he had felt
  the carriage go over something。  They had found him lying beside his
  hamper; had secured both; and as a preliminary measure were
  proceeding to deliver the latter。
  'Whaur am I? whaur the deevil am I?' cried Shargar; jumping up and
  falling back again。
  'Don't you know me; Moray?' said the doctor; for he felt shy of
  calling the poor boy by his nickname: he had no right to do so。
  'Na; I dinna ken ye。  Lat me awa'。I beg yer pardon; doctor: I
  thocht ye was ane o' thae wuddyfous rinnin' awa' wi' Donal' Joss's
  basket。  Eh me! sic a stoun' i' my airm!  But naebody ca's me Moray。
  They a' ca' me Shargar。  What richt hae I to be ca'd Moray?' added
  the poor boy; feeling; I almost believe for the first time; the
  stain upon his birth。  Yet ye had as good a right before God to be
  called Moray as any other son of that worthy sire; the Baron of
  Rothie included。  Possibly the trumpet…blowing angels did call him
  Moray; or some better name。
  'The coachman will deliver your parcel; Moray;' said the doctor;
  this time repeating the name with emphasis。
  'Deil a bit o' 't!' cried Shargar。 'He daurna lea' his box wi' thae
  deevils o' horses。  What gars he keep sic horses; doctor?  They'll
  play some mischeef some day。'
  'Indeed; they've played enough already; my poor boy。  They've broken
  your arm。'
  'Never min' that。  That's no muckle。  Ye're welcome; doctor; to my
  twa airms for what ye hae dune for Robert an' that lang…leggit
  frien' o' histhe Lord forgie meMr。 Ericson。  But ye maun jist
  pay him what I canna mak for a day or twa; till 't jines againto
  haud them gaein'; ye ken。It winna be muckle to you; doctor;' added
  Shargar; beseechingly。
  'Trust me for that; Moray;' returned Dr。 Anderson。 'I owe you a good
  deal more than that。  My brains might have been out by this time。'
  'The Lord be praised!' said Shargar; making about his first
  profession of Christianity。 'Robert 'ill think something o' me noo。'
  During this conversation the coachman sat expecting some one to
  appear from the shop; and longing to pitch into the 'camstary'
  horse; but not daring to lift his whip beyond its natural angle。  No
  one came。  All at once Shargar knew where he was。
  'Guid be here! we're at Donal's door!  Guid day to ye; doctor; an'
  I'm muckle obleeged to ye。  Maybe; gin ye war comin' oor gait; the
  morn; or the neist day; to see Maister Ericson; ye wad tie up my
  airm; for it gangs wallopin' aboot; an' that canna be guid for the
  stickin' o' 't thegither again。'
  'My