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The income offered him was such that he had no doubt of laying
aside enough for his only child; Mysie; but both were so ill…fitted
for saving; he from looking into the past; she from looking
intowhat shall I call it? I can only think of negativeswhat was
neither past; present; nor future; neither material nor eternal;
neither imaginative in any true sense; nor actual in any sense; that
up to the present hour there was nothing in the bank; and only the
money for impending needs in the house。 He could not be called a
man of learning; he was only a great bookworm; for his reading lay
all in the nebulous regions of history。 Old family records;
wherever he could lay hold upon them; were his favourite dishes;
old; musty books; that looked as if they knew something everybody
else had forgotten; made his eyes gleam; and his white
taper…fingered hand tremble with eagerness。 With such a book in his
grasp he saw something ever beckoning him on; a dimly precious
discovery; a wonderful fact just the shape of some missing fragment
in the mosaic of one of his pictures of the past。 To tell the
truth; however; his discoveries seldom rounded themselves into
pictures; though many fragments of the minutely dissected map would
find their places; whereupon he rejoiced like a mild giant refreshed
with soda…water。 But I have already said more about him than his
place justifies; therefore; although I could gladly linger over the
portrait; I will leave it。 He had taught his daughter next to
nothing。 Being his child; he had the vague feeling that she
inherited his wisdom; and that what he knew she knew。 So she sat
reading novels; generally trashy ones; while he knew no more of what
was passing in her mind than of what the Admirable Crichton might;
at the moment; be disputing with the angels。
I would not have my reader suppose that Mysie's mind was corrupted。
It was so simple and childlike; leaning to what was pure; and
looking up to what was noble; that anything directly bad in the
books she happenedfor it was all haphazardto read; glided over
her as a black cloud may glide over a landscape; leaving it sunny as
before。
I cannot therefore say; however; that she was nothing the worse。 If
the darkening of the sun keep the fruits of the earth from growing;
the earth is surely the worse; though it be blackened by no deposit
of smoke。 And where good things do not grow; the wild and possibly
noxious will grow more freely。 There may be no harm in the yellow
tanziethere is much beauty in the red poppy; but they are not good
for food。 The result in Mysie's case would be thisnot that she
would call evil good and good evil; but that she would take the
beautiful for the true and the outer shows of goodness for goodness
itselfnot the worst result; but bad enough; and involving an awful
amount of suffering and possibly of defilement。 He who thinks to
climb the hill of happiness thus; will find himself floundering in
the blackest bog that lies at the foot of its precipices。 I say he;
not she; advisedly。 All will acknowledge it of the woman: it is as
true of the man; though he may get out easier。 Will he? I say;
checking myself。 I doubt it much。 In the world's eye; yes; but in
God's? Let the question remain unanswered。
When he had eaten his toast; and drunk his tea; apparently without
any enjoyment; Mr。 Lindsay rose with his book in his hand; and
withdrew to his study。
He had not long left the room when Mysie was startled by a loud
knock at the back door; which opened on a lane; leading along the
top of the hill。 But she had almost forgotten it again; when the
door of the room opened; and a gentleman entered without any
announcementfor Jenny had never heard of the custom。 When she saw
him; Mysie started from her seat; and stood in visible
embarrassment。 The colour went and came on her lovely face; and her
eyelids grew very heavy。 She had never seen the visitor before:
whether he had ever seen her before; I cannot certainly say。 She
felt herself trembling in his presence; while he advanced with
perfect composure。 He was a man no longer young; but in the full
strength and show of manhoodthe Baron of Rothie。 Since the time
of my first description of him; he had grown a moustache; which
improved his countenance greatly; by concealing his upper lip with
its tusky curves。 On a girl like Mysie; with an imagination so
cultivated; and with no opportunity of comparing its fancies with
reality; such a man would make an instant impression。
'I beg your pardon; MissLindsay; I presume?for intruding upon
you so abruptly。 I expected to see your fathernot one of the
graces。'
She blushed all the colour of her blood now。 The baron was quite
enough like the hero of whom she had just been reading to admit of
her imagination jumbling the two。 Her book fell。 He lifted it and
laid it on the table。 She could not speak even to thank him。 Poor
Mysie was scarcely more than sixteen。
'May I wait here till your father is informed of my visit?' he
asked。
Her only answer was to drop again upon her low stool。
Now Jenny had left it to Mysie to acquaint her father with the fact
of the baron's presence; but before she had time to think of the
necessity of doing something; he had managed to draw her into
conversation。 He was as great a hypocrite as ever walked the earth;
although he flattered himself that he was none; because he never
pretended to cultivate that which he despisednamely; religion。
But he was a hypocrite nevertheless; for the falser he knew
himself; the more honour he judged it to persuade women of his
truth。
It is unnecessary to record the slight; graceful; marrowless talk
into which he drew Mysie; and by which he both bewildered and
bewitched her。 But at length she rose; admonished by her inborn
divinity; to seek her father。 As she passed him; the baron took her
hand and kissed it。 She might well tremble。 Even such contact was
terrible。 Why? Because there was no love in it。 When the sense of
beauty which God had given him that he might worship; awoke in Lord
Rothie; he did not worship; but devoured; that he might; as he
thought; possess! The poison of asps was under those lips。 His
kiss was as a kiss from the grave's mouth; for his throat was an
open sepulchre。 This was all in the past; reader。 Baron Rothie was
a foam…flake of the court of the Prince Regent。 There are no such
men now…a…days! It is a shame to speak of such; and therefore they
are not! Decency has gone so far to abolish virtue。 Would to God
that a writer could be decent and honest! St。 Paul counted it a
shame to speak of some things; and yet he did speak of thembecause
those to whom he spoke did them。
Lord Rothie had; in five minutes; so deeply interested Mr。 Lindsay
in a question of genealogy; that he begged his lordship to call
again in a few days; when he hoped to have some result of research
to communicate。
One of the antiquarian's weaknesses; cause and result both of his
favourite pursuits; was an excessive reverence for rank。 Had its
claims been founded on mediated revelation; he could not have
honoured it more。 Hence when he communicated to his daughter the
name of their visitor; it was 'with bated breath and whispering
humbleness;' which deepened greatly the impression made upon her by
the presence and conversation of the baron。 Mysie was in danger。
Shargar was late that evening; for he had a job that detained him。
As he handed over his money to Robert; he said;
'I saw Black Geordie the nicht again; stan'in' at a back door; an'
Jock Mitchell; upo' Reid Rorie; haudin' him。'
'Wha's Jock Mitchell?' asked Robert。
'My brither Sandy's ill…faured groom;' answered Shargar。 'Whatever
mischeef Sandy's up till; Jock comes in i' the heid or tail o' 't。'
'I wonner what he's up till noo。'
'Faith! nae guid。 But I aye like waur to meet Sandy by himsel' upo'
that reekit deevil o' his。 Man; it's awfu' whan Black Geordie turns
the white o' 's ee; an' the white o' 's teeth upo' ye。 It's a' the
white 'at there is about 'im。'
'Wasna yer brither i' the airmy; Shargar?'
'Ow; 'deed ay。 They tell me he was at Watterloo。 He's a cornel; or
something like that。'
'Wha tellt ye a' that?'
'My mither whiles;' answered Shargar。
CHAPTER XI。
ROBERT'S VOW。
Ericson was recovering slowly。 He could sit up in bed the greater
part of the day; and talk about getting out of it。 He was able to
give Robert an occasional help with his Greek; and to listen with
pleasure to his violin。 The night…watching grew less needful; and
Ericson would have dispensed with it willingly; but Robert would not
yet consent。
But Ericson had seasons of great depression; during which he could
not away with music; or listen to the words of the New Testament。
During one of these Robert had beg