第 35 节
作者:套牢      更新:2021-02-20 15:33      字数:9322
  in the white and green of a little boat; as we lay; one bright
  morning; on the banks of the Thames between Richmond and Twickenham;
  led to such a description of the bleachfield that I can write about
  it as if I had known it myself。
  One Saturday afternoon in the end of July; when the westering sun
  was hotter than at midday; he went down to the lower end of the
  field; where the river was confined by a dam; and plunged from the
  bank into deep water。  After a swim of half…an…hour; he ascended the
  higher part of the field; and lay down upon a broad web to bask in
  the sun。  In his ears was the hush rather than rush of the water
  over the dam; the occasional murmur of a belt of trees that skirted
  the border of the field; and the dull continuous sound of the
  beatles at their work below; like a persistent growl of thunder on
  the horizon。
  Had Robert possessed a copy of Robinson Crusoe; or had his
  grandmother not cast The Lady of the Lake; mistaking it for an idol;
  if not to the moles and the bats; yet to the mice and the
  black…beetles; he might have been lying reading it; blind and deaf
  to the face and the voice of Nature; and years might have passed
  before a response awoke in his heart。  It is good that children of
  faculty; as distinguished from capacity; should not have too many
  books to read; or too much of early lessoning。  The increase of
  examinations in our country will increase its capacity and diminish
  its faculty。  We shall have more compilers and reducers and fewer
  thinkers; more modifiers and completers; and fewer inventors。
  He lay gazing up into the depth of the sky; rendered deeper and
  bluer by the masses of white cloud that hung almost motionless below
  it; until he felt a kind of bodily fear lest he should fall off the
  face of the round earth into the abyss。  A gentle wind; laden with
  pine odours from the sun…heated trees behind him; flapped its light
  wing in his face: the humanity of the world smote his heart; the
  great sky towered up over him; and its divinity entered his soul; a
  strange longing after something 'he knew not nor could name' awoke
  within him; followed by the pang of a sudden fear that there was no
  such thing as that which he sought; that it was all a fancy of his
  own spirit; and then the voice of Shargar broke the spell; calling
  to him from afar to come and see a great salmon that lay by a stone
  in the water。  But once aroused; the feeling was never stilled; the
  desire never left him; sometimes growing even to a passion that was
  relieved only by a flood of tears。
  Strange as it may sound to those who have never thought of such
  things save in connection with Sundays and Bibles and churches and
  sermons; that which was now working in Falconer's mind was the first
  dull and faint movement of the greatest need that the human heart
  possessesthe need of the God…Man。 There must be truth in the scent
  of that pine…wood: some one must mean it。  There must be a glory in
  those heavens that depends not upon our imagination: some power
  greater than they must dwell in them。  Some spirit must move in that
  wind that haunts us with a kind of human sorrow; some soul must look
  up to us from the eye of that starry flower。  It must be something
  human; else not to us divine。
  Little did Robert think that such was his needthat his soul was
  searching after One whose form was constantly presented to him; but
  as constantly obscured and made unlovely by the words without
  knowledge spoken in the religious assemblies of the land; that he
  was longing without knowing it on the Saturday for that from which
  on the Sunday he would be repelled without knowing it。  Years passed
  before he drew nigh to the knowledge of what he sought。
  For weeks the mood broken by the voice of his companion did not
  return; though the forms of Nature were henceforth full of a
  pleasure he had never known before。  He loved the grass; the water
  was more gracious to him; he would leave his bed early; that he
  might gaze on the clouds of the east; with their borders
  gold…blasted with sunrise; he would linger in the fields that the
  amber and purple; and green and red; of the sunset; might not escape
  after the sun unseen。  And as long as he felt the mystery; the
  revelation of the mystery lay before and not behind him。
  And Shargarhad he any soul for such things?  Doubtless; but how
  could he be other than lives behind Robert?  For the latter had
  ancestorsthat is; he came of people with a mental and spiritual
  history; while the former had been born the birth of an animal; of a
  noble sire; whose family had for generations filled the earth with
  fire; famine; slaughter; and licentiousness; and of a wandering
  outcast mother; who blindly loved the fields and woods; but retained
  her affection for her offspring scarcely beyond the period while she
  suckled them。  The love of freedom and of wild animals that she had
  given him; however; was far more precious than any share his male
  ancestor had borne in his mental constitution。  After his fashion he
  as well as Robert enjoyed the sun and the wind and the water and the
  sky; but he had sympathies with the salmon and the rooks and the
  wild rabbits even stronger than those of Robert。
  CHAPTER XIX。
  ROBERT STEALS HIS OWN。
  The period of the hairst…play; that is; of the harvest holiday time;
  drew near; and over the north of Scotland thousands of half…grown
  hearts were beating with glad anticipation。  Of the usual devices of
  boys to cheat themselves into the half…belief of expediting a
  blessed approach by marking its rate; Robert knew nothing: even the
  notching of sticks was unknown at Rothieden; but he had a mode
  notwithstanding。  Although indifferent to the games of his
  school…fellows; there was one amusement; a solitary one nearly; and
  therein not so good as most amusements; into which he entered with
  the whole energy of his nature: it was kite…flying。  The moment that
  the hairst…play approached near enough to strike its image through
  the eyes of his mind; Robert proceeded to make his kite; or draigon;
  as he called it。  Of how many pleasures does pocket…money deprive
  the unfortunate possessor!  What is the going into a shop and buying
  what you want; compared with the gentle delight of hours and days
  filled with gaining effort after the attainment of your end?  Never
  boy that bought his kite; even if the adornment thereafter lay in
  his own hands; and the pictures were gorgeous with colour and
  gilding; could have half the enjoyment of Robert from the moment he
  went to the cooper's to ask for an old gird or hoop; to the moment
  when he said 'Noo; Shargar!' and the kite rose slowly from the depth
  of the a?rial flood。  The hoop was carefully examined; the best
  portion cut away from it; that pared to a light strength; its ends
  confined to the proper curve by a string; and then away went Robert
  to the wright's shop。  There a slip of wood; of proper length and
  thickness; was readily granted to his request; free as the daisies
  of the field。  Oh! those horrid town conditions; where nothing is
  given for the asking; but all sold for money!  In Robert's kite the
  only thing that cost money was the string to fly it with; and that
  the grandmother willingly provided; for not even her ingenuity could
  discover any evil; direct or implicated; in kite…flying。  Indeed; I
  believe the old lady felt not a little sympathy with the exultation
  of the boy when he saw his kite far aloft; diminished to a speck in
  the vast blue; a sympathy; it may be; rooted in the religious
  aspirations which she did so much at once to rouse and to suppress
  in the bosom of her grandchild。  But I have not yet reached the
  kite…flying; for I have said nothing of the kite's tail; for the
  sake of which principally I began to describe the process of its
  growth。
  As soon as the body of the dragon was completed; Robert attached to
  its spine the string which was to take the place of its caudal
  elongation; and at a proper distance from the body joined to the
  string the first of the cross…pieces of folded paper which in this
  animal represent the continued vertebral processes。  Every morning;
  the moment he issued from his chamber; he proceeded to the garret
  where the monster lay; to add yet another joint to his tail; until
  at length the day should arrive when; the lessons over for a blessed
  eternity of five or six weeks; he would tip the whole with a piece
  of wood; to which grass; quantum suff。; might be added from the
  happy fields。
  Upon this occasion the dragon was a monster one。  With a little help
  from Shargar; he had laid the skeleton of a six…foot specimen; and
  had carried the body to a satisfactory completion。
  The tail was still growing; having as yet only sixteen joints; when
  Mr。 Lammie called with an invitation for the boys to spend their
  holidays with him。  It was fortunate for Robert that he was in the
  room when Mr。 Lammie presented his