第 9 节
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turning a corner; fear took hold on me from head to foot … slavish;
superstitious fear; and though I did not stop in my advance; yet I
went on slowly; like a man who should have passed a bourne
unnoticed; and strayed into the country of the dead。 For there;
upon the narrow new…made road; between the stripling pines; was a
mediaeval friar; fighting with a barrowful of turfs。 Every Sunday
of my childhood I used to study the Hermits of Marco Sadeler …
enchanting prints; full of wood and field and mediaeval landscapes;
as large as a county; for the imagination to go a…travelling in;
and here; sure enough; was one of Marco Sadeler's heroes。 He was
robed in white like any spectre; and the hood falling back; in the
instancy of his contention with the barrow; disclosed a pate as
bald and yellow as a skull。 He might have been buried any time
these thousand years; and all the lively parts of him resolved into
earth and broken up with the farmer's harrow。
I was troubled besides in my mind as to etiquette。 Durst I address
a person who was under a vow of silence? Clearly not。 But drawing
near; I doffed my cap to him with a far…away superstitious
reverence。 He nodded back; and cheerfully addressed me。 Was I
going to the monastery? Who was I? An Englishman? Ah; an
Irishman; then?
'No;' I said; 'a Scotsman。'
A Scotsman? Ah; he had never seen a Scotsman before。 And he
looked me all over; his good; honest; brawny countenance shining
with interest; as a boy might look upon a lion or an alligator。
From him I learned with disgust that I could not be received at Our
Lady of the Snows; I might get a meal; perhaps; but that was all。
And then; as our talk ran on; and it turned out that I was not a
pedlar; but a literary man; who drew landscapes and was going to
write a book; he changed his manner of thinking as to my reception
(for I fear they respect persons even in a Trappist monastery); and
told me I must be sure to ask for the Father Prior; and state my
case to him in full。 On second thoughts he determined to go down
with me himself; he thought he could manage for me better。 Might
he say that I was a geographer?
No; I thought; in the interests of truth; he positively might not。
'Very well; then' (with disappointment); 'an author。'
It appeared he had been in a seminary with six young Irishmen; all
priests long since; who had received newspapers and kept him
informed of the state of ecclesiastical affairs in England。 And he
asked me eagerly after Dr。 Pusey; for whose conversion the good man
had continued ever since to pray night and morning。
'I thought he was very near the truth;' he said; 'and he will reach
it yet; there is so much virtue in prayer。'
He must be a stiff; ungodly Protestant who can take anything but
pleasure in this kind and hopeful story。 While he was thus near
the subject; the good father asked me if I were a Christian; and
when he found I was not; or not after his way; he glossed it over
with great good…will。
The road which we were following; and which this stalwart father
had made with his own two hands within the space of a year; came to
a corner; and showed us some white buildings a little farther on
beyond the wood。 At the same time; the bell once more sounded
abroad。 We were hard upon the monastery。 Father Apollinaris (for
that was my companion's name) stopped me。
'I must not speak to you down there;' he said。 'Ask for the
Brother Porter; and all will be well。 But try to see me as you go
out again through the wood; where I may speak to you。 I am charmed
to have made your acquaintance。'
And then suddenly raising his arms; flapping his fingers; and
crying out twice; 'I must not speak; I must not speak!' he ran away
in front of me; and disappeared into the monastery door。
I own this somewhat ghastly eccentricity went a good way to revive
my terrors。 But where one was so good and simple; why should not
all be alike? I took heart of grace; and went forward to the gate
as fast as Modestine; who seemed to have a disaffection for
monasteries; would permit。 It was the first door; in my
acquaintance of her; which she had not shown an indecent haste to
enter。 I summoned the place in form; though with a quaking heart。
Father Michael; the Father Hospitaller; and a pair of brown…robed
brothers came to the gate and spoke with me a while。 I think my
sack was the great attraction; it had already beguiled the heart of
poor Apollinaris; who had charged me on my life to show it to the
Father Prior; But whether it was my address; or the sack; or the
idea speedily published among that part of the brotherhood who
attend on strangers that I was not a pedlar after all; I found no
difficulty as to my reception。 Modestine was led away by a layman
to the stables; and I and my pack were received into Our Lady of
the Snows。
THE MONKS
FATHER MICHAEL; a pleasant; fresh…faced; smiling man; perhaps of
thirty…five; took me to the pantry; and gave me a glass of liqueur
to stay me until dinner。 We had some talk; or rather I should say
he listened to my prattle indulgently enough; but with an
abstracted air; like a spirit with a thing of clay。 And truly;
when I remember that I descanted principally on my appetite; and
that it must have been by that time more than eighteen hours since
Father Michael had so much as broken bread; I can well understand
that he would find an earthly savour in my conversation。 But his
manner; though superior; was exquisitely gracious; and I find I
have a lurking curiosity as to Father Michael's past。
The whet administered; I was left alone for a little in the
monastery garden。 This is no more than the main court; laid out in
sandy paths and beds of parti…coloured dahlias; and with a fountain
and a black statue of the Virgin in the centre。 The buildings
stand around it four…square; bleak; as yet unseasoned by the years
and weather; and with no other features than a belfry and a pair of
slated gables。 Brothers in white; brothers in brown; passed
silently along the sanded alleys; and when I first came out; three
hooded monks were kneeling on the terrace at their prayers。 A
naked hill commands the monastery upon one side; and the wood
commands it on the other。 It lies exposed to wind; the snow falls
off and on from October to May; and sometimes lies six weeks on
end; but if they stood in Eden; with a climate like heaven's; the
buildings themselves would offer the same wintry and cheerless
aspect; and for my part; on this wild September day; before I was
called to dinner; I felt chilly in and out。
When I had eaten well and heartily; Brother Ambrose; a hearty
conversible Frenchman (for all those who wait on strangers have the
liberty to speak); led me to a little room in that part of the
building which is set apart for MM。 LES RETRAITANTS。 It was clean
and whitewashed; and furnished with strict necessaries; a crucifix;
a bust of the late Pope; the IMITATION in French; a book of
religious meditations; and the LIFE OF ELIZABETH SETON; evangelist;
it would appear; of North America and of New England in particular。
As far as my experience goes; there is a fair field for some more
evangelisation in these quarters; but think of Cotton Mather! I
should like to give him a reading of this little work in heaven;
where I hope he dwells; but perhaps he knows all that already; and
much more; and perhaps he and Mrs。 Seton are the dearest friends;
and gladly unite their voices in the everlasting psalm。 Over the
table; to conclude the inventory of the room; hung a set of
regulations for MM。 LES RETRAITANTS: what services they should
attend; when they were to tell their beads or meditate; and when
they were to rise and go to rest。 At the foot was a notable N。B。:
'LE TEMPS LIBRE EST EMPLOYE A L'EXAMEN DE CONSCIENCE; A LA
CONFESSION; A FAIRE DE BONNES RESOLUTIONS; ETC。' To make good
resolutions; indeed! You might talk as fruitfully of making the
hair grow on your head。
I had scarce explored my niche when Brother Ambrose returned。 An
English boarder; it appeared; would like to speak with me。 I
professed my willingness; and the friar ushered in a fresh; young;
little Irishman of fifty; a deacon of the Church; arrayed in strict
canonicals; and wearing on his head what; in default of knowledge;
I can only call the ecclesiastical shako。 He had lived seven years
in retreat at a convent of nuns in Belgium; and now five at Our
Lady of the Snows; he never saw an English newspaper; he spoke
French imperfectly; and had he spoken it like a native; there was
not much chance of conversation where he dwelt。 With this; he was
a man eminently sociable; greedy of news; and simple…minded like a
child。 If I was pleased t