第 41 节
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击水三千 更新:2021-02-20 15:21 字数:9321
e could not believe; a little while; and luck would turn; and up he would go againhigher than before。 Many a lawyerto look no farther than his own professionhad through recklessness or pride or inadvertence got the big men down on him。 But after a time they had relented or had found an exact use for him; and fall had been succeeded by rise。 Was there a single instance where a man of good brain had been permanently downed? No; not one。 Stay Some of these unfortunates had failed to reappear on the heights of success。 Yes; thinking of the matter; he recalled several such。 Had he been altogether right in assuming; in his days of confidence and success; that they stayed down because they belonged down? Perhaps he had judged them harshly? Yes; he was sure he had judged them harshly。 There was such a thing as breaking a proud spiritand he found within himself apparent proof that precisely this calamity had befallen him。
There came a timeand it came soonwhen he had about exhausted his desperate ingenuity at cornering acquaintances and former friends and 〃sticking them up〃 for loans of five hundred; a hundred; fifty; twenty… five Because these vulgar and repulsive facts are not found in the usual records of the men who have dropped and come up again; do not imagine that only the hopeless and never…reappearing failures pass through such experiences。 On the contrary; they are part of the common human lot; and few indeed are the men who have not had themand worseif they could but be brought to tell the truth。 Destiny rarely permits any one of us to go from cradle to grave without doing many a thing shameful and universally condemned。 How could it be otherwise under our social system? When Norman was about at the end of all his resources Tetlow called on himTetlow; now a partner in the Lockyer firm。
He came with an air of stealth。 〃I don't want anyone to know I'm doing this;〃 said he frankly。 〃If it got out; I'd be damaged and you'd not profit。〃
Rarely does anyone; however unworthyand Fred Norman was far from unworthy; as we humans go rarely does anyone find himself absolutely without a friend。 There is a saying that no man ever sunk so low; ever became so vile and squalid in soul and body; but that if he were dying; and the fact were noised throughout the world; some woman somewhere would comeperhaps from a sense of duty; perhaps from love; perhaps for the sake of a moment of happiness long past but never equaled; and so never forgotten but from whatever motive; she would come。 In the same manner; anyone in dire straits can be sure of some friend。 There were several others whom Norman had been expectingmen he had saved by his legal ingenuity at turning points in their careers。 None of these was so imprudent as uselessly to involve himself。 It was Tetlow who cameTetlow; with whom his accounts were more than balanced; with the balance against him。 Tetlow; whom he did not expect。
Norman did not welcome him effusively。 He said at once: 〃How isshe?〃
Tetlow shifted uneasily。 〃I don't know。 She's not with us。 I gave her a place thereto get her away from Culver。 But she didn't stay long。 No doubt she's doing well。〃
〃I thought you cared about her;〃 said Norman; who in estimating Tetlow's passion had measured it by his own; had neglected to consider that the desires of most men soon grow short of breath and weary of leg。
〃Yesso I did care for her;〃 said Tetlow; in the voice of a man who has been ill but is now well。 〃But that's all over。 Women aren't worth bothering about much。 They're largely vanity。 The way they soon take a man for granted if he's at all kind to them discourages any but the poorest sort of fool。 At least that's my opinion。〃
〃Then you don't come from her?〃 said Norman with complete loss of interest in his caller。
〃No。 I've come Fred; I hear you're in difficulties。〃
Norman's now deep…set eyes gleamed humorously in his haggard and failed…looking face。 〃IN difficulties? Not at all。 I'm UNDER themdrowned forty fathoms deep。〃
〃Then you'll not resent my coming straight to the point and asking if I can help you?〃
〃That's a rash offer; Tetlow。 I never suspected rashness was one of your qualities。〃
〃I don't mean to offer you a loan or anything of that sort;〃 pursued Tetlow。 〃There's only one thing that can help a man in your position。 He must either be saved outright or left to drown。 I've come with something that may save you。〃
There was so much of the incongruous in a situation where HE was listening to an offer of salvation from such a man as Billy Tetlow that Norman smiled。
〃Well; what is it?〃 he said。
〃There's a chance that within six months or so perhaps soonerBurroughs and Galloway may end their truce and declare war on each other。 If so; Galloway will win。 Anyhow; the Galloway connection would be better than the Burroughs connection。〃
Norman looked at Tetlow shrewdly。 〃How do you know this?〃 he asked。
Tetlow's eyes shifted。 〃Can't tell you。 But I know。〃
〃Galloway hates me。〃
Tetlow nodded。 〃You were the one who forced him into a position where he had to make peace with Burroughs。 But Galloway's a big man; big enough to admire ability wherever he sees it。 He has admired you ever since。〃
〃And has given his business to another firm。〃
〃But if the break comes he'll need you。 And he's the sort of man who doesn't hesitate to take what he needs。〃
〃Too remote;〃 said Norman; and his despondent gesture showed how quickly hope had lighted up。 〃Besides; Billy; I've lost my nerve。 I'm no good。〃
〃But you've gotten over thatthat attack of insanity。〃
Norman shook his head。
〃I can't understand it;〃 ejaculated Tetlow。
〃Of course you can't;〃 said Norman。 〃But there it is。〃
〃You haven't seen her lately?〃
〃Not since that day 。 。 。 Billy; she hasn't〃 Norman stopped; and Tetlow saw that his hands were trembling with agitation; and marveled。
〃Oh; no;〃 replied Tetlow。 〃So far as I know; she's still respectable。 Butwhy don't you go to see her? I think you'd be cured。〃
〃Why do you say that?〃 demanded Norman; the veins in his forehead bulging with the fury he was ready to release。
〃For no especial reasonon my honor; Fred;〃 replied Tetlow。 〃Simply because time works wonders in all sorts of ways; including infatuations。 Also well; the fact is; it didn't seem to me that young lady improved on acquaintance。 Maybe I got tired; or piquedI don't know。 If she hadn't been a silly little fool; would she have refused you? I know it sounds wellin a novel or a playfor a poor girl to refuse a good offer; just from sentiment。 But; all the same; only a fool girl does itin lifeeh? But go to see her。 You'll understand what I mean; I think。 I want you to brace up。 That may help。〃
〃What's she doing?〃
〃I don't know。 I'll send you her address。 I can get it。 About Galloway If that break comes; I propose that we get his businessyou and I。 I want you for a partner。 I always did。 I think I know how to get work out of you。 I understand you better; than anyone else。 That's why I'm here。〃
〃It's useless;〃 said Norman。
〃I'm willing to take the risk。 Now; here's what I propose。 I'll stake you to the extent of a thousand dollars a month for the next six months; you to keep on as you are and not to tie yourself up to any other lawyer; or to any client likely to hamper us if we get the Galloway business。〃
〃I've been borrowing right and left〃
〃I know about that;〃 interrupted Tetlow。 〃I'm not interested。 If you'll agree to my proposal; I'll take my chances。〃
〃You are throwing away six thousand dollars。〃
〃I owe you a position where I make five times that much。〃
Norman shrugged his shoulders。 〃Very well。 Can I have five hundred at once?〃
〃I'll send you a check to…day。 I'll send two checks a monththe first and the fifteenth。〃
〃I am drinking a great deal。〃
〃You always did。〃
〃Not until recently。 I never knew what drinking meant until these last few months。〃
〃Well; do as you like with the money。 Drink it all; if you please。 I'm making no conditions beyond the two I stated。〃
〃You will send me that address?〃
〃In the letter with the check。〃
〃Will she see me; do you think?〃
〃I haven't an idea;〃 replied Tetlow。
〃What's the mystery?〃 asked Norman。 〃Why do you speak of her so indifferently?〃
〃It's the way I feel。〃 Then; in answer to the unspoken suspicion once more appearing in Norman's eyes; he added: 〃She's a very nice; sweet girl; Norman so far as I know or believe。 Beyond that Go to see her。〃
It had been many a week since Norman had heard a friendly voice。 The very sound of the human voice had become hateful to him; because he was constantly detecting the note of nervousness; the scarcely concealed fear of being entangled in his misfortunes。 As Tetlow rose to go; Norman tried to detain him。 The sound of an unconstrained voice; the sight of a believing face that did not express one or more of the shadings of contempt between pity and aversionthe sight and sound of this friend Tetlow was acting upon him like one of those secret; unexpected; powerful tonics which nature at times suddenly injects into a dying man to confound the doctors and cheat death。
〃Tetlow;〃 said he;