第 37 节
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  were need she would know what to do。
  The fearful responsibility was more than I could bear。  I fell into a
  veritable agony; I trembled and even wept a little。  Then I thought of
  my father and what he would do in such circumstances; and began to pray
  as I had never prayed before。
  I implored the Power above me to give me strength and wisdom; not to let
  me fail in this hour of trouble; and thereby bring these poor people to
  a bloody death。  I prayed till the perspiration streamed down my face;
  then suddenly I fell into sleep or swoon。  I don't know how long I lay
  thus; but I think it must have been the best part of an hour。  At last I
  woke up all in an instant; and as I woke I distinctly heard a tiny
  voice; unlike any other voice in the whole world; speak inside my head;
  or so it seemed to me; saying:
  _〃Go to the hill Hloma Amabutu; and watch how the vultures fly。  Do what
  comes into your mind; and even if you seem to fail; fear nothing。〃_
  I sat up on the old vrouw's bed; and felt that some mysterious change
  had come over me。  I was no longer the same man。  My doubts and terrors
  had gone; my hand was like a rock; my heart was light。  I knew that I
  should kill those three vultures。  Of course the story seems absurd; and
  easy to be explained by the state of my nerves under the strain which
  was being put upon them; and for aught I know that may be its true
  meaning。  Yet I am not ashamed to confess that I have always held; and
  still hold; otherwise。  I believe that in my extremity some kindly Power
  did speak to me in answer to my earnest prayers and to those of others;
  giving me guidance and; what I needed still more; judgment and calmness。
  At any rate; that this was my conviction at the moment may be seen from
  the fact that I hastened to obey the teachings of that tiny; unnatural
  voice。
  Climbing out of the wagon; I went to Hans; who was seated near by in the
  full glare of the hot sun; at which he seemed to stare with unblinking
  eyes。
  〃Where's the rifle; Hans?〃 I said。
  〃Intombi is here; baas; where I have put her to keep her cool; so that
  she may not go off before it is wanted;〃 and he pointed to a little
  grave…like heap of gathered grass at his side。
  The natives; I should explain; named this particular gun 〃Intombi〃;
  which means a young girl; because it was so much slimmer and more
  graceful than other guns。
  〃Is it clean?〃 I asked。
  〃Never was she cleaner since she was born out of the fire; baas。  Also;
  the powder has been sifted and set to dry in the sun with the caps; and
  the bullets have been trued to the barrel; so that there may be no
  accidents when it comes to the shooting。  If you miss the aasvogels;
  baas; it will not be the fault of Intombi or of the powder and the
  bullets; it will be your own fault。〃
  〃That's comforting;〃 I answered。  〃Well; come on; I want to go to the
  Death…hill yonder。〃
  〃Why; baas; before the time?〃 asked the Hottentot; shrinking back a
  little。  〃It is no place to visit till one is obliged。  These Zulus say
  that ghosts sit there even in the daylight; haunting the rocks where
  they were made ghosts。〃
  〃Vultures sit or fly there also; Hans; and I would see how they fly;
  that I may know when and where to shoot at them。〃
  〃That is right; baas;〃 said the clever Hottentot。  〃This is not like
  firing at geese in the Groote Kloof。  The geese go straight; like an
  assegai to its mark。  But the aasvogels wheel round and round; always on
  the turn; it is easy to miss a bird that is turning; baas。〃
  〃Very easy。  Come on。〃
  Just as we were starting Vrouw Prinsloo appeared from behind the other
  wagon; and with her Marie; who; I noticed; was very pale and whose
  beautiful eyes were red; as though with weeping。
  The vrouw asked me where we were going。  I told her。  After considering
  a little; she said that was a good thought of mine; as it was always
  well to study the ground before a battle。
  I nodded; and led Marie aside behind some thorn trees that grew near。
  〃Oh! Allan; what will be the end of this?〃 she asked piteously。  High as
  was her courage it seemed to fail her now。
  〃A good end; dearest;〃 I answered。  〃We shall come out of this hole
  safely; as we have of many others。〃
  〃How do you know that; Allan; which is known to God alone?〃
  〃Because God told me; Marie;〃 and I repeated to her the story of the
  voice I had heard in my dream; which seemed to comfort her。
  〃Yet; yet;〃 she exclaimed doubtfully; 〃it was but a dream; Allan; and
  dreams are such uncertain things。  You may fail; after all。〃
  〃Do I look like one who will fail; Marie?〃
  She studied me from head to foot; then answered:
  〃No; you do not; although you did when you came back from the king's
  huts。  Now you are quite changed。  Still; Allan; you may fail; and
  thenwhat?  Some of those dreadful Zulus have been here while you were
  sleeping; bidding us all make ready to go to the Hill of Death。  They
  say that Dingaan is in earnest。  If you do not kill the vultures; he
  will kill us。  It seems that they are sacred birds; and if they escape
  he will think he has nothing to fear from the white men and their magic;
  and so will make a beginning by butchering us。  I mean the rest of us;
  for I am to be kept alive; and oh! what shall I do; Allan?〃
  I looked at her; and she looked at me。  Then I took the double…barrelled
  pistol out of my pocket and gave it to her。
  〃It is loaded and on the half…cock;〃 I said。
  She nodded; and hid it in her dress beneath her apron。  Then without
  more words we kissed and parted; for both of us feared to prolong that
  scene。
  The hill Hloma Amabutu was quite close to our encampment and the huts of
  the Reverend Mr。 Owen; scarcely a quarter of a mile off; I should say;
  rising from the flat veld on the further side of a little depression
  that hardly amounted to a valley。  As we approached it I noticed its
  peculiar and blasted appearance; for whereas all around the grass was
  vivid with the green of spring; on this place none seemed to grow。  An
  eminence strewn with tumbled heaps of blackish rock; and among them a
  few struggling; dark…leaved bushes; that was its appearance。  Moreover;
  many of these boulders looked as though they had been splashed and lined
  with whitewash; showing that they were the resting…place of hundreds of
  gorged vultures。
  I believe it is the Chinese who declare that particular localities have
  good or evil influences attached to them; some kind of spirit of their
  own; and really Hloma Amabutu and a few other spots that I am acquainted
  with in Africa give colour to the fancy。  Certainly as I set foot upon
  that accursed ground; that Golgotha; that Place of Skulls; a shiver went
  through me。  It may have been caused by the atmosphere; moral and
  actual; of the mount; or it may have been a prescience of a certain
  dreadful scene which within a few months I was doomed to witness there。
  Or perhaps the place itself and the knowledge of the trial before me
  sent a sudden chill through my healthy blood。  I cannot say which it
  was; but the fact remains as I have stated; although a minute or two
  later; when I saw what kind of sleepers lay upon that mount; it would
  not have been necessary for me to seek any far…fetched explanation of my
  fear。
  Across this hill; winding in and out between the rough rocks that lay
  here; there and everywhere like hailstones after a winter storm; ran
  sundry paths。  It seems that the shortest road to various places in the
  neighbourhood of the Great Kraal ran over it; and although no Zulu ever
  dared to set foot there between sun…set and rise; in the daytime they
  used these paths freely enough。  But I suppose that they also held that
  this evil…omened field of death had some spirit of its own; some
  invisible but imminent fiend; who needed to be propitiated; lest soon he
  should claim them also。
  This was their method of propitiation; a common one enough; I believe;
  in many lands; though what may be its meaning I cannot tell。  As the
  traveller came to those spots where the paths cut across each other; he
  took a stone and threw it on to a heap that had been accumulated there
  by the hands of other travellers。  There were many such heaps upon the
  hill; over a dozen; I think; and the size of them was great。  I should
  say that the biggest contained quite fifty loads of stones; and the
  smallest not fewer than twenty or thirty。
  Now; Hans; although he had never set foot there before; seemed to have
  learned all the traditions of the place; and what rites were necessary
  to avert its curse。  At any rate; when we came to the first heap; he
  cast a stone upon it; and begged me to do the same。  I laughed and
  refused; but when we reached the second heap the same thing happened。
  Again I refused; whereon; before we came to a third and larger pile;
  Hans sat down upon the ground and began to groan; swearing that he would
  no