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were need she would know what to do。
The fearful responsibility was more than I could bear。 I fell into a
veritable agony; I trembled and even wept a little。 Then I thought of
my father and what he would do in such circumstances; and began to pray
as I had never prayed before。
I implored the Power above me to give me strength and wisdom; not to let
me fail in this hour of trouble; and thereby bring these poor people to
a bloody death。 I prayed till the perspiration streamed down my face;
then suddenly I fell into sleep or swoon。 I don't know how long I lay
thus; but I think it must have been the best part of an hour。 At last I
woke up all in an instant; and as I woke I distinctly heard a tiny
voice; unlike any other voice in the whole world; speak inside my head;
or so it seemed to me; saying:
_〃Go to the hill Hloma Amabutu; and watch how the vultures fly。 Do what
comes into your mind; and even if you seem to fail; fear nothing。〃_
I sat up on the old vrouw's bed; and felt that some mysterious change
had come over me。 I was no longer the same man。 My doubts and terrors
had gone; my hand was like a rock; my heart was light。 I knew that I
should kill those three vultures。 Of course the story seems absurd; and
easy to be explained by the state of my nerves under the strain which
was being put upon them; and for aught I know that may be its true
meaning。 Yet I am not ashamed to confess that I have always held; and
still hold; otherwise。 I believe that in my extremity some kindly Power
did speak to me in answer to my earnest prayers and to those of others;
giving me guidance and; what I needed still more; judgment and calmness。
At any rate; that this was my conviction at the moment may be seen from
the fact that I hastened to obey the teachings of that tiny; unnatural
voice。
Climbing out of the wagon; I went to Hans; who was seated near by in the
full glare of the hot sun; at which he seemed to stare with unblinking
eyes。
〃Where's the rifle; Hans?〃 I said。
〃Intombi is here; baas; where I have put her to keep her cool; so that
she may not go off before it is wanted;〃 and he pointed to a little
grave…like heap of gathered grass at his side。
The natives; I should explain; named this particular gun 〃Intombi〃;
which means a young girl; because it was so much slimmer and more
graceful than other guns。
〃Is it clean?〃 I asked。
〃Never was she cleaner since she was born out of the fire; baas。 Also;
the powder has been sifted and set to dry in the sun with the caps; and
the bullets have been trued to the barrel; so that there may be no
accidents when it comes to the shooting。 If you miss the aasvogels;
baas; it will not be the fault of Intombi or of the powder and the
bullets; it will be your own fault。〃
〃That's comforting;〃 I answered。 〃Well; come on; I want to go to the
Death…hill yonder。〃
〃Why; baas; before the time?〃 asked the Hottentot; shrinking back a
little。 〃It is no place to visit till one is obliged。 These Zulus say
that ghosts sit there even in the daylight; haunting the rocks where
they were made ghosts。〃
〃Vultures sit or fly there also; Hans; and I would see how they fly;
that I may know when and where to shoot at them。〃
〃That is right; baas;〃 said the clever Hottentot。 〃This is not like
firing at geese in the Groote Kloof。 The geese go straight; like an
assegai to its mark。 But the aasvogels wheel round and round; always on
the turn; it is easy to miss a bird that is turning; baas。〃
〃Very easy。 Come on。〃
Just as we were starting Vrouw Prinsloo appeared from behind the other
wagon; and with her Marie; who; I noticed; was very pale and whose
beautiful eyes were red; as though with weeping。
The vrouw asked me where we were going。 I told her。 After considering
a little; she said that was a good thought of mine; as it was always
well to study the ground before a battle。
I nodded; and led Marie aside behind some thorn trees that grew near。
〃Oh! Allan; what will be the end of this?〃 she asked piteously。 High as
was her courage it seemed to fail her now。
〃A good end; dearest;〃 I answered。 〃We shall come out of this hole
safely; as we have of many others。〃
〃How do you know that; Allan; which is known to God alone?〃
〃Because God told me; Marie;〃 and I repeated to her the story of the
voice I had heard in my dream; which seemed to comfort her。
〃Yet; yet;〃 she exclaimed doubtfully; 〃it was but a dream; Allan; and
dreams are such uncertain things。 You may fail; after all。〃
〃Do I look like one who will fail; Marie?〃
She studied me from head to foot; then answered:
〃No; you do not; although you did when you came back from the king's
huts。 Now you are quite changed。 Still; Allan; you may fail; and
thenwhat? Some of those dreadful Zulus have been here while you were
sleeping; bidding us all make ready to go to the Hill of Death。 They
say that Dingaan is in earnest。 If you do not kill the vultures; he
will kill us。 It seems that they are sacred birds; and if they escape
he will think he has nothing to fear from the white men and their magic;
and so will make a beginning by butchering us。 I mean the rest of us;
for I am to be kept alive; and oh! what shall I do; Allan?〃
I looked at her; and she looked at me。 Then I took the double…barrelled
pistol out of my pocket and gave it to her。
〃It is loaded and on the half…cock;〃 I said。
She nodded; and hid it in her dress beneath her apron。 Then without
more words we kissed and parted; for both of us feared to prolong that
scene。
The hill Hloma Amabutu was quite close to our encampment and the huts of
the Reverend Mr。 Owen; scarcely a quarter of a mile off; I should say;
rising from the flat veld on the further side of a little depression
that hardly amounted to a valley。 As we approached it I noticed its
peculiar and blasted appearance; for whereas all around the grass was
vivid with the green of spring; on this place none seemed to grow。 An
eminence strewn with tumbled heaps of blackish rock; and among them a
few struggling; dark…leaved bushes; that was its appearance。 Moreover;
many of these boulders looked as though they had been splashed and lined
with whitewash; showing that they were the resting…place of hundreds of
gorged vultures。
I believe it is the Chinese who declare that particular localities have
good or evil influences attached to them; some kind of spirit of their
own; and really Hloma Amabutu and a few other spots that I am acquainted
with in Africa give colour to the fancy。 Certainly as I set foot upon
that accursed ground; that Golgotha; that Place of Skulls; a shiver went
through me。 It may have been caused by the atmosphere; moral and
actual; of the mount; or it may have been a prescience of a certain
dreadful scene which within a few months I was doomed to witness there。
Or perhaps the place itself and the knowledge of the trial before me
sent a sudden chill through my healthy blood。 I cannot say which it
was; but the fact remains as I have stated; although a minute or two
later; when I saw what kind of sleepers lay upon that mount; it would
not have been necessary for me to seek any far…fetched explanation of my
fear。
Across this hill; winding in and out between the rough rocks that lay
here; there and everywhere like hailstones after a winter storm; ran
sundry paths。 It seems that the shortest road to various places in the
neighbourhood of the Great Kraal ran over it; and although no Zulu ever
dared to set foot there between sun…set and rise; in the daytime they
used these paths freely enough。 But I suppose that they also held that
this evil…omened field of death had some spirit of its own; some
invisible but imminent fiend; who needed to be propitiated; lest soon he
should claim them also。
This was their method of propitiation; a common one enough; I believe;
in many lands; though what may be its meaning I cannot tell。 As the
traveller came to those spots where the paths cut across each other; he
took a stone and threw it on to a heap that had been accumulated there
by the hands of other travellers。 There were many such heaps upon the
hill; over a dozen; I think; and the size of them was great。 I should
say that the biggest contained quite fifty loads of stones; and the
smallest not fewer than twenty or thirty。
Now; Hans; although he had never set foot there before; seemed to have
learned all the traditions of the place; and what rites were necessary
to avert its curse。 At any rate; when we came to the first heap; he
cast a stone upon it; and begged me to do the same。 I laughed and
refused; but when we reached the second heap the same thing happened。
Again I refused; whereon; before we came to a third and larger pile;
Hans sat down upon the ground and began to groan; swearing that he would
no