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作者:辣椒王      更新:2021-02-20 14:36      字数:9321
  and hung it on a tree。        A little later he discarded his hat。        At the end of
  half a mile he decided he was finished。            He had never exerted himself so
  in his life; and he knew that he was finished。             As he sat and panted; his
  gaze fell upon the big revolver and the heavy cartridge…belt。
  〃Ten pounds of junk;〃 he sneered; as he unbuckled it。
  He did not bother to hang it on a tree; but flung it into the underbush。
  And as the   steady tide of packers flowed by  him; up trail   and down;  he
  noted   that   the   other   tender…feet   were   beginning   to   shed   their   shooting
  irons。
  His short hauls decreased。         At times a hundred feet was all he could
  stagger; and then the ominous pounding of his heart against his ear… drums
  and the sickening totteriness of his knees compelled him to rest。                And his
  rests grew longer。       But his mind was busy。           It was a twenty…eight mile
  portage; which represented   as many  days; and this; by  all accounts;  was
  the easiest part of it。      〃Wait till you get to Chilcoot;〃 others told him as
  they rested and talked; 〃where you climb with hands and feet。〃
  〃They ain't going to be no Chilcoot;〃 was his answer。                 〃Not for me。
  Long before that I'll be at peace in my little couch beneath the moss。〃
  A slip; and a violent wrenching effort at recovery; frightened him。 He
  felt that everything inside him had been torn asunder。
  〃If ever I fall down with this on my back I'm a goner;〃 he told another
  packer。
  〃That's   nothing;〃   came   the   answer。     〃Wait   till   you   hit   the   Canyon。
  You'll have to cross a raging torrent on a sixty…foot pine tree。               No guide
  ropes; nothing; and the water boiling at the sag of the log to your knees。
  If you fall with a pack on your back; there's no getting out of the straps。
  You just stay there and drown。〃
  〃Sounds      good   to  me;〃    he  retorted;   and   out   of  the   depths   of  his
  exhaustion he almost half meant it。
  〃They   drown   three   or   four   a   day   there;〃   the   man   assured   him。  〃I
  helped fish a German out there。           He had four thousand in greenbacks on
  him。〃
  〃Cheerful;     I  must   say;〃  said   Kit;  battling   his  way   to  his  feet   and
  tottering on。
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  He    and    the  sack    of  beans    became      a  perambulating       tragedy。    It
  reminded him of the old man of the sea who sat on Sinbad's neck。 And this
  was one of those intensely masculine vacations; he meditated。                   Compared
  with it; the servitude to O'Hara was sweet。 Again and again he was nearly
  seduced by the thought of abandoning the sack of beans in the brush and
  of   sneaking   around   the   camp   to   the   beach   and   catching   a   steamer   for
  civilization。     But   he   didn't。   Somewhere   in   him   was   the   strain   of   the
  hard; and he repeated over and over to himself that what other men could
  do; he could。       It became a nightmare chant; and he gibbered it to those
  that   passed   him   on   the   trail。  At   other   times;   resting;   he   watched   and
  envied the stolid; mule…footed Indians that plodded by under heavier packs。
  They   never   seemed   to   rest;   but   went   on   and   on   with   a   steadiness   and
  certitude that was to him appalling。
  He sat and cursedhe had no breath for it when under wayand fought
  the temptation to sneak back to San Francisco。               Before the mile pack was
  ended   he   ceased   cursing   and   took   to   crying。      The   tears   were   tears   of
  exhaustion and of disgust with self。            If ever a man was a wreck; he was。
  As the end of the pack came in sight; he strained himself in desperation;
  gained   the   camp…site;   and   pitched   forward   on   his   face;   the   beans   on   his
  back。     It did not kill him; but he lay for fifteen minutes before he could
  summon   sufficient   shreds   of   strength   to   release   himself   from  the   straps。
  Then   he   became   deathly   sick;   and   was   so   found   by   Robbie;   who   had
  similar  troubles   of  his   own。     It   was this   sickness   of   Robbie   that   braced
  him up。
  〃What other men can do; we can do;〃 Kit told him; though down in his
  heart he wondered whether or not he was bluffing。
  IV。
  〃And   I   am   twenty…seven   years   old   and   a   man;〃   he   privately   assured
  himself many times in the days that followed。               There was need for it。        At
  the end of a week; though he had succeeded in moving his eight hundred
  pounds forward a mile a day; he had lost fifteen pounds of his own weight。
  His face was lean and haggard。             All resilience had gone out of his body
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  and mind。       He   no longer   walked; but plodded。          And   on the back…trips;
  travelling light; his feet dragged almost as much as when he was loaded。
  He had become a work animal。             He fell asleep over his food; and his
  sleep was heavy and beastly; save when he was aroused; screaming with
  agony; by the cramps in his legs。          Every part of him ached。         He tramped
  on raw blisters; yet this was even easier than the fearful bruising his feet
  received on the water…rounded rocks of the Dyea Flats; across which the
  trail led for two miles。       These two miles represented thirty…eight miles of
  travelling。    He washed his face once a day。             His nails; torn and broken
  and    afflicted   with   hangnails;   were    never   cleaned。    His    shoulders    and
  chest;   galled   by   the   pack…straps;   made   him   think;   and   for   the   first   time
  with understanding; of the horses he had seen on city streets。
  One ordeal that nearly destroyed him at first had been the food。 The
  extraordinary   amount   of   work   demanded   extraordinary   stoking;   and   his
  stomach was unaccustomed to great quantities of bacon and of the coarse;
  highly  poisonous   brown   beans。        As   a   result;   his   stomach   went   back   on
  him;   and   for   several   days   the   pain   and   irritation   of   it   and   of   starvation
  nearly broke him down。          And then came the day of joy when he could eat
  like a ravenous animal; and; wolf…eyed; ask for more。
  When they had moved the outfit across the foot…logs at the mouth of
  the Canyon; they made a change in their plans。                Word had come across
  the Pass that at Lake Linderman the last available trees for building boats
  were being cut。       The two cousins; with tools; whipsaw; blankets; and grub
  on their backs; went on; leaving Kit and his uncle to hustle along the outfit。
  John Bellew now shared the cooking with Kit; and both packed shoulder
  to shoulder。     Time was flying; and on the peaks the first snow was falling。
  To be caught on the wrong side of the Pass meant a delay of nearly a year。
  The    older   man    put  his  iron   back   under    a  hundred    pounds。     Kit   was
  shocked; but he gritted his teeth and fastened his own straps to a hundred
  pounds。      It hurt; but he had learned the knack; and his body; purged of all
  softness and fat; was beginning to harden up with lean and bitter muscle。
  Also; he observed and devised。           He took note of the head…straps worn by
  the Indians; and manufactured one for himself; which he used in addition
  to the shoulder…straps。 It made things easier; so that he began the practice
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  of piling any light; cumbersome piece of luggage on top。                  Thus; he was
  soon   able   to   bend   along   with   a  hundred   pounds   in   the   straps;   fifteen   or
  twenty more lying loosely on top the pack and against his neck; an axe or
  a pair of oars in one hand; and in the other the nested cooking…pails of the
  camp。
  But   work   as   they   would;   the   toil   increased。  The   trail   grew   more
  rugged;     their  packs    grew    heavier;    and   each   day   saw    the  snow…line
  dropping   down   the   mountains;   while   freight   jumped   to   sixty   cents。   No
  word came from the cousins beyond; so they knew they must be at work
  chopping down the standing trees; and whipsawing them into boat…planks。
  John Bellew grew anxious。            Capturing a bunch of Indians back…tripping
  from Lake Linderman; he persuaded them to put their straps on the outfit。
  They charged thirty cents a