第 11 节
作者:幽雨      更新:2021-02-20 14:31      字数:9322
  added hastily; 〃There is not a woman in society; with her mincing
  airs; that is worth the honest nature of that young animal。〃
  〃At any rate; I wish nothing of the animal about me;〃 said the
  countess; with a glance like that of an angry viper。
  After that evening Comte Paz showed Clementine the exact state of her
  affairs; he made himself her tutor; taught her the methods and
  difficulties of the management of property; the proper prices to pay
  for things; and how to avoid being cheated by her servants。 He told
  her she could rely on Constantin and make him her major…domo。 Thaddeus
  had trained the man thoroughly。 By the end of May he thought the
  countess fully competent to carry on her affairs alone; for Clementine
  was one of those far…sighted women; full of instinct; who have an
  innate genius as mistress of a household。
  This position of affairs; which Thaddeus had led up to naturally; did
  not end without further cruel trials; his sufferings were fated not to
  be as sweet and tender as he was trying to make them。 The poor lover
  forgot to reckon on the hazard of events。 Adam fell seriously ill; and
  Thaddeus; instead of leaving the house; stayed to nurse his friend。
  His devotion was unwearied。 A woman who had any interest in employing
  her perspicacity might have seen in this devotion a sort of punishment
  imposed by a noble soul to repress an involuntary evil thought; but
  women see all; or see nothing; according to the condition of their
  soulslove is their sole illuminator。
  During forty…five days Paz watched and tended Adam without appearing
  to think of Malaga; for the very good reason that he never did think of
  her。 Clementine; feeling that Adam was at the point of death though he
  did not die; sent for all the leading doctors of Paris in
  consultation。
  〃If he comes safely out of this;〃 said the most distinguished of them
  all; 〃it will only be by an effort of nature。 It is for those who
  nurse him to watch for the moment when they must second nature。 The
  count's life is in the hands of his nurses。〃
  Thaddeus went to find Clementine and tell her this result of the
  consultation。 He found her sitting in the Chinese pavilion; as much
  for a little rest as to leave the field to the doctors and not
  embarrass them。 As he walked along the winding gravelled path which
  led to the pavilion; Thaddeus seemed to himself in the depths of an
  abyss described by Dante。 The unfortunate man had never dreamed that
  the possibility might arise of becoming Clementine's husband; and now
  he had drowned himself in a ditch of mud。 His face was convulsed; when
  he reached the kiosk; with an agony of grief; his head; like Medusa's;
  conveyed despair。
  〃Is he dead?〃 said Clementine。
  〃They have given him up; that is; they leave him to nature。 Do not go
  in; they are still there; and Bianchon is changing the dressings。〃
  〃Poor Adam! I ask myself if I have not sometimes pained him;〃 she
  said。
  〃You have made him very happy;〃 said Thaddeus; 〃you ought to be easy
  on that score; for you have shown every indulgence for him。〃
  〃My loss would be irreparable。〃
  〃But; dear; you judged him justly。〃
  〃I was never blind to his faults;〃 she said; 〃but I loved him as a
  wife should love her husband。〃
  〃Then you ought; in case you lose him;〃 said Thaddeus; in a voice
  which Clementine had never heard him use; 〃to grieve for him less than
  if you lost a man who was your pride; your love; and all your life;
  as some men are to you women。 Surely you can be frank at this moment
  with a friend like me。 I shall grieve; too; long before your marriage
  I had made him my child; I had sacrificed my life to him。 If he dies I
  shall be without an interest on earth; but life is still beautiful to
  a widow of twenty…four。〃
  〃Ah! but you know that I love no one;〃 she said; with the impatience
  of grief。
  〃You don't yet know what it is to love;〃 said Thaddeus。
  〃Oh; as husbands are; I have sense enough to prefer a child like my
  poor Adam to a superior man。 It is now over a month that we have been
  saying to each other; 'Will he live?' and these alternations have
  prepared me; as they have you; for this loss。 I can be frank with you。
  Well; I would give my life to save Adam。 What is a woman's
  independence in Paris? the freedom to let herself be taken in by
  ruined or dissipated men who pretend to love her。 I pray to God to
  leave me this husband who is so kind; so obliging; so little fault…
  finding; and who is beginning to stand in awe of me。〃
  〃You are honest; and I love you the better for it;〃 said Thaddeus;
  taking her hand which she yielded to him; and kissing it。 〃In solemn
  moments like these there is unspeakable satisfaction in finding a
  woman without hypocrisy。 It is possible to converse with you。 Let us
  look to the future。 Suppose that God does not grant your prayer;and
  no one cries to him more than I do; 'Leave me my friend!' Yes; these
  fifty nights have not weakened me; if thirty more days and nights are
  needed I can give them while you sleep;yes; I will tear him from
  death if; as the doctors say; nursing can save him。 But suppose that
  in spite of you and me; the count dies;well; then; if you were
  loved; oh; adored; by a man of a heart and soul that are worthy of
  you〃
  〃I may have wished for such love; foolishly; but I have never met with
  it。〃
  〃Perhaps you are mistaken〃
  Clementine looked fixedly at Thaddeus; imagining that there was less
  of love than of cupidity in his thoughts; her eyes measured him from
  head to foot and poured contempt upon him; then she crushed him with
  the words; 〃Poor Malaga!〃 uttered in tones which a great lady alone
  can find to give expression to her disdain。 She rose; leaving Thaddeus
  half unconscious behind her; slowly re…entered her boudoir; and went
  back to Adam's chamber。
  An hour later Paz returned to the sick…room; and began anew; with
  death in his heart; his care of the count。 From that moment he said
  nothing。 He was forced to struggle with the patient; whom he managed
  in a way that excited the admiration of the doctors。 At all hours his
  watchful eyes were like lamps always lighted。 He showed no resentment
  to Clementine; and listened to her thanks without accepting them; he
  seemed both dumb and deaf。 To himself he was saying; 〃She shall owe
  his life to me;〃 and he wrote the thought as it were in letters of
  fire on the walls of Adam's room。 On the fifteenth day Clementine was
  forced to give up the nursing; lest she should utterly break down。 Paz
  was unwearied。 At last; towards the end of August; Bianchon; the
  family physician; told Clementine that Adam was out of danger。
  〃Ah; madame; you are under no obligation to me;〃 he said; 〃without his
  friend; Comte Paz; we could not have saved him。〃
  The day after the meeting of Paz and Clementine in the kiosk; the
  Marquis de Ronquerolles came to see his nephew。 He was on the eve of
  starting for Russia on a secret diplomatic mission。 Paz took occasion
  to say a few words to him。 The first day that Adam was able to drive
  out with his wife and Thaddeus; a gentleman entered the courtyard as
  the carriage was about to leave it; and asked for Comte Paz。 Thaddeus;
  who was sitting on the front seat of the caleche; turned to take a
  letter which bore the stamp of the ministry of Foreign affairs。 Having
  read it; he put it into his pocket in a manner which prevented
  Clementine or Adam from speaking of it。 Nevertheless; by the time they
  reached the porte Maillot; Adam; full of curiosity; used the privilege
  of a sick man whose caprices are to be gratified; and said to
  Thaddeus: 〃There's no indiscretion between brothers who love each
  other;tell me what there is in that despatch; I'm in a fever of
  curiosity。〃
  Clementine glanced at Thaddeus with a vexed air; and remarked to her
  husband: 〃He has been so sulky with me for the last two months that I
  shall never ask him anything again。〃
  〃Oh; as for that;〃 replied Paz; 〃I can't keep it out of the
  newspapers; so I may as well tell you at once。 The Emperor Nicholas
  has had the grace to appoint me captain in a regiment which is to take
  part in the expedition to Khiva。〃
  〃You are not going?〃 cried Adam。
  〃Yes; I shall go; my dear fellow。 Captain I came; and captain I
  return。 We shall dine together to…morrow for the last time。 If I don't
  start at once for St。 Petersburg I shall have to make the journey by
  land; and I am not rich; and I must leave Malaga a little
  independence。 I ought to think of the only woman who has been able to
  understand me; she thinks me grand; superior。 I dare say she is
  faithless; but she would jump〃
  〃Through the hoop; for your sake and come down safely on the back of
  her horse;〃 said Clementine sharply。
  〃Oh; you don't know Malaga;〃 said the captain; bitterly; with a
  sarcastic look in his eyes which made Clementine thoughtful and
  uneasy。
  〃Good…by to the young trees of this be