第 10 节
作者:幽雨      更新:2021-02-20 14:31      字数:9322
  contempt is felt。 Thaddeus was suffering from the wounds his own hand
  had given him。 The trial of his former life; when he lived beside his
  mistress; unknown; unappreciated; but generously working for her; was
  better than this。 Yes; he wanted the reward of his virtue; her
  respect; and he had lost it。 He grew thin and yellow; and so ill with
  constant low fever that during the month of January he was obliged to
  keep his bed; though he refused to see a doctor。 Comte Adam became
  very uneasy about him; but the countess had the cruelty to remark:
  〃Let him alone; don't you see it is only some Olympian trouble?〃 This
  remark; being repeated to Thaddeus; gave him the courage of despair;
  he left his bed; went out; tried a few amusements; and recovered his
  health。
  About the end of February Adam lost a large sum of money at the
  Jockey…Club; and as he was afraid of his wife; he begged Thaddeus to
  let the sum appear in the accounts as if he had spent it on Malaga。
  〃There's nothing surprising in your spending that sum on the girl; but
  if the countess finds out that I have lost it at cards I shall be
  lowered in her opinion; and she will always be suspicious in future。〃
  〃Ha! this; too!〃 exclaimed Thaddeus; with a sigh。
  〃Now; Thaddeus; if you will do me this service we shall be forever
  quits;though; indeed; I am your debtor now。〃
  〃Adam; you will have children; don't gamble any more;〃 said Paz。
  〃So Malaga has cost us another twenty thousand francs;〃 cried the
  countess; some time later; when she discovered this new generosity to
  Paz。 〃First; ten thousand; now twenty more;thirty thousand! the
  income of which is fifteen hundred! the cost of my box at the Opera;
  and the whole fortune of many a bourgeois。 Oh; you Poles!〃 she said;
  gathering some flowers in her greenhouse; 〃you are really
  incomprehensible。 Why are you not furious with him?〃
  〃Poor Paz is〃
  〃Poor Paz; poor Paz; indeed!〃 she cried; interrupting him; 〃what good
  does he do us? I shall take the management of the household myself。
  You can give him the allowance he refused; and let him settle it as he
  likes with his Circus。〃
  〃He is very useful to us; Clementine。 He has certainly saved over
  forty thousand francs this last year。 And besides; my dear angel; he
  has managed to put a hundred thousand with Nucingen; which a steward
  would have pocketed。〃
  Clementine softened down; but she was none the less hard in her
  feelings to Thaddeus。 A few days later; she requested him to come to
  that boudoir where; one year earlier; she had been surprised into
  comparing him with her husband。 This time she received him alone;
  without perceiving the slightest danger in so doing。
  〃My dear Paz;〃 she said; with the condescending familiarity of the
  great to their inferiors; 〃if you love Adam as you say you do; you
  will do a thing which he will not ask of you; but which I; his wife;
  do not hesitate to exact。〃
  〃About Malaga?〃 said Thaddeus; with bitterness in his heart。
  〃Well; yes;〃 she said; 〃if you wish to end your days in this house and
  continue good friends with us; you must give her up。 How an old
  soldier〃
  〃I am only thirty…five; and haven't a white hair。〃
  〃You look old;〃 she said; 〃and that's the same thing。 How so careful a
  manager; so distinguished a〃
  The horrible part of all this was her evident intention to rouse a
  sense of honor in his soul which she thought extinct。
  〃so distinguished a man as you are; Thaddeus;〃 she resumed after a
  momentary pause which a gesture of his hand had led her to make; 〃can
  allow yourself to be caught like a boy! Your proceedings have made
  that woman celebrated。 My uncle wanted to see her; and he did see her。
  My uncle is not the only one; Malaga receives a great many gentlemen。
  I did think you such a noble soul。 For shame! Will she be such a loss
  that you can't replace her?〃
  〃Madame; if I knew any sacrifice I could make to recover your esteem I
  would make it; but to give up Malaga is not one〃
  〃In your position; that is what I should say myself; if I were a man;〃
  replied Clementine。 〃Well; if I accept it as a great sacrifice there
  can be no ill…will between us。〃
  Paz left the room; fearing he might commit some great folly; and
  feeling that wild ideas were getting the better of him。 He went to
  walk in the open air; lightly dressed in spite of the cold; but
  without being able to cool the fire in his cheeks or on his brow。
  〃I thought you had a noble soul;〃the words still rang in his ears。
  〃A year ago;〃 he said to himself; 〃she thought me a hero who could
  fight the Russians single…handed!〃
  He thought of leaving the hotel Laginski; and taking service with the
  spahis and getting killed in Africa; but the same great fear checked
  him。 〃Without me;〃 he thought; 〃what would become of them? they would
  soon be ruined。 Poor countess! what a horrible life it would be for
  her if she were reduced to even thirty thousand francs a year。 No;
  since all is lost for me in this world;courage! I will keep on as I
  am。〃
  Every one knows that since 1830 the carnival in Paris has undergone a
  transformation which has made it European; and far more burlesque and
  otherwise lively than the late Carnival of Venice。 Is it that the
  diminishing fortunes of the present time have led Parisians to invent
  a way of amusing themselves collectively; as for instance at their
  clubs; where they hold salons without hostesses and without manners;
  but very cheaply? However this may be; the month of March was prodigal
  of balls; at which dancing; joking; coarse fun; excitement; grotesque
  figures; and the sharp satire of Parisian wit; produced extravagant
  effects。 These carnival follies had their special Pandemonium in the
  rue Saint…Honore and their Napoleon in Musard; a small man born
  expressly to lead an orchestra as noisy as the disorderly audience;
  and to set the time for the galop; that witches' dance; which was one
  of Auber's triumphs; for it did not really take form or poesy till the
  grand galop in 〃Gustave〃 was given to the world。 That tremendous
  finale might serve as the symbol of an epoch in which for the last
  fifty years all things have hurried by with the rapidity of a dream。
  Now; it happened that the grave Thaddeus; with one divine and
  immaculate image in his heart; proposed to Malaga; the queen of the
  carnival dances; to spend an evening at the Musard ball; because he
  knew the countess; disguised to the teeth; intended to come there with
  two friends; all three accompanied by their husbands; and look on at
  the curious spectacle of one of these crowded balls。
  On Shrove Tuesday; of the year 1838; at four o'clock in the morning;
  the countess; wrapped in a black domino and sitting on the lower step
  of the platform in the Babylonian hall; where Valentino has since then
  given his concerts; beheld Thaddeus; as Robert Macaire; threading the
  galop with Malaga in the dress of a savage; her head garnished with
  plumes like the horse of a hearse; and bounding through the crowd like
  a will…o…the…wisp。
  〃Ah!〃 said Clementine to her husband; 〃you Poles have no honor at all!
  I did believe in Thaddeus。 He gave me his word that he would leave
  that woman; he did not know that I should be here; seeing all unseen。〃
  A few days later she requested Paz to dine with them。 After dinner
  Adam left them alone together; and Clementine reproved Paz and let him
  know very plainly that she did not wish him to live in her house any
  longer。
  〃Yes; madame;〃 said Paz; humbly; 〃you are right; I am a wretch; I did
  give you my word。 But you see how it is; I put off leaving Malaga till
  after the carnival。 Besides; that woman exerts an influence over me
  which〃
  〃An influence!a woman who ought to be turned out of Musard's by the
  police for such dancing!〃
  〃I agree to all that; I accept the condemnation and I'll leave your
  house。 But you know Adam。 If I give up the management of your property
  you must show energy yourself。 I may have been to blame about Malaga;
  but I have taken the whole charge of your affairs; managed your
  servants; and looked after the very least details。 I cannot leave you
  until I see you prepared to continue my management。 You have now been
  married three years; and you are safe from the temptations to
  extravagance which come with the honeymoon。 I see that Parisian women;
  and even titled ones; do manage both their fortunes and their
  households。 Well; as soon as I am certain not so much of your capacity
  as of your perseverance I shall leave Paris。〃
  〃It is Thaddeus of Warsaw; and not that Circus Thaddeus who speaks
  now;〃 said Clementine。 〃Go; and come back cured。〃
  〃Cured! never;〃 said Paz; his eyes lowered and fixed on Clementine's
  pretty feet。 〃You do not know; countess; what charm; what unexpected
  piquancy of mind she has。〃 Then; feeling his courage fail him; he
  added hastily; 〃There is not a woman in society; with her