第 97 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:20      字数:7654
  impossible to think of anything else;〃 but he immediately corrected
  himself and substituted the words; 〃next to impossible to entertain
  irrelevant ideas;〃 after which he seemed to feel a good deal more
  comfortable。  Ernest saw the familiar volumes of Dr Skinner's works
  upon the book…shelves in the Deanery dining…room; but he saw no copy
  of 〃Rome or the BibleWhich?〃
  〃And are you still as fond of music as ever; Mr Pontifex?〃 said Miss
  Skinner to Ernest during the course of lunch。
  〃Of some kinds of music; yes; Miss Skinner; but you know I never did
  like modern music。〃
  〃Isn't that rather dreadful?Don't you think you rather〃she was
  going to have added; 〃ought to?〃 but she left it unsaid; feeling
  doubtless that she had sufficiently conveyed her meaning。
  〃I would like modern music; if I could; I have been trying all my
  life to like it; but I succeed less and less the older I grow。〃
  〃And pray; where do you consider modern music to begin?〃
  〃With Sebastian Bach。〃
  〃And don't you like Beethoven?〃
  〃No; I used to think I did; when I was younger; but I know now that
  I never really liked him。〃
  〃Ah! how can you say so?  You cannot understand him; you never could
  say this if you understood him。  For me a simple chord of Beethoven
  is enough。  This is happiness。〃
  Ernest was amused at her strong family likeness to her fathera
  likeness which had grown upon her as she had become older; and which
  extended even to voice and manner of speaking。  He remembered how he
  had heard me describe the game of chess I had played with the doctor
  in days gone by; and with his mind's ear seemed to hear Miss Skinner
  saying; as though it were an epitaph:…
  〃Stay:
  I may presently take
  A simple chord of Beethoven;
  Or a small semiquaver
  From one of Mendelssohn's Songs without Words。〃
  After luncheon when Ernest was left alone for half an hour or so
  with the Dean he plied him so well with compliments that the old
  gentleman was pleased and flattered beyond his wont。  He rose and
  bowed。  〃These expressions;〃 he said; voce sua; 〃are very valuable
  to me。〃  〃They are but a small part; Sir;〃 rejoined Ernest; 〃of what
  anyone of your old pupils must feel towards you;〃 and the pair
  danced as it were a minuet at the end of the dining…room table in
  front of the old bay window that looked upon the smooth shaven lawn。
  On this Ernest departed; but a few days afterwards; the Doctor wrote
  him a letter and told him that his critics were a 'Greek text'; and
  at the same time 'Greek text'。  Ernest remembered 'Greek text'; and
  knew that the other words were something of like nature; so it was
  all right。  A month or two afterwards; Dr Skinner was gathered to
  his fathers。
  〃He was an old fool; Ernest;〃 said I; 〃and you should not relent
  towards him。〃
  〃I could not help it;〃 he replied; 〃he was so old that it was almost
  like playing with a child。〃
  Sometimes; like all whose minds are active; Ernest overworks
  himself; and then occasionally he has fierce and reproachful
  encounters with Dr Skinner or Theobald in his sleepbut beyond this
  neither of these two worthies can now molest him further。
  To myself he has been a son and more than a son; at times I am half
  afraidas for example when I talk to him about his booksthat I
  may have been to him more like a father than I ought; if I have; I
  trust he has forgiven me。  His books are the only bone of contention
  between us。  I want him to write like other people; and not to
  offend so many of his readers; he says he can no more change his
  manner of writing than the colour of his hair; and that he must
  write as he does or not at all。
  With the public generally he is not a favourite。  He is admitted to
  have talent; but it is considered generally to be of a queer
  unpractical kind; and no matter how serious he is; he is always
  accused of being in jest。  His first book was a success for reasons
  which I have already explained; but none of his others have been
  more than creditable failures。  He is one of those unfortunate men;
  each one of whose books is sneered at by literary critics as soon as
  it comes out; but becomes 〃excellent reading〃 as soon as it has been
  followed by a later work which may in its turn be condemned。
  He never asked a reviewer to dinner in his life。  I have told him
  over and over again that this is madness; and find that this is the
  only thing I can say to him which makes him angry with me。
  〃What can it matter to me;〃 he says; 〃whether people read my books
  or not?  It may matter to thembut I have too much money to want
  more; and if the books have any stuff in them it will work by…and…
  by。  I do not know nor greatly care whether they are good or not。
  What opinion can any sane man form about his own work?  Some people
  must write stupid books just as there must be junior ops and third
  class poll men。  Why should I complain of being among the
  mediocrities?  If a man is not absolutely below mediocrity let him
  be thankfulbesides; the books will have to stand by themselves
  some day; so the sooner they begin the better。〃
  I spoke to his publisher about him not long since。  〃Mr Pontifex;〃
  he said; 〃is a homo unius libri; but it doesn't do to tell him so。〃
  I could see the publisher; who ought to know; had lost all faith in
  Ernest's literary position; and looked upon him as a man whose
  failure was all the more hopeless for the fact of his having once
  made a coup。  〃He is in a very solitary position; Mr Overton;〃
  continued the publisher。  〃He has formed no alliances; and has made
  enemies not only of the religious world but of the literary and
  scientific brotherhood as well。  This will not do nowadays。  If a
  man wishes to get on he must belong to a set; and Mr Pontifex
  belongs to no setnot even to a club。〃
  I replied; 〃Mr Pontifex is the exact likeness of Othello; but with a
  differencehe hates not wisely but too well。  He would dislike the
  literary and scientific swells if he were to come to know them and
  they him; there is no natural solidarity between him and them; and
  if he were brought into contact with them his last state would be
  worse than his first。  His instinct tells him this; so he keeps
  clear of them; and attacks them whenever he thinks they deserve it
  in the hope; perhaps; that a younger generation will listen to him
  more willingly than the present。〃
  〃Can anything;〃' said the publisher; 〃be conceived more
  impracticable and imprudent?〃
  To all this Ernest replies with one word only〃Wait。〃
  Such is my friend's latest development。  He would not; it is true;
  run much chance at present of trying to found a College of Spiritual
  Pathology; but I must leave the reader to determine whether there is
  not a strong family likeness between the Ernest of the College of
  Spiritual Pathology and the Ernest who will insist on addressing the
  next generation rather than his own。  He says he trusts that there
  is not; and takes the sacrament duly once a year as a sop to Nemesis
  lest he should again feel strongly upon any subject。  It rather
  fatigues him; but 〃no man's opinions;〃 he sometimes says; 〃can be
  worth holding unless he knows how to deny them easily and gracefully
  upon occasion in the cause of charity。〃  In politics he is a
  Conservative so far as his vote and interest are concerned。
  In all other respects he is an advanced Radical。  His father and
  grandfather could probably no more understand his state of mind than
  they could understand Chinese; but those who know him intimately do
  not know that they wish him greatly different from what he actually is。
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