第 97 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:20 字数:7654
impossible to think of anything else;〃 but he immediately corrected
himself and substituted the words; 〃next to impossible to entertain
irrelevant ideas;〃 after which he seemed to feel a good deal more
comfortable。 Ernest saw the familiar volumes of Dr Skinner's works
upon the book…shelves in the Deanery dining…room; but he saw no copy
of 〃Rome or the BibleWhich?〃
〃And are you still as fond of music as ever; Mr Pontifex?〃 said Miss
Skinner to Ernest during the course of lunch。
〃Of some kinds of music; yes; Miss Skinner; but you know I never did
like modern music。〃
〃Isn't that rather dreadful?Don't you think you rather〃she was
going to have added; 〃ought to?〃 but she left it unsaid; feeling
doubtless that she had sufficiently conveyed her meaning。
〃I would like modern music; if I could; I have been trying all my
life to like it; but I succeed less and less the older I grow。〃
〃And pray; where do you consider modern music to begin?〃
〃With Sebastian Bach。〃
〃And don't you like Beethoven?〃
〃No; I used to think I did; when I was younger; but I know now that
I never really liked him。〃
〃Ah! how can you say so? You cannot understand him; you never could
say this if you understood him。 For me a simple chord of Beethoven
is enough。 This is happiness。〃
Ernest was amused at her strong family likeness to her fathera
likeness which had grown upon her as she had become older; and which
extended even to voice and manner of speaking。 He remembered how he
had heard me describe the game of chess I had played with the doctor
in days gone by; and with his mind's ear seemed to hear Miss Skinner
saying; as though it were an epitaph:…
〃Stay:
I may presently take
A simple chord of Beethoven;
Or a small semiquaver
From one of Mendelssohn's Songs without Words。〃
After luncheon when Ernest was left alone for half an hour or so
with the Dean he plied him so well with compliments that the old
gentleman was pleased and flattered beyond his wont。 He rose and
bowed。 〃These expressions;〃 he said; voce sua; 〃are very valuable
to me。〃 〃They are but a small part; Sir;〃 rejoined Ernest; 〃of what
anyone of your old pupils must feel towards you;〃 and the pair
danced as it were a minuet at the end of the dining…room table in
front of the old bay window that looked upon the smooth shaven lawn。
On this Ernest departed; but a few days afterwards; the Doctor wrote
him a letter and told him that his critics were a 'Greek text'; and
at the same time 'Greek text'。 Ernest remembered 'Greek text'; and
knew that the other words were something of like nature; so it was
all right。 A month or two afterwards; Dr Skinner was gathered to
his fathers。
〃He was an old fool; Ernest;〃 said I; 〃and you should not relent
towards him。〃
〃I could not help it;〃 he replied; 〃he was so old that it was almost
like playing with a child。〃
Sometimes; like all whose minds are active; Ernest overworks
himself; and then occasionally he has fierce and reproachful
encounters with Dr Skinner or Theobald in his sleepbut beyond this
neither of these two worthies can now molest him further。
To myself he has been a son and more than a son; at times I am half
afraidas for example when I talk to him about his booksthat I
may have been to him more like a father than I ought; if I have; I
trust he has forgiven me。 His books are the only bone of contention
between us。 I want him to write like other people; and not to
offend so many of his readers; he says he can no more change his
manner of writing than the colour of his hair; and that he must
write as he does or not at all。
With the public generally he is not a favourite。 He is admitted to
have talent; but it is considered generally to be of a queer
unpractical kind; and no matter how serious he is; he is always
accused of being in jest。 His first book was a success for reasons
which I have already explained; but none of his others have been
more than creditable failures。 He is one of those unfortunate men;
each one of whose books is sneered at by literary critics as soon as
it comes out; but becomes 〃excellent reading〃 as soon as it has been
followed by a later work which may in its turn be condemned。
He never asked a reviewer to dinner in his life。 I have told him
over and over again that this is madness; and find that this is the
only thing I can say to him which makes him angry with me。
〃What can it matter to me;〃 he says; 〃whether people read my books
or not? It may matter to thembut I have too much money to want
more; and if the books have any stuff in them it will work by…and…
by。 I do not know nor greatly care whether they are good or not。
What opinion can any sane man form about his own work? Some people
must write stupid books just as there must be junior ops and third
class poll men。 Why should I complain of being among the
mediocrities? If a man is not absolutely below mediocrity let him
be thankfulbesides; the books will have to stand by themselves
some day; so the sooner they begin the better。〃
I spoke to his publisher about him not long since。 〃Mr Pontifex;〃
he said; 〃is a homo unius libri; but it doesn't do to tell him so。〃
I could see the publisher; who ought to know; had lost all faith in
Ernest's literary position; and looked upon him as a man whose
failure was all the more hopeless for the fact of his having once
made a coup。 〃He is in a very solitary position; Mr Overton;〃
continued the publisher。 〃He has formed no alliances; and has made
enemies not only of the religious world but of the literary and
scientific brotherhood as well。 This will not do nowadays。 If a
man wishes to get on he must belong to a set; and Mr Pontifex
belongs to no setnot even to a club。〃
I replied; 〃Mr Pontifex is the exact likeness of Othello; but with a
differencehe hates not wisely but too well。 He would dislike the
literary and scientific swells if he were to come to know them and
they him; there is no natural solidarity between him and them; and
if he were brought into contact with them his last state would be
worse than his first。 His instinct tells him this; so he keeps
clear of them; and attacks them whenever he thinks they deserve it
in the hope; perhaps; that a younger generation will listen to him
more willingly than the present。〃
〃Can anything;〃' said the publisher; 〃be conceived more
impracticable and imprudent?〃
To all this Ernest replies with one word only〃Wait。〃
Such is my friend's latest development。 He would not; it is true;
run much chance at present of trying to found a College of Spiritual
Pathology; but I must leave the reader to determine whether there is
not a strong family likeness between the Ernest of the College of
Spiritual Pathology and the Ernest who will insist on addressing the
next generation rather than his own。 He says he trusts that there
is not; and takes the sacrament duly once a year as a sop to Nemesis
lest he should again feel strongly upon any subject。 It rather
fatigues him; but 〃no man's opinions;〃 he sometimes says; 〃can be
worth holding unless he knows how to deny them easily and gracefully
upon occasion in the cause of charity。〃 In politics he is a
Conservative so far as his vote and interest are concerned。
In all other respects he is an advanced Radical。 His father and
grandfather could probably no more understand his state of mind than
they could understand Chinese; but those who know him intimately do
not know that they wish him greatly different from what he actually is。
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