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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:20 字数:9322
the phenomena of living that I suppose on the whole it would be less
trouble to think of him as having been alive than as never having
been born at all; but this is only possible because association does
not stick to the strict letter of its bond。
This; however; was not the general verdict concerning him; and the
general verdict is often the truest。
Ernest was overwhelmed with expressions of condolence and respect
for his father's memory。 〃He never;〃 said Dr Martin; the old doctor
who brought Ernest into the world; 〃spoke an ill word against
anyone。 He was not only liked; he was beloved by all who had
anything to do with him。〃
〃A more perfectly just and righteously dealing man;〃 said the family
solicitor; 〃I have never had anything to do withnor one more
punctual in the discharge of every business obligation。〃
〃We shall miss him sadly;〃 the bishop wrote to Joey in the very
warmest terms。 The poor were in consternation。 〃The well's never
missed;〃 said one old woman; 〃till it's dry;〃 and she only said what
everyone else felt。 Ernest knew that the general regret was
unaffected as for a loss which could not be easily repaired。 He
felt that there were only three people in the world who joined
insincerely in the tribute of applause; and these were the very
three who could least show their want of sympathy。 I mean Joey;
Charlotte; and himself。 He felt bitter against himself for being of
a mind with either Joey or Charlotte upon any subject; and thankful
that he must conceal his being so as far as possible; not because of
anything his father had done to himthese grievances were too old
to be remembered nowbut because he would never allow him to feel
towards him as he was always trying to feel。 As long as
communication was confined to the merest commonplace all went well;
but if these were departed from ever such a little he invariably
felt that his father's instincts showed themselves in immediate
opposition to his own。 When he was attacked his father laid
whatever stress was possible on everything which his opponents said。
If he met with any check his father was clearly pleased。 What the
old doctor had said about Theobald's speaking ill of no man was
perfectly true as regards others than himself; but he knew very well
that no one had injured his reputation in a quiet way; so far as he
dared to do; more than his own father。 This is a very common case
and a very natural one。 It often happens that if the son is right;
the father is wrong; and the father is not going to have this if he
can help it。
It was very hard; however; to say what was the true root of the
mischief in the present case。 It was not Ernest's having been
imprisoned。 Theobald forgot all about that much sooner than nine
fathers out of ten would have done。 Partly; no doubt; it was due to
incompatibility of temperament; but I believe the main ground of
complaint lay in the fact that he had been so independent and so
rich while still very young; and that thus the old gentleman had
been robbed of his power to tease and scratch in the way which he
felt he was entitled to do。 The love of teasing in a small way when
he felt safe in doing so had remained part of his nature from the
days when he told his nurse that he would keep her on purpose to
torment her。 I suppose it is so with all of us。 At any rate I am
sure that most fathers; especially if they are clergymen; are like
Theobald。
He did not in reality; I am convinced; like Joey or Charlotte one
whit better than he liked Ernest。 He did not like anyone or
anything; or if he liked anyone at all it was his butler; who looked
after him when he was not well; and took great care of him and
believed him to be the best and ablest man in the whole world。
Whether this faithful and attached servant continued to think this
after Theobald's will was opened and it was found what kind of
legacy had been left him I know not。 Of his children; the baby who
had died at a day old was the only one whom he held to have treated
him quite filially。 As for Christina he hardly ever pretended to
miss her and never mentioned her name; but this was taken as a proof
that he felt her loss too keenly to be able ever to speak of her。
It may have been so; but I do not think it。
Theobald's effects were sold by auction; and among them the Harmony
of the Old and New Testaments which he had compiled during many
years with such exquisite neatness and a huge collection of MS。
sermonsbeing all in fact that he had ever written。 These and the
Harmony fetched ninepence a barrow load。 I was surprised to hear
that Joey had not given the three or four shillings which would have
bought the whole lot; but Ernest tells me that Joey was far fiercer
in his dislike of his father than ever he had been himself; and
wished to get rid of everything that reminded him of him。
It has already appeared that both Joey and Charlotte are married。
Joey has a family; but he and Ernest very rarely have any
intercourse。 Of course; Ernest took nothing under his father's
will; this had long been understood; so that the other two are both
well provided for。
Charlotte is as clever as ever; and sometimes asks Ernest to come
and stay with her and her husband near Dover; I suppose because she
knows that the invitation will not be agreeable to him。 There is a
de haut en bas tone in all her letters; it is rather hard to lay
one's finger upon it but Ernest never gets a letter from her without
feeling that he is being written to by one who has had direct
communication with an angel。 〃What an awful creature;〃 he once said
to me; 〃that angel must have been if it had anything to do with
making Charlotte what she is。〃
〃Could you like;〃 she wrote to him not long ago; 〃the thoughts of a
little sea change here? The top of the cliffs will soon be bright
with heather: the gorse must be out already; and the heather I
should think begun; to judge by the state of the hill at Ewell; and
heather or no heatherthe cliffs are always beautiful; and if you
come your room shall be cosy so that you may have a resting corner
to yourself。 Nineteen and sixpence is the price of a return…ticket
which covers a month。 Would you decide just as you would yourself
like; only if you come we would hope to try and make it bright for
you; but you must not feel it a burden on your mind if you feel
disinclined to come in this direction。〃
〃When I have a bad nightmare;〃 said Ernest to me; laughing as he
showed me this letter; 〃I dream that I have got to stay with
Charlotte。〃
Her letters are supposed to be unusually well written; and I believe
it is said among the family that Charlotte has far more real
literary power than Ernest has。 Sometimes we think that she is
writing at him as much as to say; 〃There nowdon't you think you
are the only one of us who can write; read this! And if you want a
telling bit of descriptive writing for your next book; you can make
what use of it you like。〃 I daresay she writes very well; but she
has fallen under the dominion of the words 〃hope;〃 〃think;〃 〃feel;〃
〃try;〃 〃bright;〃 and 〃little;〃 and can hardly write a page without
introducing all these words and some of them more than once。 All
this has the effect of making her style monotonous。
Ernest is as fond of music as ever; perhaps more so; and of late
years has added musical composition to the other irons in his fire。
He finds it still a little difficult; and is in constant trouble
through getting into the key of C sharp after beginning in the key
of C and being unable to get back again。
〃Getting into the key of C sharp;〃 he said; 〃is like an unprotected
female travelling on the Metropolitan Railway; and finding herself
at Shepherd's Bush; without quite knowing where she wants to go to。
How is she ever to get safe back to Clapham Junction? And Clapham
Junction won't quite do either; for Clapham Junction is like the
diminished seventhsusceptible of such enharmonic change; that you
can resolve it into all the possible termini of music。〃
Talking of music reminds me of a little passage that took place
between Ernest and Miss Skinner; Dr Skinner's eldest daughter; not
so very long ago。 Dr Skinner had long left Roughborough; and had
become Dean of a Cathedral in one of our Midland countiesa
position which exactly suited him。 Finding himself once in the
neighbourhood Ernest called; for old acquaintance sake; and was
hospitably entertained at lunch。
Thirty years had whitened the Doctor's bushy eyebrowshis hair they
could not whiten。 I believe that but for that wig he would have
been made a bishop。
His voice and manner were unchanged; and when Ernest remarking upon
a plan of Rome which hung in the hall; spoke inadvertently of the
Quirinal; he replied with all his wonted pomp: 〃Yes; the QuirInal
or as I myself prefer to call it; the QuirInal。〃 After this triumph
he inhaled a long breath through the corners of his mouth; and flung
it back again into the face of Heaven; as in his finest form during
his head…mastership。 At lunch he did indeed once say; 〃next to
impossible to think of anything else;〃 but he immediately corrected
himself and substituted the words; 〃ne