第 90 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:20      字数:9320
  had been going through the waters of misery; and the Lord had turned
  them to a well。
  〃'Oh yes; Susan;' said she; 'be sure it is so。  Whom the Lord loveth
  he chasteneth; Susan;' and here she began to cry again。  'As for
  him;' she went on; 'he has made his bed; and he must lie on it; when
  he comes out of prison his pa will know what is best to be done; and
  Master Ernest may be thankful that he has a pa so good and so long…
  suffering。'
  〃Then when you would not see them; that was a cruel blow to your ma。
  Your pa did not say anything; you know your pa never does say very
  much unless he's downright waxy for the time; but your ma took on
  dreadful for a few days; and I never saw the master look so black;
  but; bless you; it all went off in a few days; and I don't know that
  there's been much difference in either of them since then; not till
  your ma was took ill。〃
  On the night of his arrival he had behaved well at family prayers;
  as also on the following morning; his father read about David's
  dying injunctions to Solomon in the matter of Shimei; but he did not
  mind it。  In the course of the day; however; his corns had been
  trodden on so many times that he was in a misbehaving humour; on
  this the second night after his arrival。  He knelt next Charlotte
  and said the responses perfunctorily; not so perfunctorily that she
  should know for certain that he was doing it maliciously; but so
  perfunctorily as to make her uncertain whether he might be malicious
  or not; and when he had to pray to be made truly honest and
  conscientious he emphasised the 〃truly。〃  I do not know whether
  Charlotte noticed anything; but she knelt at some distance from him
  during the rest of his stay。  He assures me that this was the only
  spiteful thing he did during the whole time he was at Battersby。
  When he went up to his bedroom; in which; to do them justice; they
  had given him a fire; he noticed what indeed he had noticed as soon
  as he was shown into it on his arrival; that there was an
  illuminated card framed and glazed over his bed with the words; 〃Be
  the day weary or be the day long; at last it ringeth to evensong。〃
  He wondered to himself how such people could leave such a card in a
  room in which their visitors would have to spend the last hours of
  their evening; but he let it alone。  〃There's not enough difference
  between 'weary' and 'long' to warrant an 'or;'〃 he said; 〃but I
  suppose it is all right。〃  I believe Christina had bought the card
  at a bazaar in aid of the restoration of a neighbouring church; and
  having been bought it had got to be usedbesides; the sentiment was
  so touching and the illumination was really lovely。  Anyhow; no
  irony could be more complete than leaving it in my hero's bedroom;
  though assuredly no irony had been intended。
  On the third day after Ernest's arrival Christina relapsed again。
  For the last two days she had been in no pain and had slept a good
  deal; her son's presence still seemed to cheer her; and she often
  said how thankful she was to be surrounded on her death…bed by a
  family so happy; so God…fearing; so united; but now she began to
  wander; and; being more sensible of the approach of death; seemed
  also more alarmed at the thoughts of the Day of Judgment。
  She ventured more than once or twice to return to the subject of her
  sins; and implored Theobald to make quite sure that they were
  forgiven her。  She hinted that she considered his professional
  reputation was at stake; it would never do for his own wife to fail
  in securing at any rate a pass。  This was touching Theobald on a
  tender spot; he winced and rejoined with an impatient toss of the
  head; 〃But; Christina; they ARE forgiven you〃; and then he
  entrenched himself in a firm but dignified manner behind the Lord's
  prayer。  When he rose he left the room; but called Ernest out to say
  that he could not wish it prolonged。
  Joey was no more use in quieting his mother's anxiety than Theobald
  had beenindeed he was only Theobald and water; at last Ernest; who
  had not liked interfering; took the matter in hand; and; sitting
  beside her; let her pour out her grief to him without let or
  hindrance。
  She said she knew she had not given up all for Christ's sake; it was
  this that weighed upon her。  She had given up much; and had always
  tried to give up more year by year; still she knew very well that
  she had not been so spiritually minded as she ought to have been。
  If she had; she should probably have been favoured with some direct
  vision or communication; whereas; though God had vouchsafed such
  direct and visible angelic visits to one of her dear children; yet
  she had had none such herselfnor even had Theobald。
  She was talking rather to herself than to Ernest as she said these
  words; but they made him open his ears。  He wanted to know whether
  the angel had appeared to Joey or to Charlotte。  He asked his
  mother; but she seemed surprised; as though she expected him to know
  all about it; then; as if she remembered; she checked herself and
  said; 〃Ah! yesyou know nothing of all this; and perhaps it is as
  well。〃  Ernest could not of course press the subject; so he never
  found out which of his near relations it was who had had direct
  communication with an immortal。  The others never said anything to
  him about it; though whether this was because they were ashamed; or
  because they feared he would not believe the story and thus increase
  his own damnation; he could not determine。
  Ernest has often thought about this since。  He tried to get the
  facts out of Susan; who he was sure would know; but Charlotte had
  been beforehand with him。  〃No; Master Ernest;〃 said Susan; when he
  began to question her; 〃your ma has sent a message to me by Miss
  Charlotte as I am not to say nothing at all about it; and I never
  will。〃  Of course no further questioning was possible。  It had more
  than once occurred to Ernest that Charlotte did not in reality
  believe more than he did himself; and this incident went far to
  strengthen his surmises; but he wavered when he remembered how she
  had misdirected the letter asking for the prayers of the
  congregation。  I suppose;〃 he said to himself gloomily; 〃she does
  believe in it after all。〃
  Then Christina returned to the subject of her own want of spiritual…
  mindedness; she even harped upon the old grievance of her having
  eaten black puddingstrue; she had given them up years ago; but for
  how many years had she not persevered in eating them after she had
  had misgivings about their having been forbidden!  Then there was
  something that weighed on her mind that had taken place before her
  marriage; and she should like …
  Ernest interrupted:  〃My dear mother;〃 he said; 〃you are ill and
  your mind is unstrung; others can now judge better about you than
  you can; I assure you that to me you seem to have been the most
  devotedly unselfish wife and mother that ever lived。  Even if you
  have not literally given up all for Christ's sake; you have done so
  practically as far as it was in your power; and more than this is
  not required of anyone。  I believe you will not only be a saint; but
  a very distinguished one。〃
  At these words Christina brightened。  〃You give me hope; you give me
  hope;〃 she cried; and dried her eyes。  She made him assure her over
  and over again that this was his solemn conviction; she did not care
  about being a distinguished saint now; she would be quite content to
  be among the meanest who actually got into heaven; provided she
  could make sure of escaping that awful Hell。  The fear of this
  evidently was omnipresent with her; and in spite of all Ernest could
  say he did not quite dispel it。  She was rather ungrateful; I must
  confess; for after more than an hour's consolation from Ernest she
  prayed for him that he might have every blessing in this world;
  inasmuch as she always feared that he was the only one of her
  children whom she should never meet in heaven; but she was then
  wandering; and was hardly aware of his presence; her mind in fact
  was reverting to states in which it had been before her illness。
  On Sunday Ernest went to church as a matter of course; and noted
  that the ever receding tide of Evangelicalism had ebbed many a stage
  lower; even during the few years of his absence。  His father used to
  walk to the church through the Rectory garden; and across a small
  intervening field。  He had been used to walk in a tall hat; his
  Master's gown; and wearing a pair of Geneva bands。  Ernest noticed
  that the bands were worn no longer; and lo! greater marvel still;
  Theobald did not preach in his Master's gown; but in a surplice。
  The whole character of the service was changed; you could not say it
  was high even now; for high…church Theobald could never under any
  circumstances become; but the old easy…going slovenliness; if I may
  say so; was gone for ever。  The orchestral accompaniments to the
  hymns had disappeared while my hero was yet a boy; but there had
  been no chanting for some years after the harmonium had been
  introduced。  While Ernest was at Cambridge; Charlotte and Christina
  had prevailed on Theobald to allow the canticles to be sung; and
  sung they were to old…fashioned double chants by Lord Mornington and
  Dr Dupuis and others。