第 60 节
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旅游巴士 更新:2021-02-20 14:19 字数:9321
torments that the mind could think of; before he could bring his
spiritual pathology engine to bear upon them? Why might he not
stand and preach as he saw the Dissenters doing sometimes in
Lincoln's Inn Fields and other thoroughfares? He could say all that
Mr Hawke had said。 Mr Hawke was a very poor creature in Ernest's
eyes now; for he was a Low Churchman; but we should not be above
learning from any one; and surely he could affect his hearers as
powerfully as Mr Hawke had affected him if he only had the courage
to set to work。 The people whom he saw preaching in the squares
sometimes drew large audiences。 He could at any rate preach better
than they。
Ernest broached this to Pryer; who treated it as something too
outrageous to be even thought of。 Nothing; he said; could more tend
to lower the dignity of the clergy and bring the Church into
contempt。 His manner was brusque; and even rude。
Ernest ventured a little mild dissent; he admitted it was not usual;
but something at any rate must be done; and that quickly。 This was
how Wesley and Whitfield had begun that great movement which had
kindled religious life in the minds of hundreds of thousands。 This
was no time to be standing on dignity。 It was just because Wesley
and Whitfield had done what the Church would not that they had won
men to follow them whom the Church had now lost。
Pryer eyed Ernest searchingly; and after a pause said; 〃I don't know
what to make of you; Pontifex; you are at once so very right and so
very wrong。 I agree with you heartily that something should be
done; but it must not be done in a way which experience has shown
leads to nothing but fanaticism and dissent。 Do you approve of
these Wesleyans? Do you hold your ordination vows so cheaply as to
think that it does not matter whether the services of the Church are
performed in her churches and with all due ceremony or not? If you
dothen; frankly; you had no business to be ordained; if you do
not; then remember that one of the first duties of a young deacon is
obedience to authority。 Neither the Catholic Church; nor yet the
Church of England allows her clergy to preach in the streets of
cities where there is no lack of churches。〃
Ernest felt the force of this; and Pryer saw that he wavered。
〃We are living;〃 he continued more genially; 〃in an age of
transition; and in a country which; though it has gained much by the
Reformation; does not perceive how much it has also lost。 You
cannot and must not hawk Christ about in the streets as though you
were in a heathen country whose inhabitants had never heard of him。
The people here in London have had ample warning。 Every church they
pass is a protest to them against their lives; and a call to them to
repent。 Every church…bell they hear is a witness against them;
everyone of those whom they meet on Sundays going to or coming from
church is a warning voice from God。 If these countless influences
produce no effect upon them; neither will the few transient words
which they would hear from you。 You are like Dives; and think that
if one rose from the dead they would hear him。 Perhaps they might;
but then you cannot pretend that you have risen from the dead。〃
Though the last few words were spoken laughingly; there was a sub…
sneer about them which made Ernest wince; but he was quite subdued;
and so the conversation ended。 It left Ernest; however; not for the
first time; consciously dissatisfied with Pryer; and inclined to set
his friend's opinion on one sidenot openly; but quietly; and
without telling Pryer anything about it。
CHAPTER LVII
He had hardly parted from Pryer before there occurred another
incident which strengthened his discontent。 He had fallen; as I
have shown; among a gang of spiritual thieves or coiners; who passed
the basest metal upon him without his finding it out; so childish
and inexperienced was he in the ways of anything but those back
eddies of the world; schools and universities。 Among the bad
threepenny pieces which had been passed off upon him; and which he
kept for small hourly disbursement; was a remark that poor people
were much nicer than the richer and better educated。 Ernest now
said that he always travelled third class not because it was
cheaper; but because the people whom he met in third class carriages
were so much pleasanter and better behaved。 As for the young men
who attended Ernest's evening classes; they were pronounced to be
more intelligent and better ordered generally than the average run
of Oxford and Cambridge men。 Our foolish young friend having heard
Pryer talk to this effect; caught up all he said and reproduced it
more suo。
One evening; however; about this time; whom should he see coming
along a small street not far from his own but; of all persons in the
world; Towneley; looking as full of life and good spirits as ever;
and if possible even handsomer than he had been at Cambridge。 Much
as Ernest liked him he found himself shrinking from speaking to him;
and was endeavouring to pass him without doing so when Towneley saw
him and stopped him at once; being pleased to see an old Cambridge
face。 He seemed for the moment a little confused at being seen in
such a neighbourhood; but recovered himself so soon that Ernest
hardly noticed it; and then plunged into a few kindly remarks about
old times。 Ernest felt that he quailed as he saw Towneley's eye
wander to his white necktie and saw that he was being reckoned up;
and rather disapprovingly reckoned up; as a parson。 It was the
merest passing shade upon Towneley's face; but Ernest had felt it。
Towneley said a few words of common form to Ernest about his
profession as being what he thought would be most likely to interest
him; and Ernest; still confused and shy; gave him for lack of
something better to say his little threepenny…bit about poor people
being so very nice。 Towneley took this for what it was worth and
nodded assent; whereon Ernest imprudently went further and said
〃Don't you like poor people very much yourself?〃
Towneley gave his face a comical but good…natured screw; and said
quietly; but slowly and decidedly; 〃No; no; no;〃 and escaped。
It was all over with Ernest from that moment。 As usual he did not
know it; but he had entered none the less upon another reaction。
Towneley had just taken Ernest's threepenny…bit into his hands;
looked at it and returned it to him as a bad one。 Why did he see in
a moment that it was a bad one now; though he had been unable to see
it when he had taken it from Pryer? Of course some poor people were
very nice; and always would be so; but as though scales had fallen
suddenly from his eyes he saw that no one was nicer for being poor;
and that between the upper and lower classes there was a gulf which
amounted practically to an impassable barrier。
That evening he reflected a good deal。 If Towneley was right; and
Ernest felt that the 〃No〃 had applied not to the remark about poor
people only; but to the whole scheme and scope of his own recently
adopted ideas; he and Pryer must surely be on a wrong track。
Towneley had not argued with him; he had said one word only; and
that one of the shortest in the language; but Ernest was in a fit
state for inoculation; and the minute particle of virus set about
working immediately。
Which did he now think was most likely to have taken the juster view
of life and things; and whom would it be best to imitate; Towneley
or Pryer? His heart returned answer to itself without a moment's
hesitation。 The faces of men like Towneley were open and kindly;
they looked as if at ease themselves; and as though they would set
all who had to do with them at ease as far as might be。 The faces
of Pryer and his friends were not like this。 Why had he felt
tacitly rebuked as soon as he had met Towneley? Was he not a
Christian? Certainly; he believed in the Church of England as a
matter of course。 Then how could he be himself wrong in trying to
act up to the faith that he and Towneley held in common? He was
trying to lead a quiet; unobtrusive life of self…devotion; whereas
Towneley was not; so far as he could see; trying to do anything of
the kind; he was only trying to get on comfortably in the world; and
to look and be as nice as possible。 And he was nice; and Ernest
knew that such men as himself and Pryer were not nice; and his old
dejection came over him。
Then came an even worse reflection; how if he had fallen among
material thieves as well as spiritual ones? He knew very little of
how his money was going on; he had put it all now into Pryer's
hands; and though Pryer gave him cash to spend whenever he wanted
it; he seemed impatient of being questioned as to what was being
done with the principal。 It was part of the understanding; he said;
that that was to be left to him; and Ernest had better stick to
this; or he; Pryer; would throw up the College of Spiritual
Pathology altogether; and so Ernest was cowed into acquiescence; or
cajoled; according to the humour in which Pryer saw him to be。
Ernest thought that further questions would look as if he doubted
Pryer's word; and also that he had gone too far to be able