第 57 节
作者:旅游巴士      更新:2021-02-20 14:19      字数:9322
  ago; the aim of which shall be at once to outbid Rome on the one
  hand; and scepticism on the other。  For this purpose I see nothing
  better than the foundation of an institution or college for placing
  the nature and treatment of sin on a more scientific basis than it
  rests at present。  We wantto borrow a useful term of Pryer'sa
  College of Spiritual Pathology where young men〃 (I suppose Ernest
  thought he was no longer young by this time) 〃may study the nature
  and treatment of the sins of the soul as medical students study
  those of the bodies of their patients。  Such a college; as you will
  probably admit; will approach both Rome on the one hand; and science
  on the otherRome; as giving the priesthood more skill; and
  therefore as paving the way for their obtaining greater power; and
  science; by recognising that even free thought has a certain kind of
  value in spiritual enquiries。  To this purpose Pryer and I have
  resolved to devote ourselves henceforth heart and soul。
  〃Of course; my ideas are still unshaped; and all will depend upon
  the men by whom the college is first worked。  I am not yet a priest;
  but Pryer is; and if I were to start the College; Pryer might take
  charge of it for a time and I work under him nominally as his
  subordinate。  Pryer himself suggested this。  Is it not generous of
  him?
  〃The worst of it is that we have not enough money; I have; it is
  true; 5000 pounds; but we want at least 10;000 pounds; so Pryer
  says; before we can start; when we are fairly under weigh I might
  live at the college and draw a salary from the foundation; so that
  it is all one; or nearly so; whether I invest my money in this way
  or in buying a living; besides I want very little; it is certain
  that I shall never marry; no clergyman should think of this; and an
  unmarried man can live on next to nothing。  Still I do not see my
  way to as much money as I want; and Pryer suggests that as we can
  hardly earn more now we must get it by a judicious series of
  investments。  Pryer knows several people who make quite a handsome
  income out of very little or; indeed; I may say; nothing at all; by
  buying things at a place they call the Stock Exchange; I don't know
  much about it yet; but Pryer says I should soon learn; he thinks;
  indeed; that I have shown rather a talent in this direction; and
  under proper auspices should make a very good man of business。
  Others; of course; and not I; must decide this; but a man can do
  anything if he gives his mind to it; and though I should not care
  about having more money for my own sake; I care about it very much
  when I think of the good I could do with it by saving souls from
  such horrible torture hereafter。  Why; if the thing succeeds; and I
  really cannot see what is to hinder it; it is hardly possible to
  exaggerate its importance; nor the proportions which it may
  ultimately assume;〃 etc。; etc。
  Again I asked Ernest whether he minded my printing this。  He winced;
  but said 〃No; not if it helps you to tell your story:  but don't you
  think it is too long?〃
  I said it would let the reader see for himself how things were going
  in half the time that it would take me to explain them to him。
  〃Very well then; keep it by all means。〃
  I continue turning over my file of Ernest's letters and find as
  follows …
  〃Thanks for your last; in answer to which I send you a rough copy of
  a letter I sent to the Times a day or two back。  They did not insert
  it; but it embodies pretty fully my ideas on the parochial
  visitation question; and Pryer fully approves of the letter。  Think
  it carefully over and send it back to me when read; for it is so
  exactly my present creed that I cannot afford to lose it。
  〃I should very much like to have a viva voce discussion on these
  matters:  I can only see for certain that we have suffered a
  dreadful loss in being no longer able to excommunicate。  We should
  excommunicate rich and poor alike; and pretty freely too。  If this
  power were restored to us we could; I think; soon put a stop to by
  far the greater part of the sin and misery with which we are
  surrounded。〃
  These letters were written only a few weeks after Ernest had been
  ordained; but they are nothing to others that he wrote a little
  later on。
  In his eagerness to regenerate the Church of England (and through
  this the universe) by the means which Pryer had suggested to him; it
  occurred to him to try to familiarise himself with the habits and
  thoughts of the poor by going and living among them。  I think he got
  this notion from Kingsley's 〃Alton Locke;〃 which; High Churchman
  though he for the nonce was; he had devoured as he had devoured
  Stanley's Life of Arnold; Dickens's novels; and whatever other
  literary garbage of the day was most likely to do him harm; at any
  rate he actually put his scheme into practice; and took lodgings in
  Ashpit Place; a small street in the neighbourhood of Drury Lane
  Theatre; in a house of which the landlady was the widow of a cabman。
  This lady occupied the whole ground floor。  In the front kitchen
  there was a tinker。  The back kitchen was let to a bellows…mender。
  On the first floor came Ernest; with his two rooms which he
  furnished comfortably; for one must draw the line somewhere。  The
  two upper floors were parcelled out among four different sets of
  lodgers:  there was a tailor named Holt; a drunken fellow who used
  to beat his wife at night till her screams woke the house; above him
  there was another tailor with a wife but no children; these people
  were Wesleyans; given to drink but not noisy。  The two back rooms
  were held by single ladies; who it seemed to Ernest must be
  respectably connected; for well…dressed gentlemanly…looking young
  men used to go up and down stairs past Ernest's rooms to call at any
  rate on Miss SnowErnest had heard her door slam after they had
  passed。  He thought; too; that some of them went up to Miss
  Maitland's。  Mrs Jupp; the landlady; told Ernest that these were
  brothers and cousins of Miss Snow's; and that she was herself
  looking out for a situation as a governess; but at present had an
  engagement as an actress at the Drury Lane Theatre。  Ernest asked
  whether Miss Maitland in the top back was also looking out for a
  situation; and was told she was wanting an engagement as a milliner。
  He believed whatever Mrs Jupp told him。
  CHAPTER LIV
  This move on Ernest's part was variously commented upon by his
  friends; the general opinion being that it was just like Pontifex;
  who was sure to do something unusual wherever he went; but that on
  the whole the idea was commendable。  Christina could not restrain
  herself when on sounding her clerical neighbours she found them
  inclined to applaud her son for conduct which they idealised into
  something much more self…denying than it really was。  She did not
  quite like his living in such an unaristocratic neighbourhood; but
  what he was doing would probably get into the newspapers; and then
  great people would take notice of him。  Besides; it would be very
  cheap; down among these poor people he could live for next to
  nothing; and might put by a great deal of his income。  As for
  temptations; there could be few or none in such a place as that。
  This argument about cheapness was the one with which she most
  successfully met Theobald; who grumbled more suo that he had no
  sympathy with his son's extravagance and conceit。  When Christina
  pointed out to him that it would be cheap he replied that there was
  something in that。
  On Ernest himself the effect was to confirm the good opinion of
  himself which had been growing upon him ever since he had begun to
  read for orders; and to make him flatter himself that he was among
  the few who were ready to give up ALL for Christ。  Ere long he began
  to conceive of himself as a man with a mission and a great future。
  His lightest and most hastily formed opinions began to be of
  momentous importance to him; and he inflicted them; as I have
  already shown; on his old friends; week by week becoming more and
  more entete with himself and his own crotchets。  I should like well
  enough to draw a veil over this part of my hero's career; but cannot
  do so without marring my story。
  In the spring of 1859 I find him writing …
  〃I cannot call the visible Church Christian till its fruits are
  Christian; that is until the fruits of the members of the Church of
  England are in conformity; or something like conformity; with her
  teaching。  I cordially agree with the teaching of the Church of
  England in most respects; but she says one thing and does another;
  and until excommunicationyes; and wholesale excommunicationbe
  resorted to; I cannot call her a Christian institution。  I should
  begin with our Rector; and if I found it necessary to follow him up
  by excommunicating the Bishop; I should not flinch even from this。
  〃The present London Rectors are hopeless people to deal with。  My
  own is one of the best of them; but the moment Pryer and I show
  signs of wanting to attack an evil in a way not recognised by
  routine; or of remedying anything about which no outcry has been
  made; we are met with; 'I cannot think what you mean by all this
  disturbance; nobody else among the clergy sees these things; and I
  have